Loose screws and cheap *****,
You got me so confused.
I tried to simmer down, but
Junkies came and lit the fuse.
With the AC in the closet, like your
Faithfulness.
I lick all on my lips to show you, you
Ain't tasting this.
College really ain't for me because I
Hate the ****.
It's just some basic ****. I start my
Convos great and swift.
But on the contrary, bad and slow
Is all we know.
But there's just no excuse for bags of
**** all on my floor.
I know you say I'm venting, blowing
Steam, what can I do?
But all I do is laugh, I'm high as
Hell, don't **** my mood.
I have my own agenda when it
Comes to breaking hearts.
But if you do it first, I'll break your
Spirit, wanna start?
Oh, you don't wanna start?
Then pour a shot, we'll drink to that.
And light a blunt, put it at my lips.
And watch me sing to that.

My heart seeps a weakness
That might've came from the
Clouds.
It leaps out the sky like a stage dive
To crowds.

I built a sturdy armour to block out
The pain.
But it couldn't seem to stop all the
Guilt and the blame.

I strum my heartstrings with
These things I don't need.
My lungs beg for smoke and my
Mind also pleads.

If I lay my head without a
Defense for reality,
I just might take my life--
Ain't no might. That's actuality.

So many pretty faces.
I done put my hands in
Too many places.
Struggling with the basics.
Every relationship, I've wasted.
No time management,
No pacing.
I hope they forgive me,
They don't know what I've been
Tasting, lately...

Eyes change like your
Mood.
I'm tryna put you into one.
Nobody gotta be involved
If you tell them it's for fun.
'Cause when you show them that
It's real, you'll never get what you
Crave.
It seems Captain save a *** is the
*** that needs saved.
And you gon' dig your own grave if
You playing with my pain because
I'm not the kind of girl to just sit and
Not complain.
See, I'm the kind of girl who's gonna
Slowly feel insane.
So you should probably pick your
Battles
The way your eyes pick your mood.
It's better to have some say on the
Things that cause your wounds.

Cannot poker face, unless you phonies
Got some
More ****.
I sip on codeine and kinda dabble
With that
Morphine.
But do not get confused, 'cause I
Will never be
A dope fiend.
Smoking heavy clouds, you see my
Lungs, they got some
Protein.
I'm easily influenced, if you
Wanna
Take me under.
I be fearing no flesh and no Gods and
No thunder.
If I feel it
In my veins,
Then I need to be
Numb-er.
But please, not too strong.
Can't let it be
My last
Number.

Want you in the worst way.
You should want me in the worst way.
I've been feeling all this jealousy.
Don't wanna let the hurt stay.
You should love me in the first place.
I'm enchanting all your fantasies.
Fantize a balcony.
With a view that only
Falcons see.
Something cooler than the
Mountain breeze.
Put you on a pedestal.
Lookin' up, I'm so proud to see...
All your love just be arousing me.

Intriguing me, keep me pleased.
I'm used to the cycle.
Being with me, you gotta
Read past the title.
Decipher all my pages.
Recite me as a bible.
Arguing like rivals.
Words are bullets from a rifle.

I'm feelin' all your energy,
I'm feelin' when you're stressed.
Yeah, I been in love before.
God's my only witness.
You can ask me if I'm happy,
Imma tell you that I'm blessed.
Used to play with knives and pen.
Start imagining the mess.

In this love I have no mission,
I have ignorant discretion.
I'm just bleeding on a paper,
Hoping it looks like a message.

Meet me in the lounge
Or you can find me in the halls.
Either way, it's going down.
No lost cause, no love lost...

Midnight tales don't
Do me well.
Warm milk can spill,
But can't fill this Hell

Within my head.
You'll like me dead.

Mom's hugs won't help,
I'll really **** myself.

I'm in Hell again.
This never ends.

The cycles bent.
I can't repent.

Follow suit.
This could be you.

Right now it's me.
No angel wings.

God is never wrong
He is never wrong

I seen some shadows much like you,
But they don't scare me.

No, they don't scare me,
'cause lately, I'm so daring.

And I've been stepping into potholes
With my bare feet.

Since you've had me,
I don't hesitate with sharing.

And there's a strong, strong scent
From the pits of hell,
For you.

Probably a stench for me too,
If they question what I do.

'cause I've been staring at these blades
And assorting pills by hue.

But I ain't tryna touch that plant,
Because the famer's guilty too.

Now, I don't got no quick fix or a
Hit list.

I know my woman just might leave me
If I miss this.

So, into an abyss, goes all my wishes.

I can't stand it. All the pain makes my
Decisions.

With frigid fevers felt in this
Frivolous fairy-tale,

One could only hope they're drowned in
Swamps or dragged to Hell.

Too many times, false prophets have
tried to trick me with their light.

And too many times, the serpent and
Its venom proved me right.

The poison runs freely, and coincides with
Your veins.

The good within your heart
Begs you keep the beast slain.

But what good could that do,
When all despair has breathed you life.

Heard angels won't agree nor
Put up with this strife.

With a long kiss goodnight,
Their complaints run dry.

Watch them slam the gates of Heaven,
Put a lock in the sky.

Try to banish all us fools,
Whom are forbidden by fate.

At this rate, the flames of Hell
Are slowly creeping towards the gate.

White-cloaked demons using
Purity to ****.

Manipulation of the mind
As a rememdy to heal.

Pastors and preachers.
Prejudice militants.

Good and bad seems to relate,
With such diligence.

Attractive ignorance. It's all
Corruption of the soul.

They market you the flames, and
Even deliver you the coal.

But at night when you weep and you
Sob out your sockets,

They rest with sweet dreams.
Your tears, feeding all their pockets.

They try to guide you towards a light
They say can save your spirit.

But like the dark, there's only impact
If you really seem to fear it.

So the fearless are ****** in the
Eyes of the holy.

But in the same breath, please
Notice they are lonely.

The fearless can't stand by the sides
Of the goods and the greats,

But the fearless don't wanna join
The side of the hate.

The hate and the evil nor the good,
So they're doomed.

And yet, it's the good and the evil
Who praise empty tombs.

See, I don't burn bridges.
I jump off of 'em.

No reason to feel guilty,
Just know that I am not
Responsible.

Even with hint after hint,
You sit so comfortable.

Wallow in your silence,
Block my violence,

So that none of this can
Trouble you.

Whether six feet deep or six
Feet tall,
Believe the higher the
Ego, the harder the fall.
I add milk in tea to adjust
The flavor.
Their souls are saved and
My fate's in danger.
And with fits of anger, I
Express this ache,
I've grown in my gut.
Must digest this hate.
Free the depths of
The belly and
Faint at the sight.
And something 'bout being
This wrong is so right.

I don't feel pain. Pain is
Something in your head.
Please believe me. I know this.
It's something that I read...
In a textbook with pages so
Thin, I think I bled,
From the papercut I craved, but
I really meant to dread.

Yeah, I meant to dread it,
But I craved it and I yearned
For the quick sensation of the
Stinging and the burn.
And I was gonna say ouch, but
Didn't I just learn
That pain is an illusion?
So, I guess it didn't hurt.

But what if it did hurt
And I'm really just a sheep?
Scrutinizing all these books,
Always tryna sound deep.
And I wanna feel strong,
But I'm really quick to weep.
Always smiling in the day, but
Hope to die within my sleep.

But when I fall asleep,
I never get the chance to pass.
Man, a silent, painless death is
The only thing I asked.
And I never seem to get it.
And the pain seems to last.
And this shows I didn't learn
A single **** thing from class.

Our fate will never be
Defined by hate.
The definition of our
Love
Is just too great.
Too great and too true to be
Shot down cold.
For all the evil in the world,
May God bless your
Soul.

I see no evil, but I speak it and I
Heard it.
When you're friendly with the devil,
Things can kind of get disturbing.

He told me earth is not the place I
Wanna be.
I should reside in the minds
Of those who practice perjury.

So...

I was feasting on them lies
And I was dying for them recipes.

Dining in the darkness
With them demons sitting next to me.

Feeding me my hatred.
Sipping goblets of promethazine.

Then suddenly, they're sinking their
Sharp teeth into the flesh of me.
...

Now I'm hoping and I'm praying
That someone comes to
Rescue me.
But I know that it's my fault.
I should've dabbled in some
Better things.

Now, I'm feeling so embarrassed.
And now, I'm a disaster.
After one small mistake, another
Tumbles right after.

And I'm a writer, so I know
I could've made a different chapter.
But I let the devil sway me
To this tragically ever after.

Oh please, come forward.
I've been silent for a bit.

Autumn doesn't do me well
When my heart is so brisk.

Everything I fought against,
And so much that I denied

Is no match for the feelings
I've hid long inside.

Everyone will call me crazy.
Say I'm borderline insane.

I don't find a care, I'm washing
All their doubts with rain.

I walk this strut in day that I
Swiftly lose through night

Because the pride and lust in me
Is slowly drifting out of sight.

And I swore this to myself.
Yes, I swore this once before...

But oh my ******* God,
There's something here for sure.

And it makes me lose discretion.
It makes me go so blind.

You don't have to search for me,
But it's you I have to find.

I'm not sure what to do.
Or if I'll ever get a moment.

I just know that every word is
Better written than it spoken

Me and the devil do this dance
With the pole.
He said put it to my head, spin around
And let it go.
He said if I spin faster, I won't
Even know.
He said he gon count to three and
He gon take my soul.

All you see is red spilling from my
Thoughts.
All I hear is y'all sobbing for your
Faults.

They hang us.

Aimlessly using bullets to
Tame us.

There's no reason to sit and
Wonder
Who is willing to
Save us.

He's from the army and the navy.
His arm above the baby.
Never cared about the way he
Drifted through the ladies.
His daddy's daddy crazy.
Inappropriate and lazy.
He's a star and he's a maybe.
He's the tragedy of lately.