Sitting around all day drinking without a soul to touch
I've been sitting here spinning and thinking that my last drink was too much
Roaming around the house looking for friends that I can't find
I've been going to and from getting lost in the maze that is my mind
I've been crawling around the floor soaking up all the dirt and grime

You are what you are, you have to accept that. You are your scars and your bruises and the organs under your fat. You are the breath that you pull in, and you are the breath that you push out. You are the warmth of thinking about friends that you can't live without. You are everything you are meant to be, and if you'd just open your heart you'd be able to see, that everything you are is beautiful to me

I see them now and then, those ancient idols tower over me
They've been there for quite some time, but mostly they've been covered behind a curtain of clouds
I wanted with all I had just to give praise to them, but my burdened brain said I was not allowed

Oh my heart, why do you do what you do to me? You make me so hard to get and...

so easy to be forgotten

Please step back into my light
My only wish is to set this right
Bruised and misused
You
Bored and confused
Me
Swirling and twirling straight into our end
We both let go but continued to pretend
Blaming the other for the average of our failure
I said she had abandoned me
She said I was wrong and just couldn't see
But what I heard was enough
She became the enemy
I continued spinning into a twister of hate
She went back to the ******* that she used to date
And yet we were still the same
Filled with feelings we can't tame
Nobody understands it if we try to explain
We shared a bond, fusing mutual pain

It's more different now than it ever was. I can't find the reason but I know the cause. it was you and me, we did it to ourselves, left behind the cabinet for a spot on the shelf, but this ledge can't support us both, I think it's time for you to go. I was here first, this is all I know, I'm sorry but I won't let it show

I desire a mouthful of fire
I need to bleed bliss
I require a bed made of pyre
I want more than this

Oh cast away eyes, how much of me can you see today
Oh volcanic heart, how quickly will you burn me away
Oh contemptuous course, how far will you allow me to stray
Oh shallow songs, how many more must you make me play

Tell me how does a man take his life and make something more of it,
And how does a man ever take a wife and not get bored with it

Oh starlight, oh starbright, oh only dot in my sky, why are you so heavenly high, why are you so frustratingly far? Why don't you come down here, because I just can't reach where you are

The point of these words is growing duller by the letter, and all I need right now is something sharp enough to cut the tension filling my fingers

You make me forget what the point of this is. I've become as dull as the razor blades that you used to use upon your wrists, so I can barely leave a mark that won't be forgotten or still felt tomorrow, and I know if I walk away there's no reason you would ever want to follow

What do I need
Is it a verse, something romantic and clever
Or is it an epic, once in a lifetime endeavor
Would a simple, yet short and heartfelt confession do it
Or would the awkward silence break me, as I stare into your eyes knowing that I already knew it
I had a chance, but still I ******* blew it
Maybe its all in just being myself
But if its something special I could use a little help

I need a gutter to spill my heart into,
But I don't think it can ever be you

I just want you to know,
though we aren't very close,
I wish you didn't have to go

Do you remember when we used to fly
And we never thought that we would die
Before we fell from the sky
Do you remember you and I
Above the clouds we climbed and dipped
Never worrying that we would slip
Together we glided towards calm shores
Do you remember when I was yours

I can't control my love
it goes wherever it wants
Whether I myself am wanted there or not
It gets me caught in tight situations
like when I run into you in town
I can't keep seeing you around
Because whenever I do, I get the urge to reach out and capture you
I try to keep my eyes away, but in those moments my heart has all the say
I really hope I don't see you today
Because when I do you'll look the other way
I wish I could get a leash, tie up my heart and never release it
I wish I could break myself, and then rebuild with all the pieces
I'd build a wall nearly twenty feet tall, just to keep me away from them all
All the ones i want to love, the ones that will leave me undone
I'll lock my heart inside a cage, and there it'll stay until I come of age
When im mature enough to love without obsessing
When im smart enough to love without *******

This heart is beating and it stops all the time
Any time I think of you I hit the flatline
But maybe someone else can restart the rhythm
Because I can't keep beating for you if you won't even listen

Fake it, fake it, fake it
Pretend it doesn't hurt
Just let her think you're dead
Let her cover you with dirt
Fake it, fake it, fake it
Don't let that pain get through
Lay your head upon her feet
Lie to yourself like you always do
Fake it, fake it, fake it
Don't get yourself too close
And know my friend that if you do
You'll be left with just her ghost

The truth that I refuse to reveal
I'd rather feel pain so at least I know I'm real
I'll take my place at the tips of your feet
Kick me while I'm down, don't let me fall asleep
Should I slip into a slumber, my hopes and dreams will take me under
I'll awake in rage and confusion
Convinced to believe in this delusion
Mad enough to attempt this solution
We both know this is not a resolution

The solitary sink where my soul can swim
The single state I can survive in
The remote reason for me to roam
The ringing reality I reap from home
The fleeting feeling of forgotten feasts
The frantic results of frivolous feats

I either drink to much or think to much, no space in between
I neither control myself nor anybody else, can't do anything I mean
I'll kick you or kiss you, it all depends how you act
I'll love you or loathe you, those are the facts
If you tell me Monday that I won't see you tomorrow, I'll feel forgotten again
I'll sit til Sunday waiting for you, but you won't be there in the end

My love is ***** with malicious intent
My love is cheap enough to be free to borrow
My love is a poison your body still seeks

My love is pure in my honest attempt
My love is affluent and can absorb all of your sorrow
My love is the cure to all that makes you weak

I try to be something, most often I'm not
I used to be someone, who I am forgot
I can be nothing, its still more than I've got
I think I'm no one, don't ever tell me I'm not
The only reason I've made it at all
I've faked my way through every fall
I pretended i could hold a presence
Every action and every word, used to keep hold of my world
Abandon the truth
Forget the past
There is no proof
Just make this last

Let it rip, sink into me
Tell me how you hate what you see
Tear me apart, don't hold back
Let me hear the truth, let your heart attack
If you don't have anything nice to say, let it out and I won't turn away
I'll take it in stride
I want to know what you're holding inside

This instability is killing me
These thoughts I can't control
Eroded by emotions, I can't get out
All the words choking my throat

I'm not satisfied by my passion
I'm not content with my efforts
Because still, I can't accomplish anything
Except for making sure you hurt

I'm reaching for a reaction
I'm clawing for a cause
All in all, I guess it's time to end this
There will be no final applause
There will be no curtain calls

I let myself get ****** in so swiftly
Just so I can try to be part of someone else's whole, because there's too much empty space in my own to ever complete my soul

The sirens are singing such violent songs, signaling that once again I have done wrong. My mind has been breached, my shores are not calm, but what can I do to silence their calls? They speak in poetry, metaphors for the harm that I've caused, and I can't understand their verse. My ears hear their words but my thoughts refuse to follow along. My actions show that I have not learned a single **** truth from the last time that I was burned, and all I can think is how good it would feel, to be fire again and know that I am real. I can create but I cannot touch the realities, yet when it comes to destruction I can ruin with comfort and ease, I **** every piece of the world that I see

just for once, maybe I'd be the reason you've been sick awake at night. Keep thinking no one's got you, I'll be here waiting patiently til you give me the right

You are what adds flourish to the light and dark, you are what gives either their meaning

You are everything and everywhere, there is no escape

Only you are left to be found when all else is dark

It's a really stupid feeling, one born of ignorance, coated with a seal of denial and faked zeal, wrapped in a pretty box of the the finest failures  you've ever seen, all tied off with a bow, made of the greatest compromise to life that's even been known, and it's for you, so I hope you like it

Hope you had a splendid  trip into the new year.
I know I did.
But still I wish you'd have been here.

Oh please tell me, scream it out, can you see me toiling to make sense, can you hear me foiling myself with ignorance. Oh please tell me, is there any other way to escape, is there any reason to have hope, is there any more that I can do to convince myself I should not love you.

I'd rather drown beneath your ocean than live upon dry land
I'd rather starve through your famine than eat from any other hand
I'd rather be lost in your desert than find myself alone
I'd rather sleep beneath your bridges than have the comfort of any other home
Because without you, life makes no sense
And I would rather suffer by your side, than spend my time in ignorance

There is no more hope, I've run out of faith. I don't want to see you, or remember the lines of your face. I've felt this before, and I know of nothing worse. I don't believe in saviors, I know I'm bound to this curse. My love is all I have, and I have so much to share. It's such a shame my friend, that you won't let me be there. I only want too much, and I know that it's a sin. There's nothing I can do, just cry as my mind endlessly spins.

What does it say about you that the only love you've truly known, was thrown from your hand like a skipping stone
And what does it say of me that the stone has made its way back to shore, as if it was begging to be thrown once more
Next time you must toss it with such wicked strength, it will have no choice but to lay where you watched as it sank
And though all stones may eventually return to shore, the stones that return are still smaller than before

Every time I look up to the sky, the clouds fall and wash away everything but I
Nothing matters to me, except for the fears I hold and the lies that I believe
Life is such a joke, and everybody's laughing as I struggle to hold onto a shred of hope

For the longest time I kept my head above the waves and my feet stuck in the sand, but now your sea levels are rising, swallowing every place that I could try to hide, and I don't think I have it in me to keep swimming through your tide. I'm not ready to sink beneath this, but I no longer have a choice, so before my lungs fill with water, I need you to hear my voice.

There was nothing I wanted more, than to simply rest on the crest of your shore. All I needed was to lay upon your sandy space, and feel your spray splash onto my face. But now that your tide has taken my beach, washed over all that I used to see, there's no place I can go to be free. All I can do is let your current carry me in its hands, because I'd rather drown beneath your ocean than live upon dry land

No longer will we let ourselves be burried beneath the lives we've built
No more will we sit burdened by the weight of fear or guilt
Never again will we be halted from progressing past the sinking silt
We will expose ourselves and let them all see our skin of gilt
We will spread our light upon the world from atop our towering stilts
We will take the world we know and we will make it rebuilt

Hello friend, how are you
I'd really like to talk, just us two
We can chat for hours about the mundane and trivial
And maybe express our feelings over tomorrows morning cereal

Ring goes the bell, triggering my mind
Ring goes the bell, moving down the line
Motions exploding, emotions corroding
Mountains crumble, elephants stumble
Breaking down, all the same
Breaking down, push them away
Can't fake it
can't take it
Wasting my time
Waiting in line
Ring goes the bell, every thirty seconds
Ring goes the bell, the voice always beckons

I can't walk alone with you if you're gonna wear your clothes beautifully like that, and if you don't mess up your hair real quick I think I'm gonna snap. I can't look at you if you're gonna strut with all you got, and don't you flash your eyes at me or I'll have to gouge them out

Your disease, it will evolve
Take new shape, then dissolve
Around your world it will revolve
Its a problem you can't solve

Die you demon, yes die you disaster
I can't find clarity, I can't even control my conscience
Solvent of sanguine, can't say I'm sure
Pale to perfection, can't pile the potential
Now is never, and nowhere is near
Finding my freedom, and forgoing my fate
Wasting my wishes on wanting of wisdom

I've walked roads the lead nowhere
Built of stones crushed by despair
I've followed paths into the dark
Through long nights
Past bright lights
Never stopping to see where I am
Wandering alone without a plan
There's a road over a raging river
I take a step and the whole bridge shivers
I hope I don't fall and break through
I need to find my way in these woods
I'm crossing over now without a thought
Ignoring the danger and lessons I've been taught
The splintered spruce might break beneath my weight
But I have to keep moving to catch what got away

I've been holding onto this for some long time now, and I believe it might be wrong. Did you know that I've been waiting, and you weren't the first to have me like that. Just like the last you always look right past all the signs I try to throw your way. Now I'm empty with nothing left to give but up, yet still I can't walk out of this place.
It seems your gravity has no hold on me when all I want is to be pulled into you
Please don't think that I wouldn't want to, but if you won't then there's nothing I can do
I have to let go
Drift off slowly
Won't you let me
Find a new star
To crash into

I couldn't hear what you were saying
It seems that my attention is fading
The on coming lights have got me distracted
Please let that last thought be retracted
I don't want you to think that I had this speech practiced
I just wanted to say that I think we went to far
We drove ourselves crazy from the backseat of this car
Now we find ourselves stranded and out of gas
If only we remembered the mistakes we made in the past
Maybe we could have saved ourselves enough to make this trip last

What once was the center of so many worlds, A light for all to see, will never be forgotten as those planets still turn

A star that has gone and spent all its will to burn