Phantom

Phantom 3m

I miss you in the quiet hours,
in morning and passing showers.
Your name still lingers in my chest—
a ghost I made, who won't find rest.

I dream of you with aching grace,
then wake and can't forget your face.
But every tender thought is chained
to all the ways I caused you pain.

I held a heart I didn’t earn,
then lit a match and watched it burn.
Now love feels like a cruel refrain—
a song of guilt I can’t explain.

If I could take it back, I would,
rewrite the parts I misunderstood.
But echoes only answer me—
and none of them can set you free.

I wonder how you are doing? I miss those endless talks and laughter we had.

#regret

Phantom 8m

Flower

You set me in the sun to grow,
fed my roots with tender rain.
But when your hands reached for me,
I broke—dry petals slipping through your fingers.

I now grieve the flower I almost was,
longing to bloom as you once imagined.
But now your care drifts elsewhere,
and I remain beneath this burning sky,
waiting for my final petal to fall.

#love #heartache

Phantom Mar 2018

I'm fine

In the end it's just yourself,
The sad reality that everyone gets fed up is too much,
And tears you once shed mean no more to anyone but you.
So now all you can do is smile,
While you're breaking apart on the inside,
Cause if you don't smile,
The people who were once apart of your life will be gone.

Phantom Feb 2018

One last night

I can't be here anymore
I can't erase the memories
All I do is make my heart sore
And I'm putting myself at jeopardy

Dreams I've always wanted
Seem so close to reach
But I know they'll never be granted
And all I'll do is weep

I just want a night
So I can be happy and free
To me I know it's right
But I'll probably be left standing lonely

Phantom Feb 2018

I know

Got no friends to go to,
No place to let it out.
They're too focused on themselves,
I know no one cares about my health.

It's fine I'll sew my mouth shut,
you won't hear a peep.
You can all live your life freely everyday,
I know I'm just a thowaway.

People I've been there for through everything, giving them support, love and comfort. Now the tables have turned and suddenly they don't want me anymore.

Phantom Feb 2018

Confused

My heart is being tormented,
I can't look away
My mind feels disoriented,
I'm being led astray

Do you care or don't you, don't act one way to act another somewhere else...I want the truth...

Phantom Feb 2018

Trash

I'm trash,
once my expiring date had passed I was thrown away.
To you I am nothing,
to me you are still everything.
The words "I love you" have no meaning to you,
to me they mean everything.

The day you came I wish I had done more,
but I was too scared that I would fall into you deeper,
knowing you would have to leave again and be out of arms reach.
There's a lot you didn't know back then,
I was suffering silently behind closed doors.
When I looked in the mirror all I saw was a stranger,
a person who would ruin your life while I was slowly ruining mine.

I just wasn't ready but I wanted you so bad,
I wanted to be the person you'd put a ring on,
I wanted to be the person you started a family with,
I wanted to be the person you came to,
I want to be the person you love now,
but it seems you have eyes for another.

I wish I was honest why I choose to leave you,
I wish I never left you.
I wish I could still talk to you now,
I wish you would let me.

Three years seem as though they don't exist to you,
but those three years are all hitting me at once.
It's hard to cope anymore,
while you live your life without me.

After everything that happened,
I forgive you for everything and I will always love you.
You are the only one in my eyes and I wish I never let you go,
but I didn't feel like I was enough.

I don't want to be alone anymore,
I don't want you to just throw me away like I never existed.
I want you in my life and I will always be here for you,
but would you do the same...?

I'm trash,
my expiring date has gone for you and now you've moved on.
You started having feelings for another girl so fast,
makes me think if I meant anything at all.

I cry almost every night wishing you were here,
I delete almost every message I send to you,
I can't help but want to call you every second of every day.
But I can't.

Breakups **** and I wish I could go back but in the end I will only ruin everyone's life I come in contact with. I feel so worthless that he moved on so fast and acts like i'm nothing anymore. Three years are a lot for me but it wasn't the same for him. I wish I was honest about why I left and I wish I had the chance to be honest with him now, all I did was put on a mask and hide behind lies to save him from seeing how bad I was getting. I tried to make it seem like it was what I wanted but its the opposite...I know I shouldn't care but I still love him and I want him back so much but i'll never be worth his time...