I do not just listen--
I analyze,
because the story might have
a real different ending


I do not just glance--
I observe,
for the view might be different
on the other side


It is not wrong to be careful
on what you should believe in

When she carries so much loads
And she cries for help and prayers
When she sees nothing but darkness
Only one shows that he really cares

When the ghosts keep on coming back
And she only hides in a shaded side
When she hears nothing but the blames
Only one can comfort her and guide

When the day is starting to break
And she is trying to fix her life
When she needs a place to stay
Under his wings, she feels no strife

I hear those sounds again...
Those children playing under the rain
With you, calling my name,
The angel's song,
The bestfriend's whisper,
The lover's kiss,
The husband's promise,

I hear them all again
From the box of gifts I am keeping

Different voices
From one heart...

Twinkle,  twinkle little star
How I wonder it's not that far
I want to reach it,  hold it near
To empty this bag of  sorrow and fear
Or mend and heal the wound and scar

Twinkle,  twinkle,  that little star
Far but near,  near but far
If only there's a stairway to the sky
Or even wings so I can fly
I will surely kiss my lovely star

If you come to me in the middle of the night
Don't presume that I will open the door right off the bat
Never question my sophrosyne, it is for my protection
For I was once a prey of pinchers, my great destruction
When I welcomed them with my open arms
They just robbed my house and did much harm

The day you came was the day I just died
My body was numb, I didn't try to hide
My eyes were blind, I just needed a guide
My broken world, a thousand tears I cried

The day you came, oh  I was born again
You helped me stand so I  danced in the rain
You made me free from this much aching chain
I thought I can't smile in this world of pain

But you were there like a strong, shining knight
You're that angel who took away my fright
No more darkest day, no more painful night
Now the black part's gone, you've painted it white

I promise, my love won't change anymore
It's only your heart, for life I adore
Just to love you, dear, there's none I ask for
I will love you until forevermore...

When you walk a thousand mile
You can rest or pause for a while
But never surrender to show
You will go and continue to grow

Sing your song to them all
Keep your faith when you fall
Stand and start over again
Reflect every now and then

This world would be unfair to you
Keep the good things that you do
Learn to adjust to the tests
Just be yourself and do your best

Never give up,  never stop
Keep climbing and make it to the top
Just keep the faith and do not fear
The right time for you is coming near

No matter what happens
I am still the same person
Standing on the ground
Though I have learnt to fly

I know when to use my wings
While I love my feet

You are the light in my darkest hour
You made me see the beauty
Within the shadows
Everytime I see your face,
I gain strength

You are the sunshine in my rainy days
Whenever you stand here and show your light
This complicated world  just seems so easy

That everything which seems slight would turn significant
For you open my eyes to see the beauty
In each awful detail

You are the promise,
The hope of an unpromising tomorrow

That whenever you speak you would touch
The mind, the soul
The world

You are the history within the insensibility
You bring the memory of a lost dream
Creating a new child of  courage

Yes, you are a blessing
A gift of splendor
An angel
The hope
The light
The promise

But even the sun needs to set
To give way to the reassuring night...

And I am but a wandering soul
Every gift I have at hand
Is not for keeps

I am the mist
Which anytime would go with the wind
To fade

And somehow delight in
My transience

And dream
To see you smile

In my repose...

She's so fragile like a flower
So I am careful not to hurt her
She has nothing like thorn or spine
I love and adore her forever

She's so beautiful like a flower
And I always admire her beauty
She's my inspiration and strength
Someone who sees the best in me

She's so lovable like a flower
Not only because she is pretty
But because she has a good heart
Like a flower,  she's perfect for me.

I painted my dream on my wall
and everytime I open my eyes,  
I see a star not that far away...

Take me now, I am yours forever
I am your slave, your faithful lover.

Take me, feel me, I am bold, I dare
Use me, break, I don't really care.

You want my whole life? Come on, get it.
You want to tie me? My hand, take it.

There's no new things in us now, I swear
From the start, I am your minion, dear.

Take me now, I am yours forever
I am your slave, your faithful lover.

I am so blind and deaf with my love
For you, I'll kiss death. Come take  my life.

"Give me your hand," I asked her
So she gave her hand to me
I handled it with care and love
As I put the band to my wife-to- be

"Lend me your ears," I told her
So she stopped saying a word
She listened carefully to what I say
She never showed she's tired or bored

For hours she leaned on my shoulder
While we talk about our fate
She pressed my nose and said "I love you"
Oh, with her, I enjoyed the date

"Give me your heart," she said to me
"Oh, sorry, I can't give a heart
For you're already holding it for a year
It's already yours from the start."

"Then give me your name," she said to me
But I smiled and teased her more
"I won't give it to you without a seal
So it will be yours forevermore!"

The truth is-
    she really hates men
    wearing shiny glasses
    and boots
    riding on their big bikes
    like Kings of the Road

But everything changed
when she met at an old park,
someone who writes in simple paper
simple words of encouragement
and lessons based on his life

He was wearing shiny glasses
    and boots
    and black hat
    but never rode on a big bike

She loves his works so much-
   simple but elegant
   sometimes hot, sometimes not
   some are with silly things,
   but most are inspiring

His words feed her soul a lot

So if ever he forgets the way
back to that old park
she will search for him
or wait and pray

Only his words feed her soul a lot...

I have only three wishes
On my special day-
    Good health for us
    Peace of mind
    And be with you
Wishing for a new life
Starting tomorrow
New day, new beginning
With you,
My love

Why do you always want
to play hide-and-seek?
Don't you know it's boring
so tiring and a childish game?

I am already tired...

In your eyes, I see the brightest light
The beam that shining in front of me
It goes straight into my heart
And light my world so I can see

In your eyes, I find colors
Shimmering like a rainbow
I see two bodies dance with grace
Held by love that make them glow

In your eyes, I read the words
The words that only you can tell
You may not speak but heart can hear
The sweetest sound like wedding bell

I  was awaken by the song
Playing on the radio
The librettos are familiar
To my ever longing soul
So I get an old photograph
Of us together
I put it on my chest
Close to my heart
As the melody pacifies the air
My soul  sways again
Ah, it is always you, my love
The reason,
My *joie de vivre

Take me now, I am yours forever
I'll be your light, your perfect saver
Don't be afraid, I will hold you, dear
Take me, hold me if you really care.

Take me now, my whole life can be yours
I will go with you, that's my real course
Use me, feel me, I don't need a choice
Your fall, my fall, we shan't make it worse.

Take me now, I am yours forever
Just hold me tight, with strength and power
I don't want to live without you here
Wherever you are, just take me there.

I'll be the wind beneath you, my dear
Against all odds, I'll be there, I swear
Take me now, I am yours forever
Wherever you are, just take me there...

~¤~

Abuse me...
Here is my heart, break it
You can cut it into pieces
Squeeze it if you want
Until I feel no more pain

Here is my body, use it
You can break my bones if you want
Make my skin your canvass
And draw your madness with my blood

Here is my soul, burn it
I was the bad girl in your dream
You hate me so much
That you have to abuse even this weak soul

Here I am...
Abuse me a thousand times
How I love the hell you created
By caging me in your stone walls

I can't escape, I will never
Nobody sees my wounds
No one hears my cries
They all believe that I just lie

~¤~


1/16/2016


I said "I don't like a rose"
But when you made a crown for me
And put it on my head
I tried to forget how I hate its thorns

I come into a place
where everything is floating
It is a dark place for me,
nothing will pass into my liking

The houses are haunted
and thorns are everywhere
It is like a dangerous forest,
all paths lead to nowhere

At first I am scared
and I want to run away
Creatures have different languages,
I don't understand what they say

Everyone seems grinning
Like they want to tear me apart
What else would I think and do
If I feel they would break my heart?

But I have nowhere to go
so I decided to take the risks
I am scared but there's little courage
I am gripping with my fists

With the flicker of hope I wander
to study the mysterious place
Bit by bit I learn something,
enough to cope within each phase

Until I find little creatures
that thriving on a haunted tree
When I stop nearer to them,
they seem so scared, so afraid of me

I feel that sadness, I am bothered,
why they're afraid, I'm just harmless
My little hands could do nothing,
I just want to watch them exist

But  suddenly one of them comes
closer and flies in front of me
I realize it want to be handled
so I open my hand and let it be

It settles down on my open hand
while I walk around, it is my light
And I'm thankful for the little lamp
now I have lessen my fright

A little light that gives me hope
it makes me strong and lessens my load
That tomorrow I can find the way
to get out of this darkest road...

Hon, I always wanted to dance with you
But you just  let me dance with my shadow

Every step I make, I feel you are there
Though even a little bit you do not care

Alas! I felt those warm hands holding mine
While my eyes are closed, I can feel the twine

Just to be surprised it is not you, dear
You are there watching, cannot hide your sneer

Hon, I always wanted to dance with you
But you just  let me dance with my shadow.

If this life is my second chance-
My another lifetime
I wish my heart could be
With its missing piece

Only you know
Where it is.

I may not have the wealth,
The fame,  or the power

I may not have the gold,
The bronze, or silver

I may not have the beauty-
Of the  body, or of the face

I may not be the best-
Woman,  citizen or race

I may not see what they can
Or make loud noise like their laugh

I may not have this world
But having your love  is enough.

You are free to read
Free to feel
Free to analyze
Free to unseal

You have the right
To hear through your mind's eye
But you have no right
To judge and criticize

Yes, we are writers
We are poets
We are here to express
We are not puppets

For I am a writer
And I want to show
Every kind of story
That one must need to know

When I say "I"
It wouldn't always means "me"
It could be someone
Can't you hear and see?

I am just me
See it with your mind's eye
A writer that is free
Unless you woudn't try...

You are a king and you have your own kingdom
I am a queen, and I have my own realm
We both have our own rules, our codes in time
I will never follow yours but mine