her eyes would resemble
the sea eyes
in blaze
trailing me from the harbour
emerging from all the liquid,
through the chains
braids clinging to land
in force, abundantly.
bribed me, tore sanity off my grip;
illusions i feed myself to never let go
bribed be, and i desired it
all i would ever want
will be to listen the solemn note of your voice.
serena, the harmonious
soul from beyond the terrain
how i would wait for you
to be swept of my feet by you
to be taken by and to your glory,
to your place, alien to my habitat
to be seen, perhaps missed,
to be loved by you
to be the integral part of your light

Culling chatter
Un compromised
Dimming daylight
Sidelined passions
Juxtapositions
Wide eyed
Apples to oranges
My best form
Of communication
Is writing airing
Out my ***** laundry
And it
Comes so naturally
My formulas
Are unique in stature
Reaping the rewards
An inept understanding
To some
Birth of passage
A tedious task
Forecasting what may become
Certain views
When expressed
By a spiral of emotions
Can be unpredictable
A preview
Of what’s to come
Won’t always be followed by others
Instant gratification
Can’t come fast enough
A perfect posture
I’m far from
Illuminating ideas
Conceiving into form
The sweet aroma
Spreads like an inferno
A self indulgent
Trip inside the roller coasters
Of mind
They need to have
Those precise
Precious monumental
Gains to bloom
Wheels are churning
Curiosity
Is peaking it’s pleasing
Head through
Stanzas are slowly being burnt
Into mind like a fortress
And when I write
It may sound haywire  
But by stance will always
Remain the same right in two
Till I’m no longer in the drivers seat

THE GREATEST PRISON YOU WILL EVER LIVE INSIDE IS THE PRISON YOU CREATE INSIDE YOUR OWN MIND
- EDITH EGER
EP 500 | 'FEEL BETTER, LIVE MORE'

Bon voyage
I’ll no longer hesitate
To dismiss
The dystopian urges
Daggers
I can feel the
Pinching of the needles
Over medicating
Stimulating sensations
Embracing me in there hold
Slightly focused
Eyes on the prize
Call off the wolfs
Time is not in unlimited abundance
Each second
Is all so precious
Fulfilling gravity
As the smog dissipates
Today the here and now
What else is there
Tail in hand
Tomorrow will
Never change repeat itself
Stay on the same course
If you don’t allow it too
Like a sponge
The insanity
Eventually has to
Be wrung out
Rearranging the chess pieces
On the board
As hard
As it maybe checkmate
I’m finally
Content to a certain degree
Comfortable in my own way
Fine with my current state of matters
The glass slipper
Finally fits snug
My time capsule
At the edge of the ocean
Bottled up nice and tightly
Won’t be coming back
Setting sail for its maiden voyage
No better time then the present

Unlocking the hurt
How much
Can one truly take
Nobody’s god
Ever saved you from yourself
Pennies for a dime
Glaring needs
Current state of things
Never judge
A book by it’s cover
Can’t seem
To find a melody
Beauty’s in thee
Eye of the beholder
We hide behind are masks
In plain site to feel important
To fit in to what
Create a world that’s fake
So we can escape the true realities
Of life
And not expose are selfs
To the harder sadder truths
What really matters
The things we hate thee most
Become us
Like a game of cat and mouse
Who really wins in the end
Life seems like giant game of charades
Where everyone can feel
Like a winner when they really aren’t

Time we can’t
Get back
All we have is today
This very moment
Nothing less
Let’s make thee most of it
So lost before
Empty dirt roads
Consumed me
I was looking for
A wholesome highway
A light at the end of thee tunnel
Out of the darkness  
I walked alone
For a very longtime
Guarded my heart
Kept my head down
Had no interest
In finding a partner
Or love for that matter
I hid myself
Because I never
Felt good enough
For anyone else
Let alone myself
I’ve had
To make adjustments
Step out of
My comfort zone
And that’s not always easy
Wether I
Deserved you or not
I’m eternally grateful
To have you
It all happened for a reason
Then you came
And now you’ve
Become thee
Best parts of me
Worth seeing
The lord works
In mysterious ways
An Angel appears
When you least expect it
Out of nowhere
You changed my life
Good things come
To those who wait
It was a miracle finally
And I never saw it coming
Like a flower in bloom
I had no expectations
Just a hope of sorts
You were different
Sweet to thee core
Took the time
To get to know
The real me no judgments
A beating heart like no other
Three years later
Through thick and thin
It’s a lot of work
And here we are
But for thee first time
Feels worth it to me
Feels like a dream
Worth waking up too
The lord
He must have known
What he was doing
All along
Bringing us together
Many wrong turns before this
Finally I made thee right one
Then came you