This isn't aspiration its ****** desperation
Whole life spent in dehydration an starvation
Bein real I don't even want salvation
Schizophrenic walls are talkin
Tell me I'm overdosing

**** it though atleast I'm feeling something
even if its suicidal atleast its something
Peak its oncoming then a crash landing
Minds changing its shifting
Uplifting but its shifting

I'm wishing on stars written in a few bars
Doing **** going too far endin up on mars
Engine aint working, smokin spittin out tar
Burn up in the atmosphere with no fear
Torn up by g force smackin the planets core

I'm watching myself die every day I just
Watch myself die, most my friends lost
Worry that today could be the last
Hope today might just be my last
Doesn't life move fast

Thought I was gonna be rich thought I was gonna be famous
I was just out of touch right now I'm just depressed
I miss her touch now my rooms a mess
I failed that much is clear if this is all a test
I'm under too much water waves I couldn't crest

Me and my friends will never be rich
Me and my friends doin drugs chasin a wish
**** aint life a ****** *****
Too many friends done switched
Stealin many ends watched me eat ****

****, every year feel like the final year
No ones ever here alone with my fear
Its cool even I don't care got an empty stare
So I guess abandonment was my fare
Tellin myself life just aint fair

They say they love me but I can't believe a word
The words choke around my neck like a cord
And this time it holds tight
Death it embraces me tight
Feels nice like rest after a long night


I see myself splattered on every wall
Visions of a body hanging till the fall
Don't wanna die
Didn't wanna be born
So I practice a necktie
Wonder when it'll be worn

Bend my spine like its the truth
Cut a vein if the blood will soothe
Cracked our code kicking teeth

End of an era watching the planet bleed

Empathy is cruelty and the people are broken
The end of civility for digital tokens
No sanity everyone must be joking

End of an era sowing dead seed

Love the hate the worst of us take control
Look to the state they're out on patrol
Sealed our fate they're taking our soul

Life's been let down after let down
The highs are come down after come down
I stand in place sun up and sun down
Drinking and partying around town
With my constant frown
I wear a whiskey crown
Clarity is the same as misery
So come here commiserate with me
Passed back and forth a bottle of Hennessy
Crying tears of liquid LSD
Shaking from the DT's
First hit I ever took was a freebee
Filled me up and left me empty
My brain aches and my body is sweaty
Sticky and failing grasp for that comfort
Even while I stand in squalor
I toast to every single new year
Down my throat goes another beer
As I careen towards a ******* career
I feel depression and a drugged up cheer
Liquid LSD comes out in tears
DT's and shakes make some fear
But I know none myself, in my town
With a whisky crown and a frown
Everyday sun up and every let down

The walls dance on the hillside
Claws pull from fester tides
Unease in tall knives
Grass and tall lies
Underfoot the fall lies

Shaky walkways over the abyss
In the middle idle and gaze
Watch as the bridge sways
Look up and see idle days
Am I crazed or am I unphased

Feels like I could just slip into the abyss
Fall and leave behind all the fleeting nothingness
But I'd hate for others to feel amiss
If I were to be missed
So I sway and make lists

Lists about why I am so listless
Maybe cause I sleep in fits
Or cause nothing really fits
Is it cause everyone's sick
Is it cause no one'll ride my ****

The devil resides in my mental state
Where lust and wrath own real estate
Greed and envy are my fate
Sloth is why I'm always late
My pride allows them to stay

Devils in the details, devils in my failures
What does that entail for a being of years
In the entrails read a future filled with tears
Dangerous trails are predicted by seers
Death on the pale predicted by my fears

Still believed to have a few years staring at the abyss
More years to wile away with my shaky hands and lists
When the bridge collapse and I can say this is it
I'll say cheers right before the ground rises and hits
As I relapse in my personal apocalypse

Twist the tales till I am the hero
Zero steps from the spiral

Of lies and half truths
Pies and words to soothe

Words flow through a sieve
Sounds make others believe

In me and in my way
Free too sit and stay
Toll to walk away
Stay away is what I say

Say you oughta give me life
And leave me an extra slice
Maybe pass me your spice
And I'll give my lie

Tall stories with that go deep
Below the water and seep

When you weep and Im the cause
With my words I'll give you pause

Was I really the cause of your flaws
Gullibility lost your throat to my jaw

One bullet wont change the world just change a life
Bullets shout short changed and sold in the age of strife
The guns cry more than aged men ordering the death
Sons left to die in the sun nothings left, nothings ******* left
Rights dont apply at the point of a gun enforcers commit theft
Dark sights below locked in the joint welcome to the shaft
No dark night so we're all ****** wonder who gets the last laugh

I've done the math and we don't have the numbers
Cousin did the **** and now it all feels somber
What was best I just dont think I can remember
Know we won't last barely made it to december
When no ones real every ******* a pretender
I dont have enough real to lend here so it draws near
The collapse coming in clear should I raise a beer

Its all empty life is just empty it all gets to me
The pain of friends who wanna end it gets to me
The pain of an enemy the **** just gets to me
I know I'm not sane no one feelin the same as me
Should just stay in my lane but some things I cant unsee
A man choked to death gasping to be free
Sands passing as children rest in cages in the land of the free
Fires spreading an uprisin in a late stages just wanting to be free
Hate spreading from the president who wants nothing but money
Is it tragedy, is it dark comedy, should I laugh, is this funny?

A pack of monkeys throwing stones
Tribes of savages turn each other to bones
Gunpowder wizards usurp the world's throne
Imperial nations elevate off mass graves and wars won

Every face the same humans revealed their nature
Bared fangs base things and ******* masks hide a future
Monstrous acts with a spot of tea, putrid culture
Secede across the sea, manifest genocide and scalpers

Oh the humanity, where we swear fealty
To any who can make the biggest red sea
Sanity is subjective and as far as I can see
No animal will ever act logically

I've inflicted pain and I called down the rains
I did it in the name of the cause that I claim
So why do you exist, why do you do the same?
Everyone is the same we all have a cause to claim

Will we ever evolve past this point of no return
How do you teach a people who cannot learn
Truly this world is what humanity has earned
Blood and ash that won't last we all get our turn

We in the gulag
Warm fires we burnin our god
So sit and chill dog

Holden a narcissist pride
Eat my heart with rye
Look at a sunny day with a sigh
Always feels like the end is nigh

3 missed calls sorry for never calling back
But I'm just the worst ghost in your past
I haunt those that loved me before I crashed

Am I dead to you yet?
I still remember when I held you as you wept
I remember crying about you when I slept

I don't have a reason to exist
My life is just broken promises
Broken dreams, broken things I list

You got red eyes and irises so blue
Commiserate an sigh along with you
Problems we already knew not so new
I try to solve the case without a clue

Sunset just goes by talk in twilight
Embers of words keeps us alight
A fires last stirrings before it dies
And we part off into the night

I am a crutch left to get dusty in the attic
Its a crutch abused some might say an addict
I get used up all night and I just let it
So come day I'm empty an quiet

Smoke is still on the horizon
But the heat is far away
Lost the clouds in the confusion
As I insist they must stay
They drift out of the bay

As they gather they grow heavy
With the shadow of death
A storm brews with its levy
Taxing life of its breath
Soon rain will be wept

Methods of my confessions
Rhymes and simple expressions

Dark streets at midnight Not a soul in sight
Wander by streetlight, light up a spliff for the trip
Wander in shadows closing in as they follow
Wander into shadow fade as they swallow

Another night shift done another night gone
Sleeping in fits straight on through dawn
Wake up and bake then I'm gone

Progeny of sin                                                              ­                           Genetically inclined                                                         ­                                            I’m the next of kin

Ideal is in death                                                            ­                                      Apathy is in me                                                               ­                                                  I am losing breath                                                           ­                                       

Worshiping hollow hope                                                             ­                                           Pray to the self                                                             ­                                              Take a little dope to cope                                                             ­                         

Dry eyes, dryer tears                                                            ­                                           Cold blood, colder heart                                                            ­                                               Flat-lined mind,                                                            ­                        where are my fears

Leave me alone,                                                           ­                                          Help me please

Life whats the cost, yeah whats the cost
Is it all I've lost, yeah its all I've lost
Keep the lights on, pay that bill
Where's the food gone, musta ate my fill
Lights on in the loft, food gone I'm growin soft

I grew up in the radiation of the city sun
Long work weeks and shoplifting city fun
Grinding gears and hamster wheels to run
Getting to the city maybe I jumped the gun

Wanted to kick it in style out of the wild
Got kicked to the curb and put on file
Put to work washing up a dish pile
Customer pleasing and greeting for awhile

Till my custom became scraping for greenery
Money fields where I toil lost a harvest to robbery
Green fields smoked it for miles burnin some shrubbery
To make my life smile for a little while then back to drudgery

And maybe I hold a grudge but who are you to judge
Lived my life harder partying in the mud and sludge
Lost my mind in the rain to a psychedelic deluge
Lived my life harder crying in the mud and the sludge

Even now that I've gone across the pond
And it all couldn't be further
My past still holds a strong bond
To my habits and murmurs

Life whats the cost, yeah whats the cost
Is it all I've lost, yeah its all I've lost
But I'm glad I'm able to grow fat and soft
Even if the past is still haunting this ghost

Feelings lost in a void
Haunted by Freud
Paranoid of the noise
etc. etc.

I'll be in my room at the end of time
Our tab is called and we wont be fine
Too soon it comes the night is nigh
Don't ask if you look you know why

Life has always been short
We end soon after birth
What is the worth
Of life grown from dirt

We think ourselves as gods
Above earthly things like endings
No life is above its own decaying
Soon there will not even be the words

Apollo's arrows bring the plague of our age
And as he sets Mars comes in the night
To hunt in fallow fields within her blight
As mortals we react with despair and rage

Humanity is throwing a fit no one can breathe
Tears turn to blood and it leaks like a sieve
City's burn as our leaders forget how to grieve
Never had to care never told how to behave

When its over I don't want a prize for participation
Or even punishment for all those sinners
Life has no losers and it has no winners
We all fall down and I live in anticipation

Look out at the sky where birds sing cheerfully
Took out my words and sang them wonderfully
A fool without a sword who says life is beautiful

He's filled with holes deep and bored into his skull
Ate his fill of drugs cause he was bored out of his skull
Filled with holes from deep wounds eyes gone dull

Why is everyone so scared of violence
Yet crave death and its silence
Living in constant pain and compliance
Never going on the offense

Someday we will die I'm sure
They will never find the cure
All we invent is the means of more
We live atop our means of war

Life gone by ones own hand
Gone into the timeless sands
In this the strangest land
No thoughts of a stand

No peace and no war
From shore to shore
We devour the poor
Like cattle to the abattoir

No different is **** and man
Until one takes a stand
Stop the nooses strand
And strike at the hand

So you would die for nothing so why not die for something
A fight is coming the blood and oil keep on pumping
I wanna see it pouring from the necks of those Oilarch kings
Death to them death to you death to me death to everything

Thief in love he gotta thick goth gf
Russian chick few days boutta be bff's
Rushin in, few months he's her bf
Lookin like future with her to his left

Passion burns, at a Kebab shop it starts
Thief done got robbed took his heart
Helen and Bob, Incredible its art
The young heart throb with a sweetheart

Theres no more reservations left in heaven
Living in hell my expectations but more at seven
Live to talk its satans words out the television
Driving me to drink till I see in 2020 vision
Doing drugs so I dont think with double vision
Red thugs out and their on a ****** mission
Maga mugs sold out make a billion on commission
Red hats worn out looks like its the new fascist
Oops I meant fashion