I feel like I can breathe
Like my lungs are full of freedom.
My heart, still heavy, is lighter
And my mind is much less dark.

I am still not okay,
But i know that won't last.
I will look towards the best parts of life
And hold onto them.

The forests, the trees, the mountains and foggy mornings
The fresh air, ths dew drops, the evening most
Of rainy days.

The love of friend, memories and potential, all equally dear.

I will stand by my convictions
I will not be sad over choosing my friends
I cannot help everyone,
And some people don't deserve to be helped.

When I walked to the restroom
The way he smiled at me
Tore my soul to shreds

You are still my joy
Until the end comes.
I say those two words
Because they're right.

Never forget me
I won't forget tou
Even if you've got to go
For a while.

I will be here
While Autumn's coming
And I shall
Be here for you.

I'll never leave you,
My Autumn Darling,
Even if your leaves
Weren't evergreen.

Lord burn my skin
Enliven my flesh
In a way, only You can.
Transform me,
May the harm be cleansed
Like holy fire,
Transfiguring sinner
To saint.

Every word you said,
Bouncing around my mind,
Like a lovely ball of light
Showing my soul
That smiling is okay.

I can't believe
I'll never feel
Your lips against mine again

I'm afraid to hold on
My trust, not shattered, but hurt
Am I to believe you won't leave me again
Lying alone, in pain, in the dirt?

What is love?
Is it purely romantic?
No, nay, nary,
Then why do only lovers say it often?

My hope will remain
But you know that story
And I will love every minure
Of our tale.

I know my poems
Will descend further
Into the dark
Recesses of my mind.

I will stay
The blade from striking.
May this match
Never come to light.

Do i have power?
Don't read this poem.
My lovely dove
My saving grace.

I don't want you
To know my sorrow.
I want to see
Your smile grace your face.

I want to watch your
Cheeks get reddened
Just like they did
Not long ago.

I want your embrace
I need your medicine
Oh Ambrosia,
Stay my hand.

I am not worthy
Of your love to me.
I am not worth
All your time.

I am nothing,
I feel so empty,
No one deserves
My sorrow.

The **** should've been the reason
But I could look past
The rock and Crystal,
But not for any longer.

I do NOT become friends with adulterers.
I am no friend of a cheater.
Your girl better be proud
Of the ******* you've become.

Dont mind me
When I make a promise
In your name.

I'd use God's
But I know, with yours,
I can stand by it easier

Fell for pine eyes,
Dressed in red, my sorrow,
Oh stricken down thy arms and thighs,
Never forget i'm the pine in his eyes.

I may have thought
Non stop last night
Of running inside the fire
But I am excited now
To know, today,
I'll see the one whom I miss.
The one who helps give
Me meaning
To push on.

No cigarettes today
No cutting
No punching
Try to not cry.

No excuses
No hiding
If I am weak,
Go to her.

She won't be mad
I will be okay
And i will have bliss
To fight today

'i didn't want to talk to her'
You didn't end the call when
I spoke my heart out,
But when I told you
I can't be there
Because you still do ****

Then you left the call.

I am not crazy
To hold onto
The only friend
To show me their worth
And keep it.

Who were you with
When you kissed my lips
So unhappily nights ago?

Milk and honey,
Are the answers
I try to
Give myself.

May i *******
Bitter sweetness
My medicine
Is too far gone.

I'm sorry
I don't know why anymore
But I am

I wish i could envelope myself
In the ecstacy of escapism
Rushing away to realms concealed
In things that make me sway.

But, no, I am strong.
I shall overcome.
I am stronger than that which consumes me
Whether suicide or addiction, I will win.

I'm a loser baby
So why don't ya **** me
*wicked guitar solo

I may be extreme at times
But I will mellow.
I hope you heal
Just as I hope to too.

You let me live for you
And this is what I'll do

I seriously miss you so ******* much. I can't believe you're gone. I just can't. I can't wrap my head around the fact that you're okay with just leaving me, even though just three days ago we had kissed and you held me close and I was all yours. I'm still all yours. I love you so ******* much. I ******* love you still so ******* much. I am so ******* tired of not being good enough. I want you to love me again. Please. Please just please for even a day, I'll make it last a lifetime. Just please.

Cutting corners
Unburred edges.
The bringers of
Harsher thoughts.

Don't free my body,
Don't let me see inside my own.
Just let me have my peace

My name is Tommy
I go by Bede
Because I'm afraid to be me.

I'm obsessed with names
Because I'm ashamed
Of what I can turn mine into.

No longer!
I am Tommy
And I will be proud.

I will remember
My dear, oh medicine.
Ananke, bless me so.
Inevitability,
Compulsive necessity,
May I remember
Her embrace.

Every day I walk through life
Unknowing of where to go
I only have a vague idea
Of what I'm 'sposed to know.

I'm unsure of my calling
I'm unsure of my life
I'm not too keen on these machines
That cause me all my strife.

I live a life of lying
Of looking into eyes
And telling people I'm okay
That I've still got all my tries!

But one thing is for certain
This one's not left behind
The one thing I am certain of
Is Love's right-wondrous rhyme.

What's shone since the beginning?
Since light first graced the sky?
'Twas Hatred's broodish, helly face?
No! Love's the one, says I!

So one thing is for certain
This one's left to remind
Of why I keep on chugging
And a-rollin' down the line.

That's Love is my whole reason
For dancing this foreboding dance
And if I am not careful
I could lose my last chance.

So learn to romp and tango!
Bully, my boy, dance right!
For if we Love, what have we lost?
Not nary a beautiful night!

On here, I am free
To say as I wish
But I don't want to give you fuel
To fan flames against me

Those hidden things
Those secret things,
bestowed to me
In times of stress.

I miss church
But I woke up too late
And I dont know
If I can make it.

My heart hurts still
I don't know where to go
And I'm scared of the consequences.

I want peace
That truest peace
The bliss of the ages.

Will i make it to church?
I would druther see the color
In my best friend's hair

I've held the blade in my hand
I have not cut myself.
I don't know how you care so much.
I love me.
I may hate myself
And view all of this as my fault
But I know
Deep down
I love me.

I'm sorry, my love, I failed you
My arms fall to my side
I lay my weary head to rest
And rise to feel like I've died

Arisen in panic
In worry, in fear
Anxiety stricken
With no sleep near

Please forgive me, love
I hope it went well
I love you so much
Though I feel like hell

God looked upon the glory he made,
And, Lord, did he get jealous.
He formed every being in heaven,
And yet He made you the most stunning.

He's watched you grow, evolve, and change,
And He's jealous of the happiness you give me
That He couldn't.

You make the Heavens envious!
For they know their beauty
Is nothing compared
To you, oh Muse.
Oh bright shining, radiant being,
The Tears of God are shed for thee!

I'm going to try
And not focus on
Religion as much today.

I fell asleep
Before I could
Read the night away.

The promise i made
I will keep today
I will keep in every way.

What must I do?
Here is my list:
Make sure your attention
Is focused on her.
Love her fully, but show it this time
And don't let her hide her feelings.
Do not hide yours,
No matter if you end up hurt,
It's already happened once,
I know you'll love. I know you'll live.

Talk daily, call her, treat her just as she is viewed in your heart.
In the end, you'll still make her feel like the most important person in the world.

That is what matters the most right now

I won't let my dreams,
Remaining dreams,
Be stamped out,
But I won't let them rule over me.

But my dreams keep me
Holding on
To the life that
Others find so dear.

Who do I have?
What do I have?
Am I truly alone?

When my friends dwindle
And I've got no one,
You're still there.

Even when everyone
Around me
Can betray me.

You're still there.

So am I ever truly alone?
No, never, you won't let me.
For this, I appreciate you most.

You'll never feel
Like a disappointment
To me.

Ill pour my ******* heart out now
That i know that I can
And i am in so much ******* disarray

Be happier than i ever made you
And it'll make me happier than I ever have been.

I hope the best
For you and I
That I may grow
And that you may too

My faith in God
These last two days
Have been as thin ice in the last days of winter.

how could I be so blind
To let everything get ahead of me
Why did I not put her first?

My salvation will never be ensured
But one thing was
And that was her love.

Or so I thought
I may not believe in anything anymore
I didn't expect this from her.

I will be here to help you
Just as you helped me today
You may not know it
But you saved me today.

Thank you