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Mar 2015 · 426
Tired and Ignored
Matt Mar 2015
Tired Body
Even if I get plenty of exercise and sleep

Still tired
It's the burden of life
On this planet

The emptiness
The keep on keeping on
The wandering and wandering
The endless wandering
At least I have my faith

Poor and jobless
Don't worry

Content to be poor
Rejected by man
Why am I always so tired?
Who knows

Something more
Something more fulfilling
Than this

Keep shoving food into my body
Keep exercising and hiking

Alone in nature
I am content
Nature is all I have

And so I will return again
To the mountain trail

Why do I feel so sapped of energy
What did I do to deserve this?
Nothing
Just keep on keeping on
Keep on walking
Keep on seeing and hearing
Keep on keeping on

This morning I masturbated
To the woman of my dreams
Who is married

Haha how sad
Well oh well
The world is a ****** up place

Keep on keeping on

I'm listening to a podcast
They laugh
Must be fun to be laugh with friends

I don't have many friends
I don't laugh much at all

Just wander around
On a mountain trail
Mar 2015 · 523
A Return To The Mountains
Matt Mar 2015
Today I will return
To the mountain trail

There is an element of mystery there
I wonder who I will meet along the trail

Last time I met Mark
A 32 year old

He asked me if I needed any water
And offered me some beef jerky

He was from Los Angeles
Working at a Target
Couldn't afford to finish college

A bit overweight
Raised as a Christian scientist
But not particularly religious it sounded liked

We talked about the beauty of nature
And I mentioned Buddhism and Daoism

We talked about our love for hiking
Peace be with you Mark

And yesterday evening
I heard the familiar jingling of the bells

I had heard them on a previous night
She said the most kind hello
I think I have ever heard
Bless her
What a pretty woman

Maybe next time I will chat with her for a bit

Yesterday evening I watched the sunset
On my rock chair I sat

Alone as usual

I made my way back down
With only my Iphone light

I heard the rattlesnake
On the trail
So loud, it startled me

I went back up
Not wanting to continue down
I waited for my fellow hikers
Who had LED lights

I warned them of the rattler
And they said they saw it coming on the way up
And so I made my way down with them

She was such a gorgeous ***** brunette
But women always ignore me
I'm used to it

As I finished the trail
A car was parked at the bottom
In a wide open area

A couple chatting in their car

I made my way back down to Sierra Madre

I had walked to the trail
When you are as poor as me
You have to save gas

And I walked through the town
I heard the familiar cry of the baby
And the woman sitting on her front porch

Always on the outside
Looking into homes
They are not like me
They are not alone like me

A woman with her child in the living room
Sierra Madre is a quaint mountain town

Stumbling around with my hiking poles
Tired
One leg a bit longer than the other
One hip a bit higher than the other

I don't know why
I don't care
Just a body
An earth body
Connected to the earth

It's all pointless
Meaningless
Absurd
I say out loud
As I bang my hiking sticks together

And I am forever walking
Forever searching
For something I cannot find

And I keep on feeling nothing
And it leads to nothing
And I'm always tired
And I don't know why
And I just don't care

And I keep on walking
It's just another day
Like all the other days

Read some sign

"Investing in our future"
Some new pipes being put in on our streets

I said out loud there is no future
No future for America
Mar 2015 · 247
Love
Matt Mar 2015
Sometimes you win
Sometimes you lose

Sometimes you sing the blues

But keep the light inside burning bright
And everything will turn out alright

Show the love that Jesus showed us
And you will walk with Him
And your loved ones

On those heavenly fields
Mar 2015 · 251
Birds
Matt Mar 2015
Birds Move Across Sky
Then dissappear

Just like life
Mar 2015 · 904
I Hope To Find A Mistress
Matt Mar 2015
I hope to find a mistress
I want give her oral pleasure
For as long as she desires

To help her ******
Again and again
Is a sacred event
Mar 2015 · 431
A Good Hubby
Matt Mar 2015
A good hubby puts his wife's needs first!
Yes, he should treat his wife as his goddess
Every woman deserves a man
That is devoted to her
Matt Mar 2015
Would you betray the Son of the Most High?
Would you betray the Man who came to save us?

His pure and perfect love restores us all

And what if the whole world hated you
And what if they threatened to nail you to a cross?

Would you betray your Savior?
I'm scared Lord
They want to destroy my body

But I will not fear
Your eternal love overcomes all fear and hate

Still I'm scared
I don't think I can go through it
But it is your love that overcomes

Every Christian should ask themselves
Are you faithful to the end?

Believe in Jesus
The body can be destroyed

But believe in Jesus and
You will have eternal life
Matt Mar 2015
On my hike
I enjoy saying a friendly hello
To all hikers

It is wonderful when they
Warmly say hello to me

I cannot understand those who walk by
And don't even say hello

Well, still I love them
Mar 2015 · 1.5k
Alone
Matt Mar 2015
Alone and Unloved
Life Never Cares about your feelings
You may like someone and they may marry someone else

Life never cares

And I wonder what the point of all this **** is
All these years on this rock ball
That spins around the sun

And it's all the same
Same seasons

Self-identity an illusion
I go from one day to the next

Getting ****** again

And America will soon be over
An economy ruined
Marshall Law and Fema Camps

So **** our corrupt leaders
They ruined this country

After our emergency food runs out
I'l just go to the mountains
**** FEMA camps

And I'll just sit there
Eat my remaining food
And starve to death I guess
Matt Mar 2015
Breathe In

And Breathe out this promise
Fill the world with light

Release all appearances and aspirations
And be still

Ease
Relaxation
And groundedness

My view is as vast as space
When it comes to my conduct
It as precise as parched barley flour

Grounded where you are
Matt Mar 2015
We must learn an inner solitude
We must learn to penetrate things
And find God there

Nothing in all creation
Is so like God
As stillness

My existence depends on the nearness
And the presence of God
Mar 2015 · 2.5k
Inner Peace
Matt Mar 2015
Mind of Compassion

Mind of Serenity

Mind of Equanimity

Above below and all around

Benevolent, boundless, peaceful and friendly mind

In all four cardinal directions

No limit to the unfolding of the heart

Showing benevolence

This is the way to communion with the divine

Being gentle with the breath

Feeling the kindness with the breath

Gently kindly patiently

Staying with our experience

With this body with this moment
Thoughts taken from Dharmaseed.org
Mar 2015 · 264
Tore It Up
Matt Mar 2015
I tore the college magazine
Tore it to shreds

Thanks for the degree
7 years ago now

And still no job

Haha
Mar 2015 · 196
The Beauty of Life
Matt Mar 2015
Meet the world with a smile
Show love toward others
Focus on a clear mind
Show loving compassion

I like a woman

And I am happy she is my friend
I lover her as my friend

Gentle kindness and tranquility
This is the way
Mar 2015 · 997
Split Pea Soup
Matt Mar 2015
Split pea soup
With small chunks of baked ham

I think I will have another bowl
The broth is so good for me

Will I ever find a job
Will I ever be able to leave this home
After 17 years here?

They are painting it green
Ugh
That was the color of the home I lived in from '87 to '97

And it is also the color of my split pea soup
Mar 2015 · 1.5k
Kodiak Cakes For Vicki
Matt Mar 2015
I made kodiak cakes this morning
On this beautiful Sunday morning

After I listened to the Gregorian chant of
The Benedictine Monks
Of Santo Domingo de Silos in Spain

Please enjoy some of my kodiak cakes Vicki
They are wholesome just like you
Yummm let's eat them together

Also there are some sliced apples
With a bit of Laura Scudders peanut butter too

These Kodiak cakes warm my heart
Just as your poems do
Mar 2015 · 360
My Friend
Matt Mar 2015
As my friend
I love you very much

And as we approach two years
Of working together

I feel spiritually close
Or connected to you
And it feels wonderful

And it makes me feel content

I was thinking that we could have so much fun
Going on a hike together

I was meditating on top of this hill
And thinking how beautiful it was

I was thinking how it would be fun
If we just had a picnic as friends
Maybe listened to music together

I even brought veggies and fruits
Cucumbers  and apples
Cold raspberries to snack on
And rhubarb pie

Italian soda, mineral water
And perhaps green tea too
Strawberries and home made whipped cream

And isn't it delightful
To spend time with you
My friend

Well, I hope we can do this one day
Cause I love you
Mar 2015 · 301
Into The Mountains
Matt Mar 2015
Into The Mountains
I become one with the mountains

No past or future
This is a dream state

I make my way through
Bailey Canyon Park

The high grass and stumps
Cover this area
As well as several trees
Picnic tables as well

I make my way up the road
I am walking parallel to the monastery
I reach the Live Oak Trail

The oaks make a canopy
A wide open space

I stop along the trail to read
About the geological history of the area
And about the oak trees

And at the end of the trail
I step up onto a rise in the ground
A small ridge three feet above the ground

To look down at the oaks and the trail
Where I have just been

I looked up and saw the cross
On top of the dome of the monastery

I think I cried some then
You know nothing is ever fair in life

And I care for this woman
And she has her own life
And I get to see her for just one hour each week

And her beauty
And her smile and her laugh

How can I protect myself from her?
How can I shut her out?

I can't and I was honest with her
Too honest about myself

And I wonder how she perceives me
And I wonder if she thinks I am handsome

And I realize it doesn't matter
She is married anyway

And I realize I will always be alone
And I think when I was four
Crying at the gate
In my chair alone

And I thought of how
I think I could have loved her

And how I could have spent my life with her
And God does not care
How lonely I am

And nothing every changes

And so now all I have it nature
The oaks and the cross

And she was there
And is there
To comfort me

To listen to what I feel
For an hour every Friday

And it is like talking to an angel
Or being taken to a heavenly realm

And I told her intimate feelings
And she listened and understood

And I can't stop seeing her
She helps me
But she hurts me

And what is this creature woman
So radiant and pure
That God has made

And I am outside the looking glass
In her office
So close to her smile
And her radiance

But I look but cannot touch
I cannot touch
And no one touches me

She does not touch me

And if I ask her for a hug
I'm afraid I'll break down and cry
And tell her what she means to me

I was suppose to protect myself from this
From feelings like this!

So I return to the mountain
The past never happened
And so I try to erase my memories of her each week

But each time she laughs and smiles
I am taken off guard
And I don't know what to say

Even though these smiles and laughs
Are hurting me in some way

And I want to reach out and tell her
And tell her I want to hold her
And be held by her

And when I was in the mountains
This woman said "I thought you were a part of the rock"

And so she spends her weekend with her loving husband
And her baby on the way

And I return to the mountains
My refuge
And I become a part of the mountain

Never touched or loved
My eyes looking out from the mountain

And I just wanted to be her friend
And go on hikes
And I know I can't be with her

But just friends
No, can't do that either
She is my therapist

And so I remain alone
Forever alone
Liz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You crushed my heart

And so I cry
Cry and I ask why
But All I get

Is the stillness of the mountains
It's quiet here

As I listen to myself breathe
I guess I will never find a woman?
Mar 2015 · 967
The Data Doesn't Lie
Matt Mar 2015
Data from NASA satellites show
That All of the snow, river and resevoir water,
Water in soils and groundwater combined
Was 34 million acre feet below normal in 2014.  
That loss is nearly 1.5 times the capacity of Lake Mead,
America's largest resevoir
Mar 2015 · 301
Search
Matt Mar 2015
Search your heart
Search your mind
Search for innner peace

Pray for forgiveness
Pray for forgiveness

For the hate you had in your heart

Pray that you will continue
To love your neighbor as yourself

The love of our Lord and Savior
Jesus of Nazareth
Endures forever

Amen.
Mar 2015 · 254
Surely This Is Love
Matt Mar 2015
Surely This is Love

I am intimately connected

with all that is. When you

water your roots, my heart

blossoms. When I see you

smile, that’s when I know

I’m fully alive. As you are

able to live in truth, I raise

the roof on this house I am

exploring. I throw the doors

wide, let the breeze blow in

the windows. When you

grow, I know it as my own

opening. You stretch, I

breathe. I give, and you

receive. Just beneath the

fabric of our lives, coiled,

ready to spring or budding

like a rose, reaching out to

embrace, or sitting, bathed

in grace and stillness –

this abundant joy, laughter and peace

we share together –--- surely

this is love that friends share.


I love you Liz.  I love you as my friend now and always.
Found Online--Not my words
Mar 2015 · 330
Important Thoughts
Matt Mar 2015
Being one and the same person
Being consistent

Aim your moral compass
At the well-being of society
At the common good

Self composure
Love for other people
Forgiveness

Loving compassion
Non-striving
Let the times pass through

Dao is like water
It sinks to the low place

Non-self
Life is a stream

Enjoy the journey

Being present for experience
Kindness

Show Kindness to others

Content
And at ease
Eternal light

Kind attention or mindfulness
Mar 2015 · 312
I Hope To Use My Tongue
Matt Mar 2015
I hope to use my tongue
To help a beautiful woman ***

Oh heavens!
I didn't realize she was a squirter
Mar 2015 · 4.7k
Camu and The Absurd
Matt Mar 2015
Philosophically, Camus is known for his conception of the absurd. Perhaps we should clarify from the very beginning what the absurd is not. The absurd is not nihilism. For Camus the acceptance of the absurd does not lead to nihilism (according to Nietzsche nihilism denotes the state in which the highest values devalue themselves) or to inertia, but rather to their opposite: to action and participation. The notion of the absurd signifies the space which opens up between, on the one hand, man’s need for intelligibility and, on the other hand, 'the unreasonable silence of the world' as he beautifully puts it. In a world devoid of God, eternal truths or any other guiding principle, how could man bear the responsibility of a meaning-giving activity? The absurd man, like an astronaut looking at the earth from above, wonders whether a philosophical system, a religion or a political ideology is able to make the world respond to the questioning of man, or rather whether all human constructions are nothing but the excessive face-paint of a clown which is there to cover his sadness. This terrible suspicion haunts the absurd man. In one of the most memorable openings of a non-fictional book he states: “There is but one truly serious philosophical problem and that is suicide. Judging whether life is or is not worth living amounts to answering the fundamental question of philosophy. All the rest – whether or not the world has three dimensions, whether the mind has nine or twelve categories – comes afterwards. These are games; one must first answer” (Camus 2000:11). The problem of suicide (a deeply personal problem) manifests the exigency of a meaning-giving response. Indeed for Camus a suicidal response to the problem of meaning would be the confirmation that the absurd has taken over man’s inner life. It would mean that man is not any more an animal going after answers, in accordance with some inner drive that leads him to act in order to endow the world with meaning. The suicide has become but a passive recipient of the muteness of the world. “...The absurd ... is simultaneously awareness and rejection of death” (Camus 2000:54). One has to be aware of death – because it is precisely the realization of man’s mortality that pushes someone to strive for answers – and one has ultimately to reject death – that is, reject suicide as well as the living death of inertia and inaction. At the end one has to keep the absurd alive, as Camus says. But what does it that mean?

In The Myth of Sisyphus Camus tells the story of the mythical Sisyphus who was condemned by the Gods to ceaselessly roll a rock to the top of a mountain and then have to let it fall back again of its own weight. “Sisyphus, proletarian of the gods, powerless and rebellious, knows the whole extent of his wretched condition: it is what he thinks of during his descent. The lucidity that was to constitute his torture at the same time crowns his victory. There is no fate that cannot be surmounted by scorn” (Camus 2000:109). One must imagine then Sisyphus victorious: fate and absurdity have been overcome by a joyful contempt. Scorn is the appropriate response in the face of the absurd; another name for this 'scorn' though would be artistic creation. When Camus says: “One does not discover the absurd without being tempted to write a manual of happiness” (Camus 2000:110) he writes about a moment of exhilarated madness, which is the moment of the genesis of the artistic work. Madness, but nevertheless profound – think of the function of the Fool in Shakespeare’s King Lear as the one who reveals to the king the most profound truths through play, mimicry and songs. Such madness can overcome the absurd without cancelling it altogether.
www.iep.utm.edu/existent/#SH2c
Mar 2015 · 194
The Love of Jesus
Matt Mar 2015
In a moment of weakness
I wrote a negative poem

And I deleted it
Because
The I feel the love of Jesus lives in me

And it is his love
That endures forever

Seek and you shall find
Mar 2015 · 435
I Would Like To Know
Matt Mar 2015
I would like to know
If you care about me
And love me as a friend

You know
I guess my problem
Is that ultimately
I don't care very much for my physical body

I think women get to have more fun then men
As they are multi *******
And can have fun with vibrators and ******

I would have liked to have fun like that
Being a guy is lame

Besides
It is highly unlikely
An attractive woman will like me

I am only 6 inches *****
And most beautiful women I talk to
Say that want 8 inches or more

I don't think that highly
Of the life you created for us God
Why couldn't you have come up with something better?

The more I live life
The more I see it as a computer program
Or matrix

The seasons repeat themselves
I go to work
Which is somewhat fulfilling
And sure, I enjoy my hobbies

But I'll probably never meet
A kind female friend
Or it will be years and years until I do

How I am I ever supposed to feel love
From another person
When I don't really like my body

I don't feel attractive
And I'm not

I am alone
Always alone
I am a stone
Left alone

Left alone to listen to
Thousands of hours
Of podcasts

I'm like a computer
Or android
Not loved very much at all
Left alone

I begin to die slowly
Waiting for a hug that never comes

Women don't pay me such attention
It must be because I'm not attractive

Oh well
Now I sound like a complainer

But I'm learning
I'm learning to always be alone
To believe in myself
And know myself

The world is a terribly ******* up place
Where thousands starve every day

I should just be grateful

Do you know how terrible it is
In a body you don't really want?

It Must be fun to be a woman
To have *******
And a ******
To have toned and **** legs

But I'm just this thing
This ugly thing

I would like to be judged by you
How would you rate me on a scale of 1 to 10
In terms of attractiveness?

I'm sure it would be very average or low
And I'm sure if we took a sample of women in your age group
And social standing they would agree

I might as well wear a t shirt
That says in capital letters UGLY
Mar 2015 · 271
I Am Part Of The Rock
Matt Mar 2015
I'm not a very attractive guy

I think I'll always be alone
Never touched or loved by a woman

I was lying against a rock
That was part of a group of large rocks
On the side of the mountain

A pretty asian woman
Said that she got scared
Because she thought
I was part of the rock

I said, "Sorry, I didn't mean to scare you"

Maybe I am a part of the rock
Cold and hard
Untouched and alone

Women aren't attracted to me
And I'll probably always be alone
I'll never find a female friend

And I don't think God really cares
Mar 2015 · 241
My Thoughts
Matt Mar 2015
I guess it would be fun
If I had a female friend
To go hiking with
Or play golf with

It's better not
To think about
Being loved

It's better not to think about
Spending time with a female friend
That I care about

I think it would be fun
Just to have a conversation
About our interests
I would enjoy the companionship

Better not to think about things
That never come true
Mar 2015 · 309
Alone
Matt Mar 2015
I spend my days alone
Listening to podcasts
Playing golf

I wish I had a close female friend
That I could spend a few hours each day with

Well
Wishing something will not make it happen

That close companion will probably never come

Always alone
Hoping I could feel loved
By this female friend

Well its just a dream
Better to forget about it
As I don't think it will ever come true
Mar 2015 · 401
The End of America
Matt Mar 2015
Perhaps China
Will conquer the west
And Russia the east

When our nation collapses
It seems obvious to me
That there is no turning back
We are economically ruined
Mar 2015 · 278
Spiritual Thoughts
Matt Mar 2015
Effortless action
Nishkama Karma

The sage manages affairs without doing anything

Cessation

The Tao is like water
It nourishes all who it comes in contact with

The Tao is like water
It sinks to the low places
It does not desire or strive

Non-striving

Boundless light
Never ending compassion
Love for all

Show people the love that Jesus showed us

Not seeking recognition
Living humbly and simply
Enjoying nature

The sage puts his own person last
He has no personal and private ends
It is because of this that such ends are realized

Simply love all the people you meet along the way

The highest excellence is like that of water
Water benefits all things
And in its occupying
Without striving to the contrary
The low place, which men dislike
Hence its way is similar to that of the Tao

When wealth and honors lead to arrogance
This brings its evils on itself

When the work is done
To withdraw into obscurity is the way of heaven

The Tao produces all things and nourishes them
Yet it does not claim them as its own

Clay is fashioned into vessels
But it is on their empty hollowness
That their usefulness depends

So remain empty
Just as the clay vessel does

In being empty like the vessel
You can be receptive to what is around you

Remain in the present
And be filled with love
Mar 2015 · 773
The Dhammapada (Excerpt)
Matt Mar 2015
All that we are is a result of what we have thought

If a man speaks or acts with a pure thought
Happiness follows him
Like a shadow that never leaves him

Hatred ceases by love
The world does not know that we must come to an end here

But those who know it
Their quarrels cease at once

He who lives for pleasures only
Will be overthrown my Mara

He who lives without looking for pleasures
His senses well controlled
Moderate in his food
Faithful in strong

Passion will not break through
A well reflected mind

The virtuous man
Delights in this world

The virtuous man is happy in this world
He is happy when he thinks of the good he has done
Mar 2015 · 433
The Way
Matt Mar 2015
The thoughtful who enter the way
Are free from the passage of Mara

Cut down the whole forest of lust
And its undergrowth

So long is his mind in *******

Cut out the love of self
Cherish the road of peace
An excerpt from a podcast.  Not my own work.
Mar 2015 · 286
Stand
Matt Mar 2015
Stand in the cold
Stand in the rain
Stand in the heat
Stand when you feel emotional pain

Stand everyday

Where is the change?
Will I ever begin my career?

I just want to meet a good friend to talk to
But I have no money
And I can't meet anyone these days

I guess I'll be on youtube again
Matt Mar 2015
Struggling
Somehow, Someway

Struggling each day
To find a job

At least I have my hobbies
And Youtube too

Well life's hard
When you are not able to do what you want to do

I'm not one for complaining
I'm trying to change my situation

I hope to begin my career soon
I am 30 years old

I am living at the end of the American empire
No jobs
And our nation drowns in debt
A sad state of affairs
Mar 2015 · 269
The Keeper of The Light
Matt Mar 2015
There is a light
Inside of me
And inside of you

I am a keeper of the light
And so are you

Let is shine
No matter what you do

Now there are those
Who will come against you
Who do not understand love yet
Remember to show them love to

Deep inside of my soul
The light burns bright

The love that I show to others
Is a reflection of the love
Jesus showed to me

Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?

Jesus replied, "Love the Lord your God with all your heart
And with all your soul
And with all your mind."

This is the first and greatest commandment

And the second is like it: 'Love your neighbor neighbor as yourself.'

All the law and the prophets hang on these two commandments."
Mar 2015 · 284
"How's It Going"
Matt Mar 2015
How's it going?
I hear that question posed everyday to others
And to myself

Often I hear "fine" or "well"
Or "It's going good"

If you were to ask me
How's it going?

I would reply
Well I'm trying
Trying to show people love

I would say well
I'm just alone
Like I always am

Putting golf ***** on the putting green
It would be going better
If I had a good friend
Who I could spend time with
Mar 2015 · 459
Troubling Times
Matt Mar 2015
All Employees
Of The Russian embassy in London
Have left the UK

High ranking Russians
Are being taken to underground command centers

Putin has not been seen in the last week
It is likely he is in the Yamantau moutain complex

I hope
There isn't a big war
Mar 2015 · 781
Stop Talking To The Dogs
Matt Mar 2015
Stop talking to the dogs
They can't hear you

You are so stupid
Never had a career
Just sat at home
And watched the news

For thirty f** years!
What a miserable human being
You are
Matt Mar 2015
I was the last man on the range
Hitting wedges

Moutains framed the range
In the distance

First full swings
Then half shots

There was a sense of oneness
With the environment

The silence and the stillness
Just the sound of the club striking the ball
The breeze blowing the dirt back toward me

As the warm breeze blew
I struck each shot so purely
I cried some out of pure bliss

That was true contentment

I can't explain
I love the game so much
And to hit the ball so well
And my swing feels so good

I've hit ***** in every season
Spring, summer, fall and winter

This is an eternal game
Mar 2015 · 225
Beginning And Reality
Matt Mar 2015
Unheard the dews around me fall,
 And heavenly influence shed:
And silent on this earthly ball
 Celestial footsteps tread.
Night moves in silence round the pole,
 The stars sing on unheard,
Their music pierces to the soul,
 Yet borrows not a word.
Noiseless the morning flings its gold,
 And still the evenings place:
And silently the earth is rolled
 Amidst the vast of space.
In quietude Thy Spirit grows
 In man from hour to hour:
In calm eternal onward flows
 Thy all-redeeming power.
Lord, grant my soul to hear at length
 Thy deep and silent voice:
To work in stillness, wait in strength,
 With calmness to rejoice.
By: Stopford A. Brooke
Mar 2015 · 166
Terrible Times
Matt Mar 2015
Yes I'm ready for terrible times
I guess because I have known some so far

I have a feeling
Something bad will happen
To our country soon

Maybe a nuclear war
EMP attack
Food shortage

Who knows
But it won't be pretty
Mar 2015 · 224
My Feelings
Matt Mar 2015
I don't like my body much
Not big enough or strong enough
Despite working out

And I once cared for a person
Knowing I couldn't date her

Build the walls high
Don't let anyone in
Build the fortress

Live alone forever

Repeating cycles
It is all a simulation

Never feel much joy
Or Pain

Better to never fall in love
Then you can never lose

Just leave me alone
To hit golf *****
Until my body hurts
I keep hitting

Golf will love you back
If you love it
Not like people
Mar 2015 · 637
I Wonder What It Is Like
Matt Mar 2015
I wonder what it is like
To be a woman
To play with my *******
And *****

Softly moaning
And having multiple *******
Must be fun

Maybe there is a woman
Who will write a poem
About what it is like
Hehe
Mar 2015 · 974
As Tranquil As I Can Be
Matt Mar 2015
The agitated mind
Comes from restlessness
And anger

Well you know
I am listening to a podcast on tranquility

I am tranquil as I can be
In this terrible environment

As tranquil as I can be
When I can't change my life
No matter how much I try...
Mar 2015 · 258
Burn The Pictures
Matt Mar 2015
Burn the pictures
Destroy the memories
I hate the past
I hate this home

There are no jobs
I do not care

I will keep trying
But I just don't give a **** anymore
hahahah
Matt Mar 2015
"Have a nice day"
Is all she repeats
Then watches Fox news
In the middle of a day

Stop wishing me a nice day
You are so stupid
It's not "nice"

Because I can't find a job
I'm broke
Matt Mar 2015
These Dollars that we work for
Aren't worth anything now

But let's all just go on pretending
That nothing is wrong

Americans are good at that
Until everything goes terribly wrong
Matt Mar 2015
She is on a business trip in Vegas
But is thinking of cheating
On her fionsea

She is in the casino
On her tablet talking with me online

I play the role of a fellow woman
We both talk about how
We love athletic, powerful, and well-hung black men

She sees a hot black man playing poker

I told her to wear a top that shows off her ***** figure

Her fionsea is not with her on her trip...

She said that the powerful black man smiled at her
She is shaking I guess

This is happening live
As I type this poem

He asked her if she wanted a drink...

I hope she has an ******
And ******* time
With her powerfully built black man
Mar 2015 · 383
Take Care Pat, My Friend
Matt Mar 2015
I met a man about 10 years my senior
At the driving range
We talked about golf
And he let me hit his 3 wood
He had had a major surgery for his back
And his wrist too
But was doing fine

What a great guy Pat is
And he complimented me on my swing
May God bless you and your wife Pat

I said goodbye in the parking lot
And told him it was great talking to him
I told him to take care
What a good person
May the grace and love of Jesus be with you always Pat
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