I read in an article
That Tiger Woods hooked up with a ******

That's why Lindsey Vonn broke up with him

What's wrong with people?  

Lindsey always flew to be with Tiger
But Tiger always put his game first
According to the article

The friend of Tiger says he
Wished she had forgave him when they went to therapy

Well, I can understand why she didn't

Falling into an old habit
Hooking up with a ******
When you have a beautiful woman
Like Lindsay Vonn

I don't get it
How can someone who is so dedicated
And has won as many tournaments as him
Be such a big ***** up

I'm in no position to judge
As we all make mistakes
But things were going so well for them
And they were so happy together
Ugh!

It must be because he is pretty much
A self-centered person

Well Lindsay
I can run a bit better than a 7 minute mile
And I am a pretty good golfer
Let's go on a date, lol

Stop announcing where you are going
Or what you are doing

I don't f** care
I am 30 years old

You never worked
Just sat at home for 30 years

18 trillion dollar debt
240 trillion unfunded liabilities debt
1.5 quadrillion derivatives debt

On Nov 16, 2014
The G20 fulfilled the mandates of a new investment program
This new program creates a program
Whereby banks will no longer recognize
Your deposits as money

The deposits are unsecured deposits
Which now belong to the bank
At the moment you deposit your money

Russell Napier declared this day
As the day money died

Here I am again
Alone At the library

Human existence can be strange indeed
I think I will go for a long hike this afternoon

I just need to record something interesting to listen to

I definitely know about solitude
And it helps me to know myself

The Shemitah is the seventh year
In the seven year agricultural calendar of Israel

The current Shemitah ends September 24, 2015

Since 1973 every US financial collapse
Combined with subsequent recession
Has occured during Shemitah 100% of the time
This includes 2001 and 2008

Perhaps another collapse in September of this year

I saw a moment so pure
That it was beyond words
The deer sitting in a group

One stands
On the brown field

A light breeze
A late afternoon
On the field
South of the monastery

I will return there
I love spending time in nature

I admire the life of the wandering monk
I will usually greet fellow hikers with a friendly hello
Money is of no concern

I enjoy the simple life
Content to live at home
Content to lie against the log
Underneath the oak trees

My therapist she said my poems were beautiful
But she left me

It wasn't her fault
Her husband's company moved and so she
Had to leave her practice

A shame really
To spend sacred time together

Her smile
Her laugh
Now only memories

Don't think
Don't think about her Matt
Or the good times you had

You will only cry

It's okay
It's okay

I feel good
I don't need a companion like her
I have the oak trees and the birds

My friend at the gym
Had a shirt that says, "We are for the birds"
I am for them too

I can enjoy their company
And they will not leave me
Like people do

Some work at health stores
Others at markets

Some are teachers, lawyers, or doctors
Others clean homes

Some teach yoga classes

Whatever they do
They are paid paper dollars
This means they can buy things
And pay their bills

I do not have any paper dollars
Neither does the American middle class
The now dwindling middle class

Should I go to the gym?
Should I go for a hike?

I think first I will record
Mere Christianity
Onto my iphone

I'm Trying to decide the order of events

Organizing books
Answering calls about the availability of books

This is the role of the librarian

I am watching them in action now

Looks like a fun position to have

I don't have a position

I just wander from place to place

Maybe it is not wise
To have four or five children
Our planet is overpopulated as it is

Two children per family
Is plenty

She squeezed his *****
And wasn't it fun
To make that 8 inch *****
Spurt thick, warm, and gooey ***

She said with a grin,
"Yummmm"

I ate some yummy raisins today
A bit too many sugars in those raisins
But that's okay

I do love raisins
In the month of May

I ran three miles today at a 7 minute pace
I did something I didn't think I was capable of
Our minds our powerful

I will go to bed holding a pillow
Wondering what it would be like
To have a female friend

Just hugging that's it
Hugging and to feel loved by another
It would be so fulfilling to me

Plop
The drop hits the water

The Atman cannot be seperated from the Brahman
Brahman exists in and as everything

The wise person
Ignores the material
And seeks the spiritual

Let us be sincere
Sincere in our thoughts
And in our deeds

Life is powerful, isn't it?

I wonder what it would be like
To share a hug
With a loving person

I am 30 now

I would like to hug
A compassionate and loving woman
To gently massage her back

Human warmth

Oh how I have dreamed of this

I hope to meet someone like this
I am afraid that our friendship
May result in love
In physical intimacy
I am saving myself
For that woman

We share a love of history
And literature
We laugh and cry
We live together
We have a great love

Maybe
It is possible?
Hmm

Imagine that here in front of me I have a sachet of salt, a spoon and a bowl of water, I then mix the salt into the water and let it dissolve; after some time I try and remove a spoonful of water from the bowl, a spoonful of water that does not taste salty. I cannot [using the tools that he gave himself at the start]. That is the nature of Brahman, the teacher explained, existing both in and as everything.

This Is Life
And I am 30

You may be older or younger

I can tell you human beings share many things
We seek a purpose
Most all of us want to live in peace
And love each other

Most all people love the earth
And respect the earth

We seek a way to make a living
Where we can benefit others in some way

We recognize that material possessions will not last

What does last?
What are the most important qualities the human should have?

I would say to love others
To forgive others

There is too much hate in the world
Let us live with love in our hearts

We are the human race
We live on earth
A planet that orbits the sun
In the milky way galaxy
Isn't that amazing?

But our human race is in trouble
Wars across the globe
Economies on the verge of collapse

Examine yourself
Who you are
And what you stand for

How would you like others to remember you?

The impact we have on others

The people we have inspired or assisted
In their life journey

Will be written into our memories

Are you about 30 with an education like me
Are you broke living at home?
Hard to find a good job isn't it?

Your parents like mine
Had a much easier job market at their age

I learned from them that money is so important
Money,money,money

Our money doesn't have much value anymore

So what is going on with Jade Helm?  
The police are training with the military

A Navy Seal says that this is the final training exercise
He says it is the final preparation for the collapse
Of the U.S. government and the management
Of civil unrest and martial law

I hope for the best, but prepare for the worst

A smile is a frown
Turned upside down

So let us laugh
Laugh at the tragedy of life

It's okay
Dry your eye
Please don't cry!

We all suffer here
And there is always someone
Who has it worse than you

So just try to be grateful
Keep calm and carry on
Like the shirt says, lol

Don't forget to take your pills
Anxiety pills and happy pills
However many kinds some people take
I think at least 2 or 3

Because you need them apparently
Heavily medicated American
Coffee and more coffee and television
And more television

Oh yes and alcohol
You have an alcohol problem too

You are drugged up America

Please don't take those pills unless it is necessary

The Show Must Go On
No Matter What You Feel

Or No Matter If You Are Always Alone
Even if you will never work
Or leave  home

The show must go on!
This great big show

And I am just a man sitting on my porch
Watching a play
The tragedy of human existence, lol
I am enjoying the show

Oh boy, what a show
Tonight I will enjoy recording my articles

Yea I eat steak
I'm also not ashamed to say I *******

I stayed at the Holiday Inn
Loved the continental breakfast so much
I'll be goin' there again

This planet spins around the sun
It really is alot of fun

I'm always alone
I guess that's a shame
Some say this life is like a game

I have no money
Or no honey
It's no big deal
I think that's funny

I often sit upon that log
Try not to eat the hog
Hog is pig
Eat too much and you'll get too big

I'm a joggin man
Runnin' on that treadmill
As fast As I can

This country is way in debt
The license plate read "Trake man" on his blue 'vette

He is a bald guy that works out at the gym
He is fairly buff and I am more slim

I love these dried apricots
I said with a grin
Lord help me not to sin

My therapist she went away
Well I'll be fine and that's okay

We are a nation in debt
A nation that does not respect its vets

I spend my life alone
I like to watch youtube in my home

I should buy a birding book
After all
I now have a video of a sparrow hawk
And an oriole!

I enjoy watching the birds
How they go from one place to another
Like people do

First here
Then there
Flitting about

I never cared for the expression
"Wishing you the best"

It seems a bit vacuous
Even if it is written or said
With the most well meaning intent

It is too vague
And not personal

Although
If it is said sincerely
I appreciate it

Best implies trying
Success or whatever
Whatever this thing
Called "best"
Some western concept
That doesn't exist

There should only be effortless action

Watching a documentary on the Cold War
Playing a game on my Ipad

Later
I will sit in on the bench
At the beginning of the nature trail

Yes I spend my hours alone
My weeks alone too

I am a plain and simple man

You can find me lying against the old log
Underneath the oaks
My tan colored pants blend in with the environment

The birds they are my friends
I have a dull expression on my face

The Tao is like water
It nourishes all things
And it is essential to life

Just as water is essential to life
So is love

I try to be a loving person
It is important to me

I often hike the trail
Next to the monastery

Some old black and white footage
Of Stalin, Churchill, and FDR
Meeting at one of their conferences

If I knew nothing of these men
I can see one is different

His eyes
There is no light there
Even when he laughs or smiles
In the footage of him at Potsdam
He does not radiate light
He is evil
He committed evil deeds
He is not a man at all
But something much less

Look carefully
Look into the eyes
You can catch a glimpse
Of who that person is

I don't expect much
From this doomed nation
Military machines massing

Economy gone to hell

Let's just all sit and pretend
That everything is okay

I'm angry
I'm angry
******!

I'm 30 and I live in this ******* home
And chances are I won't get a good job
Or be able to move out
There is no future in this country

I like being alone
All day
All month
All year

I don't want to work any more
I don't care
Just so I can barely make enough
Worthless paper dollars

I'm storing food and water now
I'll survive
I'm good at that

Everyone Go Away
Go Away!
All I need is food and water
Food and water and the gym

Can't get job

Hours in front of this machine

I don't want anything to ever change!!!!

Living at the end of this country
They'll round up American citizens like cattle
Herd them into the FEMA camps

I'll be alone like always

2 pac is angry too
Listen to him in the link provided

Well I'll just keep being a compassionate and loving person
Like I always have been

I'm going to the chat rooms again
Yes, this is my idea of company
After all, my friends don't live close

Isolated
In the chat rooms again

On my computer again
I spend many many hours
On this machine

I love all my internet friends
Wish they were here at times
But I am content
With online companionship
In the chat rooms

Have yahoo, skype, or gmail chat?
I'll see you in the chat rooms!

I sat against the log
Listening to a podcast
About the first American colonists

I saw two sparrow hawks
Swoop between the trees

I listened to their calls
And recorded one with my iphone

I saw two lovers embrace
(It must be nice to be close to someone)

And a mother with a young babe on her *******

I saw a woman walking away from me
Smoking a cigarette
(Doesn't she know it's bad for your health?)

Life is a show I guess

In Pakistan
The CIA has bombed bombs funerals in Pakistan
I heard in this interview

Yes this nation sometimes kills the innocent
But that is nothing new

The Pakistani government cooperates
With the drone strikes

The UN investigation is being stalled by our government

This high ranking U.S. official said,
"We are the only country that thinks
We can use drones wherever we want,
Outside of a hot battlefield."

U.S. citizens are told the strikes are lawful
Our courts are being blocked from
Weighing in on the issue

They have had hardly any impact on the Taliban

According to the state department
Al Qaeda is 10 times stronger in Yemen today
Than when the drone program was started

According to the expert
Tactically they can be successful
Strategically we too often don't know what
We are doing with them

Often the operators
Are traumatized by what they experience
3 or 4 year stints with no down time
The operators were internalizing their experiences

Most all people are beautiful
Their personalities are wonderful
Most all people just want to be love and be loved

There are many people on this earth
About 7 billion I think

Overall though
It is a primitive race
This human race

We still don't use natural resources wisely
And there are still corrupt governments
This human race still can't live in peace

There will always be those evil people unfortunately
At the heads of government
Or in positions of power
That make life miserable for others

I guess some things never change

Just do your best
To treat others with respect
Remember your fellow man and woman
How they struggle like you have
Showing loving compassion to them

I met a man at the gym
75 I believe
Still smiling and loving life
Came up to me to say hello

We talked for a bit
I hope to see him again

I told this asian guy
With his birding book
That I saw a black and yellow bird
In the gym parking lot
He looked excited
I hope he has a great time birding

Turns out it was a California Oriole!
Next time I see him
I'll tell him I saw an Oriole

The national guard fired the tear gas
Then followed the students over the hill
Toward the football field
A group of students threw some bricks
The guardsmen threw the bricks back

The guardsmen dropped to their knees
A group of them had a meeting
Officers of the guard give the order to
Return to the staging ground of the ROTC building

One of the guardsmen was hit with in the back of the leg with
A chunk of concrete
As they walked back

Someone said "Fire"
It may have been hold your fire
The guard recalled
After the first shot went off
The other guards began to fire

A guard said he felt as though
He was in jeopardy
As a guy came toward him
And he fired on him

Another guard said during the interview
That he knew it wasn't right

A total of 67 bullets over 13 seconds

One guard member said,
He would have shot too, if he had been with the firing group.
I quote him,
"I hate to see anyone lose their life, I really do
It came to a boiling point where I thought it was going to happen
Justified, I don't know?"

It was not justified.  Their lives were not threatened.  The guardsmen never should have even had the option to use deadly force.

He continued,

"If I was standing up there, I probably would have fired, knowing the others were firing.  If I had a line of sight, and a line of fire, I would have fired.  Just because others were firing, and I don't know how I would have justified that."

People have a right to assemble peacefully.  

May the victims rest in peace.

Tired of Being alone
My therapist she left me
She didn't give me much notice

I love podcasts
History or philosophy

I am reading selections from Burke

I have an akward shoulder

I work out almost every day

I am isolated
I am tired
Alone Alone Alone

Alone
No one to hug

Showin' up
At randomn times and places
Seein' different faces

Got a check for $42 dollars
At Play It Again Sports today

Then deposited the check

Not sure what to do with the money
Should I buy some emergency food
Or an extra pair of shoes?  lol

Finished off the other half of my double double
And small chocolate shake

Chipped golf ***** and hit sand wedges

I'm here, I'm there, I'm everywhere
But I'm never in a place
That pays me money, lol

One of the main political questions of the day is:

Is the government going to overwhelm the people
With its strength, size and intrusiveness?

CONSIDERING THE FLU NOW HITTING THE POULTRY INDUSTRY AND FUKUSHIMA’S DESTROYING SEA LIFE IN THE PACIFIC,FAMINE IS ACCELERATING AT BREAK NECK SPEED.FAMINE IS THE ORDER OF THE DAY AS GEO-ENGINEERING NOW MANIFESTS ITS DEADLY RESULTS IN DROUGHT,FAMINE AND DISEASE.IF YOU HESITATE YOU MAY VERY WELL STARVE,AT LEAST THATS WHAT THE GLOBALIST DESIRE! PROTEIN WILL BE THE FIRST THING TO DIS-APPEAR.IF YOU THINK IM KIDDING ALL THE TRUCKERS WHO ARE CARRYING FOOD,MEDICINE AND FOOD STUFS TO THE UNDERGROUND CITIES AND BUNKERS ARE AMAZED AT HOW MUCH OF THEIR FREIGHT IS GOING TO THESE ELITE ‘BUNKERS' VERSUS HOW MUCH FOOD IS BEING HELD BACK FROM SELECT STATES AND AREAS SUPER MARKETS AND WAREHOUSE DISTRIBUTION CENTERS-IT ONLY GETS WORSE FROM HERE

May 5, 2015

I have food stored but it won't be enough I suppose
Oh well

My Friend She Went Away
We had a good time
My therapist and my friend

Too bad
Now I'm all alone again

Oh well
America is doomed

Strange for a human being to be always alone
I don't think it is meant to be like this?
Human beings are meant to be social

But my situation these days
Means I'm always alone
Just me and my podcasts

Strange for a human being to be always alone
I don't think it is meant to be like this?
Human beings are meant to be social

But my situation these days
Means I'm usually alone
Just me and my podcasts

Tired and unfulfilled
Walking down to the gym
Just more of the same

Going to go work out
At least I have my podcasts
I live in the past sometimes

Eating a Bit Too Much Today
I guess it's okay
If I feel a little down
I eat too many carbs

Oh well, am going to gym
To burn off the calories

$46.90 the city charged me
For parking the car on the street overnight

Seems a bit much
But the city needs the revenue

No jobs in this city
Or anywhere for that matter

No future for Californians

I had cereal, yogurt, strawberries, grape tomatoes
A small bit of toast, and some peanut butter
For my breakfast

Although I can't remember the order
I have no money for gas
So I'll walk to the gym again

I think I'll chip golf ***** later

Need to pay off minimum payment on credit card

Ugh and I have to pay that parking ticket
I needed the money days ago
Oh well
I'm used to being broke

Return to the mountain
Return to the yoga mat
And raisins

I can't pay my bills
And I don't really care
I've always been poor

I create my own world
And my own life
My podcasts

I dont have a job or money
And that is just fine
They did not hire me

That rude administrator said," We have all been in your shoes before"
You have never been in my shoes

I'm just going to sit on my yoga mat

I'm going to cause a problem here
I do not exist as a part of this society
I live in my own world
A world I created for myself

I could spend a thousand years
Sitting on my yoga mat
Underneath the oak tree
I am a Tagatha now

I sit and meditate
I drink my water
That has the electrolyte mix

Yes there are bills
Car insurance, student loan
Health insurance, credit card,
About 600 dollars a month

I'm tired of these people that live here
If they kick me out
I will go live in a park
I do not care

Stay away from me
People who live here
People who spend too much time
In front of the television
People who take anxiety pills
Stay away from me

Concentrate on others
And not on yourself
You may find it to be wonderful

There is a way for me
A path for me in this life

I love the life of the mind

I am just a plain simple man
I hope to meet a female companion

To love a woman deeply
Is too intense for me

Friendship is wonderful

Hmmmm
What should I record onto my iphone now?
Maybe The Republic by Plato
Or some more speeches by Churchill

I really did care for my therapist
It is too bad she had to move away
But it's okay
One day I think I may meet a woman
To be friends with for life

I am loyal to my friends

Slow and steady
The asian man I talked to
Is in his eighties
And still walks up our street each day

"Where is the lady in the garden?" he asked
I told him she was in the back I think
He is a kind man

One day he told me I am young and to enjoy life
He is young
His smile you should see
So sweet

That is the ancient way
The eternal joy he kept through time

I can see
I have eyes that see
I just try my best to be kind to others

I made my way through Sierra Madre
Through the trail entrance and past the monastery

Three miles or so I hiked
I took a video of a snake
Little miniature birds
About 2 inches or so
Fluttering in the bush

When I look across at the mountain
It seems so very close
Never did a mountain seem so real

Birds dance beneath the sunlit sky
Ancient earth
Magnificent

I walk alone
But I am never alone
For He is with me

And now I have some up close photos
Of a lizard
Two shades of brown and teal
Were the colors it displayed

I always say hello
To my fellow hiker

I often wonder about those
Who for whatever reason don't say
A simple hi in return

We share the same earth after all
How hard is it
Just to return the hello?
I do not understand

Sitting on the green bench
At the trail's entrance
Small stumps and grass
The breeze blows

The monastery bells ring at 6 pm
To be good
To do good
To show love to my fellow human being
Is what I will always do

Groups of hikers passing by
With their dogs

I make my way back through Sierra Madre
And On a tree
There is a box
That reads "please take one"

It is a poem template
Entitled "I Am From"
Inspired by "Where I'm From"
By George Ella Lyon

More hours alone
Watching WWII documentaries
Playing an Ipad game

Just more of the same
Same Same Same

My therapist went away
And no it is not okay
I didn't have much advanced notice

We had a good time
Now those times have gone away

I want some cranberry juice and oranges
I want to give someone a hug

Lol I sit alone at my desk
Age 30

I think I am going to sit underneath the oak tree today

Nearly half the country
Receives most of its subsistence
From the other half

The public treasury
Has become a public trough

This began under Roosevelt and Wilson
Neither of them experienced participation
In the risk of their own personal wealth
In order to get a return on their investment

One was coddled by academia
The other by his own family

B is For Buckler
Contains less than 0.5% alcohol by volume

Imported from Holland
And only 75 calories

Hard to beat a Buckler
Awfully hard

So What's It
What's It
What's It
What's It all about?

People chasing American dreams
Unable to live and enjoy the present moment it seems

They frown when their stocks go down

This American Empire is at it's end

When things collapse
I will be on the mountain my friends

Sometimes I laugh
Sometimes I cry
I never ever ask why

I'm just goin'g along with my program
Goin' along with my program

I'm synced up
I'm linked up

This is my earth program
I'm just going along with my program

I walk along a suburban street
And need some new shoes on my feet

I'm just going with the flow
Showing love to those
I do and do not know

It's plain to see
There is no me
Separate from me

Just goin along with my program
And lovin' my earth program