I.
"gimme love"
joji

II.
"sanctuary"
joji

III.
"glimpse of us"
joji

IV.
"your man"
joji

V.
"like you do"
joji

VI.
"wanted u"
joji

VII.
"i'll see you in 40"
joji

VIII.
"slow dancing in the dark"
joji

IX.
"will he"
joji
[she]

X.
"afterthought"
joji, benee

XI.
"yukon (interlude)"
joji

I.
"i'll keep you safe"
sleeping at last

II.
"turning page"
sleeping at last

III.
"the moon song"
beabadoobee, oscar lang

IV.
"chasing cars"
(sleeping at last cover)
&
(grace gaustad cover)

V.
"two"
sleeping at last

[intro verse]
you were good
made me believe
said no need to worry,
she's just a friend, relief . . .

[chorus]
now i stand in disbelief
heartbroken one million three
pieces fractured into dust
but your love just turned into lust . . .

now i stand in disbelief
hands on hips
& lips to lips
missing you, your heart, your kiss
you said there's "nothing to miss" . . .

[acoustic outro verse]
you were good
made her believe
she was your world
your love
and safe
"she's my best friend", sigh
but it was always a lie . . .

I.
"howl"
florence + the machine

II.
"mine forever"
lord huron

III.
"embody me"
novo armor

IV.
"carry you"
novo armor

V.
"the 30th"
billie eilish

I.
"fire"
two feet

II.
"next to you"
new west

III.
"those eyes"
new west

IV.
"all through the night"
sleeping at last

V.
"i saw you in a dream"
the japanese house

secondhand high

vicarious emotions

secondary euphoria

suppressed longings

prolonged potential priority

dulling delight

increased heartbeat

pleasurable palpitations

butterflies flitter & tickle my tummy

i quiver, a subtle shiver

increased respiration

imitation crab

foul aftertaste, rubber, fallacy, fooled.

the real deal

i long for

"i only want what's right in front of me"

pretentious playmates

camouflage lightning bug signals

flicker, flash

morse code.

survival mode.

bioluminescence life-making

instinctive matchmaking

burning the matches down to the fingertips

"just to feel something, anything"

yearning, aching . . .

married like the geese, we are

"desperate times call for desperate measures"

or

"love is blind"

they say.

selective hearing...

but i loved him with my eyes wide open.

Running towards you running towards me
Embraced, enveloped, overwhelmed, overcome
Unable to deny the ache
No more lonely dawns
I knew it would be you all along
Open arms, submerged beneath your tidal wave
No more lonely dusks