I am not crazy
To hold onto
The only friend
To show me their worth
And keep it.

You are still my joy
Until the end comes.
I say those two words
Because they're right.

Never forget me
I won't forget tou
Even if you've got to go
For a while.

I will be here
While Autumn's coming
And I shall
Be here for you.

I'll never leave you,
My Autumn Darling,
Even if your leaves
Weren't evergreen.

I've held the blade in my hand
I have not cut myself.
I don't know how you care so much.
I love me.
I may hate myself
And view all of this as my fault
But I know
Deep down
I love me.

We can work through the pressure
Just take your time,
Know who's there for you,
And make your heart Happy.

Your soul, golden to me,
No matter your choice.
I know I am a sorry soul
But never forget i love you so.

My name is Tommy
I go by Bede
Because I'm afraid to be me.

I'm obsessed with names
Because I'm ashamed
Of what I can turn mine into.

No longer!
I am Tommy
And I will be proud.

Thank you, darling.
Im sorry im sad.
May my heart be healed.
Dont let this change
How i am your friend,
I know it hasnt changed
For me.

I feel like I can breathe
Like my lungs are full of freedom.
My heart, still heavy, is lighter
And my mind is much less dark.

I am still not okay,
But i know that won't last.
I will look towards the best parts of life
And hold onto them.

The forests, the trees, the mountains and foggy mornings
The fresh air, ths dew drops, the evening most
Of rainy days.

The love of friend, memories and potential, all equally dear.

When I stop thinking
I am drawn to a sadness
Unknown to me.
Unbeknownst to me
Is the woe
That plagues my soul
To infinity.

I've not lost yet,
Her, the game of Life, none of it.
I may have lost my friend,
And I may be changing,
But i know I'll be proud and
Happier to be me.

I know she will be too

Can I say why i love you still?
I can give you many reasons, I could write tomes of devotion, series spent on your eyes,
But, I love you unconditionally,
It took time, it wasn't instant, it was tried and tested.
I love you as you are.
No if, ands, or buts.
I love you for you, my perfect person

Who were you with
When you kissed my lips
So unhappily nights ago?

My sea-foam beauty
Your smile, lovely
Just like every
Wave of the sea

It isnt just you
I've lost my brother
My family
Ignores my cries.

My friends abandoned
Me to go be happy
But you have stayed
By my side.

Thank you.

I know my poems
Will descend further
Into the dark
Recesses of my mind.

I will stay
The blade from striking.
May this match
Never come to light.

Do i have power?
Don't read this poem.
My lovely dove
My saving grace.

I don't want you
To know my sorrow.
I want to see
Your smile grace your face.

I want to watch your
Cheeks get reddened
Just like they did
Not long ago.

I want your embrace
I need your medicine
Oh Ambrosia,
Stay my hand.

I am not worthy
Of your love to me.
I am not worth
All your time.

I am nothing,
I feel so empty,
No one deserves
My sorrow.

I'm cleaning around my room
And I feel the energy shifting.
The cool breeze entering
Through the open doorway.

It is an omen
A pray for today.
Right ruddy is the face
Whose eyes stare upon my home
With a clear mind
And an open heart.

I made grand promises
Of what I'd do
To those that use
And manipulate you
My beauty, my love, my soul.

I don't know anymore
Who you truly love
And if I'm actually
The center of your world.

I will not cut
Even if i want to
Even if I wish
I had died

Those months ago,
Just a year and half month
I almost
Took my life.

Please dont worry
I cannot leave you,
My soul would never
Forgive itself.

But those long cuts
They had a meaning
My sorrow
Has culminated in pain.

Do not blame yourself
For my poor judgement.
You dont blame me
For you leaving.

So please dont blame yourself
For all my sorrow
In the end
Youre still my light.

This cup was not
passed by me, but to me
And the vinegar inside
Is justly deserved.

I was not enough
To heal the wound
Telling her that
I am not worthy of her love.

Reading your poems
Brings my heart
Joys unseen

The **** should've been the reason
But I could look past
The rock and Crystal,
But not for any longer.

I do NOT become friends with adulterers.
I am no friend of a cheater.
Your girl better be proud
Of the ******* you've become.

I will not be afraid
To speak my mind
And to shout my heart's love

Countless questions
With no more answers,
Yes and no
Written in her eyes.

Time will tell, dear
If my wishes come true.
Neither answer
Will stay my heart.

Yes or no, dear,
Can come in winter.
Whether this one
Or the next, or the last.

No more pain
And no more sorrow.
Time to make your
Smile shine bright.

What must I do?
Here is my list:
Make sure your attention
Is focused on her.
Love her fully, but show it this time
And don't let her hide her feelings.
Do not hide yours,
No matter if you end up hurt,
It's already happened once,
I know you'll love. I know you'll live.

Talk daily, call her, treat her just as she is viewed in your heart.
In the end, you'll still make her feel like the most important person in the world.

That is what matters the most right now

God looked upon the glory he made,
And, Lord, did he get jealous.
He formed every being in heaven,
And yet He made you the most stunning.

He's watched you grow, evolve, and change,
And He's jealous of the happiness you give me
That He couldn't.

You make the Heavens envious!
For they know their beauty
Is nothing compared
To you, oh Muse.
Oh bright shining, radiant being,
The Tears of God are shed for thee!

Fell for pine eyes,
Dressed in red, my sorrow,
Oh stricken down thy arms and thighs,
Never forget i'm the pine in his eyes.

I cannot be used,
Nor can I be loved
And both of these, fine with me.

I cannot fill the void,
Made inside this pine,
So I shall cut down the whole tree.

Make a stump
Prepare it well
And transfer up a sapling

Let this be Love
It be my faith
And let it grow from my dead body

I will keep trying
I don't know why i am
I forgive myself
I guess

Today begins the slow build
The magnificent path,
The Great Work.
Our break, needed.
The path we're on, so lovely.

Thank you, Honeybee.
You're my world

Dont mind me
When I make a promise
In your name.

I'd use God's
But I know, with yours,
I can stand by it easier

I miss you so, dear.
I pray that we speak
Before I have got to go.

Work will be long
Like any other night
But its longer without you

I ache, my muscles
And skin torn and worn.
My night and morning
All spent towards betterment
Of the self
Even if I learned
Through harm

I cannot believe
My body can ache
From the wrath i cause myself.

Leave me alone
Oh tormenting mind
And free me from my cell.

Remove me from temporal gain,
Eleviate my need for joy.
**** my soul, destroy me whole
And keep me as I was.

Let Bede die today
Let me awake without breath
Please don't worry
I will be okay
You know who you are

I hope, even though he said no,
That you are made happy.
Dont let anyone hurt you
Dont sacrifice yourself
Dont be like me
And wait for nothing

May tonight mark a new beginning
The marks i left on my skin
Are no more to me
Than obstacles.

You, oh sovereign, reign with me over the world.
I meant every word I said tonight,
May my love forever ve heard.

My dearest friend, oh sweet lovely dear
Romance may not be our goal,
But the road of the everlasting
Is paved with the  stones of friendship!

I can't believe
I'll never feel
Your lips against mine again