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Lola Sparks Jul 27
It hurts,
the closer we get.
The good kind of hurt —
and the bad.

I want to hold you accountable
for my *** drive,
for this fire in my spine
when you look at me like that.

Trust takes time —
I know.
But you make me rabid.
Foaming at the mouth for your heart,
reaching in
just to press restart.

I’m alive again.
You’ve thrilled me —
and killed me.

I keep trying to stay whole,
but after you
there is no forever,
only fire.

I burn,
I ****,
I lick,
I tease,
I bite,
I teethe —
a slow unraveling
in your teeth.

I **** myself
just to watch you breathe.
To bathe in your conceit.
To live this life
on repeat.
Lola Sparks Jul 27
Once upon a cracked constellation, a witch made of honey met a thief made of fire.

The witch moved like smoke, soft-spoken but spell-laced, with a Scorpio moon behind her eyes. The thief walked like she owned the stars — Sun in Leo, all blaze and bravado, leaving golden fingerprints on everything she touched.

They weren’t meant to meet, not by maps or mortals. But fate doesn’t care for rules — especially not when it’s bored. And so, they collided in the quiet between two disasters, like a song too old to be remembered but too sacred to forget.

She — the witch — had built her life like a spell: carefully, secretly, with rooms no one entered.
She — the thief — kicked in the doors and laughed at the ghosts.
And the ghosts, oddly, laughed back.

The witch saw in the thief a hunger she knew well — not for chaos, but for meaning.
The thief saw in the witch a softness that wasn’t weak, but ancient — the kind that could ruin you slowly, with kindness and a look that knew everything.

They kissed like people remembering the language of their last life.
They fought like two storms in the same sky.
They forgave like gods trying to become human.

In their love lived Pluto — deep, dark, transformational.
In their fears stood Saturn — stern, slow, testing.
In their hearts burned Lilith — wild, exiled, defiant.

They didn’t always get it right.
One pulled away when it got too deep.
The other stayed too long in her own sorrow.

But still —
they chose each other, over and over,
like a prayer said with shaking hands.
Not because it was easy.
But because it was real.

Because in each other’s ruin,
they found reason to rise.

And though the stars may shift and the gods grow silent,
these two —
mirror and flame —
have already been written in the sky.
Lola Sparks Jul 27
Autumn flower,
You’re late.

Where have you been?
The party eras ago
The guests gone
The wine dried,
The music just a ghost.

And yet,
Here you are,
Stepping into the silence
In that blood-red gown,
Stealing the show from the last tired dancers.
Spinning.
Alive.

The few that remain,
Wilted and bent at the spine,
Turn to stare
How rare you are.
How few like you ever bloom
This far into the end.

They taste your blood
And become your fiends.
They will crave the ghost of your breath
Like one last breeze
Through your autumn trees.

But you
You fall in silence.
Your descent, delicate.
Almost holy.

And though I’m not like the few
Who only gaze and ache
I’m the one
Who tried to hold you
Then let you go.

Still, I wait
Just to witness
Your final descent beneath the soil.
To the table where water holds
The weight of the world.

Where your scent stains the stream,
And the petals float on, like sweet red dreams.
Lola Sparks Jul 27
But if you try sometimes
Well, you just might find
You get what you need

You are the what I need
Not a want, but the ache that eats
At the core of me, quietly
Louder than hunger,
Sharper than thirst.

The what I can’t always hold
Slips through like heat
Between cold fingers.
After decades of drought,
A taste of wet spring fills in my lungs.

Wings-
Wings I didn’t know I had
Began to flutter in my chest,
A frantic rhythm,
200 beats a second
For ten long years.
No rest.

I was inches from ending.
And you kissed the failure from my breath,
Held the wires of my failing heart
And whispered rhythm back into me.

If I had to die in that moment,
Your lips would’ve made it sweet.
But I didn’t.
Because you were
The what I needed.
Lola Sparks Jul 23
In the crush of black that breathes like a lung,
I dream of faces stitched in wrong
too close to mine,
too smooth, too still,
like mannequins afloat in thoughtless will.

The stars above are drowned in pitch,
a cosmic sea where logic splits.
I float past doors with names I knew
but none of them remember you.

The hallway loops, the lights stay dead,
and something walks where thoughts won’t tread.
I see myself through warped glass eyes,
mouthing truths my voice denies.

What house has no rooms but echoing breath?
What mirror leaks salt in the arms of death?
I have fallen up, and swum down wrong,
to where pressure turns names into static song.

There is no sky, there is no floor
only corridors behind each door.

So I marry the current, I wed the void,
A bride of depth, a ghost employed
to haunt the halls of human shape
a drowned reflection, wide-awake.

And when I scream, it sounds like sea
the sound of something once like me.
Lola Sparks Jul 20
And here I am
daydreaming about you
in a room stitched from the mouths of clocks,
time melting on the walls
like candlewax gods.

No trace, no else
just space unraveling its seams.
Faces bloom like smoke
in the corners of my dreams,
unknown to the few who dared to show
their truth in ultraviolet glow
fragile, trembling with the fear
that love itself
might disappear.

The world they cradle
could be shattered
by a sleeping man’s unsung voice,
his silence a scalpel,
his slumber a choice.

Refusal hums.
Salvation stalls.
Dragged through dream-halls
lined in gold-flecked absolution,
the final cut
a butchered execution.

Prognosis:
you’re dreaming,
but you’ve already been found dead.
Gone from this plane,
no longer to tread.

The coil spins on
in trembling suspension,
a serpent of lust,
charged with ****** tension.

Somewhere,
a siren calls to arms
a bitter, ******* revolution
limping through static fields
of illusion.

Trans girl love
in electric mutation,
a kiss on the lips
of a dead star nation
Lola Sparks Jul 15
I am a patient,
even without the paperwork.
Fighting off the fog
with flower instead of prescriptions,
choosing green over the cold bite
of chemical chains.
**** keeps me steady.
Keeps me soft.
Keeps me here.

I’ve studied this plant
like scripture passed down in whispers,
watched buds form like slow miracles
sacred, sticky,
glowing under grow lights
like halos on a hard day.

I’ve spoken to the leaves
like kin who remember
when the world made more sense.
This isn’t just a hustle or a job.
This is a calling,
a path I’ve taken
with bare feet and open palms,
whether the world welcomes me or not.

If I had the space,
the tools,
the soil
I’d grow medicine
for every aching soul I crossed paths with:

sun-kissed colas
to hush the sleepless,
oil for the grieving,
tinctures for the hollowed-out hearts
of a world stretched too thin by fear.

Because this isn’t about getting high.
It’s about getting whole.
And helping others feel
just a little more rooted
in a life that still hurts
but also heals.
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