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Jan 2015 · 1.3k
Iron Buddha
Matt Jan 2015
Iron Buddha made of iron
Iron Buddha does his duty

Iron Buddha has iron will

Iron Buddha will be a lifelong teacher
Jan 2015 · 155
Nowhere To Go
Matt Jan 2015
Poor
Friends are busy
Tired

I'll just sit here
And listen to
Shadow Of A Man

By Neulore
Jan 2015 · 437
My Earth Angel Had Sex
Matt Jan 2015
I had hoped
She would remain pure

I had hoped
She would remain a ******

She received her husband's seed in her womb
She has dishonored herself!
Jan 2015 · 289
Duty
Matt Jan 2015
I hope to do my duty
It has always been my dream
Never to retire
But to teach
Until the end of days

I am a lifelong teacher
I believe in my heart
Jan 2015 · 216
Gee Whiz!
Matt Jan 2015
Day into night
And night into day
It keeps happening
Here on Earth

It is very persistent too
Haha!
Jan 2015 · 800
Old School Hollywood
Matt Jan 2015
Old school Hollywood baseball
Jack Gilardi is ten feet tall,
Old school Hollywood baseball,
Me and Frankie Avalon!
Lyrics from System Of A Down song "Old School Hollywood"
This goes out to you Wuji
Wherever you are -- I hope you are well my friend
Jan 2015 · 390
Come on hard triers!
Matt Jan 2015
Here's to the tired
And here's to the broken
To the poor and the needy

Here is to my 97 year old grandfather
WWII veteran
He has his caretaker
And the football games

Hard times they make us hard
Our spirits forged by the endless trials

We will not stop trying
We are the human race
We still go on

With hope in our hearts
We go on!

Behold, a ****** shall be with child, and shall bring forth a son,
And they shall call his name Emmanuel
Which being interpreted is,

God with us
Jan 2015 · 348
So How Do You Feel?
Matt Jan 2015
If you were to ask me this question
I wouldn't know what to say?

I mean this life
It's just beyond words

I'm tired
I have been for years
I still work out
I still can do wide grip pull-ups

I'm tired
I'm lonely
I listen to music
On my computer

It helps me somehow
Makes me feel something

No man is an island
But I feel like I am becoming one
I didn't get a good job

Now I'm almost 30

I go on hikes
On hikes Alone
Everything is alone

One is the loneliest number that you'll ever know

Is there one who goes before me
One who understands
Jesus

Life is so repetitive
I'm thankful for music
And for my Craisins
Cranberries in the shape of raisins
They are named craisins
High in fiber and good for me

Almost 30 years on Earth
The destruction of the petrodollar continues
Our country trillions of dollars in debt
Jan 2015 · 170
Thank You My Friends
Matt Jan 2015
Is there someone out there
Some soul
That cares about my suffering

Maybe I'm not so strong
Maybe sometimes I would like to be held
By another person
Just for a few moments

When I was in preschool
I sat by the gate in my chair
I cried and wondered why
I didn't want to play with the other kids

Now I sit at my computer
Watching videos
Listening to podcasts

Man and his machine
Thank you my friends
Who followed me
Who commented or liked my works
It means a great deal to me
Jan 2015 · 183
Earth, What A Place
Matt Jan 2015
Quite a place this Earth
It continues to orbit a sun

Strange
This world of happenings

There are decisions for you to make
Oh man

You will die here one day
How would you like to be remembered?

I hope to do my duty
To my society and to my family
I hope to be kind and loving

I used to hope that I would be loved by someone

I am so tired
So tired
Go on
And on, and on

At least I can watch Hitchhiker's Guide To The Galaxy
Jan 2015 · 194
Human Life is So Repetitive
Matt Jan 2015
Stuck on this planet
To repeat, repeat, repeat
Again, again, and again

I just try to be kind to others
Do my duty

Enjoy the life of the mind
Beyond that
I find this place
To be incredibly boring
Jan 2015 · 3.4k
Lars Andersen
Matt Jan 2015
Master archer
Lars Andersen
Fires with such accuracy and speed
It is truly amazing!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BEG-ly9tQGk
Jan 2015 · 191
The Life Of The Mind
Matt Jan 2015
Cultivate The Life Of The Mind
You will thank yourself
You will see how rewarding
The life of the mind can be
Jan 2015 · 423
The Bourne Ultimatum
Matt Jan 2015
Will you commit Yourself To This Program?

Bourne made the choice
The choice to do evil
Life is a choice

Will you choose to give lovingly
Material possessions
Fame
They do not last

There is something that endures through time
It is love

Choose carefully
Jan 2015 · 315
Let Us Not Be Vain
Matt Jan 2015
Oh how vain we can be
Men and women
Concerned with our looks
Our finances

Soma Sema
The body is a tomb

Show more concern for others
Than for yourself
In giving you will receive
Matt Jan 2015
And I kept seeking for an answer to the question, Whence is evil? And I sought it in an evil way, and I did not see the evil in my very search. I marshaled before the sight of my spirit all creation: all that we see of earth and sea and air and stars and trees and animals; and all that we do not see, the firmament of the sky above and all the angels and all spiritual things, for my imagination arranged these also, as if they were bodies, in this place or that. And I pictured to myself thy creation as one vast mass, composed of various kinds of bodies--some of which were actually bodies, some of those which I imagined spirits were like. I pictured this mass as vast--of course not in its full dimensions, for these I could not know--but as large as I could possibly think, still only finite on every side. But thou, O Lord, I imagined as environing the mass on every side and penetrating it, still infinite in every direction--as if there were a sea everywhere, and everywhere through measureless space nothing but an infinite sea; and it contained within itself some sort of sponge, huge but still finite, so that the sponge would in all its parts be filled from the immeasurable sea.180
Thus I conceived thy creation itself to be finite, and filled by thee, the infinite. And I said, “Behold God, and behold what God hath created!” God is good, yea, most mightily and incomparably better than all his works. But yet he who is good has created them good; behold how he encircles and fills them. Where, then, is evil, and whence does it come and how has it crept in? What is its root and what its seed? Has it no being at all? Why, then, do we fear and shun what has no being? Or if we fear it needlessly, then surely that fear is evil by which the heart is unnecessarily stabbed and tortured--and indeed a greater evil since we have nothing real to fear, and yet do fear. Therefore, either that is evil which we fear, or the act of fearing is in itself evil. But, then, whence does it come, since God who is good has made all these things good? Indeed, he is the greatest and chiefest Good, and hath created these lesser goods; but both Creator and created are all good. Whence, then, is evil? Or, again, was there some evil matter out of which he made and formed and ordered it, but left something in his creation that he did not convert into good? But why should this be? Was he powerless to change the whole lump so that no evil would remain in it, if he is the Omnipotent? Finally, why would he make anything at all out of such stuff? Why did he not, rather, annihilate it by his same almighty power? Could evil exist contrary to his will? And if it were from eternity, why did he permit it to be nonexistent for unmeasured intervals of time in the past, and why, then, was he pleased to make something out of it after so long a time? Or, if he wished now all of a sudden to create something, would not an almighty being have chosen to annihilate this evil matter and live by himself--the perfect, true, sovereign, and infinite Good? Or, if it were not good that he who was good should not also be the framer and creator of what was good, then why was that evil matter not removed and brought to nothing, so that he might form good matter, out of which he might then create all things? For he would not be omnipotent if he were not able to create something good without being assisted by that matter which had not been created by himself.
Such perplexities I revolved in my wretched breast, overwhelmed with gnawing cares lest I die before I discovered the truth. And still the faith of thy Christ, our Lord and Saviour, as it was taught me by the Catholic Church, stuck fast in my heart. As yet it was unformed on many points and diverged from the rule of right doctrine, but my mind did not utterly lose it, and every day drank in more and more of it.
http://www.ccel.org/ccel/augustine/confessions.x.html
Matt Jan 2015
“Great art thou, O Lord, and greatly to be praised; great is thy power, and infinite is thy wisdom.”6 And man desires to praise thee, for he is a part of thy creation; he bears his mortality about with him and carries the evidence of his sin and the proof that thou dost resist the proud. Still he desires to praise thee, this man who is only a small part of thy creation. Thou hast prompted him, that he should delight to praise thee, for thou hast made us for thyself and restless is our heart until it comes to rest in thee. Grant me, O Lord, to know and understand whether first to invoke thee or to praise thee; whether first to know thee or call upon thee. But who can invoke thee, knowing thee not? For he who knows thee not may invoke thee as another than thou art. It may be that we should invoke thee in order that we may come to know thee. But “how shall they call on him in whom they have not believed? Or how shall they believe without a preacher?”7 Now, “they shall praise the Lord who seek him,”8 for “those who seek shall find him,”9 and, finding him, shall praise him. I will seek thee, O Lord, and call upon thee. I call upon thee, O Lord, in my faith which thou hast given me, which thou hast inspired in me through the humanity of thy Son, and through the ministry of thy preacher.10
http://www.ccel.org/ccel/augustine/confessions.iv.html
Jan 2015 · 344
Psalm 91
Matt Jan 2015
1 Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High
    will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.[a]
2 I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress,
    my God, in whom I trust.”
3 Surely he will save you
    from the fowler’s snare
    and from the deadly pestilence.
4 He will cover you with his feathers,
    and under his wings you will find refuge;
    his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
5 You will not fear the terror of night,
    nor the arrow that flies by day,
6 nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
    nor the plague that destroys at midday.
7 A thousand may fall at your side,
    ten thousand at your right hand,
    but it will not come near you.
8 You will only observe with your eyes
    and see the punishment of the wicked.
9 If you say, “The Lord is my refuge,”
    and you make the Most High your dwelling,
10 no harm will overtake you,
    no disaster will come near your tent.
11 For he will command his angels concerning you
    to guard you in all your ways;
12 they will lift you up in their hands,
    so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
13 You will tread on the lion and the cobra;
    you will trample the great lion and the serpent.
14 “Because he[b] loves me,” says the Lord, “I will rescue him;
    I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
15 He will call on me, and I will answer him;
    I will be with him in trouble,
    I will deliver him and honor him.
16 With long life I will satisfy him
    and show him my salvation.”
Jan 2015 · 1.4k
Galatians 5:17
Matt Jan 2015
New International Version
For the flesh desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the flesh. They are in conflict with each other, so that you are not to do whatever you want.

New Living Translation
The sinful nature wants to do evil, which is just the opposite of what the Spirit wants. And the Spirit gives us desires that are the opposite of what the sinful nature desires. These two forces are constantly fighting each other, so you are not free to carry out your good intentions.

English Standard Version
For the desires of the flesh are against the Spirit, and the desires of the Spirit are against the flesh, for these are opposed to each other, to keep you from doing the things you want to do.

New American Standard Bible
For the flesh sets its desire against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh; for these are in opposition to one another, so that you may not do the things that you please.

King James Bible
For the flesh lusteth against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh: and these are contrary the one to the other: so that ye cannot do the things that ye would.

Holman Christian Standard Bible
For the flesh desires what is against the Spirit, and the Spirit desires what is against the flesh; these are opposed to each other, so that you don't do what you want.

International Standard Version
For what the flesh wants is opposed to the Spirit, and what the Spirit wants is opposed to the flesh. They are opposed to each other, and so you do not do what you want to do.

NET Bible
For the flesh has desires that are opposed to the Spirit, and the Spirit has desires that are opposed to the flesh, for these are in opposition to each other, so that you cannot do what you want.

Aramaic Bible in Plain English
For the flesh craves anything that opposes The Spirit and The Spirit craves whatever opposes the flesh, and they both are contrary one to another, lest you would be doing whatever you want.

GOD'S WORD® Translation
What your corrupt nature wants is contrary to what your spiritual nature wants, and what your spiritual nature wants is contrary to what your corrupt nature wants. They are opposed to each other. As a result, you don't always do what you intend to do.

Jubilee Bible 2000
For the flesh lusts against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh; and these are contrary the one to the other, so that ye cannot do the things that ye would.

King James 2000 Bible
For the flesh lusts against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh: and these are contrary the one to the other: so that you cannot do the things that you would.

American King James Version
For the flesh lusts against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh: and these are contrary the one to the other: so that you cannot do the things that you would.

American Standard Version
For the flesh lusteth against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh; for these are contrary the one to the other; that ye may not do the things that ye would.

Douay-Rheims Bible
For the flesh lusteth against the spirit: and the spirit against the flesh; for these are contrary one to another: so that you do not the things that you would.

Darby Bible Translation
For the flesh lusts against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh: and these things are opposed one to the other, that ye should not do those things which ye desire;

English Revised Version
For the flesh lusteth against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh; for these are contrary the one to the other; that ye may not do the things that ye would.

Webster's Bible Translation
For the flesh lusteth against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh: and these are contrary the one to the other; so that ye cannot do the things that ye would.

Weymouth New Testament
For the cravings of the lower nature are opposed to those of the Spirit, and the cravings of the Spirit are opposed to those of the lower nature; because these are antagonistic to each other, so that you cannot do everything to which you are inclined.

World English Bible
For the flesh lusts against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh; and these are contrary to one another, that you may not do the things that you desire.

Young's Literal Translation
for the flesh doth desire contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit contrary to the flesh, and these are opposed one to another, that the things that ye may will -- these ye may not do;
Jan 2015 · 172
What To Do With The Time?
Matt Jan 2015
I get bored sometimes
I guess I will go hit more golf *****
Would be nice to have a job

Oh well
In the new America
Young people can't find jobs
Despite their education

Our nations drowns in debt
Jan 2015 · 669
Stoicism
Matt Jan 2015
Though the sage would never be transported with delight
He would still feel an abiding joy
In the presence of the true and only good
He would never indeed would be agitated by desire
But still he would be animated by wish
For that was directed only to the good
And though he would never feel fear
Still he would be actuated in danger by a proper caution

There was therefore something rational
Corresponding to three out of four primary passions
Against delight was to be set joy
Against grief there was nothing to be set
For that arose from the presence of ill
Which would rather never attach to the sage
Grief was the irrational conviction
That one ought to afflict oneself
Where there was no occasion for it

The ideal of the stoics was the unclouded serenity of socrates
Jan 2015 · 155
Try To Be Loving
Matt Jan 2015
There are some people
Who shine through
All the way through

I won't let this world hurt me
Forgive me Lord
When I have not shown the love I was supposed to show
When I was mean
Or hurtful

It's only because I wanted to be loved
I wanted a good friend
To confide in

Yes we have all felt great pain here
But don't give up

Just keep trying to do what is right
Try to show love to others

My sins are great and piled high
Lord have mercy on me

I'm just so lonely
And my therapist won't even give me a hug!
Jan 2015 · 202
Prayer of St. Francis
Matt Jan 2015
Lord, Make me an instrument of your peace;
Where there is hatred let me sow love;
Where there is injury, pardon;
Where there is discord, harmony;
Where there is error, truth;
Where there is doubt, faith;
Where there is despair, hope;
Where there is darkness, light;
And where there is sadness, joy

O Divine Master,
Grant that I may
Not seek so much to be consoled as to console;
To be understood as to understand;
To be loved as to love;
For it is in giving that we receive;
It is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
And it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.
Matt Jan 2015
So a Christian who lives in this confidence toward God,
Knows all things,
Can do all things,
Undertakes all things that are to be done,
And does everything cheerfully and freely;
Not that he may gather many merits and good works,
But because it is a pleasure for him to please God thereby,
And he serves God purely for nothing,
Content that his service pleases God.

On the other hand,
He who is not at one with God,
Or doubts, hunts, and worries
In what way he may do enough and with
Many more works move God.

In summary
Just do what you can
Ultimately it is not our works
We all have all fallen short
Be content to serve God humbly when you can
It is only his Grace that saves us
Jan 2015 · 347
I Love Golf
Matt Jan 2015
I will try not to write negative poems any more
I have much to be grateful for

Still there is a certain sadness in life at times
I don't know why
I guess I really care for a beautiful married woman

Now I told her all my private thoughts
So humiliating

Maybe one day I'll meet someone
At least I have golf

I'm almost the last one to leave the driving range

It is a special game
If you love the game like me
You would understand

It's so hard
I'll play that game in heaven one day

I know I will be able to do that
The game always loves me

Not like this woman
Who broke my heart
Into a million pieces!
Jan 2015 · 949
Taoist Way of Karma
Matt Jan 2015
The world is a system of interrelated components
None of which can survive without each other
Just as in the case with bees and flowers

They arise mutually
Mutual arising
Things go together in a connected net

The whole conception of nature
Is a self regulating mechanism
It has a totality
It all goes together
This totality is the Tao

The more you allow things in your surroundings to take place
The more order you will have
Jan 2015 · 1.3k
Live On Tupac
Matt Jan 2015
His SSN provided on the death certificate
Is not registered in the Social Security Death Index

The autopsy is a fake
The weight and height did not match
Neither did the tattoos

Niccolo Machiavelli
Faked his death at 25
And returned at 43
To fool his enemies

Tupac turned 43 in 2014

Well I hope he is living in peace somewhere
Jan 2015 · 765
Experience Chan!
Matt Jan 2015
Experience Chan! It's not mysterious.
As I see it, it boils down to cause and effect.
Outside the mind there is no Dharma
So how can anybody speak of a heaven beyond?

2. Experience Chan! It's not a field of learning.
Learning adds things that can be researched and discussed.
The feel of impressions can't be communicated.
Enlightenment is the only medium of transmission.

3. Experience Chan! It's not a lot of questions.
Too many questions is the Chan disease.
The best way is just to observe the noise of the world.
The answer to your questions?
Ask your own heart.

4. Experience Chan! It's not the teachings of disciples.
Such speakers are guests from outside the gate.
The Chan which you are hankering to speak about
Only talks about turtles turning into fish.

5. Experience Chan! It can't be described.
When you describe it you miss the point.
When you discover that your proofs are without substance
You'll realize that words are nothing but dust.

6. Experience Chan! It's experiencing your own nature!
Going with the flow everywhere and always.
When you don't fake it and waste time trying to rub and polish it,
Your Original Self will always shine through brighter than bright.

7. Experience Chan! It's like harvesting treasures.
But donate them to others.
You won't need them.
Suddenly everything will appear before you,
Altogether complete and altogether done.

8. Experience Chan! Become a follower who when accepted
Learns how to give up his life and his death.
Grasping this carefully he comes to see clearly.
And then he laughs till he topples the Cold Mountain ascetics.

9. Experience Chan! It'll require great skepticism;
But great skepticism blocks those detours on the road.
Jump off the lofty peaks of mystery.
Turn your heaven and earth inside out.

10. Experience Chan! Ignore that superstitious nonsense
That makes some claim that they've attained Chan.
Foolish beliefs are those of the not-yet-awakened.
And they're the ones who most need the experience of Chan!

11. Experience Chan! There's neither distance nor intimacy.
Observation is like a family treasure.
Whether with eyes, ears, body, nose, or tongue -
It's hard to say which is the most amazing to use.

12. Experience Chan! There's no class distinction.
The one who bows and the one who is bowed to are a Buddha unit.
The yoke and its lash are tied to each other.
Isn't this our first principle... the one we should most observe?
By: Master Xu Yun
Jan 2015 · 177
Let Go
Matt Jan 2015
This Time
To That time
These feelings
To those feelings
What the?????

Man this life
What is it anyway?
Nothing to hold on to

Just love
I'm just trying to show love
Like Jesus did

Not many people in my life though
I spend too much time alone

Everything is good
I got my crucifix necklace
The Crucifix I keep in my pocket
Divine Protection
Jan 2015 · 190
Mountains
Matt Jan 2015
Strange how I had driven
Up that street
So close to the mountains

But I had never really seen the mountains like this
It was like I was seeing them for the first time
Mountains!
Jan 2015 · 1.9k
Wise Words From Daikaku
Matt Jan 2015
Whether you are going or staying or sitting or lying down,
The whole world is your own self.
You must find out
Whether the mountains, rivers, grass, and forests
Exist in your own mind or exist outside it.
Analyze the ten thousand things,
Dissect them minutely,
And when you take this to the limit
You will come to the limitless,
When you search into it you come to the end of search,
Where thinking goes no further and distinctions vanish.
When you smash the citadel of doubt,
Then the Buddha is simply yourself.
By: Daikaku
Jan 2015 · 395
A Bird In Winter
Matt Jan 2015
During winter
The bird flies through a window
Into a hall
It leaves out the opposite window
Into the winter

That short period it was in the hall
Is life
From where it came
To where it goes
We do not know

Consider This Life Carefully
Jan 2015 · 384
End of Empire
Matt Jan 2015
Gosh
I am such a great loving person
Yet here I am again
Alone at my computer

I have my podcasts at least
I was listening to this one podcast about the end
Of the Roman Empire

I heard the talking heads
Blabbing today on Fox
About how the American dream is still possible
Blah Blah
Who really believes that?


Trillions of dollars in debt
We are at the end of empire
Jan 2015 · 521
Wise Words of Layman P'ang
Matt Jan 2015
The past is already past.
Don't try to regain it.
The present does not stay.
Don't try to touch it.

From moment to moment.
The future has not come;
Don't think about it
Beforehand.

Whatever comes to the eye,
Leave it be.
There are no commandments
To be kept;
There's no filth to be cleansed.

With empty mind really
Penetrated, the dharmas
Have no life.

When you can be like this,
You've completed
The ultimate attainment.
By: P'ang (740-808)
Jan 2015 · 452
Foyan's Words
Matt Jan 2015
It is as though you have an eye
That sees all forms
But does not see itself.
This is how your mind is.
Its light penetrates everywhere
And engulfs everything,
So why does it not know itself?
By: Foyan
Matt Jan 2015
Chapter 35: On the Weekly Servers in the Kitchen


Mar. 13 - July 13 - Nov. 12

Let the brethren serve one another,
And let no one be excused from the kitchen service
Except by reason of sickness
Or occupation in some important work.
For this service brings increase of reward and of charity.
But let helpers be provided for the weak ones,
That they may not be distressed by this work;
And indeed let everyone have help,
As required by the size of the community
Or the circumstances of the locality.
If the community is a large one,
The cellarer shall be excused from the kitchen service;
And so also those whose occupations are of greater utility,
As we said above.
Let the rest serve one another in charity.
The one who is ending his week of service
Shall do the cleaning on Saturday.
He shall wash the towels
With which the brethren wipe their hands and feet;
And this server who is ending his week,
Aided by the one who is about to begin,
Shall wash the feet of all the brethren.
He shall return the utensils of his office to the cellarer
Clean and in good condition,
And the cellarer in turn shall consign them to the incoming server,
In order that he may know
What he gives out and what he receives back.
Mar. 14 - July 14 - Nov. 13


An hour before the meal
Let the weekly servers each receive a drink and some bread
Over and above the appointed allowance,
In order that at the meal time they may serve their brethren
Without murmuring and without excessive fatigue.
On solemn days, however, let them wait until after Mass.
Immediately after the Morning Office on Sunday,
The incoming and outgoing servers
Shall prostrate themselves before all the brethren in the oratory
And ask their prayers.
Let the server who is ending his week say this verse:
"Blessed are You, O Lord God,
Who have helped me and consoled me."
When this has been said three times
And the outgoing server has received his blessing,
Then let the incoming server follow and say,
"Incline unto my aid, O God;
O Lord, make haste to help me."
Let this also be repeated three times by all,
And having received his blessing
Let him enter his service.
Jan 2015 · 880
Proud To Be A Virgin
Matt Jan 2015
I am almost a 30 year old ******
I am proud
I will remain a ******

"Fortitudo e dolore"
Jan 2015 · 1.0k
The Tao
Matt Jan 2015
Look, but you can't see it
Listen, but you can't hear it
Reach out, but you can't touch it.
Invisible, inaudible, intangible.
Elusive.

The One.

I was going for another drive
An evening drive
Everyday consciousness
People coming and going
Walking dogs
Truly beautiful
First six lined are from a poem by Lao Tzu
Jan 2015 · 167
Earth Is My Home
Matt Jan 2015
I watched a show
House Hunters I think
She wanted the big home with the big bedroom
And then the add-ons and
All this time and effort
Put into a home

I don't understand

I am an earth body
Earth is my home
I feel as much at home on a hike as in my room
A simple life suits me
A simple apartment
Would suit me fine

I love the Earth
That's why I drive
That's why I observe

I hope to meet a woman who would love me
Jan 2015 · 321
Fun Times
Matt Jan 2015
I went to the gym
The woman at the desk was so pretty
She was talking about how she had been snacking all day

She said, "Then I had wheat thins."
She remarked how she hadn't had a proper meal all day
I said, "Sounds like alot of snacking."
She smiled and the other guy laughed

That was life
Effortless
Wonderful

I wish I could meet someone like her
It's too bad
I just want to show love to people
Wherever I am

Here I am at home
I don't have the resources
To go out and meet anyone

Almost 30 now
I suppose I will go drive around
Listening to a Itunes lecture
Given by a Yale professor
About the Vikings

At least I have my La Croix
It is natural grapefruit flavored
Sparkling water
Jan 2015 · 192
I Don't Understand
Matt Jan 2015
I don't like violent movies
With excessive violence
It is one thing if the violence is necessary
In telling the story

If there is excessive violence for no reason
I find it bothersome

Why does he watch these movies
Such garbage on the television
He watches such garbage

I don't care for the television
Jan 2015 · 272
Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.
Matt Jan 2015
Do you see the look in his eyes
His eyes that burn so bright?

Now there was a man

Just listen please
Listen to one of his speeches

"Now is the time
To make justice a reality
For all of God's children"

"With this faith
We will be able to hew out of the mountain of despair
A stone of hope."
Jan 2015 · 517
Good Morning
Matt Jan 2015
Is anything being solved in therapy?
Who knows
Maybe I am just making it into a big role play scenario now

I like role plays
Real life becomes blended with fantasies

I want to find a mistress one day
I wish I could have been an attractive woman
Not a guy that women always ignore

Ah well
Except things the way they are
The struggles
The battles
It is all so real

This is earth
We are fighting

Here I go again
To the driving range
Hitting it so well

I am always the last to leave the driving range
The game
Maybe I never felt love

I love golf
It is always there for me
Not like people
They just pretend I think

The suffering
To live is to suffer
Says the Buddha

It's okay though
Suffering gives my life meaning
My spirit is strong
Matt Jan 2015
The Top 1 percent
Has 80 percent of America's wealth

The bottom 80 percent
Has 7 percent
Of America's wealth
Jan 2015 · 707
Simulation Earth
Matt Jan 2015
You know
It's all one big simulation

It's all the same
365 days in a year
Four seasons in a year
Repeating and repeating

Hard when you can't do what you want
Feels like you are trapped repeating

America is done anyhow

Another night alone
No dates
No fun

At least
I have my Itunes University
HIS 101: Hist of Western Civ I
Jan 2015 · 465
Why Do I Try
Matt Jan 2015
Yes
I'm in the chat rooms again
Looking for a friend

Looking for some support
Or love

Still it's not coming
Not happening

I have my Lord's Prayer
Psalm 23

This life it f with me bad
Somehow
Some way
Strange

A world of strange happenings

Come on Jesus
Come on!!!!!!!!!!!!
Crying*

I have my music

This **** is real
This **** is too real!
Jan 2015 · 211
All I Have Is The Music
Matt Jan 2015
I am Crying
Alone In My Room

I have the music though
I have the music
It's the small things
Look for the small things in life

I will not give in
I will not give up

They try to push me down
Down into the ground
No, no no!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Jan 2015 · 876
Earth Program
Matt Jan 2015
Earth Program
Repeating Times

Why Why
I just keep repeating
The experience is not changing

There is no one
No one
And I am crying again
Crying again

Just like I did in preschool
All alone
All alone
All alone
All alone
All alone

Changing times
Changing names and changing faces
The emptiness remains the same

Notorious thugs
It's bone and Biggie
It's bone and Biggie

The greatest rappers of all time
Murdered!

I listen to their songs
Biggie and 2 Pac
Jan 2015 · 293
Man and His Machine
Matt Jan 2015
The podcasts
Spotify
Stitcher

Hello Poetry
Youtube
These are my friends now!

Yes I love my computer
Will my thoughts be uploaded to the cloud server?
Jan 2015 · 1.4k
Why Why Why Do I Cry?
Matt Jan 2015
Patiently waiting for a track to explode on

Patiently waiting to make it through all the hating
(respirator in the background)

I love this song
Patiently Waiting
Eminem and 50 Cent

I didn't grow up in the hood
I grew up in the suburbs
Why do I like this song
I don't know

I love music
It helps me somehow
It helps me

I don't have ANY FRIENDS
To talk to now
The music
The music is my friend

I got pennies for my thoughts
Now I'm rich
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