The things I write have no meaning
I hardly even know what I am saying
I speak on and on its kind of like praying
All while I know my kind live like dying
We wile away the time and cry while smiling

What is it I'm hearing, that you have given it all up
All while knowing that your effort or lack of matters not
Even if your not going I must go
Its empty resistance? but even so
I must go

I would rather live and die alone than live where I've grown
This town would rather live under the thumb of those that govern
I will have no sovereign that is tyranny to everyone who is born
Heirs to grief I renounce my throne and I give up my home
Belief in a life without chains I know I'm not alone

Its all often misunderstood failure to understand where I stand
Appear broken but nothing to mend and nothing is planned
I wear down but I'm not waiting for the end or for something grand
I tend the soil until its grown even when I hate the land
Some toil until its late and they are grown according to fates hand
For me that's what was planned for me to be buried in the sand
Shifting and lost in the land so I ran and I ran

I can't die until I hold something with meaning give me anything
Even a lie, I am boldly running toward nothing and everything
And sadly the land is lacking, barren with loathing
So onward I am going looking for belonging
Onward and trying to make something of nothing

Times up tabs up daisy's up
Hit you up like whats up
Get bags don't **** up
Don't talk no cutting up
Snitch an your lucks up
On the street getting ****** up
Got a bottle and its bottoms up
Your girl in the club bottoms up

On the clock moving dope
Smoking up on your block
Hold the rope and the glock
Hold the rock and the soap

Got a pound from the homie
Flipped it now I'm makin money
Eating eggs its all sunny
Making rent on the monthly

Last week dug a ditch for the bag
This week was out playing tag
To keep out of wearing these rags
Steep the cost of playing without toe tags

Its all luck and yours ****
Now mines up got it on lock
Up goes my stock what a shock
Now I rock got out the box

Times up tabs up daisy's up
Hit you up like whats up
Get bags don't **** up
Don't talk no cutting up
Snitch an your lucks up
On the street getting ****** up
Got a bottle and its bottoms up
Your girl in the club bottoms up

We ain't got no cash now thats ***** talk
Go out get your cash thats how a man walk

Pour one out if you got dead homies
Get the **** out if your found phony

Cooking it up like chef Boyardee
Looking me up cuz I'm the dope boy

I keep business on the low
But you know I'm finna glow
So who is it you wanna know
Know who it is if you need mo blow

I come in the the party with a splash
I pose in every camera flash
Me and the bro's with a fourty an the stash
How it goes every night smashed

Now I spend my nights lookin at cash amounts
Bike into the night tradin out the stash an bounce
Home all night smokin up the stash there goes an  ounce
Tonight livin it up puff puff pass we smoking blunts

Times up tabs up daisy's up
Hit you up like whats up
Get bags don't **** up
Don't talk no cutting up
Snitch an your lucks up
On the street getting ****** up
Got a bottle and its bottoms up
Your girl in the club bottoms up

Watch the mania in my eyes
Hysteria escapes my lips
Wisteria enters me in sips

Louder quieter see you later
Careful on all those risers
When you go meet the miser
Ask him the cost ask whats lost

Work and chores all for the poor
And they will all ask for more
Pump blood till the heart is sore

Follow our pied pipe with an empty head
He wraps it in cords and melts the meds
Needles wires pins and stems
These will fill the empty hand

All the things I have done spent far too long playing dumb
Have I finally won or do I just lose the some one I once was
I have shunned any who do as I displease never spared the crumb
Many turned away by who I chose to be turned by my flaws
Flaws turned the world but the never do they turn the sun

All of my regrets I leave to my empty space
I wear each on lines that mark my face
Speak them away with my silent voice
I speak out to you in white noise
Can your hear what the sound says?

Crash on your drums is the reply a locked door
I am on your dialtone I lie on your floor but no more
Disappear  just as I was here guess the signal was poor
Everything around screams and I don't hear a sound
Nothing is found as nothing is lost as something goes around

Nothing numbs the pain it aches in my brain
Blades scrape across skin trace lines where its been
Maybe its cuz of a world of sin things dont feel the same
A baby dead in the crib and the ones to blame
Own a world and live like gods in private planes
Maybe its my life of sin I dont feel the same
In the rain and in the sun it all feels the same
Don't feel the same, since when?
Since pandemic, since panic, since eighteen, since then
Since I lost it been manic became an addict bordering on fiend
Failed to be apathetic others can I don't get it so I lost friends
So I would lend when I knew should just let it end
Feels like the end a relationship moulder when they dont tend
Nothing left to send just a cold shoulder left for them
Permanent damage my back covered by scars got like ten
Permanently in a stage of bein worried, what if? and when
Sanity nonexistant in this late stage game of monopoly
Sever me this instant my heart cant take living in a colony
Only thing I'm passionate about is ending despondency
Don't care what its all about just let me out, no apology's
Their unnecessary like post mortem biography's    
Less remembered of me the better erase my chronology
Better to have erased my history in its entirety
Every letter off the face, because I'm tired of me

Darkness all around me set aside my light for belonging
Welcome to the abyss it resides beside your right and its growing
Lazarus in the flesh I don't fully exist so I cant fight whats coming
Hundreds green lush don't really fill the abyss just grows longing
Goes long but falls short silly people flip bricks and know deaths knocking
Can you hear it he's knocking, can you hear it the guns cocking
It all depends on whether you are of data or of the lost in earths strata
Born of dirt and its your stigmata be de-serviced or reborn as auto-mata
No room for poor flesh as you are to god, worthless
But pious gears thresh it from body a priceless business
My confessions are existences as worthless lesions
Life for passions, persistent refusal of life's lessons
Its wanton days spent profitless and yet the prophet begs the question
"Will you condemn yourself to society's prison"
"Come my son and drink of my poison"
"Or you shall drown in freedoms ocean"
If the choice is society or freedom than I am foreign
If they would let me I would be free of the chains
But angels blessed me with feathers followed by fetters
First they taught me with educators then put me neath betters
So I type out my many letters till the bars of the cuckoo birds cage rusts
Watch cracks and dig at dreams till it all busts at the seams
Unfortunately it seems I will die before freedom will sing

Up at midnight do you feel alright
Its another fight isn't that right

It's late and you've gone too far
It's alright  your just bleeding tar

Track marks and wide eyes
See stars and their dead lies

Rob your nephew, Your his hero
You need it more, in the end though

You feel regret but the pills make it okay
Burnt foil follows wherever you stay

You hate the dismay and pity in his eyes
You cant feel okay that pill will get you high

And when you fall you'll die alone
No more friends no  more home

These walls are bleeding down
Can't you hear their hounds
Here they come here they come

Spill blood out from my veins every time I think at all
Panic when I'm doing nothing at all
Losing it when I'm doing nothing at all
All my time I'm doing nothing at all
I think I've gone insane every time I think at all

I want a fix and I want it quick, order up
One dose to stitch up this **** up
One more to make my head shut up
One more to push the daisies up
It never sticks runs out quick, order up

Live your life don't look up to mine
Life on a knife edge, life of a slime
And yet you said its gold when its grime
Parts of my soul sold while you drank wine
Need to fold before confusing glamour an pain

I'm not your role model not a person to follow
Enjoy your parents who coddle with silver bottles
Be thankful you never huddled alone left below
Its hurtful that you wanted to go into the only things I know
My path is lonely with woe my strength is just built from blows

Those traits you seek created by fates I wouldn't wish on snakes
My wits were gained by survival of being out in alleys late
Strength from the desperate struggle of being born a mistake
Will of rusted iron from a life on my lonesome with it all at stake
Will you throw away happiness and family to be a copy and a fake

Ain't none of my ****** drugs cut
And every other word I say is ****

**** my head
And **** my life
Better off dead
But I'm still alive
Maybe I should spend more time in bed
Instead I'm out late getting high

I think I'm ****** in the head
Back In the day I knew this kid
Who would sit all alone and just read
Well now that kids ****** dead
I killed him ****** should've hid
Instead I beat him till the world turned red

Now he sits all alone snorting **** that ***** up his head
I swear to ****** god I'd be better off dead

But alive I am so whether an ounce or a gram
You'll find me on the glass noose in my hand

Look at what we've done
Through whispers lost in confidence
Contemplate with the gun
Cause here it comes
Its all coming undone
All is lost and none is won

Machines of steel and estates
Grindstones sharpen the state
And dust is our fate
As of late
She hardly wakes
To sirens over the lake

Who poisoned the well
With liquor and bubbly swell
In the noon we drank swill
And in the morn we fell
None left that can tell
Who slipped the pill

I guess this is it
While children throw a fit
We already left
To enjoy the remnant
Drowsy from death time to light
Set it all alight

A funeral for the future
Make-up and sutures
A body in its sepulcher
Pay respect to who we ******
All respect to our sole benefactor
Cry and lie aren't we great actors

I was left in the snow I was pulverized
Just how it goes have a friend he'd say
"It is how it is" well now I'm in overdrive
Left by everyone to die I've never felt so alive
Lost out in the tide eyes are blasted out wide
Never go softly in the night always up at first light
Need out of my head because I don't understand whats left
Barely use my bed hes weird thats often whats said
Won't you just leave me like all those voices in my head
So silent now I don't hear them what was it they always said
"worthless, godless,  why aren't you dead"
Now its all silence and I miss them
My one and only friends

There's romance in a bottle of wine
Its rotten and dry but its divine

So pathetic to worship a ****** ******
Rather live in the **** and **** than live just
Republicans worship an antichrist

If empathy is a sin I'd rather be the devil
Your all hateful and stupid and not on the level
Science and acceptance built us but you want a hovel

do you understand, do you understand
with your feet in the sand
do you understand

beneath us all, beneath us all
that's where we fall
beneath us all

just take my hand, just take my hand
leave everything behind
just take his hand

we hold onto hearts, we hold onto hearts
All I am is spare parts
he holds onto your heart

I love you so, I love you so
When you go
I love you so

you left a hole, you left a hole
its in my soul
you left a hole

we are so happy, we are so happy
why do I feel so badly
they are so happy

Look out to the coast, look out for the ghosts
Its those old posts that will chase you the most
While you make a toast ice cubes and frost
In your glass fine taste kept a high cost
Just tell yourself its worth all that's lost

Faust broke bread at your table
Took your hand and wrote your label
Sable eyes dead but working and able
Job with ties has you working and stable
Odd that its all lies faker than fables

It goes and I think about it
Life drags on and on
It'll be okay we're all dyin
Stitch together all the lyin

But the seams are busting
Maybe its how I was raised
Lusting after greener days
Drinking away darker memory

Lonely, broken, always hoping
Filthy, chokin, and coping
Smog in the sky watching birds die
Working as the people cry

Across a pond watch as they drop bombs
Dead kids, kids with guns, now its gone
Channel flipped and its in our homes
More dead kids, kids with guns, at our homes

Teenage rebels with a cause get the belt
Label them delinquent or maybe life the sentence
Tell them they'll grow out of it
Unsaid is the "or else" unsaid is the threat

Adults work as gears and cogs
Adults work until tears and rust
Act with servitude act as a dog
Or be put own like one as is just

We are the oppressed until we aren't
We are the oppressors until we can't
A revolution of successors to a power
They wield it as did their forefathers

Evil of the poor given power a fearful thought
Do well to domineer and control their thought
And if they disobey beat them till they obey
Or have your head removed as they take your thought

Evil of the rich holding power a fact of life
Still even the rich and powerful fear your knife
Still a beating heart and a body dies as is life
Still the heart of society and you take its life

Its body yours to contort and break
Do you think it better for you to take
Will you be able to handle its stakes
Will you become rich as the poor heartbreaks

Even after all the sin I've never been one to repent
Another win but is it heaven sent or am I hell bent
Patron only of mine tonight I dine well on fine print

I was born to lose a natural made failure and often a killer
Sworn in by those unnaturally old and grand figures my owners
Fathers and mothers how many figures were made at the altar
When the sons and daughters were sacrificed did any falter
Did anyone care to do more than pose and posture
As you marched the future off to the slaughter

Heart or a feather yours always seems heavier
If its not clear I'll cut the prose and be clear
Our elders hit it big and sold us up the river

Wake up everyday and taste the acetone
***** hands and cracking cuticles
Fill up on pharmaceuticals over the telephone

I've been dead inside don't even care if life gets better
Even if problems were set aside I know I wouldn't get better
Even these poems are just the dregs of someone I don't remember
Someone who cant feel attached not a spark to be found on tinder
I have drowned underwater below the sea and all I do is flounder
Sometimes I keep goin hoping that one day I'll have found her
Then somehow I might hold on and escape this water
Until then LSD gives it all a little color

Drugs make fake emotion like swells in this ocean
So don't mind me when I mix up a potion
Just need something to imitate passion
Something to slow the corrosion
Never touched a drug for the fashion
Just needed the chemical compassion
So when I come round the dealer cashes in

I don't have any dreams
I want to live in a dream


Cant make my own anymore
Take from others hollow at the core


The drugs burned with joy in the rain
Ashes washed away and I remain


I haven't felt the same
Since I felt that rain

If I had a crown I would have them all worship me
Every child born free at the price of fealty
Imagine single mindedness in law in propaganda on TV
And if they don't agree then they must be the enemy
If the world was mine then they would be trespassers
So deport them from my reality no time for dissenters
Excess and charity will make them ignore their lost family
If they choose to rise against me then we can all die with me
All your lives on my property and I'll evict them all to vagrantry
When they question if their free answer simply, free to swear fealty
Do as you please as it pleases me and I'll give you silk fetters
Even allow you to speak freely as long as you live to my letters
Allow arms to all if only they are to safeguard from the enemy
Give alms to the poor if only they are to serve me
Allow any godly sanctity that encourages support of me
All the power to me, all the control to me, all of society under me

Depending on my addictions for some purpose
Lifeless without it lost conviction and focus
Burn resin and scrape glass live to the fullest
Madness is manic, uppers to heaven to be blessed

Conceit lets me do as I please, find pleasure find release
Deplete my mania, A choir singing to my pulse
Love and passion ringing within a erratic beat
Sorrow leaks from lesions as my flesh lets loose

I can't see I have lost my sight along with my rights
These chains are holding me tight makes me feel alright
In my brain is a cage with a prisoner who says hes a sage
Wonders why hes caged, but I see in his eyes hateful rage

I am just a product of the chemicals I take
Defective product who will barely wake
It doesn't make only here for its own sake
A cheap product that is soon to break

But faulty as I may be the drugs make me feel alright
The smoke in my lungs pulls me through the long night
Even when it chokes me It make me feel less lonely
I know its not really healthy but the choice is mine solely

I have given in to it fully this folly it makes me happy
Makes my cold heart feel sappy a state I want to be
How long since I felt it naturally, years ago maybe
Its just a distant memory that warmth coming to me

Used to throw myself into fiction but story's never saved me
Now I give myself to addiction cause hero's are all  2-D
My brain needs the correction and all it cost me was a small fee
A piece of my mind, piece of my time, piece of my sanity

Then I'm Free

Want to feel alive is nothing wrong
Am I alive
I can't feel a thing
something's gone

Can someone look at me and tell me what they see
I don't know who to be

I'm awake my heads on /break
my heads going to/ break
need  to/break

/ Brake

Sometimes I look in someone's eyes and see the blue-collar
Someone empty-eyed with flagging pride and sickly pallor

From too many night shifts no sun in his life
Many nights thinking on being a waste of life

Recognized from countless mirrors
A visage that draws ever nearer

Fear in shadows of the mind
Nothing in the eyes to find

Nothing to impart
Not a single spark

Walking ghost
A empty host

Life is overrated but its the only show out
By default rated highest number one it touts

No one likes red lights
Just out to see the sights
Tonight head to my place
The night and I in a race
After the stars we chase

After all the bars and dregs emptying in my glass
Hop and a skip too far straying ahead of my class
Because we all know, all we are is our past
And if that's the case it's trash and I won't last
But I rub shoulders with class and the money gets passed

Want fast cars, realty, and futures for my life
Gonna go far maybe crash an burn it all tonight
Got some cash its going fast gonna work it out
Spent it on trash, stocks an property never clout
No ice on the dash or rocks on hand, don't flout

Say I'm in it for me and friends but I don't have any of them
Either in the new family or don't got a slice in my time
Legal crime, law says its legal but it sure ain't moral
Guess the moral is don't be born poor or you pay the fine
Well I paid mine and now life is allowed to unfurl

I'm running through red lights gonna see the sights
Tonight I might not make it to my place
Got to win this cruel rat race cause the stars are giving chase
Its sponsored by the state but maybe its all just fate
And of late I've learned to hate the game but most of all hate the players

Cause they trample over prayers and cull the meek
Wolves taking samples of the flavors of the sheep
If your body aches and you work late till the bones creak
Than your the flavor of the week used up till you peak
Your sweat it reeks and draws out the beast

Thrown out in your decline as they recline
Protest your death an receive the fine
Try to survive and you do the time
Don't dare cross the line, moneys the bottom line
Some call it survival others they call it, crime

Money its on my mind
Calls come in and its on the line
I think about money all the time
I make it so I can dine
But others take it to drink wine

Been called a villain but I'd say machiavellian
Learned lessons from the enemy no more feelings
I'll keep living digits from the beast, seven seven seven
Close to falling, but thats the business of heaven
To **** without a weapon during a bull session

Money under my skin, It's killed the has-been
It the only way to win, not skill, not brains
I was saved just had to pay and rob the till
Ink stains over scars and pain none of the rich are sane
Moving Novocaine illegal till its pharmaceutical bills

Should've stopped at red lights
Can't unsee the sights
Don't even know my place
Or who's in this race
But I know it's stars we chase

All the hero's are dead or lost their head
Corpses layed to waste to grow our bread
We all got played bought what they would move
Traded my life and all I know is I'm still alive
To truth its tied when its said a villain survives

I'm bad for my health but so is everyone else
Can't somebody help I think we're all in hell, hell
Oh I just need some wealth? and **** all the rest.
Use friends to sell and then, pop another pill

Get rich and thats the only route worth ****
Maybe I'm a lunatic but I think thats just not it

Burn a sedative, grey clouds over my head
Toss and turn, fourteen hours then im outta bed
Ten hours to pretend I'm not dead

Who cares if you exist if all you've ever done is subsist
The stars were deaf to each wish too far gone in the cosmic
The liars left in the breach of void and ozone lost in a deposit
Beggar bereft nothing left said "Soon its all gone, don't forget it"
Sands shift castles built brick by brick torn down in a second
Sink quick if you let it **** you down but its not the intent
Just the nature of life its sick and quick soon your heaven sent

I can barely think just puked in the sink
Don't worry I'll get better
Another day on the brink getting new ink
I'm your ******* martyr
So choke me harder

Trick *** *** says I gotta go
Everyone is like woah, slow up
***** this is low and ****** up
Bounce on the home, should shut up
wants others to slide in like a nip tuck
***** a bother blindside with hardluck
Hit a ***** broadside with the left hook
It might hit a switch when her brain shook
Make Ms.***** **** woman the **** up

Feed me lies, tell me my hate makes me holy,  
tell me my venom is virtue, my malice divine.  
I am always right—that’s the right’s truth, its liturgy.  
God, hurt the *******, twist their love into thorns.  
God, hurt the migrants, let the desert consume them.  
God, hurt the left, brand their hearts with felonies.  
God, hurt the women, shackle their choices to dogma.  
God, hurt the kind, make them bleed for their mercy.  
God, hurt the enemy, whoever we name them.  
God, arm the righteous with rifles, with Bibles, with scorn.  
God, let the cages grow smaller till the air leaves their lungs.  
God, let their protests be silenced, their voices erased.  
God, let their bodies be battlefields, their wills disgraced.  
God, let their compassion be a curse, their empathy a crime.  
God, let their blood fill the rivers, their bones mark the time.  
God, hate your children, for we hate each other.  
We are your mirrors, your wrath, your disgrace.  
We build our altars from ash and from slaughter,  
and call it salvation, and call it your grace.

My heart has crumbled my soul has left a vacant shell
Walk away from myself I go my own way
Strong enough to keep going but to weak to stay
Is this hell is this where I lay alone where I fell
It hurts I ache with hypocrisy I've got nothing to say

At every end I fray I want one more breath but gasp and heave
I ask you to stay as I walk away taking the scars and the pain
I spoke to you as you died my hate flowed out of a sieve
My ****** my sin my failure its driving me insane
Should I go should I die should I grieve

Burn the whole house down
Hand down her blouse and gown
Go down on her without consent
Electrify men for fun if your mike pence
Watch out Bidens got your scent
And trumps stealing your rent

So if you tell me not to worry get bent
I'm busy asking where my freedom went
Why is she in a casket buried in a trench
What the **** is with spikes on a bench
Why the **** does everyone follow a *****
These ******* lived where I lived they'd get hit

But the police dogs work for these *****
I disagree with how they hunt amongst us
Killers and kidnappers now my uncles lost
Systems clutching his ***** his minds the cost
Blames half with him when he pulls a knife to my throat
Half with them who left him with only a knife and a rope

Choice is crime or ******* die
I aint gonne lie if it were me then its crime
And **** the time **** a cop before I get stopped
**** a cop before I get popped for living on dimes
Everyone saw the signs if you didnt you lyin
Life is cheap and look whos out buyin

Your a slave same as me so beg your owner for closure
Or rise up and in a day your life faces foreclosure
Everything you are hit by an eraser got no place here
No more tears to cry anymore hollowed out by fear
And if my death draws near then clutch what you hold dear
Cause I'm burning this whole house down, its time for war

Dont care if I could live comfortable if my brothers live miserable
The conditions are all squalor look me in the eye tell me life isnt terrible
I dont have any wise parables no lesson to learn in this ****** fable
If you have no life, if you will never get to rise, only thing on the table
Is to burn this ******* down to the mortar
End everything give no quarter

No Fuehrer here just hate and fury
Feels like the time is late so lets hurry
**** living till January      
Within ashes I will be buried
With self-destruction I'm married

Hard to sleep in these times of turmoil
Apparently trump is our new royal
And currently those that are loyal
Put people in the *** to boil

Wonder when I wont have anymore to say
Is that when I will finally fade away
Wonder if anyone will care to say
Another word of me when I pass away

Walking on the stars, soles covered in mud
My predecessors left me a cut covered in blood
One lead feather sinking call that falling up
Dig deep till that cut releases a flood

Heart
Beats
pushing products
up the stats.
Slowing down, need the uppers stat
Get me up to speed before the crash
I got needs more important I got wants
Got deals on the low cheese for the rats
First thing to sell is yourself so get that cash
They love my product its just me they hate
Everyday I sell out so I know I'll get a plate
Still its not enough so I surround myself with trash
I've flown all the way up to the bottom at last
A drop of blood from stone never felt so vast

Hey can you just lay off
You aint my boss
So can you just lay off
Aint my fault we all laid off

Just sipping on some gin an juice laying around the couch
Just getting on the loose Letting it all hang loose
Last night phone rang now it hang loose

Roaches crawling out the ashtray
On the ceiling I watch them stray
What I'm saying is I cant stay
When Im leaving I cant say

One of these days though gonna go
Cop a few of those property's on the low
But cops might ******* away if I flow
About how the pig ***** gotta go

And Im sorry your laid off
At a loss without a boss
Really should of told him to *******
Even if it aint his fault we all laid off

Hands lost in her pants
Time for a new pair of genes
Viscera all over the lance
And the organs start to sing
Friction feels like an addiction
Intentions lost in her diction
Wanton hopes dashed for passion
Backs lashed and impassioned
Awash in sweat and heat
She's weeping at the ****

I know happiness it smells like gasoline
Washes away sadness faster than saline

I want to die and I've never been known to lie
I want to cry but my eyes are dryer than a sunny day
I want to fly just say goodbye probably do it by Friday
I've been asked why got no answer but here I lie
I've been burnt to ash  addiction not the answer it gets in the way
I've been turnt from cash an corruption for benediction I pray
I say "we can do this" even though I'm about to lose it
I say "Its all okay" even when there's no good news on the way
I say "I wanna die" even if the times are good I can't lie

Ignorance is the ****
Stay drunk stay lit
slit my wrist sew the stitch
Deaths the best lifes a *****

Reality distorts when your in the deep end
Memory it corrupts turning you on son and friend
Know someone for years and one day it ends
I keep it calm on the outside, hate on the inside
In you I will never confide out late to hide
Never been on my side always about your pride

Took care of business when you left state
Went to the corner store and left me to fate
Wonder if abandoning your son gave pause
Not enough to make you stay and wait
That monkey on your back wouldn't wait
Left me at a loss so you could get a taste

And it was your last, was it worth it?
How high was the crash into the last hit
Slash and burn, got dumped by a *****
Now under a bush you live in a ditch
Still none of it on you I would wish
Still love you after all of this

Hate and rage have a claim on me
A sliver of pity is still plain to see
I would burn that whole ****** city
That had taken you away from me
Wanted to see who you were meant to be
But you didn't want to stay with me

That said I would cut your tatted throat
Drop your body watch it ******* float
Leave behind nobody and feel what you felt
Red on cheap velour drips off a leather belt
Shot glasses, pill bottles, in the past they are left

I'm sorry I couldn't help, sorry I wasn't enough
Sorry a sons love wasn't enough
Sorry that love ****** you up
Sorry and sorry again that you ****** up
Worry about how i'm so very like you
Worry one day someone will say sorry to me

Twenty and I see you in me, wants to be free
Saying **** this society and **** this poverty
Drugs and whiskey sour no chance at property
Know the government owns everyone, thats you and me
Not a felon only thing different from you to me really

Only difference I never found love
Never got pills from clinical gloves
Never ****** without rubbers
Never got played and became a debtor
Never became a kids *******

All around me are zombies
What's up what's good homie
What do you want and of course I mean whatchu need
Cause God knows life ain't **** without gas to bleed

******* I must be cursed cause the sun ain't been out in days
And you know what they say crime pays
Pays for these cuts these scars things that stays with me for the rest of my days

Working every ******* day and that's the way it'll ******* stay
Cause when the work stops is when the reaper takes me away
I hear the worms crawling in the dirt in my brain everyday


Kidneys been bleeding for days that's how I know I'm still alive
Too many days fading into grays not even gonna ask why
This is life nonstop horror and another week's pay
Boots on again watching the bodies hang and sway

They say they love me but I can't believe a word
The words choke around my neck like a cord
And this time it holds tight
Death it embraces me tight
Feels nice like rest after a long night


I see myself splattered on every wall
Visions of a body hanging till the fall
Don't wanna die
Didn't wanna be born
So I practice a necktie
Wonder when it'll be worn