There are days
Days when I can’t stand the world
I hate everyone, I hate myself
Some days I beat depression
But mostly it kicks my ***
I wish I could be normal
I don’t even remember what that feels like
Once upon a time I was happy
Some days I’m optimistic
But mostly I find myself being realistic
I wish I could just be normal
But what is normal anyway
Some days I fall apart
But mostly I do a good job keeping it all together
I really wish I was normal
Or at least felt like I wasn’t just an insignificant grain of sand
That was forced to work to live
Some days I hate the system
Because I really hate the system
I really wish I could change the system
But I really can’t change the system.

Woke up to a full moon
Middle of the twilight
Why am I feeling so eerie
The light from the sun
Reflecting off the moon
Brightening the land
With it’s cool rays
Beaming off the same energy
Without the heat
Little things like that confuse me
They make me question
The perfection in our creation
The way the moon orbits
Our planet
We only see one face
the dark side
Is a mystery
Why this planet filled with misery
We read each other’s skin
Like a resume
They way they dress
The way they look
We are quick to assume
But we dont realize we are doomed
They pit us against each other
And like sheep we are hurded
we are toys played with by puppets
since we were young
we have been brainwashed
by the system
we learn from books
that get thinner every year
i see things everyday that make me question where i stay
But I got a ball and chain
Debt keeps holding on to me
I want to run away
But it weighs too much for me to move
Work everyday
Still can’t make ends meet
Modern day plantation
Through time some things stay the same
I wonder if there even is a way to stop them.

Her lips tasted like candy
She was a ray of the sun
That shined so very brightly
I wish I could have held her forever
When she walked away it saddened me
I went in a craze
I don’t think I can live without my baby
I just want to be there for forever
Watching her closely
Gently caressing her soul
I wish I could be the one
Though I know she deserves better
don’t know what is wrong with me
broke her little heart
I should have pushed her away
From the start
Before she fell for me
But I let her in
Then I kicked her out
That became routine
Over and over and over again
Till she finally walked away
I guess I’m glad
I truly wish
she could find someone better
Alone I lay weeping in the shadows
Thinking of how different things could be
But of all the things I’ve loved and lost
It’s been etched into my soul
Love comes and goes
And it hurts so much when it goes
So don’t fall in love my friends
It will save you some heartache
Cause everything eventually goes
From her life I will fade away
But my heart won’t seize to ache

My face is a mask
I use to hide my feelings
No one ever sees the sadness
No one ever sees the pain
Cloak it all with just a grin
All my struggles
Tossed into this bottomless pit
I created to store unwanted feelings
A vessel on autopilot
Systematically completing my daily tasks
Fake smiles to the fake people
Tried to numb the bad
Now I don’t know good
No longer know the difference
Life is just plain.