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Lola Sparks Jul 15
I came out with the desert sun
setting fire to the sky and my skin
Tucson peeled me open like citrus.
I was 28,
a suitcase, a ukulele,
and a hunger for something true.
Something that didn’t taste like sacrifice.
Something like sour Skittles.

Illinois clung to my boots like guilt,
but I left it behind
along with the secondhand names
and the silence that hummed at every family dinner.
They say they expected it.
But what does that even mean?
Was I a whispered prophecy,
a rumor passed between casserole dishes?

And yet.
I’m more alive now
than I ever was in my own childhood.
Back when Lunchables were treasure chests
and sour Skittles were holy communion,
a ritual:
**** the sugar off,
then bite down on what’s left.

That’s what transition feels like.
Strip the sweet lies,
feel the sting,
then chew through the core.

I used to be a lonely train
on a flat, frozen plain.
Now I’m a subway station at rush hour,
voices bouncing off tile,
ADHD blooming into a kind of brilliance
I never knew I owned.

There is no arrival point,
no final platform
just motion and growth,
just the ache of becoming,
just this bite of electric candy
melting on my tongue.

And I love her
the girl in the mirror.
Even as she’s still learning to hold herself,
sometimes forgetting
that she’s already whole.

But I remember,
when my mouth goes raw
from the citric burn,
that it’s okay to savor joy
after everything it took to earn it.

I was not born divine.
I was made.
And I am still making myself
with sugar and spit,
with lipstick and laughter,
with every sour Skittle
I **** between my lips
like a prayer with teeth,
I’ll give this life another bite.
Lola Sparks Jun 25
Skies of blue, soft morning light,
Your lover’s eyes cut clean and right.
Beneath their tide, I sink, amazed
Breathing deep in your carnivorous gaze.

A porcelain smile, so sharp, so wide,
Wings of pride you cannot hide.
Signed in gold from gods above,
A letter sealed in boundless love.

I’d tear the sky and rise so high,
To feast where beauty never dies.
To touch love’s edge with steady hand,
And hold the stars like grains of sand.

But I’ve gone rogue from your sacred eyes,
Lost adrift in lavender skies.
A starry heart in twilight’s hue,
Sprawled on fields of evening dew.

Like a lamb born wet in southern spring,
I see what truth your glances bring.
You burn through all my soft white lies,
Torching the future with flame bright cries.

From down in the Delta where old ghosts bide,
Runs deep-soul heat and Louisiana pride.
Don’t mess around with this Southern bride
Give me a hit of that Cajun swamp-town high.
Lola Sparks Jun 12
Unhinged debauchery
Of the human condition,
Spills like smoke from a factory
Built on superstition.

The desolation of already dislocated
Dreams filled with isolation
Shattered glass futures, fated
To rot beneath a nation's damnation.

The contortion of society’s abortion,
Twisting in alleys with no recourse
Abandoned on streets, a public distortion,
A wound uncleaned at the moral source.

Brought on by human sadness and neglect,
By hunger in hearts no hand could detect.
Apathy rots where compassion once bled,
Hope chokes on prayers the rich never said.

The cold, callous nature of a quick death,
No last rites, no roses, no final breath.
Just a statistic scratched in concrete dust,
A body discarded by a system unjust.

The American dream is a nightmare now
And I’m running, running, don't ask how.
Each step I take, a scream held tight,
Fleeing daylight that burns like blight.

For my life, I run from the myth they sold,
From the polished lie and the blood gone cold.
And though I’m breathless, bruised, and torn,
At least I know I wasn’t born
To die in silence beneath their crown
I’ll set this dream on fire…
and watch it burn down.
Lola Sparks Jun 9
I was hanging with a ****** who was trying to write a story
hands twitching like radio antennas tuned to the static of God.
Ashes in his coffee, bourbon in his IV,
saying, “The truth is somewhere between the lines and the lightning.”

Going for a full drive 7.
Odometer broken. Sanity optional. Helmet? What helmet?

I’m going for a lovely drive
through miles of dirt, darkness, and fire
where the road hums jazz in Morse code
and the sky is bleeding neon messages only the doomed can read.
Keep going! There is no edge only the myth of stopping!
Keep edging every inch!
Keep leaning off of every fringe!
We are ******* trapeze artists in a hurricane!

DRIVE! DRIVE! DRIVE!
Till the end!
TILL THE END!
Past time's broken jaw!
Through the rotted teeth of every NO you ever swallowed!

To the unforcertain limits
to the edge you can’t see because you’re already mid-air screaming:
“WHAT IF?!”
WHAT IF THE EDGE NEVER EXISTED?!
Drive off that cliff like it owes you money!
Like the world dares you not to!

We will never wonder
we will hijack the wonder, duct-tape it to the hood, and ride it blindfolded through the apocalypse!
We will always plunder
Plunder the sacred! Plunder the cursed!
Plunder the voices whispering through the vents!
Burn the rulebook and snort the ashes!

And when its burned and brutalized pages break open
it screams in colors you can't pronounce,
hues invented by dying stars,
dripping down the windshield like melted hieroglyphs.
We saw purple that tasted like regret
yellow that sobbed like your mother’s last voicemail.
Nothing was safe.
Every shade was a prophecy.

Deep in the mines of insanity, imagination, and creativity
where reality unzips itself and asks,
“You sure you wanna see what’s under this?”
I strive to live fully alive!
Spitfire soul, chrome tongue,
skull cracked open like a sunroof to the void,
yelling poems at the moon
while the tires scream hallelujah
and the headlights blink Morse code into the mouth of madness.
Lola Sparks Jun 9


Book I – The Solitary Peak

In twilight’s hush, where moonlight weeps,
And silence climbs the cragged steeps,
A man once fled from world below—
Johnny Kaufman, gaunt and slow.
He sought a height where winds forget,
To shed his name, his deep regret.
The world had burned him, left him bare;
He sought no court, nor kin, nor prayer.

But each night brought a song so clear,
Not wind, nor bird, nor mortal ear.
A hymn in tongues long turned to dust—
Too old for memory, too pure for trust.
For three long nights, it graced the hill,
A siren’s call so soft, so still.
And Johnny, though his blood ran cold,
Felt drawn to what the dark thing told.

Yet courage failed his trembling hand;
His past was carved in shadowed sand.
So cowardice became his shield,
Yet still the song refused to yield.
Till one cursed night, deep in his dream,
The melody began to scream.
Not from the hills nor whispering trees—
It echoed through his walls with ease.

He woke—a gasp, a haunted breath,
The room alive with scent of death.
On creaking floor he crept once more,
Drawn to the closed and moaning door.
The song resumed, now rich and low,
A voice from neither friend nor foe.
And through the crack, with pounding chest,
He saw the form that broke his rest.

A man—or not—too tall, too bare,
With pallid flesh and silver hair.
It bowed its head as if in grace,
And sang into the night’s embrace.
But when John whispered, “Who goes there?”
It arched its back with soulless flair.
It bent and cracked with fluid dread—
A thing that should have stayed long dead.

Its neck, a rope of twisted bone,
Turned toward the crack with eyes full-grown.
And in that gaze, no mercy stood—
Just hunger masked in something good.

The song resumed, a velvet tide,
That seeped through marrow, deep inside.
And Johnny drifted, lost and wide,
In hues no waking mind could bide.

But peace gave way to piercing cries—
A scream to crack the blackened skies.
He fought the dream, he slammed the door,
He wept, he writhed upon the floor.
And as he fell to blackened sleep,
The song still clawed, relentless, deep.



Book II – Echoes in the Flesh

At dawn he woke—no pride, no thread,
His limbs like stone, his courage bled.
He lay among the ashes gray,
Unsure if night had gone away.
And ghosts returned in harrowed tide—
The priest, the rope, his brother’s cry.
The silence fed him memory’s flame,
Of justice lost, of swallowed shame.

Skyler—lost to noose and night,
Had begged for wrong to birth the right.
But money changed the course of sin,
And Johnny bore it all within.
A wound like his, too raw to hide,
Was branded deep and never dried.

So here he lived on mountain’s edge,
A soul impaled on silence’s wedge.
He smoked, he scribbled, fed the fire,
And tried to **** his own desire.
But dusk would draw the song again—
A lullaby for broken men.

He watched the stars, he watched the trees,
He prayed to gods that held no keys.
For answers—not to soothe the ache,
But just to know what one can take.
Each time the song returned to him,
It swelled with sorrow, dark and grim.



Book III– The Song Returns

He watched the dusk like fevered child.
He laid his traps, he fed his flame,
And gave his torch a secret name.
But when the thing returned at last,
It set the coop and chickens fast.

The sky turned red, the night grew deep,
The song began to boil and weep.
It dragged him to the spring below,
Where waters hissed and moonlight glowed.
And there it stood, all bone and grace,
Its song now slow—a ghost’s embrace.

They danced, they struck, they fell, they bled—
The living fought the walking dead.
He ran through brush and thorn and tree,
But still it hummed its litany.

A hymn for scars that would not fade,
For crimes the soul could not evade.
The beast, the priest, the flame, the name—
Were not apart, but all the same.

He screamed beneath the hollow sky,
And begged to know the reason why.



Book IV – The Dream Below

The moon had waned to sickled grin,
Its light grown thin as ghostly skin.
And Johnny, broken, bled, and bare,
Collapsed beneath the mountain’s stare.
He dreamed not sleep, but something deep—
A fall beyond the reach of sleep.

The soil gave way, the earth unspoke,
And from below, the granite broke.
He tumbled through a breathless chasm,
Where time collapsed in molten spasms.
A thousand faces, lost and gone,
Whispered truths the dead pass on.

He landed soft in waters black,
With stars above and sunless lack.
No shore, no sky, no sound of breeze—
Just pulsing light from rootless trees.
And in the depths, a voice began—
Not beast, nor priest, but hollow man.

“You seek the source?” the question came,
“A song that bears your father’s name?
You chase the hymn but flee the fire—
And bury truth beneath desire.”

Then Johnny stood, though none had bid—
In dream, the broken soul undid.
He walked on waves that did not part,
With ash and hymns inside his heart.
The realm below, both dread and grace,
Reflected him in every face.

He passed through doors of bone and vine,
Where gods of ruin drank black wine.
He saw his brother, pale and proud,
Behind a veil, beyond a shroud.
And Skyler said, “The song you fear
Was always yours, and always near.”

“The beast was forged from your regret.
The flame burns on, but not to forget.
You are the echo, not the prey—
You must descend to find your way.”

Then all went still. A single tone
Rose up from where the dream had grown.
And Johnny wept—not out of pain,
But from the gift within the strain.

He opened eyes to mountain night,
But nothing looked or felt quite right.
The torch was gone. The woods were vast.
And time had slipped into the past.
The song was gone—no voice, no sting.
Yet still his ears began to ring.



Epilogue – What Remains

So if you seek the mountain’s peak,
And find the stone where silence speaks,
Beware the voice inside your mind—
For not all echoes stay confined.

The man who walked beyond the veil,
Still lingers in the dreamlike pale.
He is the myth the lost still seek—
The song, the fire, the solitary peak.
Lola Sparks Jun 9
She dances on air like a leaf on the wind.
Galloping prancing and frolicking through the meadow of life
Gathering Daisy's and Posey's for bright days on the horizon
Wordless understandings and in sync motions
Forgoing a path through the rouble of my hearts ruins
Lying around like lioness lingering and longing for company of an equal.
First words brought entire intention to focus
I say things like I really enjoy your thoughts and perspectives
Because they're purely yours
For only you.
I cant believe in this isolation
I've found you.
Living in my mind forever one dream at a time.
You're lucky I've been prepared for you, I want you, I need you, I need it to be only us. My love and yours pressed up against one another with such passionate lips.
Lola Sparks Jun 9
You left me behind
with my necklace
crumpled in a box,
a parting gift,
or quiet metaphor.

Once it gleamed,
a thing of grace
made delicate by time
and worn close to my heart.

But in your careless hands,
it twisted
knot by knot,
beauty undone
by what you couldn’t cherish.

I sat for hours,
fine tools trembling,
trying to unmake
the damage you left
a snarl of silver and sorrow.

Now it’s 1 a.m.,
and I’m unraveling too,
threading grief
through every loop of thought:

Was it you?
Was it me?
Did we both tug too hard
on something fragile?

Why did we choose
each other at all,
if neither of us
knew how to love gently?
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