Brianna

Brianna Jun 2014

I like you early in the morning, before you even open your eyes to a new day. I like you in the middle of the night when you're mumbling nonsense and making weird noises in your sleep.

I like you in the afternoon when you can't figure out if you're hungry or not. I like you when you're upset, seeing your brown crease in frustration over some minuscule problem.

I like you when you're yelling about something and I like you even when we disagree. I liked you when you walked into my life and I liked you even when you walked away.

Even though you've walked away without a decent explanation... I still like you anyways.

#love #alone #pathetic #romance #you #hopeless #forever #missing #morning #single

Brianna Jun 2014

Said and done

When all is said and done I guess this was my fault. I teased and I flirted.

There are emotions and feelings and yet when you're around they cease to exist. You lose the words you know how to say; it could be nerves.
I lose my interest; it could be selfishness.,

When this is over I know I'll never be forgiven. I am sorry for the teasing and the flirting.

I know there is something to connect us, I can feel it when you're around. But then things get awkward and I can't handle awkward right now.
I can't handle relationships.
I can't handle myself.

When you go home and I stay here, you'll never be the same and I'll always be afraid of committing to the unknown.

I'm a terrible person.

#love #life #whatever #alone #stupid #boys #**** #flirting #tease

Brianna Jun 2014

Dangerously easy

I loved him carefully; from afar I liked to watch him grow into the man I knew today.
I loved him carefully; I watched his moods making sure the outrage stayed as far away from me as I could.
I loved him easily... It wasn't hard when his green eyes watched your every move and his lips held pretty words that danced through my ears.

But he loved me recklessly; he came at me with full speed ahead on marriage and lack of trust.
He loved me dangerously; so much that became afraid to love me at all for fear I would be his all.

I loved him carefully and it was too easy to fall apart when he walked away.
He loved me recklessly and it had become to dangerous for him to keep me around.

Truth.

#love #truth #falling #him #apart #dangerous #easy #reckless #contradiction #careful

Brianna Jun 2014

One more touch

One step at a time I watched you shake with ecstasy-- lips quivering at every touch.

One breath at a time I watched you inhale with hope and exhale with passion and comfort.

One word at a time I listened to you begging, wanting, nothing but one more ******-- leaving me breathless.

I took advantage of your feelings for me. I took advantage of your love for my simple lust.

But I sit here now, watching you get dressed, watching your body move slow and easy, and I can't help but wonder... Maybe this isn't just lust.

Brianna Jun 2014

Boring.

You're boring.
You're obscene,
You're tiring...
And you're ******* mean.

#love #hate #pain #shame #**** #you #tired #mean #boring #obscene

Brianna Jun 2014

Dumb.

You remember when we planned out imaginary weddings? We picked out the dress and the location.
We were so dumb.

You remember when we walked the river in middle of the night?
It was freezing and nearly winter and we put our feet in anyway.
We were so dumb.

You remember when we ate cold Mac n cheese in your parents living room drinking till we couldn't think?
We laughed till we cried.., then we couldn't stop crying over each other.
We were so dumb.

You remember the 4 times we have tried, the endless, sleeveless nights?
The morning of regrets and the nights of pain? The day you left and moved away? The day I fell head over heels? The day you fell out of love...
We are so dumb.
I am so dumb.

#love #hate #pain #sadness #whatever #loser #stupid #insanity #insecure #dumb

Brianna Jun 2014

Bad taste in my mouth

Clean endings never exist and I can't breathe when you're around.
I get stupid; I get dizzy.

You're like a bad taste in my mouth, I'm doing everything I can to clean you out.
You're every ****** word on the tip of my tongue.

Wounded birds have more fight left in them than I have standing in front of you today. I am a wimp in my own sense and fashion.

I can't think when you're around.
Do you understand the emotional breakdowns that go on inside my mind when you're around?

It feels like a blind person trying to read a book. Like a roller coaster flying off the tracks.

I love you more than I can explain in any sense. So much that I need to you get away from me before I end up insane.

#love #feelings #life #whatever #memories #***** #you #**** #clean #cussing #analogies