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Oct 2021 · 62
you didn't mean it.
DElizabeth Oct 2021
broken promise

it's too late.

i roll the windows down

allow the wind to dry my cheeks

no one must know...

crying is a terrible understatement.

so is dying.

fading memories of you telling me you loved me

fading...fading... f a d i n g...gone.

you never wanted to hurt me

days later you rip me to shreds...

you say it's my fault that you won't come.

i rely on you no longer...

why should i feel safe with you?

i will no longer let you hold my heart...i don't trust you with it.

"i will always want to be gentle with your heart"

you said.

"i want to take care of what's in there"

you say pointing to the beating heart within my chest...

you didn't mean it.
Oct 2021 · 86
forsaken
DElizabeth Oct 2021
mirror across the room

standing alone

hands shaking

we think we are loving each other
when really,
we are only breaking...

i immerse myself
within the
melodies & harmonies
to push the
aching.

I'm running out of options,
how long can I keep quaking?

Pure intentions
perceived as enemy;
how now,
who's really doing the
forsaking?
Oct 2021 · 86
Untitled
DElizabeth Oct 2021
it's sad how
everyone who treat you poorly
are the same ones
who tell you
you don't deserve
to be treated that way.
Oct 2021 · 116
Gemini Christmas
DElizabeth Oct 2021
The beauty in
beauty & art

is that it doesn't
always have to have

an explanation.
a backstory.
an origin.
an inspiration.
a pathway.
a blueprint.
a rough draft.
a rubric.

it can just
     b e

what it is
without question.

boring?
no.

beauty in existence.

allow yourself
to allow yourself
be what you are. . .

that is beauty.
that is love.
that is art.
that is life.
that is you...

("KNOW YOUR WORTH...THEN ADD")

we are free

to create
whatever we want
whenever we want
however we want

without another
telling us what it
SHOULD BE.

Art does not always
have to have
st  ru ct  u re . ..  .

it will
always  b e

whatever

you
choose
it

to   be . . .
Oct 2021 · 130
99.1
DElizabeth Oct 2021
I step onto the cold glass...

under 100.

is something wrong with me?...

I feel okay

but the numbers keep dropping.
DElizabeth Oct 2021
We are urged to
stay home
when we feel
physically ill

When may I
stay home
when I feel
mentally ill?

A gray cloud
hangs over me

I don't wish for it to stay...

I send smiles and hearts
and exclamation marks,
but I don't feel those things
today...

The oceans within my eyes
are begging to escape
but I do not let them.

I comfort myself
when no one else
will.

I know that you are busy,
so I will go.

I no longer feel your love,
so I will go.

I wish you would
want me to stay enough
to stop me.

My hands tremble,
I wash my face with cold water,
painted blush onto my cheeks
so I look healthier
than I really feel,
I tuck my laces in,
and turn the key.

I pretend to feel like me
for four and a half hours
after three.
Oct 2021 · 226
baby blue piano
DElizabeth Oct 2021
almost late
a stunning view of the vibrant city
black and white
with cold fingertips grazing
the melodies & harmonies arise in memory of what was once us
every day. . .
thoughts of you.
"put your hand in mine"
memories of us.
"you know that i want to be with you all the time"
hopes that you still think of me.
"you know that i won't stop until i make you mine"
dreams that you will come.
"until i..."
a longing to love and be loved.
"make you mine"
beyond the door.
a silence follows. . .
an instant wave of simultaneous
heat and chill.
time stops.
memories become present
as dreams become reality.
softly hesitantly towards a long-awaited prayer.
it's you.
it's you.
i know it is you.
i need no proof.
it's you
and you are here.
i open the door, slowly
and see those pale blue-gray eyes.
the beautiful soul i fell in love with
all those years before. . .
the universe expanded
and everything stopped for us.
stars bursted and skies sang.
warmth.
that look of love
. . . home.
nothing else mattered. . .
home. . .
Oct 2021 · 136
left
DElizabeth Oct 2021
left me standing there
when I could barely stand. . .

why should I believe
you won't leave me
drowning
to save yourself again?. . .

told me I meant the world to you
but only to deny
you ever felt anything for me
a t   a l l . . .

("nothing...")

why should I believe?

why should I believe. . .
Sep 2021 · 399
Forward
DElizabeth Sep 2021
Words almost said.

Almost is not enough.

Is it worth the pain?

Only one way to find out.

Predicted reactions, overthinking outcomes; better prepared.

What do we do now, moving forward?

Stuck within the safe middle-ground, no...

You'll grow tired of me.

What do I do now...

Could we just leave & live a life together?

Would it be better?

Are there ever consequences to real love?

Humans put the pain in love when there isn't supposed to be.

We complicate things & overcomplicate everything.

Let's just be simple.

Let's just... b e .

Let's just exist.

Let's just love because tomorrow is never promised.

Tomorrow is never promised, so let's just
l o v e . . .
Sep 2021 · 114
metamorphosis
DElizabeth Sep 2021
I open the door
to a richly-colored sky
painted with
vivid pinks & oranges,
golds & violets.

A field of hydrangeas
surrounds us
as a monarch
crosses my vision
to the sky...

An evolution of the self,
A transformation
to a new me.

I see you there,
I only feel happy...

Overflowing with love
for you,
will you let me love you
the way I know I can?

You saved me from
drowning
even when you didn't
know how to swim.

"In this together"...
I hear.

We embrace
but I only feel
alert...protecting us.

Protecting us from
division,
no one will hurt us,
no one will divide us,
no one will take us away.

I walk with you
hand in hand,
only feeling warm
& free...myself.

I will always be here
for you.

A dream
of foreshadow
I pray.
A new & happier me.
A loved & loving us.
Sep 2021 · 153
9/24/21
DElizabeth Sep 2021
Replaying
you in my arms..

"We are in this together"...

Replaying
our fingers interlaced.

"I won't stop until I make you mine"...

I loved you
before I knew you,
and now that I know you
I love you so much more.

There is nothing you can do
to scare me...

Replaying
our lips slowly coming together,
your sleepy smile
and blushed cheeks..

"An Evening I Will Never Forget"...

Fogged window,
we can talk forever..

Comfortable enough
to not say anything at all.

Never satisfied,
always more to say
and one minute to say it..

Hold on to me, love..
Hold on with me.
We will live on, love..
Nothing will come between..
And we'll sing our song together.
Sep 2021 · 134
pulled
DElizabeth Sep 2021
I loved you
before either
of us ever
spoke a word
Sep 2021 · 166
art II
DElizabeth Sep 2021
we are never
finished.
always growing,
forever changing.

we are simultaneously
masterpieces
& works-in-progress

we are
beautiful & messy
and full of life

we were
always a
masterpiece

we have museums
full of art & music
dancing within us

and only by
learning to appreciate
our own elements
will we appreciate
the perfectly imperfect
humanity of
others
Sep 2021 · 427
art
DElizabeth Sep 2021
art
Could you love me
as a work-in-progress
or only as a
finished masterpiece?
Sep 2021 · 689
blu
DElizabeth Sep 2021
blu
will i forget the color
of your eyes

or will i only feel
their hue
aching within me

will i get to love you

or will i only dream

will i remember
what gold feels like

or will i only feel
shades of blue

all the songs sound
better acoustic,
because they sound
like you

i want to be alone
with you

no one else
to tell us how to love
each other
or not to love

i want to love you

only if you want
me to love you too

will you want to love me
during my darkest moments
like i do you

there's nothing you
can do to scare me

only by leaving
can i be undone.
Sep 2021 · 379
Apologies
DElizabeth Sep 2021
is the room really foggy
or is it just my eyes?

I'm sorry
I know you're busy.

I will learn to walk
on my own.

What I meant to say was
could you please
help me walk?...

If I go
would you even cry?

I never know
if the externalities
cause my internalities
or vice versa.

Hold me more,
it makes the frost bite
reverse.

If we had the chance,
would you want me
to love you?

I'm sorry
I know that you are busy

I'm sorry
I love you.

I'm sorry..
Sep 2021 · 541
still falling
DElizabeth Sep 2021
Before
either of us
ever said
a word,
i saw you
from across
the room
& knew
i was meant
to love you.
Sep 2021 · 90
thunder
DElizabeth Sep 2021
I always imagine myself
telling you exactly what
I am feeling in the moment,
and how I am feeling it.

This never goes as planned.

The rain pours heavily on
the car roof,
The windows are decorated
with droplets that cast a
gentle shadow, speckled across
your moonlit face.

When our lips meet,
the words never come
like I mean for them to...

When our lips meet,
the words don't work
nearly as accurately as
everything else does in the
moment...

Every subtle & gentle touch
is a language speaking all on its own.
We have no need to speak
with words any longer...

I know every word
you are telling me
without you even saying a thing...

The lightning lights up
the night sky
with every intention of
bringing us closer,
our electricity creating more..

The thunder
that our pounding hearts
make when we get one second
to reunite..
Sep 2021 · 293
felices los cuatro
DElizabeth Sep 2021
you and aforementioned
&
me and myself
Sep 2021 · 146
will there ever be
DElizabeth Sep 2021
I want to remember
what it feels like
to kiss you gently & slowly
to the beat of our hearts
in sync,
catching our breath. . .

Will there ever be a time
when I can look into your
eyes without another pair
watching?

I want to know what it is like
to give you my attention &
all of my passion
without a poisonous thought
of doubt creeping into
my mind. . .

Will there ever be a time
when I can feel your
undeniable attention begging
to have a glimpse of
my aching soul? . . .

When is our turning page?
Will there ever be? . . .

Papercuts is all I feel,
when do I get to
feel your safety
overwhelm me? . . .

Will there ever be a time
when I get to whisper
that nothing makes me stronger
than your fragile heart? . . .

Wherever you go,
I want to be there. . .
as long as you want me to
be there too.
Sep 2021 · 156
a l i v e
DElizabeth Sep 2021
I want to feel
your hand gently
touch my warm
cheek, blushed with red
that you put there
since I saw you from across
the room. . .

I'd give anything
just to see you happy
and well and at peace with
yourself,
even if that means I am
no longer a part in your life. . .

I dream of being held by you,
and wrapping my arms
around you tight
when I'm afraid we'll let go. . .

Will we let go? . . .

I know now that all who came
before you prepared me
to love you. . .
I was dead but now
I am  a l i v e
when I feel you watching me. . .

The songs never made sense before,
I was making everyone
fit the words
but you. . .
the music takes flight
and the words fit just right.
The melodies and harmonies
are reality
no longer fantasy. . .

I want to dance with you
beneath the light of billions of
suns & watch you grow
throughout the years. . .

I still sigh your name
beneath my breath
by accident when I miss you most. . .
Y o u  are my reflex.
Y o u are my reason to love harder.
I want to be your reason.
I want to be your oxygen. .
And I want to be your everything. . .
Sep 2021 · 92
missing you is madness
DElizabeth Sep 2021
tiny cold raindrops fall sporadically
onto my scarlet cheeks.
i close my eyes, looking up to the sky
i stick my tongue out
to catch them.

Violins, harps, & cellos. . .
a crescendo. . .

maximum melatonin
dosage
just to ensure sleep
away from hurting.

missing you is madness.
all i want is to r u n . . .

though i never feel like i know
whether or not
i want to run towards
or away from you.
Sep 2021 · 180
SEPTEMBER
DElizabeth Sep 2021
Sleepless evenings full of love & laughter
Early morning sunbeams peeking through the trees
Purple, pink, & periwinkle skies stretching across the sea
Talking quietly, careful not to wake the dogs
Eastward geese flying towards the Empire State
Music, soft and slow beneath the stars
Branches brown and losing leaves, turning rouge & gold
Even the mountains & hills still call out my name
Remember those misty mornings, crisp air & no despair
Sep 2021 · 117
Sentience
DElizabeth Sep 2021
We all have
so much to live for,
so much to gain.
So much to hope for,
much more than pain.
~
So much to love for,
so much to dream.
So much to die for,
but much more upstream.
Aug 2021 · 108
Words
DElizabeth Aug 2021
You can tell someone
you love them
over & over
again.

But those three words
amount to
nothing
if your actions
never reciprocate
those feelings.
"Just because you love me doesn't mean I feel loved by you"
Aug 2021 · 152
Easy Way Out
DElizabeth Aug 2021
I will never forget
when you told me
that when someone is
out of your life,
It becomes easier
for you to move on
fast.

When I'm out of yours,
that will be all I will
think about.

You forgetting me...
You letting me go...

For me,
there is no easy way out.
Whether they are
in my life
or out of the picture...
It only becomes harder.

My heart just doesn't work that way.
Aug 2021 · 473
carte blanche
DElizabeth Aug 2021
Preserving & protecting
my soul
because all anyone
has wanted to do is
wreck it.
Aug 2021 · 123
Untitled
DElizabeth Aug 2021
You think you know me.

You think you know exactly how I feel when I'm hurting.

You think you know what I go through every day.

You think you understand the trauma I have to live with.

But how little you know...
I only pretend I believe you when you tell me you care. Because I know you never did.
Aug 2021 · 166
Diversion
DElizabeth Aug 2021
I put on a show.
You're easily entertained.
You never notice
my pain at its worst...
I'm not okay.
And you are okay with that.
Aug 2021 · 123
Wrong Hands
DElizabeth Aug 2021
Not a bite to eat.
limbs cold & trembling
at the peak of summer.
I just want a place to rest my head.
Spinning,
fading in & out.
The life around me
closing in...
Heavy breathing
& traffic lights
blurry.
Vivid flashing reds.
Blinding shimmering greens.
Brilliant blinking yellows.
Thoughts,
unwelcomed guests.
Overstaying their welcome
as if they were even invited
to begin with.
It never goes as I expect.
I thought I would feel
safe.
But I only felt like someone else.
I withdrew...
I had my heart ready,
in my hands to be placed
into yours once again.
I can no longer ignore
when it tells me they are the
wrong hands...
I placed it carefully
back into it's cage
& kept it safe from you..
Aug 2021 · 134
Undisclosed
DElizabeth Aug 2021
How could you protect me
from everything else
if you won't protect me
from yourself?
Aug 2021 · 165
Dear Me,
DElizabeth Aug 2021
Thank you for helping me find
what I didn't even know was lost.

And thank you for helping me realize
that it never was truly, lost...

Myself.
Aug 2021 · 218
Picture Me There
DElizabeth Aug 2021
We speak in song...
Our hearts are slowly intertwining
until every part of us is tied together
Find me in the music..
Picture me there with you
"Dancing...swaying...singing until our lungs give out..."
Picture us...
The rest of the world falls away, always.
Nothing around us matters, suddenly.
Blurry..
But you are clear as ever..
Surrounding us, lights from the suns & moons.
Fireflies & embers from the fire that fuels
this feeling...
Vivid colors swirling around & through us..
The heavenly harmonies
& magical melodies;
this is where you'll find me, always
If you ever feel my hand slip away..
If you ever feel our fingers
slowly
loosen their grip on each other...
Aug 2021 · 829
Hidden Agenda
DElizabeth Aug 2021
How you treat me
has nothing to do with me
& everything to do with you.
Aug 2021 · 137
Vigilant
DElizabeth Aug 2021
Amongst a sea of gray faces frozen in a grimace,

I stand unmoved, vivacious, bubbling, & beaming . . .

This subterranean city in which we build our lives,

Only to realize we don't have to forever.

I am learning how to break my chains . . .

The darkness raucously surrounding & determined to suffocate anyone who lets it,

I face with fear to over power it until I am no longer afraid . . .

I reach the other side
where all I feel is warm, immense jubilance
& magnificent colors . . .

This life is once
& a beautiful grandeur
we no longer have to endure . . .

It is our choice,
to take for granted or unearth
our true voice . . .
Behind the poem: I created this utilizing 5 words my younger sister & I randomly selected from a thesaurus...Vigilant, grimace, subterranean, raucous, & grandeur...You may interpret it however you do, but for me it is about standing out & being okay with standing alone while on the road to self-discovery, healing, & emotional recovery. Embracing who you find you truly are & loving yourself. Learning to break free from the prisons we create for ourselves in our minds, convoluting false realities & overcoming the addiction we have for suffering. Happiness, love, wellness, & peace is our CHOICE. We don't have to become the victim of our own lies & needless judgement. We have everything we need to overcome this, & everything else that may come our way...This is moving away from man v. man/society to now man v. self...necessary introspection & understanding that learning, change, & growth is a life-long process...slow progress & even backwards "progress" is still progress...becoming aware & accepting that there will be challenges, inevitably & necessarily...I hope you enjoyed it (:
Aug 2021 · 123
Artress
DElizabeth Aug 2021
There
is
still
beauty
in
art
even
when
it
does
not
make
any
sense­.

Reminder:
It
does
not
have
to.
DElizabeth Aug 2021
If I had to go,
would you follow?

When I have to
say goodbye,
will you come
with me?
Aug 2021 · 137
Windows
DElizabeth Aug 2021
I want to
make love to your
s o u l
& feel it pulling me in
closer when I look
into your eyes . . .
Aug 2021 · 756
Moonlight Ballroom
DElizabeth Aug 2021
I want to dance
with you
someday
to all of our
sweetest songs
in the dark
with only the
light of the moon
& trillions of stars
drifting above us.
Aug 2021 · 165
Autonomy
DElizabeth Aug 2021
You never
answered
any of my
screams for help.

So I learned
to answer
my own.
Aug 2021 · 102
Melatonin
DElizabeth Aug 2021
I no longer care if the maximum dose
has a side effect of nightmares
of you not loving me,
I would rather be asleep
than feel this with
my eyes
open.
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