this one night,
his two friends become mine.
he says i'd be the third tonight,
but he's asleep by 4 a.m.
i'm not going to sleep for five days, thinking like this,
i hope i'll get a 6 o'clock good morning,
responding to my seven worried messages, i just sent.
i'll wake at eight, desperately checking my phone,
seeing nothing but nine fake smiles on my lock screen,
i'll stay in bed until 10:00,
to avoid my 11 page homework,
and i'll wait 'til 12:00 for his message that'll break my heart,
but my lucky number is thirteen, and i'll hope that he still cares,
for i am dying, crying 14 minutes after his message,
and i don't know what to say to the boy 15 hundred miles away,
who i'm scared will break my heart before he turns 16.
i regret waiting seventeen minutes to respond tonight,
and i'm sorry for the now eighteen messages i have sent,
only to make sure, i stay awake until 19:00,
scared i'll miss his 20:00 message,
but i'll lay here for 21 more minutes,
wanting to jump in the car and travel 22 hours,
to show up at his door the twenty third hour,
and hug him for the full twenty-fourth,
while his parents make 25 phone calls, trying to get me
on a 26 hour trip back home,
where i'd cry for 27 days,
missing him, once again.