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Amanda Kay Burke Mar 2019
I am broken without a doubt
Something necessary not switching on
Destroyed my heart, wrecked my brain,
Now every ounce of hope is gone

I thought I had managed to fix myself
It only lasted so many days
My chest opened right back up
Organs in a state of decay

Slowly killed by chaos within
Feel lucky to have made it this far
The brink of unawareness
Healing wounds into scars

I am a survivor of heartbreak
Pretend my injuries are repaired
For no apparent reason other than
In case an observer stares

I am a little chipped, a bit bent,
Scared I'll completely shatter
Keep waiting for someone to show me
My ugly parts do not matter

That I am cracked but still magnificent
Imperfect, yet someone's first choice
Scrapes on self-esteem and knees
Will not change lungs or the sound of my voice

Mind racing my body
Palms sweaty from the exercise
Heart pounding, pulse sped up,
Suffocating fears become larger in size

The marks on my body do not make me weak
Regardless of what you may think
They are reminders of my strength on days
I stayed afloat; it was easier to sink

I've tried permanently mending
A thousand sampled antidotes
In my attempts to soothe with medication
Just keep layering on the coats

Sometimes when I am really hurting
Words held back break loose
Each falling out of my brain and landing
On paper eases years of abuse

But it is hard to explain how I truly feel
I'm drowning in a sea of grey
Numb myself, halt my fears,
You're done with efforts to make me stay
It feels unfinished...
Amanda Kay Burke Oct 2018
Tell me what you expected
All the stress became too much
I thought I was strong enough to handle
Sadness breaking when we touch

The memories are tainted now
Frame after frame, pictures taken
Showing same smiles we've always had
But looking back pain awakens

Can't help but pick apart each scene
Stare at our frozen expressions
Trying to figure what really went on
After burning fateful make-out sessions

I guess I will never know
Probably less agony that way
Think I rub salt into my own wounds
Reopen them every dreaded day

Haven't I suffered enough?
Accepted much heartache at your hand?
Never thought we would be here today
I don't expect you to understand

It was my fault you thought I wouldn't leave
Allowed you to push me aside, disjoint
Of course you were sure I'd stay forever
But each person has a breaking point
I never thought I would reach mine
Amanda Kay Burke Mar 2019
I am no longer mad at you
I forgave you a long time ago
I just know you will never change
That's why I had to let you go
I am not mad at you. I am just tired.
Amanda Kay Burke Sep 2021
I hate how I'm wrapped around your finger
It's beginning to take a toll
****** into your vacuum
Like you're a ******* hole

Fantasies won't be fulfilled
I love to daydream anyway
Like a bad habit I can't seem to drop
I crave you every single day

Yes I know it's pointless
And only makes wounds bleed
But I can't get over the notion
That I am who you truly need

I smoke a bowl of Mary Jane
These days she's my only friend
Giving me comfort when it gets hard
But still it doesn't help me mend

It's like earth is set on torturing me
Because everywhere I look
I see pieces of what we had
In each cranny and every nook

And you'll come back to haunt me
Emptiness what I hate the most
Wish that I knew how to move on
Exorcise your residual ghost

It's difficult to accept this is real
Give up on all our wasted plans
It's good to hear you are happy
Don't know why I give a ****

I'm tumbling downhill at dangerous speeds
Headed straight for hell
I'm sure that you won't catch me
You're the reason that I fell

I wake up with a headache
Medicate as soon as my day starts
This bottle of ibuprofen
Doesn't soothe pain in my heart

I find my will getting weaker
But conceal emotions inside
And you know the moment's inevitable
When my feelings grow too strong to hide

I try to maintain composure
But my organs burn with dismay
It's only a matter of time
Til I admit I'm not okay
Amanda Kay Burke Dec 2020
I am not very good at being a friend
Am not always there by your side
I can promise to be there til the end
No matter how bumpy the ride
Amanda Kay Burke Apr 2018
Quivering, afraid of the pain,
A stalking predator ready to tear me apart,
I cannot control my emotional beasts,
They continue to claw their way through my heart
Sometimes i feel like my crazy feelings are tangible living creatures. I know that sounds nutty but in a metaphorical sense. I am hunted by fear and frustration.
Amanda Kay Burke May 2018
I am sorry I never know
Correct words to say to change your mood
You need me now and I fail completely
Every morning I wake with an attitude

Hunger sits inside my soul
I am scared one day of spiraling down
Out of reach, then my demons
Will whisk me under wicked waves to drown

I tell my heart to stay afloat
Swim even harder for you, I, and we
Kick cruel devils, keep treading water
I barely have head above this miserable sea
We are still afloat, and that is what's important
Amanda Kay Burke Apr 2020
When the universe seems to be falling apart
And I have somehow lost my way
It is you that picks me off the ground
Providing an enticing escape

This place where I always run
Try to avoid it
(With no luck)
There's no obstacle my heart can't conquer
To your side stupidly stuck

A powerful magnet heart is drawn to
Through dense brick walls thick and wide
Feeling force of gripping fingers
Beckoning to your side

Maybe world is against us
We're doomed to be destroyed
Made of flesh not concrete or steel
Help!
I'm tumbling into the void

I have become accepting of demise
Eyes of betrayed hope
One day will need you to be there
I am terrified you won't
It's crazy how you don't realize how much you need someone until, well, you need them.
Amanda Kay Burke Jun 2018
Unknowingly, I waited years,
It took sixteen, but the fears
I grew with of not finding out
What love is I now go without.

Since I felt your simple affection
I appear alive, my life has direction,
You showed me with you I don't have to be afraid,
With your help I've finally unbuilt this barricade.

I have grown dependent upon your strong arms,
Feel incomplete without familiar charms,
What would I do if I didn't have your embrace?
Your touch impossible to replace.

Love changed my life in a flash,
So quickly it caused whiplash,
It knocked my heart off-track, askew,
Now I am whole, because of you.
We have two lungs, two arms, two legs, and two eyes but only one heart. Why? Because we are meant to find the other.
Amanda Kay Burke Jul 2018
I blame you for the nightmares I experience
The thoughts that fill my weary head
I blame you for the teardrops that fall
The monsters underneath my bed

There was a time I was happy
That was before you left me here
I'm alone, all you've given me
Memories of a wonderful year

It is clear, I can see that you've moved on
No longer need my hand to hold
But wonder if I cross your mind
When stars are out and your bed feels cold

You are the reason things didn't work out
The one who wanted time apart
Now I am the only one in pain
I blame you for this broken mess of a heart
Blame doesn't do any good
Amanda Kay Burke Nov 2020
Make heart too heavy to hold
Beautiful thing to burst
Nobody else has the power
To break if you do first

Today the day to take control
It may be too late
Worried about romance failing
Proof of eventual fate

I am not just repeating words
A sock puppet limp and hollow
My opinions are my own energy
Do not trust other instinct to follow

Gentle reminder is not good enough
Gentle with only your hands
Let voice have authority over yourself
Answer no commands
I always always expect the worst to avoid disappointment. It's working out pretty good for me actually haha.
Amanda Kay Burke Mar 2021
You can say whatever you want
But that doesn't mean it's true
I suppose if the roles were reversed
I would have trouble admitting it too

Of course your memory differs
No two perspectives are the same
It was many years ago
So you are not to blame

But what you said weighed much more
On my ears than your own
I am not trying to make mountains out of molehills
My recollection is not overblown

It feels like it was yesterday
That those careless words left your lips
Even speaking them aloud now
Still stabs my self-esteem and rips

"With the way you are you deserve to die"
I am not making it up like you think
I did not misunderstand you
You didn't even stutter or blink

You did not say "You are gonna die"
Although I am sure that's what you meant
To summarize
I had it coming
That was pretty much the extent

You apologized right after
Realizing you were wrong
But the damage was already inflicted
Statement a little too strong

What hurts the most is you are honest
And only say things you truly believe
But when I analyze it you are correct
I beckon death with a push of my sleeve

So denial may have you fooled
But I can't forget what you said
And no matter how much I wish it wasn't so
Your comment will always remain in my head
To my dad
Amanda Kay Burke May 2018
I try to love life
But I cannot forgive it
For breaking my heart
I don't really like this one..
Amanda Kay Burke Feb 2019
Despite the way I try
I cannot help it
I like every little thing about you
I can't help falling in love with you
Amanda Kay Burke Jun 2022
I can't imagine what it's like
To wake up free of fear
And to be completely certain
I have a purpose here
Life would be so much easier
If the past would disappear
But I cant let go and the memories
Only seem to get more clear
Feel so stuck
Amanda Kay Burke Jul 2018
Know I should be looking forward
Excited for what future will bring
I just can't get over you
Still jump when I hear my phone ring

I am sure you're walking straight ahead
Don't have time to turn around
I call your name, you don't look back
Hesitate, you don't make a sound

I have never felt so vulnerable
Or insecure, shaking with fear
In my eyes you are still a hero
Too trusting and naive to see clear

Doesn't matter how much you hurt me
I do not care what you say or do
Can't imagine being happy
With any other person but you
Written 1-26-13
Amanda Kay Burke May 2019
Do you understand the immense love I have for you?
I must fight my feelings each day
Oh how I'd share your suffering if I could
Take it from you if there was a way

I just do not know if you get it
Wish I could explain better
Finding it hard to capture the expanse of my emotions
With punctuation marks and letters

I cannot love you a little
Don't hold the ability to shrink my heart
More desire fills beds each passing night
Increasing with the number of miles apart
It hurts when you have someone in your heart but cant have them in your arms
Amanda Kay Burke Jul 2018
You find yourself forgetting who I am
What about those nights wasted chasing a gram?
Do you keep memories by the side of regret?
Amongst expectations you never met

I was aching, you never seemed concerned
For a long time thought indifference was what I'd earned
Then you crushed every important dream and hope
You proved how much more you care about dope

This is the end, grey clouds are rolling coolly in
Reality stings, makes my head spin
Silent destruction I try to ignore
Can't make you go forward anymore
You cant make someone change
Amanda Kay Burke May 2018
Pain a reminder of all I have lost
A thousand pieces of myself I cannot replace
In their place grows steady frost
Inside is ice and empty space
Sometimes it feeks like all the good parts of me have frozen and now I am numb and cold inside.
Amanda Kay Burke Nov 2024
I cried earlier
I'm not sure why
Each tear will not change the fact you died
Under covers I sometimes pretend
You are not gone but the fantasy ends
When it is time to taste truth I feel sad
Silently scream cause I miss you so bad
Looking at photo I think of your embrace
Wishing I again could experience your lips on my face
Something shifted in soul the day you disappeared
Can't tell exactly what it is I just know I need you here
Hate the thought of stumbling through life without you year after year
Amanda Kay Burke Jun 2018
Didn't I make you happy?
Wasn't I there for you?
Am I not right here waiting,
After the pain you put me through?

I tried hard to be like you,
I wanted so badly to make you proud,
It looks like it was all in vain,
My knees are weak, head is bowed.

Who am I going to confide in now?
Who will be there to clutch my hand?
I have never taken you for granted,
Do you get why I can't understand?

Why do bad things happen
To people who deserve good things most?
I gave you the world hidden within me,
You left me with your empty ghost.

I am sure you're doing fine by yourself
While I'm hollow, yearning for your kiss,
I may not be the perfect girl,
I know I deserve more than this.
Written 1/4/13
Amanda Kay Burke Jul 2024
I never asked you to fall in love
Never begged to own heart
Chose to share your life for free
You want to be apart
I believe you are making a mistake
Something horrible you will regret
I assumed that what we shared was special
You passed up kinda love people rarely get
Me and you head over heels
I admit that much to be true
You're not who you made yourself out to be
I trust that the authentic version no one knew
Need to understand reasons
I imagine that if you explain why
Ran away from the world we built
My tears would slowly dry
IDK
Amanda Kay Burke Nov 2020
IDK
I need a dream to remind
There is someplace I should go
Future I should think about
Lately I don't know
An oldie I found browsing through my facebook memories
Amanda Kay Burke Aug 2021
I do not blame you for leaving
Understand why you bid me goodbye
I would not be with me either
If wearing your shoes instead of mine

Sometimes regret past decisions
That never lasts for long
If I would have changed them
Could turn out even more wrong

You are not faultless though
Bear your fair share of mistakes
Both contributed to downfall
With messes each of us makes

Have no clue how it happened
Cannot pinpoint source
Of relationship's demise
Still fills me with remorse

To relive one day with you
When we were at our very best
Would give up everything
To again lay my head on your chest

Be energy responsible
For making world go round
It will never be that way again
Pieces fallen to the ground

Gone are the plans we made
Promises
Dreams had
Swept away with the wind
All I own now is my pen and pad

To soothe pain I write it down
Words can't take it away
Like an infected cut memory festers
Just grow more used to it each day

Come to realization
You do not need me anymore
Better off without me
And the life built before

Back when first falling in love
Felt too good to be true
Perfection may have been real
Ended too soon as good things do

And I wanted badly to believe
All those precious words you said
Ignored my rationality
Listened to my heart instead

I was convinced we were meant to be
My search was permanently done
Although you no longer feel the same
To me you will always be 'the one'

It's better to love and lose
Than never to love at all
Even with the agony inside
Still grateful it was you I fell for Paul
Too much I want to say to you but never will
Amanda Kay Burke Oct 2018
I do not know what to say
To help you understand
You're the only guy I'd ever
Want to hold my faithful hand

I don't know what words to use
To make you amply see
You mean so much more
Than any other thing does to me

I cannot explain what you do to me
It's beyond the realm of what words can say
But despite the scary mystery
Would not want it another way

You are the answer to my prayers
Clique as this poem may sound
I never understood sappy quotes before
You flipped my life upside-down

Touched me and I realized
You were my destined counterpart
And that my world would never be the same
Forever you've altered my mind and my heart
Its crazy how one day someone walks into your life and nothing is ever the same again
Amanda Kay Burke Jul 2018
I do not know where to find happiness anymore
Unable to ignore this burning hole inside
I no linger enjoy activities that once brought pleasure
For unknown reasons my heart won't be satisfied

Stars seem dinner, losing shine
Scatter across the inky dim sky
Many beautiful corpses of suns
Yet each night I watch them drift by

Sick of this unquenchable thirst
Trying to regain joy lost
I'm smiling but inside I'm torn apart
Mouth laughing, but arms are crossed

Put on a mask to disguise my despair
Fell from a blissful staged fantasy
Cartwheeling deeper into uneasiness
My subtle discontentment is challenging to see

The woman I wish I could be is out of reach
I'm convinced it's too late to change my ways
A time once existed when I was proud of my decisions
I am forever yearning to revisit easier days
Written 5-21-18
Amanda Kay Burke Feb 2018
I don't want to love you anymore
But it's so hard to rearrange
I don't want to be a prisoner
To all these things I cannot change

I don't want to hurt, I don't want to cry
Or long for the sound of your voice
I don't want to live my life like this
You have left me with no other choice

I don't want to miss you every day
The way we kissed, your playful grin
I don't want to want to hold your hand
Or yearn for your lips to touch my skin

I don't want to feel sad all the time
Struggling each week to make it through
I don't want to lock myself in my room
Sobbing while clutching pictures of you

I'm a slave to my own emotions
And all the things we cannot be
I'm locked inside the pain I feel
You are the one who holds the key
Pain really is a prison
Amanda Kay Burke Nov 2018
I do not want to bring you down
I can't help you while I myself drown
I've made some bad decisions
Days are darkening with rapid precision
Tired under so much pressure
Sky collapses crushing pleasure
Feel every text you send
Smile but in reply I pretend
Wherever I go not thinking of you
Ball of longing in my throat for what we knew
Friends reassure I'm better alone
Thought that was true, I still obsess over my phone
I want to call often because I really care
Then you'd see my weakness so I don't dare
Trying each day to keep a safe distance away
You make it hard with each word you say
All I want is to be yours forever
Until I find myself we can't be  together
I need to figure out who I am and I hope you understand that this wasn't part of my plan I just don't think that I can be happy with a man until I learn to stand without a helping hand
Amanda Kay Burke Oct 2018
We go deeper than we realize
Memory of us bleeding pictures heavy
Endure a number of slices from words
To assure us we are very unsteady

My soul has not stopped shaking since
You set off the earthquake that destroyed
Any defenses in okay shape
Your ripples I tried to avoid

Is it wrong to say I wish we'd never become
Friends so I would not get caught in your net
Let you entice me with flattery
Today my feet aren't getting wet

Crumbling but cannot show cracks
Taking measures so you won't decode
The variety of contradicting statements
I eagerly continue to unload

Leftovers of our romance
Strange and out of place
Feels like we are actors
Or athletes in a race

Despite the villian you see me as
I am hurting beneath my skin
Do what you like with lonely days
Jealousy predestined to creep in

Poetry too honest for you
Been a critic at best
I have found negativity can motivate
Claimed strength put to test

See you and I struggle as well
You run, catch up to my heels
There's no way you can match my pace
Tired, I let you control the steering wheel

Know exactly the right buttons to press
Tempers over edge when we fought
Dream of forgetting your incredible name
In reality mind for some reason will not
I can't get you out of my mind even after all this time maybe i should have waited longer before we separated but i made a rushed decision on your heart left an incision, im now haunted by regret and memories i cant forget, maybe there's a reason my heart won't set you free, is it possible somehow we are still meant tto be?
Amanda Kay Burke Jul 2018
Fell into the ocean
Swimming in deep blue eyes
Then it started storming
Waves took me by surprise

The floorboards and bedposts
Became soaked with rain
In the midst of the downpour
We were left with pain

A girl who did not know how
To be strong, she was alone
The boy whose love for her
All he'd ever known
Written 1-28-15
Amanda Kay Burke Nov 2018
I poured my heart out for you on these pages
Does that prove I am better than the rest?
If I spelled each serious word carefully placed with purpose
Would you care I plucked them straight from my chest?

Dangling from pride by flimsy feeble strings
Pathetic pieces float uncertain and shaking
Hastily tied them to my heart as they arose
Now those timid concerns and domesticated woes are mine for the taking

I keep them close to use only when needed
To project palaces or prisons for my protected thoughts
One by one I pull emotions from inner walls
And other tucked away hiding spots

They burrow further as suffering increases
Yet no matter how deep they dig
I still hear their mournful muffled hum
In my eardrums starting small then growing big

That is the twisted key to my success
Smiling as I spill secret sorrow
Taking others to a place seldom seen
Boundless heights that will move tomorrow

Unburdened yet incomplete without these emotions
Only seem to flourish in fear or agony
I summon these wild feelings from my soul
To show exactly what you mean to me
I can never express the extent of my love for you
Amanda Kay Burke Oct 2018
Gaze upon your sleeping figure
Wonder where I went wrong
How can I love you so deeply
If in your arms I don't belong?

How come goosebumps rise
When I hear or think of your name
Yet with your face inches away from mine
Our love just doesn't feel the same?

How can my eyes look and see
Perfection from bottom to top
But feel magnetic attraction fading
Powerless to make it stop?

How can I rely on you for such
An enormous portion of my happiness
If every token of generosity
Makes me worth less and less?

How is every sincere compliment able
To spill from your mouth true and clear
When we are both aware you deserve better?
I don't match the adjectives poured in my ear.

How did our easy conversation
Turn to spontaneous spiteful fight?
Understanding somehow replaced with animosity
At least we still share words late into the night.

How can I be chilled by a trace of fear
Tagging along with excitement up my spine?
How is darkness tainting all we know
Yet one touch from you and I'm fine?

How am I able to hate part of you
While loving the rest with all my heart?
How am I distant when you are around
Then miss you very much when we're apart?

How can my brain worship your image
After the extensive damage you've done?
If you cause me to to feel my absolute lowest
How could I still believe you are the one?

Lay beside your body wishing
To be close like we were before
How can I yearn so strongly for your embrace
If we don't feel right anymore?
How can feelings so strong fade into resentment?
Amanda Kay Burke Jun 2020
If love was not hard
It would not be rewarding
Trophies must be earned
It wouldn't be a prize if anyone could win it
Amanda Kay Burke Apr 2018
I do forgive you.
That doesn't mean I will let
You hurt me again.
You can forgive someone and still not trust them.
Amanda Kay Burke Apr 2018
Let us live our life
Like it will end soon
Finally break free from
Our old comfortable cocoon

Make the absolute most
Of what we have right now
It might disappear in the near future
Before we figure out how

With 24 short hours
To use in a day's time
Why not go crazy?
Commit a useless crime

It is like an illusion
The way I feel
It is hard to distinguish
What is not real

If the world ends
In the next ten minutes or so
If you know I love you
It is okay to go
Another really old one
Amanda Kay Burke Mar 2018
I am aware each breath might be my last
I'm careless with them though
If tragedy strikes and I die today
There are a few things I need you to know

You are the best I've ever had
You are not mine anymore
Better than highs from any drug
Ever readily ingested before

You changed me completely inside
The way I think; how my heart beats
I lost my confidence somewhere
Amidst folds of your tangled sheets.

I will always treasure moments
Spent together the most
I screenshotted every sentimental
Romantic Instagram post

I kept every present you bestowed
My tie-dyed hoodie and stuffed bear
Cherish each gift, though they make it
Impossible to pretend you did not care

You taught me to understand
The broken, fallen, and dark
By helping me to become that myself
A lesson that left a substantial mark

You showed me how to laugh through fear
I remember that tip every other day
You knew there was happiness to find
Even when skies were cloudy and grey

In your arms I learned to open up
Gave my secrets, shadows, and scars to you
Unlocked the door to vulnerable parts
Of my soul. That took courage to do

Thank you for being there to care
Loving me despite my worst
Most of the time I was put second
I could tell you wanted me to come first

Betrayal made me understand
How brave it is to forgive
Holding tight to bitter resentment
Is not the way to peacefully live

You proved to me it is possible
To overcome certain defeat
If two people put forth 100%
They will get up when knocked off their feet

The most profound thing discovered
Thanks to memories you left in my brain
Is when you meet the right person
The love you feel is worth every bit of pain
Tell them how you feel
Amanda Kay Burke Apr 2018
Maybe if we could
Actually be friends the end
Would not be so bad
But we will never be just friends.
Amanda Kay Burke Feb 2019
Someone once told me that people
Who are truly meant to be together will
Always find eachother in the end
How come I'm waiting for you still?
People who are meant to be together always find a way in the end
Amanda Kay Burke Dec 2018
I am sorry for the way I handled our problems
All the screaming and throwing around blame
How I gave into your darkness so easily
Should have conquered your demons, instead one more I became.

I cannot deny you led the way
I should have tried harder to turn you around
At least looked where we were going
Instead of keeping eyes trained on the ground.

It wasn't simple at the time to see
My eyes heavy with denial and yours with shame
I desperately needed you to be the answer
Instead of a go-to scapegoat to bear all our pain

I do not want you to think it's all your fault
I do not want you to look like the bad guy
Don't want to be enemies from now on
I'm begging our egos to let grudges die.

Do you really believe I don't care?
You would realize if you opened your eyes
It's plainly written in my poetry
Love simple to read in pages and lines.

It's hard to say who ****** up more
Even when your regrets die mine will live
My heart was too easy of a target
Stolen before I had the chance to give

Every day mistakes kept adding up
I was distracted by your smile
They became heavy weights our shoulders couldn't bear
We collapsed after a few more bitter miles.

I should have seen the outcome coming
Should have noticed your eyes lose that spark
I'm sorry I couldn't save us, tried to show you the light,
When I failed my soul also was engulfed by the dark.
I guess i thought my inner warmth could unfreeze your heart but your darkness was stronger..
Amanda Kay Burke Apr 2024
If you aren't comfortable
On throne you sit striking a pose
Stand by me instead
If not liking the life you chose

Wrong decisions catch up
Sort it out best as we can
If you do not enjoy the direction you're going
With me make a different plan

For none of trespasses
Hurt enough to stop my love
Join me in my bed once more
Something that I'm dreaming of

If you do not love her like you love me
Lie by me and talk
I'll tutor with honest advice
Teach which thoughts to block

I'll walk with wherever you roam
Even take the lead
Tell you how special you are
Help you with whatever you need

If you hold me in your arms
Will not let you down
Give you everything she does
Make you smile when you frown

If you don't picture futures with her
On mind when you're in bed
It is safe to say she's not the one
If you cannot get me out of your head
Amanda Kay Burke Dec 2020
If you knew how deeply I love you
Amount of pain you have made me bear
Would fall to your knees in tears
Full of regret that you pretended to care
You may care a little but not like I care about you
Amanda Kay Burke Jan 2018
If you don't know I love you by now,
I do not know what else I can do.
There is only so many times,
One human can say the words "I love you."
Short and to the point haha. I appreciate all feedback positive or negative!
Amanda Kay Burke Apr 2019
Why are you still playing games?
We are a bit old for that now
Is it possible you're still the same?
I would fix you but I don't know How

Crazy how we were once young
Thought the thrill would last forever
Dwelling on past moments and songs we sung
Not understanding why we aren't together

I feel you bend the rules
Every time I catch your tricks
You make of me a fool
Doing it just for kicks

Maybe there's a good reason
For your net of make-believe
Wondering if you get the severity of your treason
You sure don't understand what it means to grieve

You process sadness like a child
Do not say you want to die
Parts of our personalities have been defiled
But not those we try to deny

You are capable of playing fair
If you did I'd participate
Choose to keep cheating and see how you fare
Pretty sure you're aware of your fate

You had almost won not just the round
But the whole ******* game
Right before the victor was crowned
You were forced to resign with shame
Playing around here a little with metaphors
Amanda Kay Burke Nov 2020
There is no happiness if you are not here
You took the sun with you when you went away
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