i know its probably the weirdest thing
you've ever heard of in your life, but
this man so smart and so attractive,
it hurts. he knows about Star Trek and
hes a bibliophile and he drink green tea
for ******* fun. thats ******* amazing.
he served in the Coast Guard for 20+
years and he has nine children.
he has double major in Physics and
Education. i just really want to kiss him
so hard and feel his ****** hair just rubbing
on my cheek and with his really nice hands
all up in my hair and maybe i better stop
because im in school and this ******
frustration is killing me. ******.

I know I'll survive now
Even though my mother
Drunk and doped up on her usual
Cocktail of potential overdose
Abandoned me at an early age
Even though my father
Money hungry and starving for a dollar
Forgot time is more important than money
Because I found myself homeless
On the street corners looking for love
Begging for change
Every passerby giving my pennies and quarters
Dimes and nickels
Thinking a penny tossed in my coffee cup
Would buy me a shower
A single meal my lion stomach roared for
Or save their soul because I'm a charity case
But it wasn't the type of change I looked for
I truly longed for
It came when you walked by
You gave me a glance
A simple curvature of your undeniable intoxicating lips
Which caused me to blush
You said hello
And I knew I fell for you
That I would be able to cash in all these coins for a chance at your heart
And baby if you think you have a hollow chest
I'll become a caveman
Call it my home
Chase away every saber tooth virus
Trying to seperate me from the only place I can call home
I'll hunt caribou and elk
With the spears I'll make from my bones
Make a feast over the fire
I'll make the moments we spend together a memory
With every cave painting I leave behind
As I kiss your body with gentle hands
I hope I found a new home
Because I have nowhere else to go
No other place I rather be
Than holding you and telling you
Grab my hiking gear
Give me a megaphone
I want the world to know everytime
I tell you in a loving tone

Baby...I'm home

our time was always
borrowed,
our lives weren't
our own,
all we were meant to have
were hours,
and what a mess
we've made
with those.

The fear of love
Dreading the aftermath
You can't predict

r

Your trust and Friendship with me is more dear then anything that I have,
It is not your fault you are no ***** or *** but you are human,
And I don't blame you for that never will I blame you for that,
The solitude was not created be you alone there are others both near and far,
Family and friends of old and new,
I do not want to stress you, hurt you or anything like that,
All I want is to do to you what you do me,
To forget the pain and the things that burden us may that be for a momeant or a lifetime,

It's not your fault for my solitude it is my own.

Tonight was better than most,
You were honest,
And so was I.

Weird thing is...
I'm happy.
Even though I don't know if you'll be there in the morning.
I was happy.

You saw through me.
You told me who I was, and who I am.
It was odd.
Wonderful.
But odd.

You held my hand and tried to talk sense to me.
I wanted to say yes.
But I'm not a liar.
I won't be okay.
But in the end... neither will you.

My confidence mask how I have none,
I don't enjoy my laugh,
I love tea,
I want to trust you'll catch me when you fall,
I want to write you a letter..........

I either like girls or
older men and I guess
that's not okay to some
people, hell, it's not even
okay to myself, but I can't help
that I like the way girls look with
their ******* off or the way men
look when they have a 5 o'clock
shadow.

I really like the way he wiped my tears
away and they way she always was the
little spoon and the way he held my shoulder
and the way she just knew when i was sad and the
way he just showed me how the shadows are in
different colours of light...

*******, i guess im bi, but
hell i could be wrong.

Detached,
Separate,
Lost,

These three words embodied the feeling that i have,
Lost in space,
Lost in time,
Separate from society,
Separate from my family,
Detached from this body,
Detached from this mind,

Its like a rain drop falling from the highest cloud,
Falling with no destination,
Falling on a path to destruction,

Its like a leaf falling from the highest branch in autumn,
Dead,
Dropped,
Left behind,
Nothing to hold it in place,
Nothing to keep it living,

Its like my mind had emptied,
Like a dam opens the flood gates and lets it all out,
Noting left inside,
But the mechanics of a living thing,
Hardly living at that,

These mechanics just wering away,
Keep going like its on auto pilot,
Just moving working with no path or destination in mind,
Just a machine,
Just a thing,

Detached,
Separate,
Lost,

These three words represent how i feel,
Left on auto pilot,
An unknown destination,
Just moving and working.