Spring day
new start
fresh feeling
in my heart

Hope for today
only one smile away
but I know
somewhere
in the world
someone's
hurting
today

So I take a moment to pray
and throughout my way
I'll think of them
and hope that life get better
someday
no
today
because I know that feeling
being boxed in
by
everything

I'd like to think
that I'm brave
that I'm not afraid
that I'm not everyone's maid
cleaning up their dismay

I'd like to think
that I'm free
from misery
and that darkness that always returns
to me and only me

I'd like to think
that I love
and live a life of a dove
with hope
that could only be found
from above

I'd like to believe that I'm me
but that's hard to do
when what you can't live
what you believe

test me
my waters have remained constant
rippling, reaching
as far as the eye can see
into the horizon; the water surrounds me
my knowledge is useless
when drowning in these waters;
i can only flail desperately
as my movements create ripples
out into the open sea
all these efforts
all in vain
all in my vein
blood rushing out
like the sea, light then heavy
then strong
like the sea, with a strong smell of salt
this time, the waters are red
and they reek of iron

test my waters
they’ve been stained crimson
with my lifeline

When everything goes
wrong
you begin to
see
who
you
are
---
The darkness
reveals the
light
---
Sometimes the
light
is just a
grey
area
that
can
become
brighter
---

So
our time is now, in the
moment
but what if our time is
up, over
and we don't know it
yet
--- --- --- --- --- --- --- ---
So
our time is up,
over
but what if our
time is now, in the
moment
and we never
knew
it

A forced day
a forced way  
to show someone how much
you care
a way just to get it out there
in the open air
A fake display
of fake relay
of fantasized stories
that meant nothing
yesterday