Austin

Austin Sep 1

Somehow it feels
I've been misplaced
Shouldn't be here now
Wishing I had been there then
Somehow it feels
I've been replaced
Can't be there now
Praying I'll be there then

Austin Aug 30

Completely Incomplete

Half of me
Wants to change
Half of me
Wants a dose
Half of me
Needs to be better
Half of me
Needs to feel worse
All of me
Knows what I am
But I only feel like
Half of me

Austin Aug 29

No Grace for the Dead

When I die,
I don't want anybody,
to speak at my funeral.
I don't want anybody to tell lies,
just for the sake,
of my posthumous appearance.

Austin Aug 27

burnt

***** me out
as if i am no more
than a coal
that you're afraid will
restart the fire
you loved the flames
but now that
it is all subsiding
better to stomp
me into the ground
drown me in
water i can't breathe in

Austin Aug 27

Harvested

Do you feel love
When you're alone
Or is it just me
Cause you know
That I can't leave
You still thrive
In my heart to this day
But in yours
I'm just another
Body and soul
Left to decay

Austin Aug 24

Is The Water Still?

I say that I have made peace with my past,
But have I really?
Or have I pushed it to the depths of my mind,
In an attempt to never acknowledge it?

Austin Aug 24

Two-Bit Man

Confronting the words
    That dictate my headspace
The same ones that make me
      Feel as if I do not belong here
           To look at a bottle of pills
               Hoping they would just fall
                    Right down my throat
                       So I could say I didn't do it
The same ones that make me
          Feel as if I am not enough
                  And never will be
                       So I entertain ideations
                             And wonder, why not?