It’s three am but I don’t give a ****
I was your biggest, number one fan
I’m up thinking about you and me
And everything that we used to be
I need you to come back and see

Gave you my all, thought we had a ball
Until one day, you abruptly said
I was no longer welcome in your bed
And you erased me from your head
Now acting off as if I were dead
worst than that, never existed in fact

It is now three-eleven
I thought we were in heaven
I made you my whole world
So when you were gone
Guess what that left this girl?
Left me nothing for sure

Gave you my all, thought we had a ball
Until one day, you abruptly said
I was no longer welcome in your bed
And you erased me from your head
Now acting off as if I were dead
worst than that, never existed in fact

It’s three-fifteen
I know you’re not listening
But it’s still worth mentioning

Gave you my all, thought we had a ball
Until one day, you abruptly said
I was no longer welcome in your bed
And you erased me from your head
Now acting off as if I were dead
worst than that, never existed in fact

So, these are my confessions
I learned some hard lessons
Made my share of some messes
Couldn’t help all that happened
And I can’t make the crap end
So, there is no time for resting
Somewhere here there is a message
I swear these are my confessions

One, two, three, kept getting caught
As the victim and to be later distraught
Took away my innocence and choice
Left me a scared little girl over and over
Don’t know how to say NO

Friends come and go after many years
Thought I had a hold on my dears
Always said cheers, then my worst fears
One by one over nonsense they were gone
That’s what happens when they change

Now, these are my confessions
I learned some hard lessons
Made my share of some messes
Couldn’t help all that happened
And I can’t make the crap end
So, there is no time for resting
Somewhere here there is a message
I swear these are my confessions

Guys wasted time and I was so blind
Even when in love he even bit the dust
Leaving me guilty and never touched
Like I was never ever really enough
To not a single body, not to anyone

Family got torn and now it’s like thorns
Even my own blood has come for me
But never to my face, ain’t that great
Always wanted a big and happy tree
But now I just leave it be

Health declined more and more
I am so done keeping the score
It seems I’m losing it anyway
With more wrong daily these days
I officially have lost my way

There, these were my confessions
I learned some hard lessons
Made my share of some messes
Couldn’t help all that happened
And I can’t make the crap end
So, there is no time for resting
Somewhere here there is a message
I swear these are my confessions

When I was young at least I could dream
Now it all seems to be past tense to me
Because it all never ended up fading
And now I’m more than ever going crazy

Never knew what was in the cards
It went too far and got so very hard
Started big then onto many shards
Was a lot to bare and life’s not fair
It took on a lot of wear and tear
And now it’s too much to take care
So all I can do is share

Now that I have become older
It seems to be more torture
I am still losing without answers
Tired of this waltz, I’m no dancer

Never knew what was in the cards
It went too far and got so very hard
Started big then onto many shards
Was a lot to bare and life’s not fair
It took on a lot of wear and tear
And now it’s too much to take care
So all I can do is share

I admit it’s more than I can bare
Start from A went to Z
That’s all I can take from me

Never knew what was in the cards
It went too far and got so very hard
Started big then onto many shards
Was a lot to bare and life’s not fair
It took on a lot of wear and tear
And now it’s too much to take care
So all I can do is share

Didn’t know what I was in for
Once you closed that door
Started out okay, later went a wrong way
Did things I did not even ask for
And you didn’t warn me about them before
When I protested, didn’t make a difference
So I got scared and let you finish your business
Got a bit abusive and even more intrusive
Afterwards wouldn’t let me leave
Held my hostage with thee
Thought about gong to the kitchen
To grab a knife for my protection
But it was a big iffy question
Confused because at first I gave permission
Revoked it after it wasn’t my intentions
But it had made no difference
So yet again, I was the victim
Told no one else about it
So this is my admittance
Bad mouthed me after the fact
Upset me and that was whack
All might not believe here all that I’ve said
But at least it’s no longer locked in my head
I guess that’s the end, heaven send me strength

You may be my confidant
As I talk that talk
And reveal my thoughts
You just keep them locked up
It’ll be our secret, only between us
Does that sound like a plan?
I may also need a helping hand
Shh, you are here to listen
So no questioning anything
Now just trust me

I regret every teeny and tiny thing
And in some ways I’ll take the blame
I guess I should have known better
What lurked behind those eyes ever

Felt jaded, our spark faded
It’s over now, I lost somehow
Not that shocked, still oh my god
I think what the world would be
Without you in it still breathing
So choke on that and that’s a wrap

I don’t know how it started off so well
Only for you to put me through the hell
I take fault that I never, ever saw it coming
But still you are sure as hell something

Felt jaded, our spark faded
It’s over now, I lost somehow
Not that shocked, still oh my god
I think what the world would be
Without you in it still breathing
So choke on that and that’s a wrap

I have no forgives left within me
So just deal with it and burn you SOB

Felt jaded, our spark faded
It’s over now, I lost somehow
Not that shocked, still oh my god
I think what the world would be
Without you in it still breathing
So choke on that and that’s a wrap

I am so sick of living life as a lie
And being broken on the inside
Not knowing how quite to survive
Asking over again why me, oh why

Over time, I can no longer seem to cry
My eyes are all dry and my brain is fried
I am wondering how could I ever be fine
But I am looking and not getting a sign
So all I know is I am tired and done trying

Lost everything in a blink of an eye
Couldn’t hang on no matter how I tried
Maybe if I held on a little bit more tight
I could have salvaged something of my fight

Over time, I can no longer seem to cry
My eyes are all dry and my brain is fried
I am wondering how could I ever be fine
But I am looking and not getting a sign
So all I know is I am tired and done trying

I just want to give up on what’s left
After spending so much time in a web

Over time, I can no longer seem to cry
My eyes are all dry and my brain is fried
I am wondering how could I ever be fine
But I am looking and not getting a sign
So all I know is I am tired and done trying