One day the internet went dead
The globalists didn't want people
Exchanging ideas they said
On our right to communicate freely they tread

So I would like to thank you all in advance

Those who read and commented on my poems

Even when times are tough
Remember human beings have endured events
Much more rough

Allahu Akbar
God is Greatest
In any language or faith it's true
Love your neighbor
And do unto others as you would have them
Do unto you

Military forces building up
Your free time is almost up

The time is almost here
When we will lose our American values
We hold dear

No more driving here and there
Now there are checkpoints everywhere

A standing military force we should fear
These days of trouble are now near

Listen, listen
All who have ears to hear
Yes, I may shed a tear

What will happen to our American life?
Soon there maybe only strife

U.N. troops come crashing in
Demanding to see what lies within

Our private property
No longer ours they say

They will try to seize your assets
On that fateful day

But not my property
I'm a man
I may not be that big and strong
But I'll fight this globalist **** all day long

I know the 4th Amendment and my rights
I may not be armed
But stand I will
On that terrible night

An ethnic Tajik
A Sunni Muslim from the valley of Panshir

He stood and fought when danger was near
He fought proudly with his Muslim brothers
For the way of life they held so dear

Soviet attack helicopters
Tanks too

They attacked in vain
Ahmad has a heart so true

He was going to warn the West
Of the 9/11 attacks

Osama put a price on his head
I wish the Lion would come back

Death to communism
Afghanistan is the true Muslim's land
The Taliban are evil
And belong buried in the sand

Ahmad Massoud's spirit can never die
To Allah
His spirit will fly!

I am thinking of the days
When our American way of life has gone away

Jade Helm will be commencing soon
In this month of June

Armored vehicles on the streets
There rationing food now
They will tell you how much
You will be allowed to eat

The government and banksters paved the way
Amassing a monumental debt
They could never pay

Our economy teeters on the brink
Our economy will soon sink

They will violate our Constitutional rights

Now they're knocking on your door

History repeats itself
It is the same as before
Shades of Stalin and ****** too
Forced removal of citizens
It's what happened to the Jews

Some say, "It could never happen here."
Young people glued media
Clueless to the danger near

Give me Liberty
Or give me death

I believe in those words until
My very last breath

****
I've been telling you not to call me that
For the past year

You can't remember

Never used her mind

I'll never get out of this home
Or get a job

And I just
Don't care
Anymore

I was chatting in an adult chat
As I often do

Jerking off
As no woman wants to touch me
Sad but true

I like to pretend to be a mean beautiful woman there
Stroking happily without a care

30f4insecurefem my screen name reads
Who knows where the next chat will lead

I started talking to a woman who was insecure
She had some emotional baggage, that's for sure

I invited her to a private chat with my friend Jen
Gorgeous girls we are
I had pictures to prove it
We are both 10s

I encouraged Alyssa to not give up
To put down the oreos and maintain a strict diet

She thanked us and seemed happy

But Jen my friend (I was typing as Jen too)
She is the bad part of me and you
She told Alyssa to state her weight

A couple of times
5'4 171
Alyssa told us

Alyssa was quiet
I have a feeling she did not feel that great

Why was I first kind and supportive
And then mean?
Roleplaying as these women
Strange it seems

In the end Alyssa I'm just like you
Inside a body I cannot change
Painful but true

I lifted weights my whole life
Never got big or strong!
Still a lanky guy
What I said to Alyssa was wrong

But she messaged me
She wanted to chat

I asked her if she was looking at the oreo again
Please stop eating
It's a terrible sin

I told her she was a good person

When I was young I wanted to be strong
Lifted weights constantly all day long
Ended up damaging the muscle tissue some
I don't think a woman will ever want to see me ***

Now I can't be big or strong
No matter much I lift
Still a lanky guy
****-- ****!

I just want to meet some women or have a good time
But the only way I can talk to women is online

So be strong Alyssa
You have to be
I was cruel, but the world has been cruel to me

Say a prayer you'll be okay
And go on to fight another day

The Mujahideen fight for their way of life
They simply want to practice their religion
Follow their religion
And live in peace

The Soviets have no right to invade
And tell them how to live

Rocket propelled grenades
Were effectivey used at the Kandahar pass
Soviet tanks were sitting ducks
They met their end

Guerilla fighters
Walk and fight in the mountains
They mastered the ambush

The Battle of Arghandab
The Soviets attacked
An entrenched Mujahideen
The Afghan government forces often defected to the resistance

Some Soviet aircraft
Were shot down by Stinger missles
Provided by the U.S.

The Russian people were lied to
About what their military was doing there
They were told they were nation building

The war caused around one million civilian deaths
And the emigration of 5 to 10 million Afghans

Dictating articles
On my Iphone

At the nature park

As I leave
A man walks by with a beautiful woman

Mysterious these women are
And beautiful
Her black hair shimmers
She had a beautiful smile

Don't look
Don't look at beautiful things
For she will be there for a few seconds
And then gone

On a hike with another man
A man who is not me
Well that's how it always is

My clothes are plain
My left shoulder is a bit akward

I think of how beautiful she was

Smiling women
I have to remind myself to be carfeul
I must protect myself from them

My therapist smiled wonderfully
Then she left me

Do not wish for a female companion
Be content to have nature

I continue down the street
A hybrid sits charging

A man in his garage
Listens to "Get the cool, get the cool shoe shine"

This is a small town
Quiant mountain town
Of Sierra Madre

Founded in 1882
By Mr. Carter
Carter is the name of the street
Where the nature park is

Home of the Pinney House
I passed by there earlier when I went to the mailbox
Built in 1887 as one of the original railroad hotels

I begin recording the birds
There many sounds

They seem more clear than before

A parrot sits on top of the tree
His, the loudest call of all
Yes, this is the time of year they migrate

Two people emerge a few hundred yards away
Entering Sierra Madre
We eventually converge

I am heading west
They are heading east

In the far distance two walkers
Walk parallel to each other
Heading south

A man and a woman
Walk their dogs
They decide not to go any further
But to turn back

These are the 10,000 things
Who come from the same source

This is the Tao

No jobs
No future
For young Americans

I thought I had known stillness
But not like this

I thought I had known silence
But this was a sacred silence

Dusted off a rock
That lay against the side of the trail
It formed a relaxing chair

I ate my avocado
My popcorn
My apricots
And golden raisins

My headlamp on for a bit
The small moths fluttered in the air

I alone am dull
I alone am confused

I had thought about going to the summit
To see the sunrise

I was too tired
I was at ease
Sitting there

Not desiring
Content to sit
And listen to the Tao Te Ching

My clothes plain
My body a plain earth body

Alone and content
Tao Is Wise Mother

As I walked down the trail
A man with a wooden walking stick walked up

"HI" I said
I thought of my old friend

He has the eternal goodness

I remind myself to be kind in my dealings with others

You know something like 200,000 dollars
Was spent to educate me

And here I am on Amazon
Wishing I could afford to order two
Pair of hiking socks instead of one

I'll use my debit card for this transaction
And make the payment on my credit card this month
And then I will be able to order a second pair
Lol

Skip a day at the gym
And gain a bit of weight

30 and not getting any younger
Living at home

No job...
14 months no career...

I spend too much time chatting online
Hoping to find a friendly chat

Oh well
I' content to have good food to eat
And have a gym to go to

Hop-along bird

Hopping on the rock
Next to the mountain trail

With my Iphone
I zoomed in

And saw it eating a small grub
Mmmm
Eat your dinner

As I walked down the trail
An elder couple enjoyed their dinner
They had the baseball game on

A beautiful woman came off the trail
Women are beautiful
Better not to get to close to one
Better to stay a ******

Notice the small things
The Tao Te Ching says

I noticed how pretty she was
Next to me at the stop sign
She turned left, and me right

Beautiful women come and go
But I'll always have the birds

Tao is wise mother

Some say that it was Obama's fault
For withdrawing troops from Iraq

That's why we have the ISIS problem

Idiots

Everyone knows the U.S supports ISIS
They use it to attack their enemies in the Middle East
They use it to serve as a pretext for U.S. military intervention abroad,
And at home to foment the expansion of government surveillance
And increase the size of the military

Oh well
Some Americans
Are so stupid they just ***** forth
What they see on the knews

So how's life?
You may ask

A lesser man would drown his sorrows in a flask

But instead I'm off the gym
Once again

My dreams dashed upon the rocks
In my room
Stroking my hard c*
To women on a computer screen

Welcome to my American dream!

Independence and my own life?

Sometimes it seems there is only strife

Still I must go on

Please someone read my sad song!

Half-heartedly searching for jobs
I will not attain
Being so poor is such a pain

I'm not attractive
Nor rich

I asked a dominant woman to call me her *****

I did it because it helped me ***
****** pleasures are only temporarily fun

Sitting in the white room
In front of a white Mac
Typing text in a chat room

Black text on a white screen

Reaching out
Don't know any women in real life

These conversations online
They dissapoint me
Or they end

Where have all the people gone?
Where are meaningful conversations
And good friendships?

In the white room
All I get is this computer
And chats

Chats with women
Searching and searching
For attractive and intelligent
For dominant and **** women

They fulfill a great need
Giving my **** a hard stroke
Ahhhhh

This ******* white room!!!!!!!

Is so fulfilling

Once I had a therapist
She was kind and loving

She left me
That was not moral

Now I'm in this white room
Typing on my computer

I feel close to this computer

All the hours I spend on this computer

****, ****, ****, **** me

This life can be

Full of misery

I had a fun chat online
With a pretty woman I like

But now she left me
And I'm all alone

Alone, alone, alone

Off to read my articles

This life it ***** with me
This life is painful sometimes

I like women
And yet I don't know any women

Oh well,

She closed off the convo
Without saying goodbye
Or that she had class

Did I say something to anger her?

I hope we can chat again
She said she is a Christian

Maybe she didn't mean to do that?

I like talking to her
This life is lonely
So lonely

All day
Every day
All week
All month
All year

Standing somewhere
Reaching out

"Is there anybody out there?"
"Anyone lonely like me?"

I am tired of being lonely

I had a ***
And wasn't it fun

One small moment of pleasure
Having naughty talk
With a woman on a screen

These days
It's so hard to find an actual human being

Alone I live

Now it's back to my articles

Dictating onto my iphone

A labor of love

No woman is near
To give me a hug

I had a ***
And wasn't it fun

One small moment of pleasure
Having naughty talk
With a woman on a screen

These days
It's so hard to find an actual human being

Alone I live

Now it's back to my articles

Dictating onto my iphone

A labor of love

No woman is near
To give me a hug

To the ladies

I challenge you to intimately describe
The first time
A powerful man thrusted deep inside

He wasn't your first
But the best

Pleasing your womanhood
Bettter than the rest

Describe this man
And how he made you feel

As I digest a mid morning meal


(I wouldn't expect any woman to write about
Something so personal)

He showed me his architectural drawing
So precise
So beautiful
The perspective of the drawing

Just with a straight edge


Beyond words
The old architecture student

He said he had schizophrenia

His eyes were so kind
This man he spent 20 hours a day
Working on this drawing

May God be with you

I met a remarkable man today

Rock, paper scissors
Which one is it?
It's your decision

And no matter what you choose

You're goin' to live it

Maybe the song is saying
We all have a path to choose
Decisions to make

No matter what we choose
We are going to live it

True words
Life is full of decisions

Fight and scrape
For ever miserable
Devalued dollar

That is the globalists plan for me

You know they are having a family dinner
I left because I'm not a success I guess
I don't have a good job

I don't feel welcome there I guess
So now I'm at the Starbucks

In senior seminar
I did so well
I defended my thesis

Gave my oral defense
A- on my final paper

This woman she said she didn't mean to ask me
Such a difficult question

I said it was fine
I answered it well
Kind of her to come up to me after my presentation
I had never really spoken to a woman before

I remember her
She was in my Bio Lab

She winked at me one time
I was speaking about the usefulness of Biology
I spoke about the career of a park ranger

I was with all the nursing and bio majors
In that class
I did well in that lab
A- I believe

She was pretty

But alas
Women
To women I don't seem to exist

I miss their company

I am alone
Like Immanuel Kant On his daily walk
An intellectual with a nice hard ****

Perhaps one day a woman will like me?

It's another time
It's another place
Perhaps longing in vain
To meet a loving and kind female face

I am in the white room

Like Neo
Neo in the white room

I like that movie
The matrix

I always felt that this place
Was like a dream

Is it real
Or is my brain in a vat?

It's real
Strange though
A persistent dream
This life

You know when spend your days alone
Your years alone
You realize
The human need for companionship

I laughed at the movie Sideways
I saw a guy on the elliptical
Watching the second playing of it
On the same channel

He was laughing too

I would have liked to talk about the movie with him
But he was busy
Doing his own thing

Everyone is on their iPhone
Or doing their own thing
And that's fine

Can't go out
No money to meet people
That meetup site
Hmm maybe I'll try there

Went hiking with a neighbor recently

A least I have people here
Who enjoy my works
I'll just keep writing here

Hummingbird flutters in front of window
Quick, quick, take a pic!

I fumbled to turn on my iPhone

The home button is broken
So I have to restart every time I want to change to another app

I was too slow
And then it was gone

Here and gone
Just like this life
One fleeting moment to the next
It's a "do happening"
As Alan Watts said

Alone at the library

I will continue dictating the article entitled,

"Unlimited War and Social Change:

Unpacking the Cold War's Impact"

I was sold a bill of goods

I went to college
And spent another 16 months
To get a credential

And I still don't have a dime
Hundreds of thousands of dollars
Spent on my education

You know what
Just **** it
**** this miserable state
This poor state
Jobless state
Worthless economy
Ruined nation

I just don't give a ****
If I ever work again
Sure I'll try

But I tell you I have learned with all my education
It means nothing in this economy
So **** it

Happy to read articles all day
Happy to take pictures of the birds

Content to live in that room in my parents home

They were going to paint
My Room
Lol!

I had the painter just touch up the trim
I've been through enough ****

I'm tough now
And mean

My therapist she left

Bird in a cage
Talons sharpened

You threaten me or
Argue with me

Eeeeek eeeeek,
The high pitched cry of a angry falcon!

Righteous anger

For all my education
I don't get anything
Not a single dime!

Be careful with
An angry bird

Off To College

You know I graduated there almost 7 years ago now
Class of 2008 for my B.A.

And still no career

HAHAH

Off to look for a career

Lol

She enjoys philosophy!

She studies bio

Wants to work in neuroscience
Research and development one day

She loves hiking
And is a Christian too
Wow!

Too bad she lives in Colorado

Lol I guess I'll just keep dreaming

All the things
On the screen
The things I see on the screen

The money, cars, women
Vacations, etc.

I cannot have

Nor do I care

Content to meditate in the mountains

Here we go again
14 months
No money and no job

Goodbye
American dreams

Hello poverty and survival

After I pay off the credit card this month

I guess I'll buy some new running shoes
And a kettlebell

Talking to women online again
I can't meet women in real life

I have no job or money so

I just talk to women online

lol

So who will be the next president?
Hillary or The Other Guy?

I don't think it really matters
Life for my generation
Will be much more difficult than my parents

If you buy this car
You can feel like royalty they say
Driving around in some Nissan

Buy this product
And you can feel a certain way

They say that in American advertising
Every single day

If a car makes you gives a feeling of importance
Or boosts your ego
I think there is a problem, lol

All a car ever did is take someone from one place to the next

Not that I don't love some cars

Perfecting my form with the kettle bell swing
Running miles at the gym

Harden the body
Harden the mind

I looked in the mirror and asked,

Who am I?
Well you see I'm just this guy

One hip is a little weaker than the other
But I do my exercises to strengthen it
I still ran 3 miles at a 6:30 pace
I don't give a ******

Now flossing my teeth at home

My goodness
I enjoy writing poems

I walk through my neighborhood
Two women in their twenties

In the front room
With the lights on
I can see right in

But I don't think they see me
Expensive mac books
I think I saw a UCSD license plate

I'm lonely
I wish I could have introduced myself
Dropped in and asked if they would like to have a glass
Of wine with me

Maybe chat and later
Have naughty *** talk

Maybe if they like me
Next time I will take my testosterone pills
So I will be good and ready to go

Haha
But this is just a fantasy
And I am a ******

And who wants to be close to a human being anyway

And so I return from my walk
To my computer

Yes I am intimate with my computer

I once had a good female friend
She was my therapist
She left though

So now I have no female friends

I use to laugh with her
She said my poems were beautiful
She listened intently

I made her cry once
From the love I showed her

I had thought she might call me her friend
She didn't and that's okay

We talked about her faith
And how we both believed

But now those times have gone away

I wrote a poem that day...

I called it a "Return To The Mountain"

I do not want to work at a job
I just want to go away, away, away,

I am the keeper

The one who keeps the times

About 100 yds south of my home

A man turns right and walks down my street

A few houses down a neighbor closes his car door

The evening breeze blows

A woman walks on the street
That runs east west
Beneath my block

This is the Tao

Off To The Gym
More hours alone
I'll enjoy my workout
And the Clippers game

I am an angry American

I do not know what to feel anymore

I went to school my whole life
I never got drunk
Or did anything wrong
I treated everyone with kindness

I cannot get a job

I am stuck in this home
My therapist she left

The person that lives here keeps announcing
What she is doing, or where she is going
Knocking on my door to tell me

I'M 30 YEARS OLD
I DON'T ******* CARE!

Where you are going
Or what you are doing

I take that large wooden pole
I wield it like a weapon
Slamming it into the bed frame

Then I go outside
Upper cutting the air
I wield it like a weapon

I am a warrior
My heart full of hate and anger
I don't want to be like this

But this life it makes me like this
Money Money Money!!!!
Every second of every day
You are reminded
That you don't have the money
And probably never will

I take those free protein bars
From the gym
And save them

And I'm going to get some *******
Canned tuna
To add to my emergency supply
The globalists want to ruin our country

The experts say it is already ruined

U.N. military vehicles
Collapsed economy
Big disasters

I am not going to any FEMA CAMP

I'm in the mountains gone
Gone so far away
With my huge emergency bag

I may only last a month or so
Before I starve to death

But I will leave free
And die free
If I must

I am an angry American!!!!!!!!!!!!

Enjoy your Sunday Morning

I hope that you do

I listen to the birds
I eat my cereal bowl
I will have some yogurt perhaps
Rasins too

I think a small cup
Of hot chocolate ovaltine will do

Enjoy your Sunday morning

And I will too

Sitting In front of another
**** movie

Brain rotting

Laughing at the same stupid
Corny lines
Content to be nothing
To do nothing

Never did anything
A 60 something year old who never used her mind

What an incredibly stupid person

Do something!

I hate this **** house
And the stupid people that live here

Stop repeating the same sayings over and over
It's people like you that end up getting dimentia
And it's YOUR fault!

World economies teetering on the edge
ISIS threats
Enemies armed with nuclear weapons

Fukishima radiation
Illegal immigration and Overpopulation

Terrorists cross the unguarded U.S. border
Passing throug a Texas range
Don't forget droughts, food scarcity and climate change

I figure it's likely
Somthing terrible is bound to happen
In this nation

Better not to fall in love
Or to be too close to someone
It's too risky

Besides
I was never that content with my body

So please ladies
Don't touch me
Or flirt with me

Stay away

I hate living here

There are no good jobs

Rockets take the lead
We were playing so well
Now are being outscored 29 to 10 in the fourth quarter

Come on Clippers
I don't want to see a game seven

Life's a show
Don't ya know

And when his ***** is hard
She gives it a blow

In the winter time
Mongolian steppes
Are covered in snow

It's okay
If you don't have a man

Just use your vibrators and *****
The best you can!

Ben wa *****
And your fingers too

Will make you exclaim, "Phew"
Tired you may be
When your ****** **** so

Orgasmically!

Wasn't it ******
And wasn' it fun
When I ****** my *****
This morning
And made it have a big ***

I listened to discussions on
The Reconstruction, Aristotle and Aquinas

I had a can of tuna for lunch
I hit the ball so well at the range

And I cried a bit
When I thought of my therapist and her smile
When I thought of her laugh
And the love she showed me

It's okay though
She may be gone physically
But the love she showed me lives in me

After hitting *****
I came home and it began to pour!
How wonderful is the rain

Had some frozen corn
Boiled it in a ***

I called my friend
And we talked about how the clippers are winning

It's cold in Reno!
In the twenties my friend said

Now I'm boiling pasta
As I record the last lecture on Aristotle

My love goes out to
All the poets
At Hello Poetry

I message beautiful women
On the chat site

I am friendly and polite
This is my social life with women

In Los Angeles
If you don't have money
You can't go out and date

I enjoy convos online
With women

I hope you message me back Chantelle
You are such a beautiful brunette goddess

I await anxiously at my computer
Looks like she is busy
Oh well, lol

I hope to breast feed
Like a hungry baby

To be comforted and consoled
By a loving woman

As I **** the warm milk from her breast
What a delicious treat
Mmmmm I'm hungry

I can't help but smile
I wish I had someone to joke with
Or laugh with

I'll have to go online
To strike up an online conversation

Anyone wanna chat on yahoo mess
Or skype, or gmail chat?
Or chatstep?

Lol
I just ate a big artechoke