When it seems there's no one to stay
I'll be there to make your day

When the sun in your world doesn't shine
I'll be your light, soon you'll be fine

When in your childhood they treated you wrong
I'll help you stand to prove you are strong

When you feel that the world is dark
Always remember that there is a spark

When you feel like crying to ease the pain
I offer my shoulders to carry your bane

Yes, I'm your best friend and I truly care
This will be forever, I really swear!

Tests come along every moment
There will be more coming
And they will keep on coming
To test those few who try believing
To strengthen the one that is trusting

I know everything is a test
I know everything just needs more trust
In this situation that I am into
I know only few would try to believe
But only one would trust

I just need only one
Please don't take it from me.

A thousand years-
      I can't make it
      for in every moment I can make a tear
      
A thousand reasons-
      of loving you
      and every pain that's hard to bear

A thousand smiles-
      they're gone away
      now I am in this dark corner again

A thousand sighs-
      they make me free
      unchain this heart from so much pain

A thousand wounds-
      they make me sick
      and give me so much aching fears

A thousand words-
       please come to mend
       and wipe away my thousand tears!

I know this may happen
I know nothing stays forever
And everything has an end
Like the song
Like a story
Like your love...

Word
Spoken
Enlighten

                  Word
                  U­nheard
                  Confuse

                               ­   Word
                                  Cast
                  ­                hurt

                                           ­   Word
                                              Promise
   ­                                           Broken.

Why do you always want
to play hide-and-seek?
Don't you know it's boring
so tiring and a childish game?

I am already tired...

There is always this fear
that one day I'll see you
walking away...
                  again.

Oh man, tell me...
Is there wrong in loving?
Is there sin in believing?
I have been searching for the half of my soul
I've crossed the hanging bridges with fear
I've walked a thousand miles with tears
Don't I deserve even a smile,
         a kiss, a hug or just a simple touch?

(Do we really see?)

We kept an eye to something different
Ears were open while mind was close
A pole looked straight though it was bent
We kept an eye to something different

In these given days to pray and repent
While a medicine should be taken in dose
We kept an eye to something different
Ears were open while mind was close.

She always look outside her door
Or stay beside her window pane
She wants to know and see much more
Her neighbor’s deeds and what they gain

She has to meet the rich and poor
She always look outside her door
But that motive of yesterday
Gone with the wind, 'twas blown away

She’s now but an observant one
Who always judge and sneers at man
She always look outside her door
Seems she forgot what is life  for

This poor woman, she never know
That now she looks like a scarecrow
While her feet stands flat on the floor
She always look outside her door.

There's this light in me
I felt it's beam and rays
I let it scattered through
The darkness of this place
With hopes and dreams that black
Could turn into pure white
Like storm and thunder that
Can be quiet for a while
They say that flicker of light
Could be that burning flame
When wind blows into it
The fire won't be the same
I want to keep this light
This fire within my heart
And only you could help me
To keep this flame alive
You gave your words of promise
A pledge I won't forget
But there inside my room
That fear is on my sheet
And somehow the light could turn
Back into flicker, so sad
The spark will end into ashes
When good change into bad
So please help me keep this
The flicker that once you made
Let's keep this light of us
Don't let this color fade

Whatever happens
Always remember that
This heart of mine is only for you

I may keep quiet for long
To give that serenity you need
I may stop moving towards you
To give you more space
I may seem numb for a while
To give you that freedom

I may not look at you this time
I may not listen to your song
I may not dance with you on the floor

But please always remember...

I am just here in one corner
Waiting for you to pass
It's enough for me to look at you
From a distance
So I won't bother you
With my presence
I am just here to listen to your words
Because they are my only strength
In this chaotic world

I won't say goodbye
Because I know
Our paths will cross again
And I promise,
At that time
you will be proud of me.

Step back
        
                stop
              
               ­           walk away
                                  
                                     walk in different direction
                                                  
    ­                                            I am

                                               f
                                                   l
                                             o
                                                 a
                                                      t
       ­                                                  i
                                                    n
         ­                                        g

                                 in this
                     vast
                       emptiness

because of a rule
            I made
                 and you
                          followed


Now, I cry
        as I see you relishing
               the cost of my lapses.

We parted our ways-
    I wanted to go with you
   but my chaotic mind pulled me
    to a different direction.

A hug is now a dream
A kiss is like a star
I see your thoughts like an ocean
I hear your voice like the wind

But I never give up on my dream
I won't stop reaching the star
I will take the risk of crossing the ocean
I will hear the wind through my heart

Can you wait for me there
in our favorite place-
      the far side of eternal?

Can you give me a chance
           to love you,
           to be with you forever?

Your photographs are all I keep
I keep them all so I won't weep
I weep when thoughts of you go deep
Take out this heap, take out this heap.

Your photographs are memories
Memoirs of you that keeps my peace
My peaceful days are mine, at least
You give me ease, you give me ease.

Your photographs remind of you
You seem so near, you always do
Do you believe, you make me blue
Each time you go, each time you go?

So please, my dear, stay with me
Stay with me and let me see
See how our love can make us free
A love to be, a love to be.

You are her favorite ,  her  no.1 poet
She is  your avid fan, your no. 1 admirer
But where are you now, are you hiding
From the one who promised to care forever?

I breathed in a kind of life
Which conformed to that one I evoked
Carried my own identity
Which I valued so much
Gaining honor from the league
Yes, I was distinguished.

You offered me your name
So pure and white to my eyes
Accepted, love and nurtured it
Like what I have done to mine.

We echoed to the world
The best alliance we have
Glowing and sparkling like a diamond
But only for a moment in time.

The force between us was great
Pushing us to opposite directions
The friction became so intense
Which created the flame of ire.

Why not?
You ruined the thing I valued the most
Crashed it behind my eyes
With your selfish plans
Of which became sharp knives
That cut it all.

My name, my precious name!
Was now but a ***** rag into their eyes
And nothing I have done
But a thousand sighs and cries in the dark.

In my dark moments I remembered
The pledge that we have made
And so I stood and dressed up
Walked in nobility
Breathed the same air
Just like before
Ah, I have to win this task
Though only risks were all displayed.

I fought for you
For our name, for our life
But you left me alone in the dark
Cleaning that messy ground
With such sticky dirt
That are hard to wipe out.

Now I am trying to breathe again
In the same way I once knew
Hoping that I may redeem
My name that once they revered.

Got a phone call early in the morning?
Well, you've got to answer it, my darling
Listen to the sweet voice that is singing
But never surrender to that calling

Got a message with a seductive pic?
Well, you've got to read and view, don't make me sick
Don't be afraid to watch and make a pick
Unless you know yourself that you are weak

Someone's knocking behind the door
Would you open or would you hear some more?
Would you welcome or would you ignore
An offering of good food from a neighbor?

There are lots of teasing which come your way
But never entertain them, that's what I pray
A tease is just a test if you can play
Just play but do not fail, hear what I say.

"Give me back my eyes!" I shouted in horror
I want to leave the room and get out of the door
But I can't see anything, only darkness around
How can I escape this messy and hollow ground?

"Give me back my eyes! Give them to me now!"
I shouted in despair though I don't know how
If one would hear my cry, but then why I'm alone
Without my eyes to see, how can I move along?

Loving him is like an odd thing
What would this absurdity soon bring?
She loves and cares for someone hiding
He's like a phantom in the dark singing...

...of dreaming
When will she wake up?

I held your hand, numb and cold
The warmth was gone
That tight grasp to my palm
Is now but a shy touch

I looked in your eyes
The emotion is different
From that warm look before
It's now but a distant glance

I heard your song
Just like a mourning chant

With that cold touch
And indifferent look
You're different, so different today
And I fear that tomorrow
There will be nothing to hold on...

I saw her holding such beauty-
That butterfly with colorful wings
But suddenly she opened her hands
And let it fly away

I was so sad
How can she take it-
Letting go of something she loves?

I looked at her with these sad eyes
And she looked at me in return
Then smiled

She said:
"Your eyes, I know can see
Only the things outside each shell.
I know I have done what's right, my dear
When I love something, I'll set it free
If it comes back, it's really mine."

I was amazed with the words that she said
I turned my back and let my tears flow
For I don't want my reflection to see
What she really feels...

Her stomach is aching
She is so hungry
She wants to eat an apple
But there's nothing on the table
But an onion
With her closed eyes she hold it
Make a bite and chew
And her tears fall once more...

Oh, why each morning is like a bright looking glass
And my night's like a theater without a curtain?
Tell me why an overnight seems like a new day
That when I can't see you, life seems so uncertain?

Each moment that I cannot see you, my dearest
Even your shadow is always enough for me
My heart always smile like that of an angel's beam
Brought by this precious love only I could see.

Though I couldn't reach you with these frail arms and hands
I can still touch you, my dear, in my cherished dreams
My mind and my heart, they were strong, I'm not afraid
Only you and I, we can get through the extremes.

In what kind of world does this heart couldn't see you
If there's only one image in these eyes of mine?
Our time is running fast and yet we cannot feel
When you're here beside me, I will always be fine.

If this world of ours is a waving temptation
It would still be a bright path when we truly care
Rhythm of our hearts will echo and resonate
A place is paradise where you'll always be there!

By your side, my God, I want to rest
There in Your arms I have my perfect peace
I offer You my life, my mind, my soul
Take all of these, my Lord, take them all.

My past, my Lord, is full of miseries
I want to forget it within Your mysteries
Take me, mold me, please hear me now and then
For I am just  human, I can't stand in pain.

By Your side, my God, I want to rest
There in Your arms I have my perfect peace
Send me Your spirit, cleanse me with Your fire
With You by my side, I'm not afraid to fly.

Learn to talk when the ears are listening
While the heart is the most considering
Speak like having the  most expensive words
As consigned  to a  bank’s best  trusted boards.

Share what you know to a prepared student
Not to a mole or a secret agent
Filter the  tidings like precious diamonds
Offer not to thieves and scary frauds.

A message I learned in each encounter
Made me ruminate and  made me ponder
Trusting too much is just like a poison
It will ruin you now, or **** you soon.

For you I am a fool,
I am a dupe and never that cool;
We don’t have similarities,
Only differences and inconsistencies.

You’re like a book  of Metaphors,
While I am just a little brochure;
Your mouth was full of idioms
While mine has  Ironies  and Personifications.

Despite that I offered you
A friendship which for me is true;
You just frown at me in disgust
Like I’m a nobody to trust.

You and I, we’re opposite
Two different ends that never meet;
The moments that we talk and chatter
Were  the times we shared to attack  each other.

I now accept that I’ve never been
A friend to you, just stupid and mean;
So forget the time you knew my name
Each shouldn’t be a friend to claim.

My love, I have been waiting for your touch
How I long to feel you from morning 'til night

Love me gently, embrace my blatancy
Kiss my innocence, hold me so tight


I'll surrender all to you, my love
Please just stay at my sight


Your song, my song, I hear it
From your heart, my precious knight


My knees are shaking, my heart is beating so fast
My lips are waiting, kiss me, baby, it's alright


You said that you love me, prove it to me, my love
Let your skin touch mine, give me what's just right


My heart, my soul, I'll give you my all
Come one, baby, I am yours tonight...

You're my precious man
I'm your precious light
But still
We can't create
One life

My bittersweet love,
You are the only reason
Why I chose to live
And not to run from strife

I will bear every pain
I will cross every bridge
I will swim the vast ocean
Just to be with you

My bittersweet love,
I will chose to embrace the pain
of loving you just to live
than to face a smile with death
for you are my life
and only for you
this heart belongs

Ah, my bittersweet love
You will be forever
in my heart.

Flick a flack fleck--that sound again
Makes me smile every now and then
Each drop always soothes my palm
It always makes me so calm
Ah!I love to hear it sing
It touches me with its ring
Flick a flack fleck--that sound again
Makes me smile every now and then.

You once promised me of eternity
That love I never asked but you insisted
Then I trusted my life to you like I cannot see
What will tomorrow brings to the one who's been dazzled.

Then I felt the blindfold was taken from my eyes
I saw who we were in this teeming lair
We're birds of different plumage, take a glance
We can't stay longer with each other's air.

And I know soon I'll become a memory
Which will stay in your mind for just some time
I doubt it if you'll still remember me
And the pains you caused in this heart of mine.

I still thank you for the times we had
You gave me my angel though she's gone now
And don't dare to come back, please don't strive
For you are just a fleeting memory somehow...

I said "I don't like a rose"
But when you made a crown for me
And put it on my head
I tried to forget how I hate its thorns

I have this favorite cup, a simple one
I love this much that I simply can't
Leave it in one corner of my chest
Considered it the last, the best
But one day I just found it there
Broken in pieces, I've seen my tears
I tried to fix it, I really did
But I wasn't someone who could be that skilled
To make magic of fixing things
Somehow I realized what could it bring
If I would try a new design?
Perhaps I would know if I'll just try...

I see changes in you
With that I am alarmed
For when you wake up from a nap
It's my time  to stop dreaming
Hence we'll face tomorrow

In separate ways...

If God would ask me this:
"Why should I give you another day?"
If God would really ask,
Oh, what would I say?

Please give me another day,
My Lord, I want to stay
I want to live with my loved ones,
Please give me another day.

I want to ask that forgiveness
From them whom I hurt so much
Show them the love, the real change
From the bottom of my heart.

I want to be with my precious friend
The one I met as an angel
Tell him the truth inside my heart
Show him I really, really care.

I want to show the whole wide world
The best gifts that I have at hand
Tell them the mystery of life
That given by the Lord our God.

I want to live, I want to live
Another day, please give me Lord
I want to live another day
To feel the beauty of this world.

And if it’s time for me to go
I would go on with peace of mind
That I have done in one more day
Those things inside this noble heart.

When I was lying on the ground
Feeling I was too weak to stand
There you came with an open hand.

When I was there crying in vain
And what I felt was only pain
Only your words had kept me sane.

When I was hiding in the dark
And my presence just left no mark
You reminded me I'm a lark.

When I was there to keep my song
Hide them safe where they belong
You came to prove me I was wrong.

That's when I thought that I am weak
When only pain's the one that stick
And when I hid like I'm so sick.

You're the true light that guides me through
My path's now clear because of you
Now I can show what I can do.

He's like a star to her
He lighted up her way
While she admired him
from a distance

She married his words
and put his name on a pedestal
Dreamed of him night and day
Asked for miracles
Like wanting to see him
to walk on the vast ocean
and reach her hand

She treated him as an angel
In the fairytale that she made
that only tells of forever

Her dreamboy
was just a character she has drawn
in the shaded corner of her mind

(A Short Story)



         One night I had this dream. I was walking along a trail in a forest. I was so afraid. I called for help...and then somebody came. It's you. You walked with me in my journey. I was so happy that somebody was  walking beside me. I knew I won't be alone. Not anymore...

        But the trail was becoming so dangerous. I was wounded, and so were you. We continued to walk...and walk. Until I finally saw you running away from me.

       "Wait!" I shouted while trying to follow you.
        "I don't know you. I have my own journey. I'm sorry," you shouted back.

        What shall I do? I tried to follow you but you were already out of my sight. I waited for an hour...which turned into day. It's becoming darker and I feel more scared. Shall I wait for more hours... or days? I give up! I won't wait any longer. You left me with no choice but to walk on my own. I have to be stronger. I have to reach the end of the trail.

      So I walked alone for it was the only choice.

Look what you've done, my dear...
I'm now a paramour of pain -
A hater of love
An exultant victim
A jaunty loser
An outsider to my own temple.

Look at these hands I've been using for a long time
As my powerful instrument
To press out the deepest emotions
And the dimension of my mind.
They're now but feeble tools
To  grasp what you throw upon me.

These wounds
I love to see them bleeding
Like those brooks overflowing
Which make the most beautiful grin in your face.
My fragile body which is now lying
Waiting for another stone
Or another blade
Coming from you.

Look what you have done to me, my dear...
I am looking ahead.
Waiting
Until


You can't stand
To see me


Dying.

That  time I heard your song
I gained that hope in me
That waiting won’t be long
I’ll speak my mind so free.

You lead me in this way
I thanked you for that gift
But why you’ve gone away?
You left me not with drift.

Did you just lead me here
To start a brand new life?
Or you just felt that fear
Now that you see the strife?

I looked back at the page
Where you and I were free
I heard your song with shade
While you heard what’s on me.

It seems now I’m alone
This world won’t be lovely
Please let me hear your song
That song you sang for me.

She met him
Like a gentle rain pouring
Touching her skin
Healing the wounds
Of yesterday

She has to go away
For the purpose of
Painting the smile in his face

His laughter
Her tears
They will never meet
Just like in her dreams

She now sees the sky
The rain is going to fall again
But not like before...

Take me now, I am yours forever
I'll be your light, your perfect saver
Don't be afraid, I will hold you, dear
Take me, hold me if you really care.

Take me now, my whole life can be yours
I will go with you, that's my real course
Use me, feel me, I don't need a choice
Your fall, my fall, we shan't make it worse.

Take me now, I am yours forever
Just hold me tight, with strength and power
I don't want to live without you here
Wherever you are, just take me there.

I'll be the wind beneath you, my dear
Against all odds, I'll be there, I swear
Take me now, I am yours forever
Wherever you are, just take me there...

The day before was so perfect
He’s always there just to protect
He sang her song, painted her face
He left her with such tender trace


She smiled at him, she admired more
All his good traits deep to the core
She dreamed to hold, to hug, to chase
He left her with such  tender trace


The day they danced in that grand ball
She never thought that she would fall
Unto his arms, to his embrace
He left her with such tender trace


And from the day that he was gone
She cried from evening up to dawn
She missed more of their fine, sweet mace
He left her with such tender trace


But moment would come to renew
The pledge and dream would still come true
There in her heart, there is a place
He left her with such tender trace.

Take me now, I am yours forever
I am your slave, your faithful lover.

Take me, feel me, I am bold, I dare
Use me, break, I don't really care.

You want my whole life? Come on, get it.
You want to tie me? My hand, take it.

There's no new things in us now, I swear
From the start, I am your minion, dear.

Take me now, I am yours forever
I am your slave, your faithful lover.

I am so blind and deaf with my love
For you, I'll kiss death. Come take  my life.

You also believe in me
as I believe in you
You also love me
like I do love you
We both have that promise
forever we'll be friends
no matter what

Now that you're not around
your words are still here
in my heart
in my mind
as my light
and my protection
like how your wings covered me
when you were still here

I won't change
Because I will only make a pledge
to a very special person
I have met once in my life
and there will be no other soul
that can equal your kindness,
your care and love

Yes, you are a real gem
My precious friend
forever.

I asked.
You laughed.
I deserted.

I believe
we both has to cleave
as for you to dwell.
I would grieve
for the dreams we weave
only time could tell...