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Feb 2015 · 750
Ordivician Extinction
Matt Feb 2015
A gamma ray burst
Depleted the ozone layer
UV radiation was harmful to life

A decrease in surface dwelling creatures
Indicates it was likely UV radiation

Or was it a galactic bow shock?
Two of our planets mass extinctions
Occurred at about the time
The sun was highest above the plane of our galaxy

During the Ordivician extinction,
The UV rays could have caused
DNA damage and mutations

Wow, thanks YouTube
I learn something new each day
And that makes me gay
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=plK8xBOF73g
Feb 2015 · 605
Looking For A Female Friend
Matt Feb 2015
Yes I'm looking for a female friend
Just a kind person to chat with
Women are so amazing
So kind and nurturing
So loving and compassionate
I have a few good friends but haven't been able to see them much

We could chat on gmail chat, or chat avenue
I love history and philosophy
I love golf and hiking

I enjoy practicing my putting
I hope you enjoy grapefruits like me
I usually almost always take my b vitamin
When we have them in the pantry

I love Kodiak Cakes
Whole grain wheat and whole grain oats
We can eat breakfast together
And then go on a hike together

I love you my friend I haven't met yet
Matt Feb 2015
What am I? A part of the infinite. It is indeed in these words that the whole problem lies.
... And the cause of everything is that which we call God. To know God and to live is the same thing. God is Life.
.. True religion is that relationship, in accordance with reason and knowledge, which man establishes with the infinite world around him, and which binds his life to that infinity and guides his actions .. and leads to the practical rules of the law: do to others as you would have them do unto you.
(Leo Tolstoy, Confessions)
http://www.spaceandmotion.com/Religions-Leo-Tolstoy-True-Religion.htm
Matt Feb 2015
All things are woven together and the common bond is sacred, and scarcely one thing is foreign to another, for they have been arranged together in their places and together make the same ordered Universe. For there is one Universe out of all, one God through all, one substance and one law, one common Reason of all intelligent creatures and one Truth.

Frequently consider the connection of all things in the universe.
We should not say ‘I am an Athenian’ or ‘I am a Roman’ but ‘I am a citizen of the Universe.
http://www.spaceandmotion.com/Philosophy-Marcus-Aurelius.htm
Matt Feb 2015
Love

Inner calm
Loving compassion
Kind-heartedness
Ceasing and extinction of desires
Neither rising or falling

Benevolence toward all beings
Unconditional love
Patience and understanding

The Tao is like water
It nourishes all beings
Like water it is good
It nourishes all
Like water it sinks to the low place
Not claiming credit
Water flows downhill
Non striving

Humility, forgiveness
Peace be with you

Love
Love for all people
In all times and places

Loving nature
Go with nature

In giving we receive

Love
Matt Feb 2015
Love

Inner calm
Loving compassion
Kind-heartedness
Falling and ceasing, not rising

Benevolence toward all beings
Unconditional love
Patience and understanding

The Tao is like water
It nourishes all beings
Like water it is good
It nourishes all
Like water it sinks to the low place
Not claiming credit
Water flows downhill
Non striving

Humility, forgiveness
Peace be with you

Love
Love for all people
In all times and places

Loving nature
Go with nature

In giving we receive

Love
Feb 2015 · 669
Changing
Matt Feb 2015
Changing times
Changing places
Changing names
Changing faces

The emptiness
Impermanence behind all things
Sunyata

She keeps asking
"How are you?"

"Fine, I reply."
The emptiness remains constant

I hope to find more good friends to love
Feb 2015 · 437
Trapped In This Home
Matt Feb 2015
Trapped in this Home
A full grown eagle
Since 1997 I have lived here

My talons are sharp
My patience is wearing thin

And these dachsunds
Bark too much

Haha
Oh well
I don't suppose it matters

And who is this Rachelle?
She came to the door selling something
I didn't see what

I never know who will stop by
It is truly a strange world
Some friend of mother

I offered her a glass of water
Asking her name
I said, "I think we met before some time ago."

Thank goodness mother came home
I think I made Rachelle feel akward
With my akwardness, haha

Goodbye Rachelle
I go now
To the golf course

See you in a few years maybe
When you stop by again
On a Thursday afternoon

Haha!
Matt Feb 2015
Form is emptiness
Emptiness is form

1. Sunyata (Emptiness) is the profound meaning of the Mahayana Teaching.

Two thousand five hundred years ago, the Buddha was able to realise "emptiness" (s. sunyata). By doing so he freed himself from unsatisfactoriness (s. dukkha). From the standpoint of enlightenment, sunyata is the reality of all worldly existences (s. dharma). It is the realisation of Bodhi — Prajna. From the standpoint of liberation, sunyata is the skilful means that disentangle oneself from defilement and unsatisfactoriness. The realisation of sunyata leads one to no attachment and clinging. It is the skilful means towards enlightenment and also the fruit of enlightenment.

There are two ways for us to understand this concept of sunyata in the Mahayana context. One way is to try to understand the explanation about its true nature. The other way is the realisation through practice. What we are going to discuss now is about its true nature.

Mahayana teachings have always considered that the understanding of sunyata is an attainment which is extremely difficult and extraordinarily profound.

For example, in the Prajna Sutra it says "That which is profound, has sunyata and non-attachment as its significance. No form nor deeds, no rising nor falling, are its implications."

Again in the Dvadasanikaya Sastra (composed by Nagarjuna, translated to Chinese by Kumarajiva A.D. 408) it says: "The greatest wisdom is the so-called sunyata."

This sunyata, no creation, calmness and extinction (s. nirvana) is of a profound significance in the Mahayana teachings. Why do we see it as the most profound teaching? This is because there is no worldly knowledge, be it general studies, science or philosophy, that can lead to the attainment of the state of sunyata. The only path to its realisation is via the supreme wisdom of an impassionate and discriminating mind. It is beyond the common worldly understanding.

2. The Significance of Sunyata and Cessation

The Buddha always used the terms void, no rising and falling, calmness and extinction to explain the profound meaning of sunyata and cessation. The teachings of the Buddha that were described in words are generally common to worldly understandings. If one interprets the teachings superficially from the words and languages used, one will only gain worldly knowledge and not the deeper implication of the teachings. The teachings of the Buddha have their supra-mundane contexts that are beyond the worldly knowledge.

For example, sunyata and the state of nirvana where there is no rising nor falling, are interpreted by most people as a state of non-existence and gloom. They fail to realise that quite the opposite, sunyata is of substantial and positive significance.

The sutras often use the word "great void" to explain the significance of sunyata. In general, we understand the "great void" as something that contains absolutely nothing. However, from a Buddhist perspective, the nature of the "great void" implies something which does not obstruct other things, in which all matters perform their own functions. Materials are form, which by their nature, imply obstruction. The special characteristic of the "great void" is non-obstruction. The "great void" therefore, does not serve as an obstacle to them. Since the "great void" exhibits no obstructive tendencies, it serves as the foundation for matter to function. In other words, if there was no "great void" nor characteristic of non-obstruction, it would be impossible for the material world to exist and function.

The "great void" is not separated from the material world. The latter depends on the former. We can state that the profound significance of sunyata and the nature of sunyata in Buddhism highlights the "great void’s" non-obstructive nature.

Sunyata does not imply the "great void". Instead, it is the foundation of all phenomena (form and mind). It is the true nature of all phenomena, and it is the basic principle of all existence. In other words, if the universe’s existence was not empty nor impermanent, then all resulting phenomena could not have arisen due to the co-existence of various causes and there would be no rising nor falling. The nature of sunyata is of positive significance!

Calmness and extinction are the opposite of rising and falling. They are another way to express that there is no rising and falling. Rising and falling are the common characteristics of worldly existence. All phenomena are always in the cycle of rising and falling. However, most people concentrate on living (rising). They think that the universe and life are the reality of a continuous existence.

Buddhism on the other hand, promotes the value of a continuous cessation (falling). This cessation does not imply that it ceases to exist altogether. Instead, it is just a state in the continuous process of phenomena. In this material world, or what we may call this "state of existence", everything eventually ceases to exist. Cessation is definitely the home of all existences. Since cessation is the calm state of existence and the eventual refuge of all phenomena, it is also the foundation for all activities and functions.

The Amitabha Buddha who was, and is, revered and praised by Buddhists around the world, radiates indefinite light and life from this "state of cessation". This state is a continuous process of calmness. It will be the eventual refuge for us all. If we think carefully about the definitions of calmness and extinction, then we can deduce that they are the true natural end-points of rising and falling. The true nature of the cycle of rising and falling is calmness and extinction. Because of this nature, all chaos and conflicts in the state of rising and falling will eventually cease. This is attainable by the realisation of prajna.

3. Contemplating the Implications of Sunyata and Stillness (Nirvana) by Observing Worldly Phenomena

All existences exhibit void-nature and nirvana-nature. These natures are the reality of all existence. To realise the truth, we have to contemplate and observe our worldly existence. We cannot realise the former without observing the latter. Consider this Heart Sutra extract, "Only when Avalokitesvara Bodhisattva practised the deep course of wisdom of Prajna Paramita did he come to realise that the five skandhas (aggregates, and material and mental objects) were void."

Profound wisdom leads us to the realisation that all existences are of void-nature. The sutras demonstrate that the profound principle can be understood by contemplating and observing the five skandhas. We cannot realise the truth by seeking something beyond the material and mental world. The Buddha, using his perfect wisdom, observed worldly existence from various implications and aspects, and came to understand all existences.

In summary, there are three paths to this observation:

a) We should observe the preceding state and the current state of conditions. i.e., Observation according to the concept of time.

b) We should observe existences according to their interrelationships. i.e., Observation via the concept of space (either two or three-dimensions).

c) We should observe the true nature of all myriad beings. This is like observing the worldly existences of a point, a line and an area. Those with supreme wisdom understand the true nature of all worldly existences by observing vertically the relationships between the preceding and current conditions, and horizontally the interrelationships. Then we can understand the true meaning of void-nature and nirvana-nature.

3.1 By observing the preceding-stage and the current-stage conditions, we can verify the Law of Impermanence of all worldly existences. All existences, be they material or mental, be they the material world, or the physical or mental states of sentient beings, are subject to continuous change.

The world may have certain states of beings where they stay static or are in equilibrium on a temporary basis (for example hibernation). But when we observe them with supreme wisdom, we will find that not only do they keep changing on a yearly basis, but also that this change applies to even every briefest moment. After the current state of conditions have ceased to exist, the newly-formed state materialises. This is the state of rising and falling. The rising and falling of each small moment reveals that all existences are ever-moving and ever-changing.

Conventional scholars have a very good explanation of these ever-changing worldly conditions. However they, including the practitioners of dharma, try to make sense of the reality from the ever-changing worldly existences. That is, they are fooled by the material existences and are not able to understand the deeper truth of all existences.

Only those with the supreme wisdom of the Buddha and Mahabodhisattvas realise and understand that all existences are illusions. They understand that existences are not real from the observation of the flow of changing existences. The numerous illusionary existences may well be diverse and confusing, arising and decaying. But when we look into their true nature, we will find them void and of nirvana-nature.

On the other hand, since all existences are of nirvana-nature, they appear from the perspective of time, to be ever-changing. They never stay the same even for the briefest moment. Impermanence implies existences do not have a permanent entity. This is another implication of the nature of sunyata and stillness.

3.2 From observations of existence via inter-relationships, we can conclude that nothing is independent of the Law of Causation, and that everything is without ego. For example, the Buddha explains that the individual sentient being is composed of physical, physiological and psychological phenomena. The so called ego is a deluded illusion which does not exist in reality. Its existence depends on the combination of both physical and mental factors. It is a union of organic phenomena. Thus we call it the empirical ego. It is a mistake to cling to it as an infatuated ego.

The Indian concept of the supreme spirit implies someone who rules. The spirit is the ruler who is independent of is self-dependent and all causes. In other words, the spirit is the one who is free from all primary and secondary causes (for physical and mental aspects). The spirit is the one who has the soul of his own body and mind. This is the ego or supreme spirit that the theologists cling to. From their view point, the only way to avoid physical and mental decay is to be self-determined and self-sovereign. In this way, the supreme being can stay permanent in the cycle of reincarnation, and return to the absolute reality by liberating himself from life and death.

But from the profound contemplation and wisdom of the Buddha and Mahabodhisattvas, we know there is no such reality. Instead, egolessness (non-self) is the only path to understand the reality of the deluded life. All existences are subject to the Law of Causes and Conditions. These include the smallest particles, the relationship between the particles, the planets, and the relationship between them, up to and including the whole universe! From the smallest particles to the biggest matter, there exists no absolute independent identity.

Egolessness (non-self) implies the void characteristics of all existence. Egolessness (non-self) signifies the non-existence of permanent identity for self and existence (Dharma). Sunyata stresses the voidness characteristic of self and existence (Dharma). Sunyata and egolessness possess similar attributes. As we have discussed before, we can observe the profound significance of sunyata from the perspective of inter-dependent relationships. Considering dharma-nature and the condition of nirvana, all existences are immaterial and of a void-nature. Then we see each existence as independent of each other. But then we cannot find any material that does exist independent of everything else. So egolessness also implies void-nature!

3.3 From the observation of all existences, we can infer the theory of nirvana and the complete cessation of all phenomena. From the viewpoint of phenomena, all existences are so different from each other, that they may contradict each other. They are so chaotic. In reality, their existence is illusionary and arises from conditional causation. They seem to exist on one hand, and yet do not exist on the other. They seem to be united, but yet they are so different to one another. They seem to exist and yet they do cease! Ultimately everything will return to harmony and complete calmness. This is the nature of all existence. It is the final resting place for all. If we can understand this reality and remove our illusions, we can find this state of harmony and complete calmness.

All our contradictions, impediments and confusion will be converted to equanimity. Free from illusion, complete calmness will be the result of attaining nirvana. The Buddha emphasised the significance of this attainment and encouraged the direct and profound contemplation on void-nature. He said, "Since there is no absolute self-nature thus every existence exhibits void-nature. Because it is void, there is no rising nor falling. Since there is no rising nor falling, thus everything was originally in complete calmness. Its self-nature is nirvana."

From the viewpoint of time and space, we can surmise that all existences are impermanent, all existences have no permanent self, and nirvana is the result of the cessation of all existences - the Three Universal Characteristics. But there are not three different truths. Instead, they are the characteristics of the only absolute truth and the ultimate reality. This is the explanation of Dharma-nature and the condition of nirvana. The three characteristics are the one characteristic, and vice versa!

We may cultivate our meditation, contemplating the impersonality of all existences. This will lead us to enlightenment via the path of voidness. Contemplating nirvana and complete calmness leads to enlightenment by the path of immaterial form. Contemplating the impermanence of all existences, leads us to enlightenment by the path of inactivity (no desire).

The Three Universal Characteristics are the other implications of Dharma-nature and nirvana. The paths to enlightenment are also the same cause of absolute reality. All of them return to the Dharma-nature and the condition of nirvana. In short, the teachings of the Buddha start from the observation and contemplation of all worldly phenomena. They are like thousands of streams of water competing with each other, and flowing from the top of the mountains to the bottom. Eventually, all of them return to the ocean of voidness and nirvana.

4. Sunyata and Cessation is the Truth (Nature) of All Existences.

All existences that are recognised by worldly understanding, whether materially, spiritually or intellectually, have always been misunderstood by us. We cling to them as real, physically existing and permanent. Actually, they are only unreal names.

The more precise meaning of the term "unreal name" is "assumption" or "hypothesis". It is an empirical name. It is formed by the combination of various causes and effects. (These include the effects of mental consciousness.) It does not exist by itself. Everything exists relatively. Thus, what is the ultimate truth? If we investigate existence further, we realise that all existences are empty. This is the fundamental characteristic and reality of all existence. It is ultimate and absolute. But we should not think that empty means nothing. It implies the disentanglement from the worldly misunderstanding of the existence of self, identity, and the realisation of the absolute.

In the Sutras and Abhidharma, the worldly understandings are sometimes referred to as all phenomena (Dharma). Sunyata is referred to as "Dharma-nature", and hence there is a distinction between "phenomena" and "Dhamma-nature". However, this is only an expedient explanation that helps us to realise the truth of sunyata through the phenomena of all existences.

We should not think that "existence" and "nature"; or the "phenomena of Dharma" and "Dharma-nature" are something contradictory. They are just concepts needed to understand the implication of sunyata.

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Feb 2015 · 431
Impermanence
Matt Feb 2015
According to the teachings of the Buddha, life is comparable to a river.  
It is a progressive moment, a successive series of different moments, Joining  together to give the impression of one continuous flow.
It moves from cause to cause, effect to effect, one point to another,
One state of existence to another, giving an outward impression
That it is one continuous and unified movement,
Where as in reality it is not.
The river of yesterday is not the same as the river of today.
The river of this moment is not going to be the same
As the river of the next moment.
So does life.
It changes continuously, becomes something or the other
From moment to moment.
buddhanet.net/cbp2_f6.htm
Feb 2015 · 389
I Love These Machines!
Matt Feb 2015
Listening to music
Writing poetry
Reading articles

The machines are what help me feel!
God bless the machines

But the machines are always there
I think I will read about impermanence
Feb 2015 · 209
Stop Talking To The Dogs
Matt Feb 2015
Stop Talking To The Dogs
Just like her mother
She never did anything
Just nothing
Nothing all day
Nothing all week
Nothing from 1985-2015
A lifetime of nothing

A life of nothing
Truly
Feb 2015 · 252
Beyond
Matt Feb 2015
So Many Fixed Feelings

Loneliness
Emptiness
Pain

Searching
Wandering
Nothing Leads to Nothing

Feeling love for a woman
Her marrying someone else

Some place this earth

Nobody Ever Knows Anybody

There was some guy named Jesus
Who is supposed to understand
And give a **** about me

Hey Jesus guy
You tell the creator
I don't think much of this place sometimes

Well, at least there is golf
Now there is something I can really love

And still
After all the horrible
Things that have happened

I go on
To go beyond
To try to fulfill my dreams
Matt Feb 2015
Dr. King
Was murdered
It was carried out by a group of conspirators

In this video
Jessie Jackson is shown
Saying that
He stepped to the side
So that they could have a clear shot

Evil deeds carried out in darkness
Will be brought to light
https://m/youtube.com/watch?v=k4gHcHEalmA
Feb 2015 · 709
Do Not Wish Me A "Nice Day"
Matt Feb 2015
She said it again
"Have a nice day"
I despise that saying

You might as well have said,
"Have a day"

Oh well
It's her own fault
She wasted her entire life
Doing nothing
Sitting in front of the television

The unexamined life is not worth living
Feb 2015 · 218
Untitled
Matt Feb 2015
I do not really like the fact that I have a file.  
I find it in some way less than ideal or dehumanizing.

Maybe that is not the right word.
Having a file kept on me
Makes me feel somewhat like some kind of test subject.

I realize that this is just the protocol.
But I would rather not have a file be kept on me.  

It is important for me in our meetings that I feel
That I am your friend

Although I know I am your client
I also hope you also think of me as your friend
In some manner.

When I think that there is a file about me
I don't know
I just think of it as being less than ideal
Matt Feb 2015
It must be nice Peter
To have a **** girlfriend like her

The ride sent her into ecstasy
It really was beautiful to see
What a wonderful woman

She told him
"Peter, the ******* I have with you are good
But this one was really crazy."

I once cared for a woman
Better to be alone
Hitting golf ***** by myself
Forever alone

Golf won't hurt me
Like a woman can
So I'll stick to golf
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5-KTqdy1R54
Matt Feb 2015
Anwar Ibrahim
Convicted of ****** in 2008
Acquitted in 2012

The Court of Appeal overturned the acquittal
He is currently serving his sentence

An aide to Anwar
Said he was sodomized by Anwar
******, even if consensual
Is punishable by up to 20 years in Malaysia

Anwar responded the complaint was politically motivated

Support for Anwar grown stronger
His wife is battling his conviction

Some say that political rival Dr. Mahathir
Will recover from his decrease in popularity
And remain in control
Because he helped Malaysia through a though economic time

Although it seems as though Anwar is gaining support
From a majority of the Malaysian people

Human rights groups accused Malaysia's government of using
An anachronistic colonial era law that criminalizes
"Carnal ******* against the order of nature"
To persecute Anwar

Anwar leads a three-party opposition that has become
Increasingly popular in the predominantly Muslim nation

This is not just
Anwar has been wrongly accused
I will pray for his wife
And his supporters

Stay strong Anwar
You are an innocent man
Feb 2015 · 272
Turn Off The Tube
Matt Feb 2015
Can't these 60 somethings
That I live with
Do something
During the weekend besides watch television?

I mean if it was educational
Or informative
Or enlightening
I would understand

But it is always some cliche movie
Ahh

Like moths to the flame
They are drawn to the television

Wasted hours
They will never get back...
Feb 2015 · 466
Not Quite Sure What To Do
Matt Feb 2015
Not quite sure what to do
Maybe go to the gym
Or maybe I will go chip golf *****

I enjoy chipping
Relaxing
I like to be in nature

I think I will go the gym first
And then chip
Well

I'm not quite sure
What to do first

Peace be with you all
Think of me chipping somewhere

First, a haircut
My credit card is almost maxed out

Oh well,
I don't think I'll find a job anytime
Or any decade soon
For that matter
Lol!
Feb 2015 · 452
China
Matt Feb 2015
China's economy expands
It pollutes
Spewing toxins
That travel 3,000 miles
And pollute cites on the west coast

China will continue to destroy their environment
And pollute the air
Growth ahead of all else

What about infrastructure
And the environment?

Crushed coal and water
Make a cake like batter
Coal used to heat homes

Burning it releases sulfurous smoke

Coal fired power plants

Loss productivity
Increased health care costs

Steel production relies on coal

Some factories were closed down
Because of too much pollution
Hopefully they will continue
To close down factories
That are excessively polluting

The car industry
Lacks environmental controls

I hope the Chinese government
Takes better care of the environment
In the future
Feb 2015 · 662
I Need A Mistress
Matt Feb 2015
I hope to find a mistress
I promise to clean the house
Just as she asks

I know I have to do a thorough job
Everything muse be spotless!

She may decide that
The hardwood floors lacked the brilliant shine
That she requires

I won't make that mistake again
She will keep me in a chastity belt
For two months without release
If the house is not spotless

It is a privilege to be allowed to have an ******
I give her oral pleasure for hours each night
I live to serve my goddess
I live to give her multiple *******
Matt Feb 2015
Once I leave here
I don't ever want to see this home again
I don't ever want to see this neighborhood
I rarely ever want to see the people that live here

Of course there are no jobs here in California
Feb 2015 · 468
Why Bother Sleeping Tonight
Matt Feb 2015
I just watched Edge of Tomorrow
Fun Movie

I'ts the human race
That threatens to destroy each other
And our planet

We don't need aliens for that
The human race is primitive enough

I suppose I'll go to the gym now
Go do sit-ups or something
Go on the bike

More lonely hours
Geeze

Must practice Wu-Wei
Non striving
It's all an automatic process
The earth keeps spinning round and round the sun
Regardless of How I feel

This nation is in deep ****
Up **** creek without a paddle
This global economy is in deep ****
Seriously
Something big is coming
Something hard and terrible
Feb 2015 · 214
Serving My Earth Time
Matt Feb 2015
Serving My earth time
In an aging body
Almost 30

I do not need to be touched
Or hugged
Cared for
Or loved

I have read many great minds
I am content
To read alone
To be alone

I will be chaste
No need to be with a woman
Just work, eat, sleep
Exercise, repeat

Still I hope to meet
Another great friend
It is helpful having a companion
Feb 2015 · 415
Another Saturday
Matt Feb 2015
You know I went to the gym like I always do
Then I went to the driving range
I love hitting golf ***** in the light rain

I drove around for a bit
Just past sunset
The tao is wise mother

A family were eating in there living room
A woman was in her upstairs room
The desk light shining bright

I listened to my buddhist mantra
The shurangama mantra
A beautiful mantra
Chanted quietly
So peaceful

I wonder why
Why life the way it is
Strange, but beautiful

Yes, I know this earth well
I keep the times
I observe the times
I like to see the big picture
The eyes of the observer

I came home
Some movies on
40 yr old ******
Flipping through a few more
***, violence, Arguments
I am happy I don't watch much television

I had my poached egg
I wish I had a good friend
I have a beautiful soul
And it is a tragedy
In this 21st century
I think many Americans my age are lonely

I think I may just go driving again
I don't know why
The endless wandering
Eyes never tired of seeing

Where is my hug?
Where is my good friend?

I have a few good friends
But they don't live near me now
I see them now and again

I think now of my therapist
I love her as my friend
But wish she would offer me a hug sometimes

I shouldn't have been so revealing
I shouldn't have cried in front of her
She sat so composed
I know she cares for me

I want to see her cry
Like I cried
I'm just as smart as her
She has her therapy job
And her husband
And everything is just hunky dory
With her first baby on the way

I wonder what she thinks of me
I'd like to hang out and be friends
Go on a hike together or something
She's not much of a friend
Just a therapist
I doubt she really cares that much at all

I still search for my close friend
For my true companion
This friendship goes deeper than
The love of two lovers
The love is deeper than that of a married couple
The greatest love is between friends

I hope to find a loving female friend
She understands
And loves me
I love her to

Maybe we will become intimate
No, better not
I will stay a ******

Better not to love like that
It is too risky
Where is my companion?

I guess its youtube videos again tonight
History or philosophy
I will take notes

Alone in my room
Always alone
Almost 30...
Feb 2015 · 1.0k
Counterfeiting
Matt Feb 2015
Counterfeit CDs
Drugs, clothes, handbags
One ma paints counterfeit Van Gohs

Fake drugs are the worst
Because fake medicines don't help people

It's big business
Especially in China

Golf companies hire a Chinese manager
The manager copies the business model
Starts making counterfeit clubs
Begins his own counterfeit industry

Modern Fakes trade
Cialis, ******, Levitra
The packaging professionally done
The investigator seems quite concerned
That it is almost impossible to tell these products from the orignals

190,000 Chinese people have died because of fake medicines
The Chinese government is powerless to stop the faking syndicates

Capitalism unrestrained
By decency, morality, or law
According to the investigator
Feb 2015 · 282
Another Day
Matt Feb 2015
This life
Oh this life...
Sometimes I feel like Neo
Always searching

Searching for something more
Seemingly Unable to change my life

I'm chronically fatigued
Despite exercise and a good diet

At least there is golf
That's enjoyable
I hit it well at the range today

I'd like to play more often
But I can't afford it

There was that pretty lady
At the checkout stand
Who said she wanted to try playing

I guess I should have asked her if she wanted to play sometime
Blah
I wasn't quick enough

I have a hard time
Yes I breathe heavier than most
Despite meditating and breathing deep

I guess it's this life
I live in a simulation
It's not fulfilling

I am trying to become a teacher
Much love to show
But no one to show it to
My lonely existence

Words like good and fine
Are meaningless

Well
I guess I'll go to the gym again
But the body through its motions
A body in motion stays in motion

I hope to meet a pretty woman one day
And give her oral pleasure
I would like more fulfilling experiences
If they come, so be it

Am I shaping my life?
To some extent
I am just a part of the whole

There is free will
There is also the sense of things having already been determined
At least I have the consolation of philosophy
A great friend to me
Matt Feb 2015
Content To live
In the same city
For the rest of my life

No need for change of place
I suppose it would be fun to travel somewhere
If I ever have any money

Thankfully I can hike
I can play golf
I can do all the things I enjoy doing
In this city

No need
To change place
Feb 2015 · 233
No job, No money
Matt Feb 2015
The credit card is almost maxed out
I graduated from college seven years ago
Then got another 16 months of education

I am almost 30
Matt Feb 2015
CLVI

First of all, condemn the life thou art now leading: but when thou hast condemned it, do not despair of thyself--be not like them of mean spirit, who once they have yielded, abandon themselves entirely and as it were allow the torrent to sweep them away. No; learn what the wrestling masters do. Has the boy fallen? "Rise," they say, "wrestle again, till thy strength come to thee." Even thus should it be with thee. For know that there is nothing more tractable than the human soul. It needs but to will, and the thing is done; the soul is set upon the right path: as on the contrary it needs but to nod over the task, and all is lost. For ruin and recovery alike are from within.
http://classics.mit.edu/Epictetus/goldsay.2.2.html
Feb 2015 · 440
Just One Piece
Matt Feb 2015
I told myself I should have had just one piece of pizza
But I had
Close to one and a half pieces

Well, I'm only human
I don't normally eat pizza anyhow

I had a handful of almonds too

I wish I had a friend
Who was a woman
Who I could hug

My love goes out to you
All the lovely and talented women
Of Hello Poetry

Hello from Los Angeles
Matt Feb 2015
I always remember her funny jokes
Her beautiful smile
I see her once a week
I love her so much
Feb 2015 · 2.8k
Sassy Asian Goddess
Matt Feb 2015
You looked so pretty
In your workout clothes
Such a beautiful smile

Are you Korean or Chinese?
I wasn't sure
All I know is you are beautiful

You said, "Shut up!"
And, "Whatever"
Was that your boyfriend?
Or your friend?

You are very pretty
With your black hair
I wanted to talk to you
But I'm shy

I stay in good shape
I can do many pull-ups
I know you won't notice me
But that's okay
I'm content to see your beauty from afar

I hope you have a wonderful life
Feb 2015 · 2.8k
Balance Needed In Bali
Matt Feb 2015
Overdevelopment in Bali
The Farmers lose valuable water
For use in the hotels

The mushrooming developments have clogged irrigation channels
To rice fields inland,
Often driving them up and driving up the cost of tending the land

The shrinking amount of land available
Has threatened Bali's self-sufficiency in rice

Tourism benefits the economy
But the environment should also be respected

A String of letters
The Height of a man stand in the middle of a lush padi field
They spell, "Not for sale,"
Gede Agus says the words
Are meant to scare off investors

This is his land
He inherited from his ancestors

Development must be halted
Feb 2015 · 387
WWII Footage In Color
Matt Feb 2015
WWII footage in color
Amazing To See
War is terrible
But sometimes necessary
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BPF7LkC_kkc
Feb 2015 · 254
Tired
Matt Feb 2015
This is the kind of tired
That does not cease
With a good night's sleep

Each day becomes a great struggle
I am chronically fatigued

It's okay
On and on I'll go
I don't understand why

I always exercised
Ate right

So tired
Matt Feb 2015
I have lived in this home
Since October of 1997

That is quite some time
Sometimes I wonder
If I will ever
Have the financial means
To leave here

LOL
I certainly hope so!
Feb 2015 · 930
Bodhisattva
Matt Feb 2015
Bodhisattva
Boundless energy
Eternal Light
Gone beyond all fear

Form is emptiness
Emptiness is form

Buddham saranam gacchami
Dhammam saranam gacchami
Sangham Saranam gacchami

I have come to help all beings
And deep inside
I have the most wondrous heart

I must cultivate Ren
Human heartedness
Virtuosity

Know the male, but keep the female,
Being the universal river-valley,
Being the the universal river-valley,
One has the eternal virtue [te] undivided
And becomes again as a child

They tried to banish me
No No No

Boundless light,
Boundless energy
Ten-thousand eyes
Never tire of seeing

I will return
I must help all sentient beings

In giving
I will receive the greatest gift!

Buddham saranam gachammi
Dhammam saranam gachammi
Sangham saranam gachammi

Love
It's love
Know the male, but keep the female,
Being the universal river-valley,
Being the the universal river-valley,
One has the eternal virtue [te] undivided
And becomes again as a child

This is an excerpt from a work by Alan Watts entitled,
Tao: The Watercourse Way
Feb 2015 · 481
My Sacred Duty
Matt Feb 2015
I will do my sacred duty

How dare they!
Reject me

Unemployed
I try again and again
I am a smart man

I love history and philosophy
I have a B.A. and a teaching credential
I was almost accepted into a Masters of social work program too
I made it to the waiting list

I can't even pay my bills
And I'm almost 30!

I will stand
I do not tire
I will not rest

I must not fail
In performing my sacred duty

I will not fail
In performing the duties
That were assigned to me
By the Creator
Feb 2015 · 200
Turn Off The News
Matt Feb 2015
At a certain time of day
She will turn on the news
In the afternoon

Why did she never work
Or contribute to society?

Content to sit in a home
For thirty years

Her mother was this way
Why won't she change

We only live once
The time given to us is sufficient
It must not be wasted!

It's a tragedy
Now the pattern of her life
Becomes habitual

She was not made for this
Feb 2015 · 1.1k
Bright Cloud
Matt Feb 2015
I chipped golf *****
Onto the putting green

In a hidden Canyon
Bright Cloud
An hour or so before sunset

The cloud drifts through the sky
Emanating light
Radiating sunlight
Dazzling light

I am overwhelmed by nature's beauty
I observe the Tao
I take part in the changing
The final hour of daylight

Sun cloud
Floating through the air

Sunset
In the distance
Pink Cloud
Barely light outside

Now it's dark
Bright moon
Full moon
Clear moon

I really saw
I watched
As I listened to Epictetus

Great and mysterious is this planet
Jan 2015 · 249
Loneliness
Matt Jan 2015
The Worst part
Of this life is loneliness

Oh well
I'll never meet anyone
I'm sure of it

This existence is some type of tragedy

All I ever wanted was a good friend
Someone to confide in
Maybe one day
Jan 2015 · 427
LOL
Matt Jan 2015
LOL
Another day no job
What's the point
In trying anymore

Maybe I should go be a slave
At some cash register somewhere
Making minimum wage

Hahahah
With all my education
I have no money
Jan 2015 · 429
Stuck At The Library
Matt Jan 2015
Stuck At the library
Waiting for my car
I took a few classes here
About 10.5 years ago
I was broke then

I am broke now
After getting my B.A.
Then my credential

F* this
Credit limit almost reached

Wandering around the library
Browsing through a book about the origins of the Korean War.

Life
Blehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Spinning world spins round and round
So is the afterlife fun
This places *****

Do we do fun stuff there
Can I meet a beautiful woman there
Feel loved by her

Hope so

P-town
Is the place to be
Yes
I'm chillin' at the world re-known
PCC
Jan 2015 · 227
Nothing Leads To Nothing
Matt Jan 2015
Mind free of concepts
On and on
Emptiness of life
Not grasping or clinging

Senseless present moments
Flow like water
Nothing leads to nothing

It was all there from the beginning
An interconnected web
Jan 2015 · 440
Money
Matt Jan 2015
I need money again
I don't have the money again

What a ******* up system
I work my whole life
Go to college and do well there
Get a credential and get straight A's

And I get absolutely nothing
No job and no money!
Jan 2015 · 704
5 to 9 p.m.
Matt Jan 2015
You know if you tried to describe life
The last few hours
You wouldn't possible be able to describe went on

Well I went to the driving range
Then went for a walk at my old college
Then drove home

So much happened in that period

I hit it well
7 irons, wedges, hybrids, drivers
Behind, down and out to the target
Making that just short of 3/4 swing now
For accuracy
One must be accurate in golf

Sultans of swing was playing in the background
A guy hit on a different part of the range hit a ball
And it hit this metal bin
And the ball rolled right up to where I was hitting
Sweet an extra ball for me to hit now (lol)

I saw the older gentleman at the range
Who always works there
I hope he is well
He goes through the motions
Watering the plants
Puts the ***** into the machine
I see him hanging out with some of his friends there sometimes

So then I went into the car and turned on the radio
I arrived at my old campus just a 2 minute drive directly to the south
I had a great time walking around campus

I had my back brace  
My knee braces
Yes, one should brace oneself

I turned on Kashmir
By Led Zeppelin
As I walked through the parking lot

And its strange you know
I felt like I was walking on air

It really is a world of wonderful happenings
And its me
Its me that has to bring the joy
The love to all sentient beings
I must bring the love
I thought about that

I made my way to the library
Where I read an article
In Scientific American
About a pacemaker that contains a gear
That is used in a wristwatch
That is powered by the heartbeat

I saw a pretty woman
And thought it must be nice to have a friend to talk to
Bleh
She would just be bothered if I went up to her

I walked around campus
This one girl was shocked to see a raccoon

I saw three of them once
All feeding from a trash bag
I took pictures

Then I walked to my car
And drove off listening to U2

From one time
To the next
The emptiness remains

Dream world

Row row row your boat
Gently down the stream
Merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily,
Life is but a dream
Jan 2015 · 212
Still Standing
Matt Jan 2015
I am still standing
I am not tired
I do not rest

I do my duty
I have iron will

I do not need a hug
I do not require sympathy
Jan 2015 · 180
A Pathetic Existence
Matt Jan 2015
Have you ever known someone
That wasted their entire life?
Never working
Or doing anything for anyone's benefit

Truly terrible
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