A bottle of sin
A glass of foolishness
A taste of revenge
A smell of hate

A time of madness
An awful night
An hour of ignorance
A fearful gate

A wasted chance
A pause in dream
A shaded mind
Here comes your fate

God is a great teacher and we are His students
He prepares examinations for us
Which He knows according to the level of our strengths
He even knows we will pass His tests

Wounds emptied my veins
Speechless, weakened
Cannot get up at all
Lying, waiting
Only the rain can mend
Dew drops come
Moisten my skin
Before it desiccates
To be thrown away...

How distressing this point is--
Stroking keys
but
letters seem transparent

My psyche
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I was in a crossroad for so long and that wasn't easy
But things come like the moon that lights a night's so blurry
If I didn't care enough, if this heart didn't think of you
I might not be here to listen, I might not see the view
If I just want to escape and avoid the coming storm
I might not share my coat to keep you safe and warm
If I just want to fly away and forget the nest we've built
I might not have concern inside, it's so easy to jilt
If I just want to see myself in mirror with this smile
I might had walked away, as far as thousand miles
If I am just a person with no heart to love and care
I might just turn my back, leaving you in despair
But see, I am here, never left you all alone
I made it sure you're strong enough to stand on your own
Didn't you feel the care from me I was showing after all?
Didn't you see I'm losing now my strength, now I am starting to fall?
I have collected all my strengths and used most just for you
The remaining flicker of hope, can you even give me, too?
Let me spread my wings, let me nurture, let me grow
Don't confine me in this cage where I won't shine and glow

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Lay on the grass
Stare at the sky
The night is a blanket
Full of mystery
Like love
Like you
Lay, my love
Gaze at me
I twinkle
Upon you
I am the last
Shining stellar
In this **asterism

You focus your attention to things I don't see
Intransingent you are to me
You never said yes or no, always maybe
We're two branches that won't meet on this tree
There's nothing I can give but my specialty
I thought you like a little of my recipe
But you just ignored when I offered coffee
Now I know what you like-  it is the tea
From that floating resto-bar at the sea
I am not a *******, I can see
It is best to not expect, just let it be

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I was hiding alone in this room
The war has taken their hearts away
I heard the bombs, I thought it's their doom
When hatred made those ****** days

Victims of war carried the scars
As they escape from this dreadful place
Their words are kept in secret jars
With tears for hiding their voice and face

But today sounds like a different show
I hear no more bombs and cries
And when I look outside my window
They're coming back home with smiles

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I played and rested
I sang and danced
I can be bold
On top of my world

My heart is yours
My body, too
I want to hold
The top of my world

Your arm, my pillow
Your body, my bed
I won't be cold
On  top of my world

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It's not easy to accept that some things really wouldn't last
Even the people you want to keep are just like those butterflies
Once they get out of their cocoon, they would seek for their own lives
But what is painful when you realized that they have found another heart

I am not greedy, not that selfish but it really really hurts
Knowing that someone you love the most won't be with you until the last
Why this world has to make you feel that you are alone from the start
There'll be borrowed moments, borrowed joys, but you can never borrow a heart

"If they will come to get you here, will you really go with them?"
"I won't," he said. "You know that I love you, you know me well.
But maybe when I grow old, I can go and live with them"
That made my tears roll down my face, my broken heart, I cannot tell

I thought I have him here with me and will be mine until the peak
I thought someone will care about me as my own blood when I am sick
I thought he's not temporary, that he is mine, though I don't speak
Oh, why I have to over-think about these things that make me weak?

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I thought it would come true
A fairy tale of us
Some wishes, some dreams for you
That pain would never last

You were my knight and angel
I was just a refugee
When the crazy thing came upon us
It's the only thing I can see

We danced and sang under the moonlight
I even slept on your arm
We played and ran along the shore
With you I felt no harm

The seashore used to be our playground
The waves became our guests
The wind and rain witnessed our vow
I thought t'was the end of our quest

Until this day that I wake up
I found myself on this shore
I've waited, my knight and angel
To be with you forevermore

But sad am I, I found out
It was just a fantasy
There beside me was an old book
Now the truth is in front of me

Was our love  just a fairy tale?
Is there no chance for you and I?
The kind of love I just imagined
I will keep in my heart 'til I die.

I am finding my way back home
To the only One who truly loves me
I'm searching traces of my footprints left
I'm coming, Father, wait for me

My hands are ***** and full of mud
But you said that Your water will be enough
To clean my hands, even my soul
In Your place there's nothing tough

So I'm finding traces of my soul
The moment I hear nothing but Your call...

I wish there are no bad people who find joy in hurting others
And there will be no one using others just to get what they aspire
I wish hearts only feel how to love, to be happy, and to care
That no hurt and pain would be there to create a baneful fire


I wish I learn to be cold, and to be numb at times
That nothing can hurt my heart that is so vulnerable
I wish this letter could reach the heaven  so soon
For many thorns ***** my heart and the pain is unbearable.

She's in love with the man who has a golden heart
She's in love with him from the very start
She admires his kindness and wisdom, honor and faith
She loves him so much, for her he is her soulmate

I will always be your baby
You will always be my honey
Our sweet hearts will always be connected
I will love you always
Forever,  my love

I dream of us making sweet things in the sea
There's romance all around just for you and me

Imagine us walking hand in hand on a beach
Then afterwards chasing,  oh,  you're so easy to reach

We sit on the sand still you hold my hand
The love and the romance are our own magic wands

You kiss me on forehead that shows of respect
But the next kiss,  of course,  is what I also expect

You help me to stand and hold me on my hips
Now it's time to give you my sweet candy lips

You raise me up then and swing me in the air
We both shout "I love you" while air plays with my hair

We then lie on the sand and you kiss me once more
It is our longest kiss this time on this shore

Oh,  I am not shy nor afraid anymore
This love  we have now will stay forevermore

Help me decide on matters that always make me cry
Help me understand how things would happen and or why
Explain to me the reasons of staying in a room
Where no love is present and everyday's like a doom

What would I do to be happy, how would I attain my peace?
I feel like locked in a cage, how can I feel at ease?
I cannot do what I like,  I do things that please people
I make others happy but I cannot hear my own heart's call

Can you look at my chains,  here keeping these weak hands?
How can you set me free from this heavy and aching bond?
I made a mistake,  I know,  do I deserved to get this prize?
To die without happiness,  to live seeing what's not nice

Help me to see that there is end, help me to find that open gate
Help me to see that death's beauty is still the best I have to wait
Help me to look at my own face in front of life's unfair mirror
Help me to lay down with a smile on my graveyard forevermore.