I prefer the
Sweetness of frost to
Cover my somber grin.

The coating is just
Cold sugar, that makes
Me feel my skin.

And the clouds that
Tread slow, skies that
Grow dimmer.

I love the sharp
Bitterness delivered
By the winter.

Because the feel of
My dear love, in the midst
Of a cold day

Thaws my soul,
Reassuring, that she'll make
Things okay.

Terror drips inside
And out of my mind,
The shivers of death
Crawl up my spine.
The path of reality is
Distant and fine.
The shadows of fear
Drowning my eyes.

In the back of my mind,
Fear never sleeps.
I'm taken to islands where
Bodies do reek.
Where bodies do reek
And flesh seems to seep,
Into the sand,
So cryptic and deep.

In the back of my mind,
Fear never rests.
Demons have clung
To the space in my head.
Sleep is a must and yet
I regret,
'Cause the terrrors I have
Are undying deaths.

From my friends and lover,
To siblings and mother,
My father, my doctor...

Just please keep it
Honest.

If I died today, like the
Dearly departed,
Y'all tears would last miles
From the point that they started.

And that's so hard to say,
'Cause the days I could breathe,
Y'all were one step away
In the distance near me.

From the purple abyss,
I sip.

I blink, I lean.

Please don't bother me.

I swallow the chalky
Pills.

This feels rather real.

So please don't bother me.

I don't play with them
Blades no more.

No lethal swords.

But please don't bother me.

I get tempted by
Disastrous things.

If you gon' watch me bleed,
At least,
Don't bother me.

The feeling that simmers
And got me dripping in
Dreams,
Makes me long for your
Presence, so I can pull at the
Seams
Of whatever you're
Wearing,
It's got me thinking and
Staring.
It's got me hoping and praying
That you would
Consider
Sharing.

You should share it
With me.

Cause I'm
Deliberately

Trying to keep you awake,
So I can love you to sleep.

If you get what I'm
Thinking.

I get to sipping and
Drinking.

I get so intoxicated

Off all the vibes you be
Bringing.

Lips like a smooth spirit in a dense glass.
Drink from my pain slow, I hope you don't
Crash.

I felt her cold on me like a winter dawn
White.
Gasp for my air boldly, it's a long night.

Eyes pierce heavy with little room to flee.
Waltz with the devil if you crave the energy.

You been on my mind heavy, but
I gotta let you go.
You're a ghost now.
Stop appearing in my dreams, doing
Shows.
I'm not very entertained. I am
Actually afraid. And if I knew where
It was at, I think I'd come right to
Your grave,
And ask you to knock it off,
Since you never said goodbye.
You don't got the right to pop up in
My head by surprise. And
You don't pay enough rent in the
Depths of my mind
To think that that's where your final
Legacy should reside.
I have now fallen in love with a woman
Who breathes air.
She's got blood in her veins and
Doesn't cause me despair.
She's more than just a picture of the
Capture of a stare.
But why tell you this? You'd just say
You do not care.
But this is vital information, that you
Really need to hear.
I don't wanna close my eyes, fall
Asleep, and you appear.
I loved you in the past and I'll always
Love you, dear.
But the wrath of your absence can't be
Something that I fear.
Of course, I'd like to close this off with
Something great.
But I'll have to end it abruptly.
Something much like your fate.
And I hope that in death, you resist
To give hate.
And I hope that you can leave me
Alone with a clean slate.