A mind so beautiful
A mind so lethal
A mind im in love with
A mind I can't hate
A mind that can make me smile
A mind that could crush my soul
A mind that can let me in
A mind that chooses to keep its secrets
A mind like a rubric cube
So hard to figure out
I'm in love with your mind
Without a single doubt

Goosebumps on my skin
Shivers down my spine
Coldness all around me
Madness in my mind

I gave you what you wanted
And now you're losing interest
I should have known
I did know better
But the second I looked into your eyes
How could I possibly resist?

Thinking about that night
My child hood left behind
You took it from me
You stole a part of me
I told you no
Still you didn't let go
You didn't get off
You just forced me down
While you're on top
You didn't care as I layed there and wailed
I still have nightmares
I still have thoughts
It was almost two years ago
Still the memory doesnt fade
I don't know what was more scarring
The fact that you did that
Or the fact that I was in love with you
I dated you for half a year
We were still together
I thought you loved me
But you couldn't handle no
Whenever I hear your name
I panic
Whenever I see somebody who looks like you
I cry
I can't do this
What you did to me hurt me
Still you didn't  care
I told you no
Still you didn't let go
You didn't get off
You just forced me down
While you're on top

You can do it!
I'm such a failure
You're so beautiful!
I'm  really ugly
You're strong!
I'm weak
You're smart!
I'm dumb
You're so cool!
I'm such a loser
You're smiling
I'm dying

The words i tell myself
Are not what I truley believe

I don't want to say goodnight to you
But I really don't have a choice
I hate that I can only text you
I need to hear your voice
It's that time of night where I need to rest
Just know you're im my heart and that your my boo and you're the best
Goodnight beautiful green eyes
Goodnight beautiful smile
I need to see you tomorrow
Because I haven't seen you in a while

I got called a ***** today
You might have lost a friend
I got called ugly
You're wondering if your friends life will end
I got called a *****
You're getting you heart ripped out
I don't know how to help you
All I can do is pout
You're not in this alone
I'm here by your side
You and I are going through a hard time
But together we stand
And together we fight