Wish I was your stars
wish I was the moon

No not today
I can't be
not for a second

Can't give myself fully to you
I'm a half moon

I want to give myself to you
Don't take it personal
I'm a mess

I wish I was complete

Love the sun
Love the clouds

You can't love me
I'm a half moon

To the ocean
To the skies

I'm a half moon
I could never give myself fully to you

leonardo, michelangelo, bramante
i’m drowning in my chair in the back
of this art history class that has an
unfortunate association with you
in my stupid brain and the way
the high renaissance style reminds me of
my life when you         (when you, cared)
i painted the walls in shot color
the pinks and dark reds shined
through my cheeks, did you know
how much i cared?
or that raphael left perugino out
of his most famous painting
hanging on the walls of the vatican
and now his memory is fading
like i wish you would.
i excavate my brain every day
trying to find the reason why
why i care so ******* much.
why you could **** and bury your feelings
with ease like they were never real
were you even real?
or did i dream up your laugh
while sitting in the corner of my room,
combining feathered pillows and laundry beads
with wax from my favorite candle and there you are
born in my brain like an invasive species choking my veins
gasping for air as we watched the stars
in your driveway or maybe it was pompeii.
it felt like standing in ruins
i watched the things our brains can’t say cut
through the stone falling around our bodies.
did you notice everything we destroyed?
i could have flooded the colosseum
with the tears i held back
i wish you cared
i wish you knew
that i write poetry about the things you love
because you said you’d make me love it too
                              but i learned without you

I turned myself into you
I hope you like me now

Do you watch the moon rise and fall

I'm waking up at dawn
to see the fog

I dreamed tonight
I wanna move
or fly

I dreamed last night
It felt like magic
I can't stop
sleeping

Dreaming of a paradise

Tomorrow isn't so exciting
I just want to sleep tonight

Dream a life I can't have

I've got a crayon in my hand,
a color for every lost syllable
There's a brightly scribbled drawing
to make my mouth and head reconcilable

"Most of my life I liked to play
with the lights that fell from the sky
though they died within a day."

Vacant eyes and a simple personality
"... I thought there was only ever me."
and she says it in a voice so flat
I pulled her body against my own
"Now you're not alone."
She asks, "what's that?"


Hey sir, you're so unusual.
Mister? I think you're beautiful!

My dear, you seem so magic
but, my love, you're just so tragic

There's so much you don't know
so much you've never been shown
..but you don't seem to care

It's something I've never seen
Now it's suddenly surrounding me
These lights are everywhere!

Gorgeous! Gorgeous! Light fragments!
They're my stars (My affections!)
Gorgeous, I think they're so gorgeous!
Whatever they are
Excuse my corrections.

"Mister? I think this is kind of unusual."

"Well, yeah, but don't you think it's beautiful?"

...

I want to drive the night away
chase the horizon

everywhere I go the ocean follows me
I step into the waves

I wish I could sleep tonight
sleep forever

I dreamed of an angel

I dreamed I killed you
I hope it doesn't come true

we can't see what's ahead
with the sun

cause everywhere I go
the see the water
step into a wave

I'm lost in the ocean

I want to drive the night away
with you

stepping into the moon's reflection
I wish I had a reason to stay