******, ******
Just orders, protect borders
Justice and order, Fixers and sorters
Guts on a camcorder
**** out if you can afford her
**** hotels for the soldiers
Taped and stored in federal folders
Holes in daughters
Blood and *** drips as you hold her
Got questions, torture and water boarders
Doers, leaders, fuhrers
Child soldier bullets go pitter patter, splatter    
Colonial slavers are the industry pavers
Acceptable loss, lawyers and waivers
Watch or ignore it with entertainers
Silver screen lives and liars
Fired and dead reporters
****** in the mortar
So **** your leaders
Or live in hell forever

Never got to be a child had to be the man
Age nine and I was the only one that gave a ****
So ****** I handle my **** the best I can
Cause nothins been free except for dyin
So I've been cheatin, stealin, and lyin
Since I was a youngun its been survival
To charm and lie see everyone as a rival
In a game where its death if you get tabled
I ran the cards with sharks, waters chummed
Everyone smells blood so my hearts stone
It don't pump red it sits empty in the bone
I will never atone for what I've done
But I'll live to see the sun

Take me back to the homeland
It's all Ive had its become all I am
My land, my pride, and my flag
Nothing to hide except the past
People die so that the soil lasts
My empire will never pass
Eternal taxes from axis to axis
Commit to peace through casual violence
Apple pies, red delicious lies, and amnesia
Saviors and hero's that's the ideal that's the idea
Protectors like crusaders feel zeal with a righteous cry
Drone strikes over the people we choose to die
Money is denied for most of the lives
On empty expect everyone to strive for
Picket fences a couple kids need more than more
Work harder as long as me and friends got ours
I love my country I suffer for its health
I work to death to produce its wealth
Can't even tell I'm proud of hell

Citizens everyone of us
Future of business in the class
Passionless, as I pass into the middle class
Fall in line with all the rest

Boss said its time too get paid
Ghost say its best to learn a trade
Make a nest and live as a slave
Only alternative is an early grave

Citizens everyone of us
Irons and gears in our rust
Leaders that make the devil blush
Under foot the meek feel the crush

Decay on the highrises death before our irises
Ashes make me say less make me feel blessed
Blindsided by the crash burning up to fix it
Strings of violence chasing after finances

Small towns raised from dirt left to the curb
Suburbs running from filth is what I deserve
Moneys the only master left to serve
Reach out and grab it if you got the nerve

Boot straps pullin
Noose won't loosen
Round the throat chokin
Bout to make a killin

Im still haunted by your embrace
Long after ive forgotten your face
Remember you were all hope and grace

I wonder if your still the same
The brightly burning flame
Do you still obsess over the game?

everyone at a distance
Dead moths in the lens
Everyone loves to pretend
but thats just a pretense
Lithium lights are our friends
Helium heights chemical highs
everybody lies nobody cries
So get ****** take flight
Go get money every night
keep chasing bright lights
Feel the heat in signs
And be burnt by the times
over ashes they shine
Many are dead by thirtynine
Oh well guess we're doing fine
we made it, we touched it, we died

**** technology **** the progress
Give eulogy's on how its all a must
Your using me and I feel we have regressed
I study I work I made a dollar for twice what makes two
I'm ready I can start tomorrow for half price and die tomorrow
I wanted to do what others do work and get a home
Learned that I will work to the bone
And still have to take a **** loan
I made minimum wage at ******* twentytwo
My skills are trigonometry and construction to name a few
I am used and abused only ever worked to lose
So ******* I got nothing to lose
So ******* lets get some ***** 
Ten an hour to build a house from the ground up
All of my power all of my will and some say I'm stuck up
I'm embarrassed this is my only choice what a set up
My pride a joke my skills left me broke
Of every attempt loss has spoke
Top of the class, high IQ, what a ****** joke
I live in poverty
Rent a ratty property
And die in my poetry

Our generation is somewhat infertile
Cause its hard to **** amongst ****'n bile

Who am I to wear a crown
Someone falling down
Rain its falling down
Soon it'll hit the ground
I've come unwound

On rooftops with a bottle of crown
Trying not to fall all the way down
Last drop falling and I drown
Ground rise up to smack me down
I've come unwound
Unbound so hear this sound

One parent only father raised without a *** to suckle
Dad did his best hammer raised knees buckled
Every night hammered drugged up and tired
He gave me life, he raised me, he failed me

Now twenty tabs in wired all night long
Need to sleep so I hit the ****
Need to live so do drugs then I'm gone
All my fake friends know I'm on one

No benz, two wheels across town
Back paths and alleys gone down
No smiles round here only a frown
I'll die afore I can afford a hospital gown

Twenty shots of costco gin
Broke the same as broken
Soon to be in the trash bin
So I turn to crime again

Dealin like part time workin
Flippin like life is dependin
Profitin off others addiction
Is this really livin

Gotta get outta these places I been in
Aint any place for me to die in
Aint even got a place I'm buyin
Just rentin a slum ****** apartment

Stopped wearing a watch cause I only waste my time
Now watch as I drop line after aimless line
Meandered and squandered all of my time
After all the wandering and wondering I missed the sign
So I'm driving past the state line
Just hoping everything will be fine

Been havin’ sports car dreams
Ridin’ in a Volvo, blowin’ steam
Livin’ the crème de la crème

Till I wake up to the nightmare
Tired of wakin’ up poor, I swear
Gotta sleep, dream of somewhere
Somewhere… somewhere…

Man, somewhere else is where I wanna be
Reachin’ for green like my fool Gatsby
Every comedown, letdown, settledown leaves me empty
A fog of smoke from the green I burn, who do I be?
And who was it that I be? Had to have been somebody

Been slowly dyin’, workin’ nine to five
How long can I last? Maybe nine or five
Don’t know if I got the pay needed to live
Gotta get this bread if I wanna live

Takin’ a stride, lost in the forest, lookin’ for somewhere to apply
Then again, might just burn the forest, float on a smoky sky

I’m livin’ this life, strugglin’ against the current, currently
Workin’ this job, strugglin’ weekly, concurrently for currency
Grindin’ my life away, gonna end up passin’ away silently
Wanna burn fast and hard, a pyre burnin’ brilliantly

But I’m just slow-burnin’ embers, no fuel for the fire
Gotta get some more, need someone to send me a wire
These burnin’ embers are goin’ out, the light’s gettin’ dimmer
Drownin’ in darkness—never been a good swimmer
No food in the pantry, man, I’m gettin’ ******’ thinner
Keep competin’ for the prize, but never been a winner
Can’t win the rigged matches unless I become a sinner
Gotta be criminal just to get myself some dinner
Still believe I can make it—call me the deluded dreamer

Gotta try and make it, live my fantasy
Or die locked in a penitentiary
For the crime of chasin’ my rhapsody
Probably just end up another casualty

Dreams tainted by the course of age
I've acted like the prince but stood as a page
Thought my rage was past tense but I don't change

Expectations of respect but I'm not royalty
And I still stand with all my hate and loyalty
Sleeping soundly and when I wake its regrettably

My waking life is spent as a constant
Eyes closed with dark bags tired my countenance
A need to be a man of substance, a brain with content

It drives me to escape and sleep all day long
Life on my word the path of pain where have I gone
Burn in the night to escape the change will never come

Always I seek the validation of respect
Only break is sleep some stolen moments
Born poor and envious my life is one I reject

Heart beats in indigo even as it lets go
Dark and bruised still I will always grow
No need for an escrow when I rest it all goes

Forget and live
Regret to relive
Memory's are lazy
And the past is hazy

Years lost in a sigh
Who even was I
Just some guy
Lost in the lie

One dollar to my name and I need a million or more
**** this collar its all the same the boss gets the score
While I act like a ***** for a dollar and stay poor
I welcome death at my door I'm hollow to the core

Hollow to the core longing for nevermore
Empty eyes they've been dry for a year or more
My heart is sore and still life takes more and more
Only option only path my only choice is to end, or...

Struggle to survive walk on and act like I'm really alive
Yeah, like I'm really alive aimless I've missed the time
It's like these rhymes I make they wander listless across the line
Maybe me and my suicidal friends are just a sign of the times

Anti depressants like water and **** like the air we breathe
Loss is always what comes after seeds are planted in earth
Reap the young **** us cause the old have need for wealth
Can't breath buried by bills tossed away if we lose our health

Looking at my till with more cash than I'll ever have
Breaking my will patch it with the stash in the cave
Work till the day I die I know for sure I am a slave
Misery is sold cheap these days its the new wave

Drowning, breaking hearts, while the markets break the chart
I mourn the loss of innocence while I commit evil just to eat
Criminal thief and dealer but I always made that rent
I grow colder my veins icy all the way to the heart

Nowadays I invest in blackrock even as they steal the future
To poor to not play the stocks heal finances like ***** sutures
But its more like I'm locked in stocks while wealth laughs at my fears
If I don't succeed than I can only hope my face will be graced by tears
Only twenty three and I feel the depth of years

Cut off some friends haven't been out in a week
They out to party like life isn't aboutta end
Say I'm paranoid, Say I oughta take a break
That's stupid, not sorry and I mean to offend

I get outta bed gas mask on the bedstand
Light up a match flag burned and trash canned
WW1 ain't **** to an anti-science fascist land
A rancid maggot-infested wonderland

Don't ******* tell me to chill cuz your blind
Eyes pecked out by shills now you just unwind
Your ironed out wrinkle-free smoothed out mind
Hunned K dead tell me what do you intend

With all this mask hatin and beach partyin
Blue suits over human life you ain't kiddin
Eat my **** and die this last year meant nothin
******* and all the fun we had we ain't talkin

I'm not perfect I suffer my addictions
But I would never **** some to perdition
Cause of prejudice to a skin condition
If loyalty to pigs is your position

We are through we ain't crew you ******* tool
I know I'm a bad person but you're worse than
An ex dealer while I grew you stayed a fool
It stings losin a friend but you ain't a man

Every day reaching out to green lights in the bay
Everyone says let it go preach about giving it away
Flashing lights I need you to shine down today
Could live if I grasped even a single ray
That would be enough to make it through the day

Free flow is a wild ride no goal or pride
No drive, I walk through with no guide
Moods wax and wane with the tides
Interests ebb and sway with nights

Till I slip into that choppy water
Another case of human fodder
Lassoed by the greed of the butcher
Yanked in undertow to the slaughter

Fish out of water panic and inhale
Alveoli drenched skin turned pale
I die as I breath unbirth the tale
Toxify blood with Co2 as I trail

Fray at the rope around my throat
Underwater choke under the boat
Hull just above so I can't float
Got painted with a blue coat

Bruised blue finger tips and lips
Washed on shore gather the chips
Zombies walk the coast for licks
Get those rotten green bricks

Use em to buy resurrection
An ride the turgid *******
Of life with no protection
Just to feel the connection

Path to follow its paved in rust beneath is hollow
Many fell below turned to dust that's hard to swallow
It's follow or bust though so where will they go
Head off the pillow rest not a must time is shallow

Leaders after success, not yours not mine just theirs
Others suffer to cater at a dime serve wine without a share
Career servants without time tearing out their hair
Fair is never what comes near the life of a waiter

Family members, team players, sacrificed at the altar
Never allowed to falter the atmosphere grows hotter
Grease and sweat drip off wage workers
Sickness, death, and age as they grow older

Nothing to account for no money
Nothing to amount to no property
Nothing to surmount except poverty
Nothing but a body-count for inequality

Theres only horns on the unborn
Demons living without existing
Skin is torn round their form
Sermons praying to stop forming

Walk without purpose whats it about
Never waver on my path to nowhere
Talk about disservice and about clout
Whether I last going onward only forward

It's not a question of will or right
Just a question of pills and sight
Placebos mixed with my life
Spells and hexes
Hide and provide
Give light or life
Heart and a knife
Cant part with the night

Never be reborn eternal within a storm
The fire and burns keep me warm

True colors show, crimson red on the snow
Deeper reds I go, in every crack is a hateful glow

I hate my ****** family that stole my cash
And **** my friends who never last
So unhappy in every camera flash
Always wondering when will it end

Hated my poverty scarred childhood
Furious in my adolescence surrounded by people who never understood
Now seething and empty I brace myself for adulthood

I dream of dripping meat and bloodbaths
Wanna hurt the elite cause all my friends are dying fast
Wanna **** cause my family got prescribed pill bags
Under my eyes darkness sags

All I see anymore is cash and pain
All I see anymore is trash and rain
All this trash and pains gonna crash the train
Focus in and be insane so wash your brain

Every talking head sounds the same
Everyone clamoring for change
Everyone clamoring for the same
Everyone saying it's such a shame

All the things I've survived
Demons, beasts, fiends
Skinwalkers whom I complied
Get on with friends

Get on with anyone, anything
Diseased minds tell me lies
Listen as time is festering
Eating away their lives

They claim godhood expect worship
I stand in mock appreciation
They see my smile and see worship
A smirk hiding condemnation

I laugh and smile commiserate with a devil
They think it's with them but it's at them
Slowly they realize I'm not on their level
When for help to me they come

I turn them to their sins and crimes
As I refuse them even the smallest crumbs
I've seen better men beg for dimes
So I lack pity I will not be a crutch

I'm dyin inside listening to dead outside
Husks without things clutching dreams
Always in me do they choose to confide
Noone else will listen noone cares

Even they don't care for what they say
Still they talk and talk trying to be okay
No one will sway to the sound they make
Still I listen just in case that's all it'll take

Hope they shed their horns and fangs
Become men once more through the pain
Can't do more or risk losing skin of mine
So I listen while they fester with the time

Embrace betrayal tastes stale
Got my face in the mail
Want to find me follow the trials
Follow behind my shadows trail
I live on the hill beside the pale

If the sky flashes deep then leave
Or its lashes with tears, fallen leaves
If ground quakes grey in its ways
Then stay for I have nothing to say
This is the last line anyways

I think about it
and forget about it
The past haunts me
it runs away with me

Abducting my body
its hard to stay steady
Old pains are fresh
stinging scars on my flesh

Ignore it and stumble on
choke it down never let on
Gotta keep it together
or be alone forever

I don't know who I am
but I do the best I can
Fragments of personality
coalesce randomly

Creates the illusion of a person
hiding a ghostly orphan
Shadows of myself hide inside
forgotten and set aside

I hardly remember who I was
who am I the thought gives me pause
Maybe an afterimage of myself

Clearly its as clear as the clear sky in my smog covered city
Quickly step lightly grip it tightly gotta always be ready

Down an alley watchin for the rabid dog
Drifters drown in an alley hidden in fog

People drift swayin side to side
Pigs adrift bayin outside

People chasin the dragon slide to slide
Pigs watch the slides off to the sides

Everyone just here for the moment a short ride
Haven't realized the dream done gone and died

Shot dead by the justices and those above us
Law said to trust us dreams are dangerous

So scramble for bread don't lose your head
Don't look ahead, eyes closed or they behead

Feed drips slow, starving animals cant grow
A seed is sown then grown, stolen by the crow

Up above lookin down on any below
And we all keepin it on the down low

Stolen dreams, stolen future, broken peasants
Takin dreams and future, life is so pleasant

For the top floor residents
For the criminal president

Knowin there is no consequence for the kings
Slap the hands and for prominence, the bars swing

So show, no soul
I’m cool, so cool
A tool, a fool
Highschool, cesspool

Like A B C, 1 2 3
Like way he be, wan’ to be

Better than me, than me, than you

No slowen, leave me be

Me, myself, and I
I shot me, myself
Catch myself when I hang me
Me, me, me
By myself

I
Wikihow noose knots
Not a cry for help
How do you cry out

A note loose leaf
With a noose knot

**** out my way, **** out my way
Im in my way, Im in my way

Luck run thin, eat a buck
Shot, blood all over Bathory ****
Blood pumpin, heart open, veins open
Open heart, open artery, deep cut

Surgical precision
Practical decision
Painful incision
Vertical division

I have depression

Ive got no antidotes for your sickness
No anecdote to solve your distress
I can poison your soul and ease your pain
An escape from prison driving you insane
You'll cope with each ministration of novacaine

In life it's only worth dying so come along
Time to return to earth listen to the siren song
You won't feel lonely you'll feel nothing at all
It'll be your one and only just give me a call
I'll sell you one and more till you have your fill

Does it ease the hurt or set it alight
Leave your heart beat weak and quiet
If that's your taste I can prescribe
A state you just can't describe
"A waste of love" a tombstone inscribes

Count the holes in my teeth about as many as the holes in my heart
What was it I was supposed to see when does my life finally start

Pigs hunt us for sport
Then get awards from court
Judge and pork are cohorts
Victims to villains that's how they sort
Was it a gun or drugs put on the report

Kids dead and the feds said he deserved to be bled
Now a hole in his head and parents filled with dread
Murderers stalk the street they'll find you in bed
Watch where you tread listen to orders still your dead
Made no moves, Hands up, then your blood is shed

Now people protest the wrongs they write
Civil unrest, follow your psalms do whats right
If you can't see the plight then you've lost your sight
To be quiet is to support the violence in the night
Justice is worth the fight now, don't wait for hindsight

Media making enemy's out of friends
Bigotry, blacks against the whites
Plant the crack, give people a ***** sight
Now the injustice is looking alright
More ******* on news coming at eight

Trust your own gut go figure out what's what
Check your source cause events are never clear cut
Make sure you don't believe something stupid as ****
An example, thought blank was a gun, that's a cover up
Stay the course of the righteous never let fear shut you up

It may be hard to breath or to hold onto sanity
As the fires seethe and the jury makes claims of guilty
Hard to eat while fury builds within the family
Just stay on your feet remember you got the whole city
Don't worry the streets know whose really guilty

Years chewed up and spit out like double bubble
Chains accrued bit by bit, growing out a stubble
Gains accrued lost in a night in one drunken stumble
Flowers burned blast off in the night sky like Hubble telescope
Me and my homies float without a boat couple a tokes
Everythings funny and I just need to smoke
Got like half a pound in my ****** coat
Without it I might just choke
***** just a joke

Stoner at the party I aint a loner
Under the stars feel like a goner
David Bowie I'm a black star
Cloud my eyes so I don't see far
Clouds roll out the car
Lungs full of dinosaur tar
**** the earth I chill on mars
**** livin ***** a chore
**** bullshittin its a bore
**** im low I need some more
Living high the choice, or

Living a lie every week till friday
Paying my way every payday
Making a choice which do I say
Which way does the rope fray
Do I stay or off the edge I sway
***** just a joke laugh in may

Winter comes and I die in December
Enter the reality of someone noone remember
******* regularly hand grips the member
Participate in everything the club im a member
The party you know im gonna be there
That 40oz im swimming in the amber
No more mind lost it like kramer
Build every line cuz I'm the framer
Wish I made time to be a star
Wish upon a star hope I'll go far

Instead of drowning in the dinosaur tar
Dead in the morning wont last four more bars
Dont have any mourning my passing anymore
Dont have anything left, not existing I'm in the dark
Its all crashing despite the trying nothing seem to work
No more lying, told you I wouldn't last this is the last bar

Blood on my hands and the dead are risen
I can see black smoke off of the west horizon
My hearts on the line, my heads in prison
Now I'm doin time and the bars are crying

Fires are far away but the rains on me
The sky is hazy with heavy lies
With every line a few more fly
With every line another man fries

Dead friends, dead family, and dead faith
Wanna say don't give up, but its not my place
Wanna say just get up, but its not my place
My place is with dead blood and dead belief

Razor lines on glass tables
Dead kids in dark fables
Eyes are jaded, head is faded
But drugs make me elated

Fill the liver with  joy
Treat a life like its a toy
Wind it up and watch gears crunch
Couple keys of the green og kush

Smokin one while my brothers get rubbed out
Wonder if they'll ever let my uncle out
I hope not, If they do I'll cut his lights out
Blood is thicker than water now whats that about

The blood pumps down storm drains on a sunny day
And water is thick with lead and iron now we all gonna pay
Cause we all have debts in Iron, debts in blood, its collection day
The well is dry but bloods pumpin in our veins, we gotta pay

The dead take their due for the debts they accrue
Sins of my father found me and now I'm through
Riddled by addiction and collection through and through
Here comes the toll and the funds are looking few

What can you do we all got debts collecting on our hearts
Time for the bloodletting bleed out till debt finally parts
All we can do is suffer and accrue, wail and lament
Its how life collects its payment

Alt right rhetoric from a moderate pulpit
Or communist  heroics in the skin of a socialist
Pathological need to control peoples etiquette
Be any talking head that wears a crown tight
Power and control for the sake of it

I don't have a reason
Into oblivion I ease in
Darkness is in season
To claim purpose is treason

The hall burns over us
To stay warm is enough
Breath in ash taste the rust
The house is coal black and unjust

Cracked pavement on the road
Roaches in apartments pay the toad
Thieves who can't afford a code
Slaves until were choked

Freedom is owned land
Trespassers will be shot
Kingdom of greed always the plan
Envy is all the rest have got

You are what you eat
So lets eat the wealth
Blue blooded meat
Its good for my health

Hate is the only reason afforded
The only emotion and I own it
Want the kings to eat lead
Like Caligula's head

I’m a new man, born again, back into sin,  
my empathy scorched, ash across my skin.  
Sympathy’s the devil—now I worship Satan.  

Behold, the American Messiah, the orange god,  
jackals trailing behind a worm-eaten dog.  
Plague, famine, death—hoofbeats pound the fog.  

Ten figures to ascend, to turn angelic,  
plastic masquerading as authentic.  
Heaven’s gate bleeds the blood of the ****.  

Hush—don’t speak till the smoke clears.  
Don’t whisper till we know who’s here.  
Every fear, every dread, confirmed—it’s here.

I became so strong, after all this time
But its been so long, since I was fine

I don't weep no more
Just sleep a lot more

I faced all my fears, but regret still tries to haunt
After all these years, I have no regrets that daunt

Always reliably confident
Ever the reliable confidant

Trusted by all my peers, trusted by myself
Failure to those peers, will leave me by myself

Weakness I will not permit
A luxury I don't get

Weakness in my past, has left me all alone
Friends never last, when I cant stand on my own

But now I'm so strong
And they all came along

Friends never last, but they all came back
I am steadfast, so stay and don't go back

I wont ask you for support
I can carry my own heart

I can carry mine, and I can carry yours
I'll be just fine, be my friend I'll be yours

An overture of laments come from above
Gods signature sent on the wing of a dove
As an angel is sent by his wing toward what was
Fly away, away from farther days toward my words
Turn away, away from sharpened swords and words
Winds sway a breeze silent struck a chord, so now its time to go forward

Can anyone one hear it the sound crashes as much as its effervescent
Fall down and crash to the ground, ashes may be the present
We all fall down in the ashes and not a lesson is learnt
But move on or in ashes you will be burnt
Stand up and use those lessons learnt

Positive that I am foolish and that it is all nonsense
Positive that you are foolish and full of nonsense
Insane with foolish ideals, but you are no prince
These are not your people watch they are silent
Loathe you for all your defiance

Still a knight you may be without a king to fight for
Still is the night darkness about in moonlight it soars
A message on the wing of a dove seen only by the poor
It speaks of a place of a thing never before seen an open door
Beyond lays the face of nothing and no one yet it is a mirror

Give in not to fear, and step into the night
Walk and it will draw near drawn to sight
Dress warm as winter will wear you tight
Stay calm and steady if you care you must fight
If you do not, be ready to be lost in the night

My opinion is that no one may chain away your defiance
Even when dyin no one has to remain silent
Redemption in remembrance a stain in the quiet
Conviction to perseverance the shine never wanes a diamond

We will one day rise above I saw it written on the wings of a dove
It must be true I saw the rise of people seething forward with push and a shove
It must be true that we are more than what was onward we go with love

I gotta go away now cause things didn't go your way
Gotta go away so now I need a new place to stay

Or maybe just stay on the road go from place to place
Love me when they meet me and leave after I'm a tired face
I don't stick around not one friend outpace the sneakers lace

I'm so tired so now I'm dreamin
But now I'm so tired of dreamin
Cant even remember the skin I'm in
Or who it was that got where I am

Now I commit a cardinal sin
Find a sacrificial altar to begin
Place my soul somewhere within
This is where one part is at its end

My body will make its exit
Somebody will cease to exist
Yet its all worth it I insist
Gotta make it to subsist

I killed myself and found someone else
But he walked in my skin with a little less
Less weight on his back its good I guess
But the old spirit wants to possess

It wants its body back from this stranger
The haunting tries just who is stronger
Who will I be as time goes longer
I think my present will be placed on the altar

Another casualty to causality
Death built up my personality
But who will keep my body
It definitely wont be the current me

But whose to say there's a future somebody
Who will take ownership of this body
I think that this body will eventually
Just belong to nothing, nobody

Someone pass me the meds
Something to take away our heads
So we don't end up dead
Watch it don't talk to the feds
Leave you on red in your beds

Never talk it out your not a person
Villain criminal **** get taught a lesson
Punishment for all your running
Acting as protectors killing children
Only hope is being someone worth something

If your bank rolls in seven digits
Then life is what you live it
Otherwise be wise to keep a head down
Super sized painted with lies make a clown
Then on trial get paraded around

Another success of the system
Lifeless person assigned as ****
Look the systems gone and won
Victory, victory and my brother is gone
Judged booked by the pious how to atone

Live in a cell eat at the bell
Live in hell get stabbed in the hall
One last call or freedom if you tell
Oh well, oh well even if you'd never sell
Still welcome to hell may you forever fall

The people cheer for this is the cause of fear
They leer at pathetic addicts and their tears
Mock the poor as if its a choice to be born
Back to the hills and pools ignore the others
Who turn to pills and swill to pull together

Why fix a problem that can be swept into a corner
Kept in districts far from home my as well be foreigners
Don't you dare jump the border or face precincts anger  
Your no father not a toddler just society's disorder
Kept in mind as criminal stay in your quarter

Saw an article that said people who talk to themselves are geniuses. The source most likely people who talk to themselves, but was it they or the voices that said they were geniuses.

Written off cause of the things they said
Locked away put your all back to bed
Heart tucked back under sleeve and thread
Words mean more than actions when someone trusts them
It's swords hidden behind fashion each word thrusts you into sin
Ask where you been what you've seen then cut you off before you begin

Judged by the most evil of thoughts left in a cell to rot
Truth and law never matter when both get bought
At least that's what the accuser thought
Play the games your never taught that's your lot
Never get lost in someone else's thoughts
Don't get caught in the ink and the blots

Stay positive who cares if your a *******
Ramen noodles and cold hot dogs with mustard
Living off the trash and scraps  its hard
But im not in pain really im just so bored
Listen to sad songs they really strike a chord

Indigo hues haunt my vision
Scratching till I see thin red
incisions
Never been good at seeing long
divisions
A dream is just a lie of omission
What is my intention
When I mention
My one mission
Is just multiplication
Or when I say its really
division
Guess I forgot my own lessons
Goodwill leaks like lesions
Cut from me in so many
incisions

Dead freaks never had any balance
Authority tried to demand compliance
So we left society and became truant
Forced to speak in ends now we're fluent

Money on my mind, mind on my money
I cant seem to find either bloods turned runny
I might just die just to make the ante
I steal and I lie to fill up our pantry

They know who I am I'll leave it all broken
Leave disrespect in dirt with toads croaken
Lacked it now on the ground chokin
Can't breathe in the arms of an ocean

My dead friends, I'm gonna run without balance
Got the bends underwater and uncompliant
Don't follow trends I've long been truant
Told to speak in ends and now I'm fluent

And whats it to you if I steal, lie, and cheat
Is it immoral to survive on the streets
Judged with morals I can't afford
Standards made by the pious and bored

Darkness all around me set aside my light for belonging
Welcome to the abyss it resides beside your right and its growing
Lazarus in the flesh I don't fully exist so I cant fight whats coming
Hundreds green lush don't really fill the abyss just grows longing
Goes long but falls short silly people flip bricks and know deaths knocking
Can you hear it he's knocking, can you hear it the guns cocking
It all depends on whether you are of data or of the lost in earths strata
Born of dirt and its your stigmata be de-serviced or reborn as auto-mata
No room for poor flesh as you are to god, worthless
But pious gears thresh it from body a priceless business
My confessions are existences as worthless lesions
Life for passions, persistent refusal of life's lessons
Its wanton days spent profitless and yet the prophet begs the question
"Will you condemn yourself to society's prison"
"Come my son and drink of my poison"
"Or you shall drown in freedoms ocean"
If the choice is society or freedom than I am foreign
If they would let me I would be free of the chains
But angels blessed me with feathers followed by fetters
First they taught me with educators then put me neath betters
So I type out my many letters till the bars of the cuckoo birds cage rusts
Watch cracks and dig at dreams till it all busts at the seams
Unfortunately it seems I will die before freedom will sing

Watch the mania in my eyes
Hysteria escapes my lips
Wisteria enters me in sips

Louder quieter see you later
Careful on all those risers
When you go meet the miser
Ask him the cost ask whats lost

Work and chores all for the poor
And they will all ask for more
Pump blood till the heart is sore

Follow our pied pipe with an empty head
He wraps it in cords and melts the meds
Needles wires pins and stems
These will fill the empty hand

Nothing numbs the pain it aches in my brain
Blades scrape across skin trace lines where its been
Maybe its cuz of a world of sin things dont feel the same
A baby dead in the crib and the ones to blame
Own a world and live like gods in private planes
Maybe its my life of sin I dont feel the same
In the rain and in the sun it all feels the same
Don't feel the same, since when?
Since pandemic, since panic, since eighteen, since then
Since I lost it been manic became an addict bordering on fiend
Failed to be apathetic others can I don't get it so I lost friends
So I would lend when I knew should just let it end
Feels like the end a relationship moulder when they dont tend
Nothing left to send just a cold shoulder left for them
Permanent damage my back covered by scars got like ten
Permanently in a stage of bein worried, what if? and when
Sanity nonexistant in this late stage game of monopoly
Sever me this instant my heart cant take living in a colony
Only thing I'm passionate about is ending despondency
Don't care what its all about just let me out, no apology's
Their unnecessary like post mortem biography's    
Less remembered of me the better erase my chronology
Better to have erased my history in its entirety
Every letter off the face, because I'm tired of me

The things I write have no meaning
I hardly even know what I am saying
I speak on and on its kind of like praying
All while I know my kind live like dying
We wile away the time and cry while smiling

What is it I'm hearing, that you have given it all up
All while knowing that your effort or lack of matters not
Even if your not going I must go
Its empty resistance? but even so
I must go

I would rather live and die alone than live where I've grown
This town would rather live under the thumb of those that govern
I will have no sovereign that is tyranny to everyone who is born
Heirs to grief I renounce my throne and I give up my home
Belief in a life without chains I know I'm not alone

Its all often misunderstood failure to understand where I stand
Appear broken but nothing to mend and nothing is planned
I wear down but I'm not waiting for the end or for something grand
I tend the soil until its grown even when I hate the land
Some toil until its late and they are grown according to fates hand
For me that's what was planned for me to be buried in the sand
Shifting and lost in the land so I ran and I ran

I can't die until I hold something with meaning give me anything
Even a lie, I am boldly running toward nothing and everything
And sadly the land is lacking, barren with loathing
So onward I am going looking for belonging
Onward and trying to make something of nothing

Up at midnight do you feel alright
Its another fight isn't that right

It's late and you've gone too far
It's alright  your just bleeding tar

Track marks and wide eyes
See stars and their dead lies

Rob your nephew, Your his hero
You need it more, in the end though

You feel regret but the pills make it okay
Burnt foil follows wherever you stay

You hate the dismay and pity in his eyes
You cant feel okay that pill will get you high

And when you fall you'll die alone
No more friends no  more home