I still talk about you,
And how you encompassed my soul.
And honestly, that feeling will never go away.
It will always be like the first day.
Your lips on mine,
In my father's hallway.
Can you honestly say
You don't remember?
I will always be passionately enthralled with you.
The push and pull of exotic enticement.
The deftones will always bring me back to your bed.
In catasaqua,
With the slushies ballroom dancing
And the old dude watching us **** in the back seat of my Plymouth acclaim.
Of tripping endlessly,
And the saying "beauty is free"
From staring at dead trees.
The bench,
And the roof.
Those feelings will always lead back to you.
I can honestly say,
I will ways love you.
It was so easy for you to say you don't love me,
But yet you instilled the fact that you'd be the only one who would.
I know now,
No matter what you say,
That I will love you more than anyone
Who will ever come your way.
I will love you,
Forever and always.

Oh, my true north,
I will see you again.
I will love you
In another lifetime.
Your name will be forever on my lips.
And your kiss,
Your kiss will always be bliss.
There are pieces of you that live in every day.
There are parts of you that will always stay,
Even though you didn't.
And just know,
You'll always have a part of my soul.
You'll live in my heart forever and a day.
There is nothing on this earth that could take your memory away.
Like I said before;
If have turns to had, atleast we'll have that.
We have that,
Regardless of what we once had.

You think.
You think that you are in my thoughts.
Why do you have to have to have such a big head
To think that you are on my mind.
To even think that I'd waste my time.
You're not that important, really.
You don't invade my insides like you think you do.
Actually, I used to gag every time I went down on you.
But hey, have fun with the fact that when you ate my ****, you ate some guys **** too.
How does it feel to be used?
How does it feel to be knocked down off your pedestal?
Let that sink in, let it resonate for a bit.
And if you need me to make it clear,
It's simple,
I **** ****.
Do you even wanna know how many people came before you?
What did you expect?
I guess now you're finally able to understand blackouts and regret.
Have fun with that.
While you spiral downward,
I'm flying to the highest of highs.
I can honestly say,
I ******* love my life.

My hair is everywhere.
And I like infidelities,
You know,
Like the song.
Taking you somewhere.
There are pictures that speak louder than a thousand words combined.
The stories lie in my eyes.
That certain look that gets you every time.
Little do you know that most times the pictures I take take pieces of my soul.
But I'd gladly relive certain moments again.
Just to feel the rushing sting of loss.
Just to feel your touch.
Break myself down, to build myself up.
And each time the baracade around my heart gets more tough.
I am no longer see through.
I no longer see you.
It's only a feeling if we don't forget it.
Well, I don't feel a ******* thing,
Because I've already forgotten you.

Today is fire.
It's fire.
It's fire.
She burns like a thousand thorned roses.
Crashing downward to
Eternal hell fire.
Will you be my heroine?
Will you be my ******?
Make me dull and numb.
Make me lose myself in time.
Make me forget my name.
I exist only in memories that now a days
Black out and forget.
Black.
Everything is black.
And dark.
Feeling my way to the exit sign.
Big red letters.
Flashing lights.
It all comes around full circle.
To you.
And loss.
I can't remember my name.
I can't remember where I am.
Where are you?
The only ocean that could bring me to shore
Too bad I ******* drowned.
Blue lips, choking on words
Dead corpse, going limp.
Rigamortis.
I'm solid.
Solid.
Numb.
Dead.

I sat in a corner of a room filled with noise.
I saw you.
And all I wanted to do was get up,
Hug you,
And say,
I forgive you.
Instead I drowned myself in alcohol,
In hopes to forget the reaccuring thoughts rushing in.
You hugged her.
She hugged you.
Like nothing bad ever existed in the first place.
Like she never even believed me at all.
So I drove
And I screamed at the top of my lungs
For someone to just wrap me up in their arms.
While I collapsed
While I fell and hit rock bottom again.
Tears seeping through every pore within.
And we aren't friends.
Because I asked for help, and you were too wasted to care.
And I asked for you to tell me to stop,
But instead,
With no response,
I just downed pill after pill,
Because really, you don't care at all.
And I ******* needed you, in my darkest hour.
But you showed your character.
I should have known from the begining,
The colors of your heart
Because you didn't even show up for your dad's funeral.
And I'd honestly die all over again if you tried to show up at mine.

I still can't get you off my tongue.
Or out of my mind.
I want the thoughts of you to end.
Deeper thinking has me thinking
Everything was a lie.
Why did you make me fly?
Now my wings are clipped
And I'm sky diving without a parachute.
Hoping that soaring will save me.
Hoping you'll be there to catch me in the end.
But you're nowhere to be found.
No words escape.
Lessons in the dark.
Lessons in time.
Of time.
On time.
How much time will it take for me to forget your name?
That's the thing about the ties of men.
And maybe not even men.
Just the act of letting people in general in.
You give them a chance to break you with every word you speak.
Every aspect of breathing becomes a not so sure thing.
Why do people have to hurt so bad.
Why do we feel the need for them to intertwine within our lives?
When did we as humans lose touch with the contentment of being alone?
Nerves are a wreck.
I hope you think of those nights as more than just regret.
My lips will always blissfully remember yours.
How you were supposed to be the crashing of waves to a steady shore.
How you were supposed to be the brightest light in my dark tunnel of hope.
Once again I'm homeless and alone.
Building bridges in my heart for you to walk upon.
Navigate your way through my tearing heartstrings.
Sew them back together.