I'm here in Brisbane city
There are people passing by
I'm staring at the ceiling
I'm getting high on the drugs
Need another cigarette
to calm my nerves
The girls are putting on a show
here in Brisbane city
silhouettes of innocence
portrayed in plays on Broadway
there is so much left for me to say

These dead-end streets
are leading nowhere
Familiar faces in far-off places
My imagination
keeps on creating situations
that's no good for me
I'm supposed to be carefree
But lately, I haven't felt the same
as I used to be.

I want to create a memory
here is Brisbane city
I dialled your number
into my phone
I know you've been hanging on my call
you're a girl with attitude
There are so many things
I want to do with you
here in Brisbane city
Nothing comes easy
I'm learning to survive
with every minute I wait
and every breath I take
I know there's a better way

These dead-end streets
are leading nowhere
Familiar faces in far-off places
My imagination
keeps on creating situations
that's no good for me
I'm supposed to be carefree
But lately, I haven't felt the same
as I used to be.

I want to bear the mark of you
You can see the part of me
hidden under my tattoos
it ain't a pretty sight
when I breakdown (alright)
I didn't want you to see me cry
here in Brisbane city
There are so many things in this world
You've learned a million signs
about reading between the lines
and every time I looked into her eyes
I didn't think to see the signs
that you needed me in your life (alright)

These dead-end streets
are leading nowhere
Familiar faces in far-off places
My imagination
keeps on creating situations
that's no good for me
I'm supposed to be carefree
But lately, I haven't felt the same
as I used to be.

Now I'm sitting in an empty house
in Brisbane city
And I know where I went wrong
But I can't stand this feeling
of being alone (alone)
I can't stand this feeling
of being alone
And I know where I went wrong
But I'm sick of being alone
And I won't move on
You shouldn't leave me on my own
here in Brisbane city
Cakk you up to come around
so I'm not alone in this empty house
in Brisbane city

These dead-end streets
are leading nowhere
Familiar faces in far-off places
My imagination
keeps on creating situations
that's no good for me
I'm supposed to be carefree
But lately, I haven't felt the same
as I used to be.

The spotlight comes on
As I start singing into this microphone
The crowd starts to go wild
I'm drunk
Here in Brisbane city
and girl your wrong for all the right reasons
nobody has to be alone tonight
Because I need you all in my life
here in Brisbane city
Everyone starts singing along with me
here in Brisbane city
silhouettes of innocence
portrayed in plays on Broadway
there is nothing left for me to say
In Brisbane city
Here in Brisbane city

©2018 Written By Benji James

I tried to tell you
how I feel
you said,
"That can't be real,
You're my friend
That's the way it is
Besides I really love him."
He played you
and you broke down
Girl, I told you
he would ******* around.
You don't believe a word I say
but it ***** how he left you this way.

You got in deep
You got hurt
You keep going back
girl, you don't learn
I told you "I love you."
But it doesn't work.

Just another day, another boy
He played you, like a toy.
Broke your heart, then ran away
look how you are the very next day
played you like a fool
Girl, I bet you feel used
I come around to cheer you up
You thank me with a hug.

You got in deep
You got hurt
You keep going back
girl, you don't learn
I told you "I love you."
But it doesn't work.

Another boy again?
I've tried to be there
Yeah be your friend
You're on your own
My heart was out on the line
this whole time
Can't chase you around
Don't need to see you
keep getting hurt
You told me, "you think he is the one."
He gave you some great times
Now you've been left on your own again.

You got in deep
You got hurt
You keep going back
girl, you don't learn
I told you "I love you."
But it doesn't work.

You came to me the very next day
You asked
"Why does everyone keep leaving me?"
I looked deep into your eyes
looked at the ground and just sighed
I had no answers, cuz you're on my mind
I think to myself, how can they do things like this
to a girl like you.
It's so hard to push you away
because you come back with that beautiful face
And I can't help but capture a glimpse of your grace
You know when you're with me I'll keep you safe.

You got in deep
You got hurt
You keep going back
girl, you don't learn
I told you "I love you."
But it doesn't work.

You found another boy
You think his the one
I'm on my own again
But I know the truth
you'll come running back one day
But the thing that hurts the most
I miss you every day that you're gone
There is nothing I can say
To stop you getting hurt
But I'll be their girl when you call.
I won't let you go alone through the fall
When you need a friend
I'll pick you up again
I just hope you know
You've got a real friend
that is never letting you go...oh

You got in deep
You got hurt
You keep going back
girl, you don't learn
I told you "I love you."
But it doesn't work.

I am your best friend
Best friends stay until the end
I'll dry your eyes when you cry
Kiss, caress and hold you tight
Maybe we can be together someday
But for now your best friend I shall remain.

©2018 Written By Benji James

You were so full of good intentions
but nothing ever goes your way
love how you lie to me
every time you're staring me in the face
do you think that I'm stupid, girl?
You've never dealt with a man like this

You can pretend nothing ever happened (girl)
I'll never believe another word you say
you know you really went and hurt me
Not don't go say, "But babe"
It's not something I need to hear today
Just walk, walk away
before this anger turns into rage

Plant my fist through the wall
As you walk out that door
Fall to my knees
as the blood from my hand
Drips onto the floor
I close my eyes
Try to forget that you were in my bed
with another man.
The scars are running deeper
with every blow
Light up a smoke
to take a drag
grab a drink from the fridge
Just stop, just stop
I don't want to think

You can pretend nothing ever happened (girl)
I'll never believe another word you say
you know you really went and hurt me
Not don't go say, "But babe"
It's not something I need to hear today
Just walk, walk away
before this anger turns into rage

Razor blade cuts to release the strain
can't bandage a heart that's been broken
you chipped away
all the pieces
that was left in me
I held on hope
you'd never do this to me
What were you thinking?
I treated you beautifully
Every time I looked at my reflection
I saw you standing next to me
I tore up all the pictures
Tried to erase the memories
Unfortunately, You'll always be a part of me.

You can pretend nothing ever happened (girl)
I'll never believe another word you say
you know you really went and hurt me
Not don't go say, "But babe"
It's not something I need to hear today
Just walk, walk away
before this anger turns into rage

You were so full of good intentions
but nothing ever goes your way
love how you lie to me
every time you're staring me in the face
do you think that I'm stupid, girl?
You've never dealt with a man like this

You can pretend nothing ever happened (girl)
I'll never believe another word you say
you know you really went and hurt me
Not don't go say, "But babe"
It's not something I need to hear today
Just walk, walk away
before this anger turns into rage

©2018 Written By Benji James

Here it comes, here it comes
my silver lining
watch the lightning striking
these waves come crashing down
The fallen and the fearless
are in the house
Oh, oh
here comes my silver lining.

Eyeliner and painted nails
mascara starts running
when you sweat it out
watch out now
here it comes
it's on the horizon
here comes the sun
and my silver lining

The moon is glistening
over the open ocean
nothing goes to plan
even when set in motion

Money Burns, life's a mess,
girls can play hard to get.
Love is tough, the road is rough
but we're taken on challenges
as they come
I'm coming up hard
I'm coming up fast
I gotta silver lining
within my grasp

Here it comes, here it comes
my silver lining
watch the lightning striking
these waves come crashing down
The fallen and the fearless
are in the house
Oh, oh
here comes my silver lining.

Eyeliner and painted nails
mascara starts running
when you sweat it out
watch out now
here it comes
it's on the horizon
here comes the sun
and my silver lining

©2018 Written By Benji James

Today is the day
my existence fades away
ever since high school days
invisible is the way I stayed
I would give up everything
just to fit in.

Outcast, misfit
I'll never fit in
tried to take the time
to do things right
But I've just had enough
I want to give up.

So pathetic
they just don't get it
I can't take it anymore
I wanna tell you
But I'm scared about it
Because I don't know
how you'll react.

Outcast, misfit
I'll never fit in
tried to take the time
to do things right
But I've just had enough
I want to give up.

It's not right
I hate my life
Wish I was gone (alright)
Hand me downs
Trying to make you proud
But I just can't take
I just can't take it now.

Outcast, misfit
I'll never fit in
tried to take the time
to do things right
But I've just had enough
I want to give up.

©2018 Written By Benji James

I’m sorry for swearing.

I ain't picking up my heart
off the floor this time
you want to say something
then get in line

so sick of people
with there expectations
I don't want to be
the next sensation
you got your opinions
don't bring them around here
I couldn't care less
What you think my dear

Don't go dragging me down
Just cuz you've got no one
to push around
I ain't your little puppet
I ain't your man
You shouldn't go
******* with someone
You can't handle

I ain't picking up my heart
off the floor this time
you want to say something
then get in line

so sick of people
with there expectations
I don't want to be
the next sensation
you got your opinions
don't bring them around here
I couldn't care less
What you think my dear

Just stop, reminisce
I don't need you all up
in my face like this
excuse me miss
could you stop telling me
How I should live
Cuz I don't give a ****
you can **** on this...

I ain't picking up my heart
off the floor this time
you want to say something
then get in line

so sick of people
with there expectations
I don't want to be
the next sensation
you got your opinions
don't bring them around here
I couldn't care less
What you think my dear

Don't really care
About all these people
Heading my way
They may go acting
like there **** don't stink
But their nose is in their ***
Don't you think
What are yall saying
You don't know me
Wait...Have I told you my story?

I ain't picking up my heart
off the floor this time
you want to say something
then get in line

so sick of people
with there expectations
I don't want to be
the next sensation
you got your opinions
don't bring them around here
I couldn't care less
What you think my dear

©2018 Written By Benji James

Lost my way, Lost my life
Lost the girl
I think about at night
There's nothing for me to say
Baby, I should have never
let you walk away
I'm hurting like never before
There are no words to describe
what I feel anymore

I'm struggling
to keep my heart running
I'm struggling
To give everything
Because either way, I'll never win

I won't leave until you're gone
because my heat can't stand
saying goodbyes anymore
And I won't disappear
until you look away
Because I can't bear to see the tears
stream down your face
there is nobody left
to break me free
baby, there is nothing left
inside of me
The feeling
that burnt deep inside
must have left me
when you left my life

Poured my hear, my soul
into everything I did for you
Shattered every piece of love
I had for you
I remember back to when
you screamed my name
and when I heard you say it passionately
yeah those memories are still killing me

my broken heart lies beating
on the floor
Not sure I can keep ripping pictures
off the wall
And I'm all out of options
Can't talk at all
Can't see anything in you
no more
Oh babe is the love you had for me
all gone

I won't leave until you're gone
because my heat can't stand
saying goodbyes anymore
And I won't disappear
until you look away
Because I can't bear to see the tears
stream down your face
there is nobody left
to break me free
baby, there is nothing left
inside of me
The feeling
that burnt deep inside
must have left me
when you left my life

I'm still in love with you
I think about you every day
it hurts so bad every time
you look my way
I will never forget the past memories
I will never forget the words you said to me
the sweetness of your voice
the heart that left me with no choice
but to let you into my life
baby, I'm hooked on you
There's nothing that can pull me away from you
I will still give you my heart
until death do us part

I won't leave until you're gone
because my heat can't stand
saying goodbyes anymore
And I won't disappear
until you look away
Because I can't bear to see the tears
stream down your face
there is nobody left
to break me free
baby, there is nothing left
inside of me
The feeling
that burnt deep inside
must have left me
when you left my life

Oh my heart
still skips a beat for you
oh my love
still burns for you
so caught up in what we had
feeling there's nothing left
just makes me sad
can't stand to think
we've lost everything we had
Baby, I'm afraid
I can never let you go
You're my angel, you're my life
the light that still burns bright
and I can't stand to see you go
so ill do what it takes to fight for you

I won't leave until you're gone
because my heat can't stand
saying goodbyes anymore
And I won't disappear
until you look away
Because I can't bear to see the tears
stream down your face
there is nobody left
to break me free
baby, there is nothing left
inside of me
The feeling
that burnt deep inside
must have left me
when you left my life

The sweetness of your voice
The heart that left me with no choice
but to let you in my life
Baby, I'm hooked on you
There's nothing that can
pull me away from you
I will still give you my heart
until death do us part

©2018 Written By Benji James

You've crossed that line
for the final time
try to keep my head held high
but you're dragging me down
I know it's apart of life
But it doesn't mean
I don't stand up for my rights
Everyones singing about there haters
But I'm not sure anybody reads
What I write onto this paper

I don't think anyone can even
stand my voice
but what I put into my songs
is one hundred percent emotion
it's not easy telling stories about me
people think you're a poet
But I can guarantee
Just about everything I say
it's the truth
Don't need to live a double life
to make this reach you

Nobody's going to save you
From who you are
You have to keep on moving
Or this world will get to you
So baby keep on moving on and on

Cruising through the streets
in my Hyundai
Trying to figure out the next line
I want to make this the best rhyme
As you hang on these words
When I sing to you
You're still standing there
Trying to discover the truth
What is he saying
What does he mean
Is this really the way his feeling

Nobody's going to save you
From who you are
You have to keep on moving
Or this world will get to you
So baby keep on moving on and on

See so much confusion
when I look at the crowd
But when I sing the melody
They scream my name out loud
Still can't figure out
where to go from here
everything drowns out
trying to be sincere
Can't stop pretending
that I don't care
Can't stop procrastinating
This time will be the last time
I share my air
When my lungs
are struggling to keep on running

Nobody's going to save you
From who you are
You have to keep on moving
Or this world will get to you
So baby keep on moving on and on

When everything felt
like it was starting to go right
The world backed out
and left me in the sand to die
Hey, I said I'm going to okay
Don't go looking at me that way
I don't give a ****,
You don't need to say
It's going to be alright
There are plenty of fish in the sea
I can't let this emotion go to waste
I can't let her go
I can't watch her walk away
Yeah you can look me in the eyeball
tell me everything will be alright
Well I've got news for you
I was already dead
Never really knew the cost
Oh no there goes my soul
Lost the last part of dignity
Got nothing left to show

Nobody's going to save you
From who you are
You have to keep on moving
Or this world will get to you
So baby keep on moving on and on

Guess this is all an illusion
Time to stop me from choosing
the path I'm going to be walking
Death or life, Better think twice
It's a big decision
I must have kept on forgetting
the drive that kept me going
for all of this time
I wonder if she ever looked back on her life
And felt something was missing
Did you realise that I'm not there
keeping you comfortable?
Yeah it's alright
There is no need to keep on fighting
Temptation get on the plane
Do another show, pretend I'm not alone
This is life, Don't want to grow old on my own
Should embrace it
Not sure if I'll even make it past thirty
It'll be a miracle if it wasn't real
but from I can see its crystal clear
I wasn't supposed to make it here

Nobody's going to save you
From who you are
You have to keep on moving
Or this world will get to you
So baby keep on moving on and on

©2018 Written By Benji James

It starts with
A cup of coffee
And a cigarette
Turn on the T.V.
To see the news
You gotta start work
in an hour or two
Remember back to
childhood memories
Back when you had
no enemies
the world was your whole playground
You dreamt things
that no one could
even think about

Life just can't get better
Words can't be words
Without the letters
Just give it a minute or two
Just think
Let it sink through

Now as I look, around
society has changed
Nothing is ever going
to be the same
People constantly changing
Calling names, Hurting, Judging
Tunes keep changing
Money goes
You're getting older
And everyone knows
You'll never be
who you used to be
The young, innocent and sweet.

Life just can't get better
Words can't be words
Without the letters
Just give it a minute or two
Just think
Let it sink through

You gave so much
Abd tried so hard
to make your life
a real big part
of the master plan
but nothing ever
goes your way
You're losing yourself
everyday
You live, You die
You fail, You try
You laugh, You Cry
You've been right
You've been wrong
But you never let go
of all those happy times
You're just thankful
You're still alive

Life just can't get better
Words can't be words
Without the letters
Just give it a minute or two
Just think
Let it sink through

©2018 Written By Benji James

Stop breaking my heart
(Benji) Uh huh (Yeah)
Baby, you better stop playing with my heart
I'm tired of trying to play this part
I want you so bad
At the same time, I hate you.
Hate how you're playing these games
But I am so addicted to this pain
I love you, then I don't
Sometimes I think of letting you go
But I'm so caught up
In all that you are
I can't give up
Not sure...if this is love
or lust.
All I know is,
I love all the feelings
You're giving me
But you hardly even notice me
So I'm trying to get your attention
with all my affection
And it's essential
You and I have so much potential...Baby.

I'm walking down a road
(I'll never win)
Fighting for somebody that
couldn't care less about me
It ain't fair, but I guess that's me
cursed to never have the ones
I love the most
Just so I can put all this pain
into words.
And I'm holding back my tears
As I try to tame all my fears
of losing you.

Baby, I can't mend this heart
so please don't break it
at least try to let me down gently
Because all I can do is think of you
and how there is no replacing what you mean to me
And the earth is spinning slowly
my mind can't comprehend leaving you
And I can't pretend I ain't in love with you
because it just isn't working
I'm not working for you either baby.

I'm walking down a road
(I'll never win)
Fighting for somebody that
couldn't care less about me
It ain't fair, but I guess that's me
cursed to never have the ones
I love the most
Just so I can put all this pain
into words.
And I'm holding back my tears
As I try to tame all my fears
of losing you.

Look me in the eye
tell me why, oh why
don't you want me in your life?
Is it because I am unattractive,  girl?
Is it because there are better people
in your world
I could treat you so good
But if it's because I'm not pleasing to the eye
If I got plastic surgery would you change your mind?
Although who am I kidding, you're so not worth it
But at the same time, I need you by my side
And I can't get you out of my head
And oh dear god...I wish you never left
Because I can't bear to see my heart break again
And I can't bear seeing you be played by all these men

I'm walking down a road
(I'll never win)
Fighting for somebody that
couldn't care less about me
It ain't fair, but I guess that's me
cursed to never have the ones
I love the most
Just so I can put all this pain
into words.
And I'm holding back my tears
As I try to tame all my fears
of losing you.

Oh baby don't break my heart
Let's run this back to the start
Because I want you in my life
Babe, I can picture you as my wife
I'm tired of fighting
There is no more room for crying and lying
Let me in, Give me a chance to prove
That I can be your man
So I can prove I mean every word,
I've said to you baby
Baby stop hating on me, Let me in
Baby lets lay down out guns
Let's take a moment
we can become one
Let's work it out
I've come too far
to give up on you now
and you're irreplaceable honey
oh so don't break my heart
be my shining star

I'm walking down a road
(I'll never win)
Fighting for somebody that
couldn't care less about me
It ain't fair, but I guess that's me
cursed to never have the ones
I love the most
Just so I can put all this pain
into words.
And I'm holding back my tears
As I try to tame all my fears
of losing you.

©2018 Written By Benji James

Late night sneak outs
******* makeout
Parties, drinking
Speaking without thinking
To young to even give a ****

Please baby
Take this heart
Break it in half
and we will
never be apart

Mascara's running down
your cheeks
Tears start gushing
I'll come running
Your saviour in armour
I'll make it all go away

Please baby
Take this heart
Break it in half
and we will
never be apart

Lovers, friendships
Aren't easily formed
But you and me
have an unbreakable bond

Please baby
Take this heart
Break it in half
and we will
never be apart

It's so hard to look away
When you are watching me
Your new dress
Has me intrigued
And your hair
swaying gently in the wind

Please baby
Take this heart
Break it in half
and we will
never be apart

©2018 Written By Benji James

He's lurking in the shadows
with bloodshot eyes
A smell of bicardi and wine
I'll put down the knife
When these images
Stop playing on my mind

No, no I'm not afraid to die
I'm on the road to hell
But I don't care, OH!
Smoke another cigarette
And kiss your lips
Back to the room
And it's time for *** OH!
This is my escape
This is how I deal
To make believe these issues aren't real, OH!

You don't know
What the hell I've seen
And you ain't been
To the places, I've seen
You ain't heard the screams
You ain't see it every night in your dreams
The violence, the anger
Blood is running down these curbs
Insanity in motion please observe

No, no I'm not afraid to die
I'm on the road to hell
But I don't care, OH!
Smoke another cigarette
And kiss your lips
Back to the room
And it's time for *** OH!
This is my escape
This is how I deal
To make believe these issues aren't real, OH!

Let me paint a picture, clear
Place my voice inside of your ear
Hear the whispers that I call
For what you thought you know
You never knew at all
And there are voices carries within the winds
And demons have been asked to spread their wings
Eerie vibes are running down your spine
You try to dissect the world line by line

No, no I'm not afraid to die
I'm on the road to hell
But I don't care, OH!
Smoke another cigarette
And kiss your lips
Back to the room
And it's time for *** OH!
This is my escape
This is how I deal
To make believe these issues aren't real, OH!

©2018 Written By Benji James

Got high on drugs
Drunk on the bub
Depression was a test
A man left for dead
I didn't think I would
Get back up again

Take a look
I am still here
I am still living
With all, I've been through
You bet it was a mission
But I've cleaned up
straightened out my life
Never could have made it
Without you in my life

Was left in debt
A bankrupt man
People saying he's crazy
How could he make it
Back to his feet again
the road was long
and the climb was steep
I was determined
To make it to my feet

Take a look
I am still here
I am still living
With all, I've been through
You bet it was a mission
But I've cleaned up
straightened out my life
Never could have made it
Without you in my life

Girls gave me hell
Never good enough for them
They wanted everything
but me in the end
Thank god I didn't marry
Thank god I didn't stray
But I lost my stride
the fall had broken my pride

Take a look
I am still here
I am still living
With all, I've been through
You bet it was a mission
But I've cleaned up
straightened out my life
Never could have made it
Without you in my life

I am still here
And I am still living
The scars dig deep
But I'm still breathing
I am still here
And I am still living

©2018 Written By Benji James

Why would I want to be like you
when you go hurting people
the way that you do
You know I try, you know I cry
You know I really hurt
deep down inside
You know I hide, You know I'm shy
Just don't go throwing
things my way
Words can hurt, I can break
but I can't hate
Because with every word
and every breath
I know it gets harder
to get up again

You can bring me down
Leave me in shame
But I won't be haunted
by your game
The pain you leave
Will make me stronger
I won't be the victim any longer

You really don't impress me
with the way you act
So I'm just gonna keep walking
never look back
Soon you'll be the victim
of antidepressants
Razor blade cuts
Cigarettes and drugs

You can bring me down
Leave me in shame
But I won't be haunted
by your game
The pain you leave
Will make me stronger
I won't be the victim any longer

Don't you see
you're destroying yourself
But nobody can help you
until you help yourself
You shouldn't have said
what you did
because what goes around
comes around in the end

You can bring me down
Leave me in shame
But I won't be haunted
by your game
The pain you leave
Will make me stronger
I won't be the victim any longer

©2018 Written By Benji James

Every day, a new sentence
prepared in our heads
We try to plan out our lives
but they never coincide
I'm looking up to the sky
With all these questions why
thinking that I'll get answers in reply
I can't seem to think straight
Thought I had all this sense
But I can't find the change
And every day I check,
that a new day has come
But I'm a song stuck on repeat
one that sticks in your conscious for weeks

Why am I not living life the way I should
Seems I’m stuck in traffic Morning and night
Work all day just to come home to sleep away the night
Is this really all I'm meant to be
Used to think I was meant for greatness
Now I just can't see, that being me.
Feels like I've left this all too late
I came unprepared to storm this gate
Better turn back now,
just let this dream fade

Always thought greatness
was where my life would lead
But now I see, I didn't need greatness
To feel fulfilled and succeed
Thought fame would be away
To achieve everything I'd need
But fame just brings disaster
and attention I really don't want
So I think I can be happy with what I've got

And this is no real story
Just thinking out loud
Through fingers, I keep typing
Hoping this will connect
Maybe someone out there
Needs something to which they can relate
And I've felt those feelings
where you spiritually connect
In others writings, It's a talent
Which is a blessing to possess
I'm trying to find that spark
That helped me light up the dark
Haven't written in so long
But I know this is somewhere I belong

Why am I not living life the way I should
Seems I’m  stuck in traffic Morning and night
Work all day just to come home to sleep away the night
Is this really all I'm meant to be
Used to think I was meant for greatness
Now I just can't see, that being me.
Feels like I've left this all too late
I came unprepared to storm this gate
Better turn back now,
just let this dream fade

Always thought greatness
was where my life would lead
But now I see, I didn't need greatness
To feel fulfilled and succeed
Thought fame would be away
To achieve everything I'd need
But fame just brings disaster
and attention I really don't want
So I think I can be happy with what I've got

I've written a bunch of verses
Unfinished works, Sometimes it truly hurts
losing motivation for something
you once so dearly loved
It got you through all those hard times
Now you won't even take the time
To write out some lines,
think of some quips and rhymes
Try to define yourself as a poet
Get those emotions out
With a pen and paper now
So that you can show it
And all those who need to read
So that they can see
there not in this alone,
They're in this with me

Why am I not living life the way I should
Seems I stuck in traffic Morning and night
Work all day just to come home to sleep away the night
Is this really all I'm meant to be
Used to think I was meant for greatness
Now I just can't see, that being me.
Feels like I've left this all too late
I came unprepared to storm this gate
Better turn back now,
just let this dream fade

Always thought greatness
was where my life would lead
But now I see, I didn't need greatness
To feel fulfilled and succeed
Thought fame would be away
To achieve everything I'd need
But fame just brings disaster
and attention I really don't want
So I think I can be happy with what I've got

©2017 Written By Benji James

It hit me through the arteries
She tore apart my heart 
Yeah beat me up 
Girl keep shaking up my world 
Girl keep breaking me in half as well
Cuz I love the pain, the hurt
The situation grows worse
Baby chew me up, spit me out 
I'm committed to being the victim 
But we can switch places
I'll crush you to dust 
You won't rise up
I'm far from done
Smart but dumb
For sticking with you
But your addictive 
Your my drug
I can never get enough
I like it when she gets rough
This **** it gets tough 
And yeah it gets hard
I try to leave, but I keep going back
I see the reflection 
through the mirror crack 
I take a step back 
Rearrange the situation 
Make another observation
On the monster, I've created
I gotta let it go,
Before it goes too far 
This relationship it's been pushed to the edge 
If we take it any further will fall off the ledge
This is my last pledge
No more depression, no more pills
I'm walking away before more blood is spilt.

©2017 Written By Benji James

Loaded, up on pills
Feel fake, don't feel real 
Think they found my Achilles heel
My weaknesses are drowning me out 
My secrets have started coming out
I'm so dosed up 
Can't tell the difference
Between reality and make believe
That has me questioning 
What I'm doing to myself 
Why can't I put these pills 
back on the shelf?
Why am I destroying myself
And everything I stood for
Maybe it's cuz of 
what burns me at the core
Maybe it's the reason I'm still sore
The reason I still feel torn
Pop another pill 
so I can't feel a thing
Numb the pain 
Crumble each part of me away
The past locked in my head 
How the **** am I not dead?
So much blood I've bled 
But razors aren't enough 
To rip my skin in half 
Make sure it scars 
To remind me of all the hurt
I've caused
To remind me of the fall
How do I even come back 
from this at all?

©2017 Written By Benji James

Your body's wearing thin 

Your hearts hanging by a string

You thought you'd take a leap

Off of the ledge 

Now your clinging to the edge

Only by a thread 

And everything you thought you are

Feels different than before

Can't seem to figure out what's changed

I'm a stranger to myself

Thought that was unlikely 

Thought I'd always understand me

But then again I've never been understanding 

Just a little demanding 

Expecting too much of myself

Trying to compare myself 
to everybody else

Look at the mess your in

Look at where you've been

Yeah let's go to hell and back

You need help 

But asking was something you lacked

Now looking back, 

I should have had some trust

In the ones, I loved 

Instead, I thought I could deal
with everything 
on my own 

Only to end up all alone

Can't seem to figure out what's changed
I'm a stranger to myself

Thought that was unlikely 

Thought I'd always understand me

But then again I've never been understanding 

Just a little demanding 

Expecting too much of myself

Trying to compare myself 
to everybody else

Oh my own mind is my cell

All these thoughts are my hell

And now your losing yourself

Following the trends of everybody else

Just be who you are

Be who you wanna be

Don't be somebody else

Don't sacrifice your originality

Just take a moment to see

You were created perfectly

Down to every fault and flaw

Down to every mistake you made

Because they made you who you are today

Can't seem to figure out what's changed

I'm a stranger to myself

Thought that was unlikely 

Thought I'd always understand me

But then again I've never been understanding 

Just a little demanding 

Expecting too much of myself

Trying to compare myself 
to everybody else

©2017 Written By Benji James

There is one thing in life you need,
it's love
When it hits you
It takes you over
It moulds you into all that you can be
That is how you know
You've found that special someone
And they are all you can see
they inspire you to be
The best that you can be
With tender hearts
full of love
We could be set free

I want you, I need you
To show me how to love you
We can feel it
It teases
To make us believe it
You've got to know it's true love
I want to kiss you
Feel you
Because you mean everything to me

Never leave me
Because I couldn't bare
To stand the pain
Because you've made me
Everything I am today
Without you, I have no hope
Because you're the one who helps me fly
You help me feel that fresh air
And I can't help but look at you in awe
In all that you are
Because when these feelings strike me down
Hit with cupids arrow now
I know there's not a care in the world but you and I

I want you, I need you
I feel you
You've always got me
Where you want me
You've got that special gift
I'm sensing it
You've got that special touch
To make feel everything at once

Don't ever let this end in tragedy
Because from the first time I saw you
You completely caught my eye
Felt everything heat up on the inside
Blood was rushing, face was blushing
Oh, girl, I think I've got a crush and
I was precautious
But you smiled with that tender touch
Your eyes and lips, they lit me up
Don't want this to ever stop
You grabbed me and wrapped me
In your enamoured heart
and I fell deeply in your love
Everything falls into place
When you're around
You keep me in control
and that's why I need you

I want you, I need you
I can't resist you now
I want your kisses
You're my princess
You're the only girl,
I need in my world
So stay with me
In the moments forever, together
You're all I see,
You bring out the best qualities in me
And that's why it's just you and I
Together for the rest of our lives
Because nothing beats true love

I won't be satisfied
Till something takes my life
Too many pills I've been prescribed
To many times I take more than I should
Something's gonna get me before my time
But that's not enough to fulfil my desire
I'm standing on a ledge on the side of a bridge may be
This might be the thing to quench this thirst
The adrenaline's pumping through my veins
My mind has been declared insane
But I won't be satisfied
Till I find a way off this ride
Cuz I've lost all desire to keep on fighting
I've just run out of thunder and lightning
Something's gonna get me before my time
Maybe super high speeds through deserted streets
Just hope I don't end up
Running into a tree
I'm still lost within my conscience
I've seen too many people come and go
Maybe I'm next to end up the mess
Maybe I'm next to be blessed
But something's gonna get me in the end
I don't need to pretend
I don't need another reality check
Cuz I know I'm getting reckless
And I know people couldn't care less
I don't feel the need to impress
I don't feel the same as I did
Something's gonna get me
I can feel it in my bones
This downward spirals coming to a close
Something inside me knows
There's not long left to go
Before everything in me explodes
Before everything shuts down from all the blows
Something in me knows
There's not much time left to go

©2017 Written By Benji James

For you, I'd crash through steel doors
For you, I'd break down castle walls
She knows how to break through 
She has nothing left to prove
And I've got nothing left to lose
Except for you 
I don't know what I would do
If I ever lost her too
I'd fight, I'd lie, I'd cry, I'd die
I'd stand by your side 
For the rest of my life 
We've seen the best through each other's eyes
We can read each other's minds
You'll always be suspended in mine 
We still have more memories to find
But tonight would you be mine?

©2017 Written By Benji James

He lays awake all night
She's just a silhouette in his mind
He pictures everything she does
While he's lying in the dark alone
Separated, two different people
But I still think of you
Every single night
Take all the pills
Swallow them down
Close your eyes
In nightmares, he will drown
Be careful what you wish for
Cuz what goes around
Always comes back around
And he thought a different town
Would stop him from thinking about you
Now I just can't hold my ground
Baby your taking me down, down, down
My heart still pounds, it pounds
Love is lost, you can't be found
Drinking just doesn't fix
The emptiness
In the pit of my stomach
I'm numb I feel nothing
There's only one healing tonic
Your love is all I want
Just give me what you got
Because your everything I'm not
Your love is all I want

©2017 Written By Benji James

This could be the night I overdose
In my mind, I've never been this close
Setting fire to everything I own
Tearing up the clothes
I've never felt so much desire
To drown in the flames of the fire
angels can't take me higher
There are no heroes left for hire
Don't tell me you love me your a liar
Here the battles of the choir
As I lay down my rights
Take these wings
Because I fear the fall
In the middle of flight
I'd rather stay planted on the ground
Blend into the blackness of the night
I'd rather fade into the midst of time
Return to dust beneath the raging sun
Cuz I know I can never be someone

©2017 Written By Benji James

Sometimes I just wanna give up
Sometimes I wish I wouldn't write another word
And to some, this scene has never needed somebody like me
Some call me over emotional
Others see it as sincerely devotional
And nothing makes sense to me
I should just walk and leave this be
How do I keep conjuring these verses
When I ain't ever going nowhere.
How can I keep releasing this material
When nobody can even see this as visual
Or me as a complete individual
It's so hard to please
But last time I checked I wrote for me

©2017 Written By Benji James

Where's he come up with his lyrical content
Where the hell does he come up with the song's concept
Does he strain his brain
Bringing up the past pain
Or hang on a moment in the heart
Of a situation
And I can't stop this invasion
They take the words right out of my mouth
How can I stop when I'm addicted to this
I can't just call it quits
Especially when you've got a flow like this
And some people call me the kiss of death
Some people just don't see the visual effect
And then when the storm surpasses
And they realize we gotta rely on each other to make all this work
And a lot of people don't even understand the words
And I don't mean understand
What the words mean
But what the songs I write are referencing
And I get it, it gets a little confusing
When something that runs through your mind keeps constituting
What makes you think about being so blinded to the situation
But you know you can make it
There all seeing what your starting to say and I'd give my life
Before I lose out on living and breathing the freedom
To say what I mean
Because I mean what I say
Do you follow
Do you understand me

©2017 Written By Benji James

I wanna drink myself to sleep
Prescribe me the pills to help me, please
It makes me sick to even think
You could even be like this
Leave me hanging on something
That'll never ever be
How could you ******* leave me lonely
You knew I still thought of you
You knew there was nobody else but you
And you might have thought
I had worked this out
But I'm so totally over it
I just keep on losing it every time
You talk about him
I don't wanna hear that ****
I'd much rather listen to ******* people preach
I couldn't care less what you think of me
Give me the pills to release my mind
Give me drink until I drown myself in it
Baby give me the nightlife
One night stand to take you out of my head
Get so drunk that I can't get back up again
Stomach pumped just to bring me back
Reenergize, try to make me smile
But I just go back and do it all again
I ****** you and I ****** your friend
Oh dear lord his lost it
Oh dear lord what's next
I think I just had like three girls in my bed
Prescribe me something to stop
The madness that runs through my head
Before I go **** my life up again.

©2017 Written By Benji James

The guilt kicks in
Tears run down these cheeks
Bedrooms dark,
thoughts become bleak
Haven't eaten for a week
All these feelings consuming me
Torture my heart, ripping it apart
All these drugs just aren't enough
To cleanse me of all my mistakes
Tried locking all the memories away
And nothing seems to be working for me
I'm pushing through each day
Looking for a reason to live
And everything I've tried to give
Hope has been stolen out of my pocket
I've been left an empty shell of nothing
Thought I was something
When I was with you
Truth is I'm nothing
unless I have you
To keep me grounded
You were the one
that reinvigorated my soul
You were the one that brought me up
When I was low
When you were around
I never felt alone
You were my safety, my home

©2017 Written By Benji James

Gotta let loose
Yeah give you the truth
There's a whole lot more to say
There's a whole lot of things left to do
I've got you, I've got this
Hanging for another taste of your lips
Give me another kiss
I don't wanna miss it
Don't want to let this moment pass me by
Give you a whole lot more of my time
I want you here tonight
I want your hand in mine
I want your sweet charm
Wanna hold you in my arms
When your here feels like I'm the lucky one

©2017 Written By Benji James

Music can give sight to the blind
It can captivate minds
Give lessons in life
Capture a memory in time

©2017 Written By Benji James

Your magnetic attraction
Gives me that animal reaction
Your such a distraction
I want that infectious affection
All of her love and attention.

©2017 Written By Benji James

Plant two feet firmly where I stand
You'll never move me from here again
I never wanted me and you to end
Now I've got to find another way for us to begin
But I like the sensation I feel
It makes me believe what I've felt is real
I'm standing strong and firm
This hurricane won't ******* from here
And you can pretend
I don't mean anything at all
You can believe I won't find a way
For you to react
I thought it came down to all the memories
But now I realize there is so much more
Out there for you and me
I didn't want to give in to these emotions
But I see the girl
As more than what we are now
I see you as apart of me in everything
And I thought there was no chance.
But now that I've had another glance
Your my future, your my world
I'm changing my ways for you, for me.
The story doesn't end here
There's something deep inside
That brings me back to you
It's more than just your beauty and grace
Baby girl this must be fate

©2017 Written By Benji James

Do you remember the time
You committed that crime
You took what was mine
Thought you were a sign
To become the good in my life
Instead, you torment my mind
How did I become so blind
To everything you hide
Deep behind those dark eyes
You were never going to be mine
Together I thought we would shine
But instead, I got bind
To the hate that you gave
And now I'm a slave
You anticipate every move that I make
Now it's the choices I made
That is controlling my fate
It's the love that you take
But all that you gave was fake
And I hate everything you do and say
Because with my heart you play
And that is not fair to me
Cuz I gave all I could
If I could trust you I would
But I don't know if I should
All I saw in you was so good
But you mistreated my trust
You caused such a rush
I've spilt so much blood
Thinking it could gain your love
Instead, it got tough
And the road became rough
Wasn't strong enough
To overcome your touch
I wanted so much
But you threw it all back in my face
My faith in you was misplaced
Should have tried to escape
Your lovesick game
You've drowned me in my shame
But I'm the only one to blame
Because I should never have played
Into your hands
But all this has given me a plan
To take all that I am
To become a better man.

©2017 Written By Benji James

Razor blade cuts
Aren't enough 
Deep gashes 
Ashes to ashes 
Pour salt in my wounds 
I'd only burn for you
People say that its crazy
I think it is maybe 
But I'd give anything 
For her to be my lady

©2017 Written By Benji James

Just give me a minute

To catch my breath

Girl don't move too far ahead
Slow down, Take it easy

Just take a moment

To consume these feelings

There is nothing else in the world

I would rather do 

Then spend the rest of time

Loving you
I'll lay these rose petals

On your bed

And when our eyes connect

Let me lie you down and love you

©2017 Written By Benji James

Look who's back 
with a lyrical attack
One to divide all nations 
But I'm trapped in a game
Where I can't even make a name
Isn't it a shame 
Still looking for someone to blame
What's the reason 
that keeps me from making music
Guess it's time I came to claim 
What is rightfully mine 
I've been down a hard road
A bandit in time
And holding me back 
That's is a crime
By the grace of God
I've got to give all I've got
And maybe that isn't a lot
But you think that will stop me
I think not
I had to come back
With brand new tactics
Cuz lets face it 
I've let this go on for far too long
And to not do anything 
would just be wrong 
It's time to build an army 
Come back strong 
Cuz I've been waiting 
For a moment for far too long 
Yep guess I got it going on now
Anticipation is starting to build 
And I may not have much *** appeal
But that doesn't mean 
I can't make you squeal 
Say my name, 
ain't no more chains
Holding me down
Got my gun reloaded
Back for another round
And maybe you scratched 
my name In the side
Of a piece of shrapnel 
Try break my pride
Think I give a **** what you think 
**** life's not bliss
Living on the edge of a knife like this
come along for a ride 
Inside of my mind 
Come through the darkness, blind
That's not enough to keep me 
Off of my grind
The stars realigned 
For a person with passion 
I'm back on the rise 
No natural disaster can stop me
No bullet can **** me 
No razor blade cuts will scar me 
Sometimes things cut deep
But I'm impenetrable 
After everything I've been through 
Won't burn through the pages
Don't lie, you know I'm dangerous 
Not afraid to dance on the tables
Cuz I've been through it all
Ain't nothing gonna phase me no more

©2017 Written By Benji James

There are dark times
In periods of our life
Where we don't want to be alive
And sometimes there's a sorrow
You just can't shake
Sometimes there's a doubt
That just won't fade
And you try your best to take
Each day as it comes
But you can't help contemplate
Your future and it seems
Like you aren't moving anywhere
Yeah that's the way it feels
Your body feels heavier
Your head feels full
And you can't process information
The way you used to
Negativity is your new vibe
You feel you'll never achieve
Anything within this life.

©2017 Written By Benji James

She's hot, He's not
They've got nothing in common
He's out drinking away his problems
She's at home sitting on the bed crying
His seeing other girls
While she's all alone at home
And these two souls
Should be walking separate paths
Both hurt and ache inside
Both mentally troubled in their mind
This situation just doesn't feel right

They're Mr and Mrs's negativity
They've never got anything positive to say
They're emotionally drained every day
Trying to find a smile in these hard times
but in these dark days, it's hard to find a light
And this relationship breaking down
And karma always comes back around
They're gonna drown in the down down
They're Mr and Mrs's negativity
They've never got anything positive to say

She wants everything to be her way
He could care less what she has to say
He wants every girl in his sight
He has no feelings for his wife
She's staring at the clock
Counting down the minutes until he comes home
She wants him to herself
She's hurt, she really loves him
Be he really doesn't give a ****
What she's feeling in her heart
Her tortured soul will be the masterpiece of his art

They're Mr and Mrs's negativity
They've never got anything positive to say
They're emotionally drained every day
Trying to find a smile in these hard times
but in these dark days, it's hard to find a light
And this relationship breaking down
And karma always comes back around
They're gonna drown in the down down
They're Mr and Mrs's negativity
They've never got anything positive to say

He needs money for the bills
She's got thoughts of leaving him
She's got those initial kind of feelings
She still loves him so it's hard to leave
When he is everything she feels she needs
And she knows that she deserves better
She's finding the strength and courage
To walk out of that door and so
She tells him, he will lose everything
He shrugs it off and takes another swig of his drink

They're Mr and Mrs's negativity
They've never got anything positive to say
They're emotionally drained every day
Trying to find a smile in these hard times
but in these dark days, it's hard to find a light
And this relationship breaking down
And karma always comes back around
They're gonna drown in the down down
They're Mr and Mrs's negativity
They've never got anything positive to say

She's got the car packed
Ready to make a change
Find happiness and a future somewhere new
As she goes to walk out the door
He strikes her across the face
She falls to the floor
He raises his voice in anger
You will never leave me you, little *****
Tears run from her eyes bruised and beaten
Mascara streaming down her cheeks
So much weakness in her body
Can't find the strength to pick herself back up
She tries with all her might
But she's stuck lying on the floor

They're Mr and Mrs's negativity
They've never got anything positive to say
They're emotionally drained every day
Trying to find a smile in these hard times
but in these dark days, it's hard to find a light
And this relationship breaking down
And karma always comes back around
They're gonna drown in the down down
They're Mr and Mrs's negativity
They've never got anything positive to say

He's barely thinking straight
Alcohol overtakes his decisions
His eyes, now blurred vision
his sitting next to her on the floor
Too drunk to even stand, his limits
His at his end, he rips off her dress
he gives her every inch
That alcohol breath
She breathes it in, crying and afraid
She can't even think straight
How did it get to this stage
*****, battered and bruised
The one she loved
Completely broke her trust
And now nothing will ever be the same
She'll be haunted by memories
for the rest of her days

They're Mr and Mrs's negativity
They've never got anything positive to say
They're emotionally drained every day
Trying to find a smile in these hard times
but in these dark days, it's hard to find a light
And this relationship breaking down
And karma always comes back around
They're gonna drown in the down down
They're Mr and Mrs's negativity
They've never got anything positive to say

©2017 Written By Benji James

If only life was bliss
If only I kept your kiss
If only life did not change
If only it wasn't so strange
If only you were still here
to you, I felt so near.
If only I wasn't so down
How can I change this frown?
If only we kept our words
If only we could fly like the birds

If only it weren't so lonely
I'd be by your side
Our two hearts would collide
If only you were here
Everything would feel so clear

All these silly indecisive decisions
Weigh on this troubled mind
Always seems to be complicated situations
Processing through this conscious conscience
Can't seem to digest all this information
Straight from the page to my brain
All I feel is disconnection
From this interjected rejection
Gotta break free of this intersection
Give me the will to pick the right direction

If only I had your touch
If only everyone loved so much
If only I could hear
If only I felt no fear
If only you felt me there
If only love was in the air
If only friends pulled through
If only I put my arms around you

If only it weren't so lonely
I'd be by your side
Our two hearts would collide
If only you were here
Everything would feel so clear

All these silly indecisive decisions
Weigh on this troubled mind
Always seems to be complicated situations
Processing through this conscious conscience
Can't seem to digest all this information
Straight from the page to my brain
All I feel is disconnection
From this interjected rejection
Gotta break free of this intersection
Give me the will to pick the right direction

If only I felt alive
If only I could find the drive
If only you had my heart
If only we weren't so far apart
If only we took a glance
If only we took a chance
If only we were all we could be
If only I didn't give you my soul
Then I wouldn't be stuck in this dark hole
IF only I didn't miss
If only you never gave me your kiss
If only it was so real
if only you turned the wheel
If only...
If only it weren't so lonely
I'd be by your side
Our two hearts would collide
If only you were here
Everything would feel so clear

All these silly indecisive decisions
Weigh on this troubled mind
Always seems to be complicated situations
Processing through this conscious conscience
Can't seem to digest all this information
Straight from the page to my brain
All I feel is disconnection
From this interjected rejection
Gotta break free of this intersection
Give me the will to pick the right direction

©2017 Written By Benji James

Girl, my world is falling apart
The last light went out
now I'm in the dark
I can't see one star of hope
I've tried to brush these tears away
There is nothing left that I can say
to make everything feel like a brighter day
And I've tried out every single way
to find a way to make you stay
I still can't see a message coming through
Guess I'm left here in the dark waiting for you.

©2017 Written By Benji James

I want to see you in my sights
I want to feel you're on my side
I want you in my life
Be my light
This feels just right
My hearts in flight
Watch this love ignite
A fire so bright
I need you in my skies
I wanna watch you shine
Like the stars at night
I see that sparkle in her eyes
Time flies by
Every time I see her smile
I need that drug, every once in a while
I wanna see her in my sights
I wanna feel her on my side
I need her in my life
Oh be my wish that comes true
I wanna feel you are feeling me too
Wanna be stuck to you
Stuck together like glue
Yeah just us two
Let it be, just me and you
Will stick it through
Together we can prove
That we can do
Anything we put our minds to.

©2017 Written By Benji James

They'll never understand this thirst
So much heart in one verse
So much love, but never been put first
Maybe there is more to this than meets the eye
Maybe something's brewing in these lightning skies
Maybe I'm starting to read between the lines
And everybody elses conscious lies
Maybe this was what I was trying to find
Doesn't do any good to run and hide
That's why I take it a day at a time
So that I don't get stuck in this web of life.

©2017 Written By Benji James

Give me the sunrise
Give me a new dawn
Let the sun soak into my skin
I'm so optimistic
A future shining so bright 

Give me the setting 
of the sun
rising over the ocean

Let me feel the heat

In this good feeling of emotion

I'm starting to pave my way

To the place, I've been trying to create

The one that is filled with serenity

The one that gives me the inner peace

That I need 
and wanted so badly

I'm burying my past
Don't you dare allocate your allegations
It's time to move on
Time to look up
I'm tired of drowning in the sorrows
I'm tired of this smile I borrowed
I want to feel the warmth
Of happiness inside
I want that in my life

The sad memories
Are buried six feet under
I don't want to feel another
I held onto so much doubt
The pills wouldn't even drown it out
I had to work so hard
Just to be able to let go of my past
They say that is what makes your future
But I'll be ****** if I'm judged by a jury
I'll be ****** if I let life do that to me
I was hit and kicked while I was down
But I've got skin made of armor now
And I'm happy with where I'm at
That is something no one can take
And now I'm somebody
who doesn't easily break

I'm burying my past
Don't you dare allocate your allegations
It's time to move on
Time to look up
I'm tired of drowning in the sorrows
I'm tired of this smile I borrowed
I want to feel the warmth
Of happiness inside
I want that in my life

I've taken every task
Thrown my way
I've given all the blood
I can give
I've said every word
To band aid that hurt
I've got scars that show
But they're just a reflection
Of who I used to be
I'm starting to look at life
with more positively
I'm starting to feel more secure
with who I am
I'm starting to feel happy within myself
that is something that has been
a long time coming
Now my world isn't crumbling
Before my eyes
Now I've seen hurt heal with time

I'm burying my past
Don't you dare allocate your allegations
It's time to move on
Time to look up
I'm tired of drowning in the sorrows
I'm tired of this smile I borrowed
I want to feel the warmth
Of happiness inside
I want that in my life

©2017 Written By Benji James

Guess I'm never meant to fall in love
Guess I'm never gonna be the one
And the rivers of love are starting to run dry
And my heart is sinking on the inside

Into the blackness of this stormy sky

And baby when the thunder comes crashing down

I know I'm all alone in my house

And I tried to give you the best of me

But that doesn't seem to matter

Because you're leaving me alone 
in the dark
trying to hold on 
and it's just not fair

How can I breathe when you're my air

I'll never get to kiss her in the summer rain
I'll never get to experience our first date
And I thought I was dedicated
But it just leaves me frustrated
That she never gave a minute
To take the time to see
That she, She could've been the one for me

People seem to keep leaving me
And I don't understand
Am I that bad, That bad of a friend
What ever happened to staying until the end
People seem to keep leaving me
They find someone else
And forget about me
I'm tired of being alone
How am I supposed to deal with being on my own
When I can't stand who I am
And I wanted to be your man
But you keep leaving me
And It's not fair
You didn't even give me a ******* chance
You didn't even give me a chance

I'll never get to kiss her in the summer rain
I'll never get to experience our first date
And I thought I was dedicated
But it just leaves me frustrated
That she never gave a minute
To take the time to see
That she, She could've been the one for me

And I don't wanna go another day
Without your love
And what you're giving isn't enough
But there is nobody else like you
And theirs a whole lot more we
Need to work through
A whole lot more we need to do
You could at least pick up your phone
And talk to me baby
So come on baby don't leave me
Lying alone, Because I'm tired of sleeping alone
What if I'm afraid to fall back in love
And I can't give them what they want
Thanks for leaving me,
Thanks for confusing,
Everything I do,
Babe, I did it for you.

I'll never get to kiss her in the summer rain
I'll never get to experience our first date
And I thought I was dedicated
But it just leaves me frustrated
That she never gave a minute
To take the time to see
That she, She could've been the one for me

©2017 Written By Benji James

Razor blade cuts were just the start
He made art
by drawing pictures in his blood
With wounds so deep
So much room to breathe 

Watch me bleed

Feel my need

All attention on me

Do you see the tension in me

Can you feel the weakness in my knees

I've tried to plead

But I couldn't please 

So watch me bleed

Feel the punishment tormenting me

Why don't they see
all the pain within my words

Can't they see my heart on the line

Every time I write
take a trip through my mind,
my dreams, my life

I vision so much but all the negativity
has started killing me
inch by inch

Now this itch
won't go away

I've penetrated my skin with fingernails so thin 

Now it kills to breathe in 

And I can't seem to find my way out

Of the darkness of this stormy cloud 

When will the rain stop drowning me out
all these emotions swirl around like the rough seas

I just want them to understand me

I just want somebody to take a little more notice

I've got a heart that needs some love 

But the hates so strong

I can't find where I belong.

©2017 Written By Benji James

There are articles spread across the wall
Buildings in picture displays
Headline says the great escape
And he can't help thinking
Why am I here 
Yeah what do I do

Conflict between his head 

And his heart

He used to draw pictures 

Which he thought was art

Comments said otherwise

They said he should give up

That's when he wished he would just die

Hey, Bae
Hey, Bae
Let's run away to L.A.
Yeah honey
You got big city dreams
And I've got a plan
Let's go catch a plane
And get the hell out of here

He started to write down lines
That sprung from his mind
He was saying things he didn't quite understand
But that's when somebody else said
She said I see what you're saying
And I tend to feel that way to
I've had all these mixed emotions
But I won't give up on you
You got a gift
A way with words
You're a modern day poet
I just think you should know it
That is what she said
And he was thinking

Hey, Bae
Hey, Bae
Let's run away to L.A.
Yeah honey
You got big city dreams
And I've got a plan
Let's go catch a plane
And get the hell out of here

He asked her, what are her future plans?
She said I've always wanted to be an actress
Everyone said I was not good enough
And that I should just give up
He looked deep into her eyes
And said I believe in you
You can achieve anything you want to
She smiled back his way
And said that's the sweetest thing
Anybody has ever said to me
That's the most precious gift
Another person's belief
and he said

Hey, Bae
Hey, Bae
Let's run away to L.A.
Yeah honey
You got big city dreams
And I've got a plan
Let's go catch a plane
And get the hell out of here

©2017 Written By Benji James

Sometimes it feels like your a rocket 

traveling at the speed of light

The fire works that burn so bright

Like a comet flying across the skies, 

A burning flame that never dies

And nothing can bring us down 

We're right where we belong 

We've never ever felt so strong

We're right where we belong 

Right where we belong

We got stars in our palms 

Lucky charms on our arms

can't believe we've come this far

Can you see the view?

I believe that you do

Never felt happiness like this

Must be a product of luckiness

I wished, hoped and prayed for so long

that the vision I'd seen 

Would become a reality 

And now I'm starting to see it

Now I'm starting to believe 

I'm getting to where I need to be

We got stars in our palms 

Lucky charms on our arms

can't believe we've come this far

Can you see the view?

I believe that you do

Never felt happiness like this

Must be a product of luckiness

©2017 Written By Benji James

I’m still chasing girls 

Out of my league

Mumma always said 
chase your dreams

Even with all the impossibilities 

So I'm chasing girls every day

Maybe that's the reason

They don't want to be with me

In fact, it's she who said that to me

How can I choose

With all these fish in the sea

So many girls they're all so pretty

I want them all 

Not just one

Maybe I'm a little greedy

Still, think I'm cheesy?

Nah I'm freakin' seedy

But don't be fooled

It takes a lot to please me

So many cuties in this club

And I want every single one

Because I just can't get enough

Of all this lust

Let's make love, in this club 

Where's Ushers song come on

Girl, I want you, no you, no you

**** how am I supposed to choose

I'm so confused

On what to do

Oh well, guess I better make them 

Form a Que.

I want them all 

Not just one

Maybe I'm a little greedy

Still, think I'm cheesy?

Nah I'm freakin' seedy

But don't be fooled
It takes a lot to please me

Hey, little lady,

I think I love you

Nah just kidding

I want to *******

In fact, bring a friend to

There enough room in my bed

For both of you

Come on give me all you've got

Because your both so freakin' hot
(Haha)

I want them all 

Not just one

Maybe I'm a little greedy

Still, think I'm cheesy?

Nah I'm freakin' seedy

But don't be fooled

It takes a lot to please me

©2017 Written By Benji James

Don't know why I'm seeking your approval
This feeling is so unusual
You and I are classified as unsuitable
She struck fast with her lightning eyes
She could see my torn soul, from the outside
Now she's pulling me apart piece, by piece
Reopening old wounds 
That took so long to heal
And everything just feels surreal
The ledge I was standing on wasn't stable
I'm not sure if I'm able or not
Able to reach for the sky above
I keep trying to believe in love
when I just started to get high 
Something rips my wings from my back
Then I'm brought crashing down to earth
then reality starts to surface
that these make believe feelings
Just don't suit me
us two just weren't meant to be.

©2017 Written By Benji James

What happened to the love there use to be
What happened to everything we shared
It seems as everything is,
Slipping away from me

Like the sand to the sea

Where did the good times go

The times you loved me for me

There was nobody else

Just you and me

One time, One place

I want you back baby

I can't go on alone
Why are you never picking up the phone
You never seem to be at home
Is there something your not telling me

Why has life gone so dull
It's like everything is a shade of grey
You know I want you in my life
There's so much I wanna say
But you need time alone

I can't go on alone
Why are you never picking up the phone
You never seem to be at home
Is there something your not telling me

There is nobody that makes me feel the way you do
It's as if the only person can be you
There are no words to describe how I feel
I just wish I could show you
If only you would answer my calls
I can't take this anymore

I can't go on alone
Why are you never picking up the phone
You never seem to be at home
Is there something your not telling me

You're the only one I care about
The only one I never doubt
Sure I can be emotional
But you know it is true
You are the only one
I want to spend eternity with
Why can't you admit the truth

I can't go on alone
Why are you never picking up the phone
You never seem to be at home
Is there something your not telling me

I can't go on alone
Oh No
I Can't do it alone

©2017 Written By Benji James