In front of me
everybody, everybody
walks in groups
they can't stand the
silence
but I like it with
just
me
---

Everybody, everybody
has their
first
day
at something

Everybody, everybody
takes their
last
breath

Everybody, everybody
has a reason for living
but what if I haven't
found my reason
it yet

I save my life every day.
Every morning I wake up
and decide to live,
even though my limbs are heavy
and my mind stumbles,
I still heave myself up,
put my feet on the floor
and stand

I hold on to everything  
yet I can't seem to let anything go
Broken shards of
memories  
that mock me
And fight my mind.

At night these thoughts  
destroy me and take over my soul
And suddenly,
I find myself
Quiet and all alone

"It's okay to tell me everything,
Yes,every single thought"
they say.
But how will that help when these
Troubling emotions  
Won't go away

So here I am again
at night  
Afraid of myself,
afraid of the light
And suddenly I find myself
Quiet  
And out of control

I feel like a lonely star
in the sky.
In this life I once
felt hope but
it became too
difficult
to repair from the
troubling emotions!

My smile hides these
tears,
and you only know
my cover,
But I just want something  
better,
to not feel this terror.

I get broken each day,
Keeping these  
emotions in my core,
I wish I'd find  
Myself very soon.

I won't practice  
my smile in the mirror
Or make my fake smiles
More clear
I'm  tired of living behind  the mask
With these TROUBLING EMOTIONS!

I feel
                            so
                                 small
and
                              my
                               ­      thoughts
feel                        like
                       ­               nothing
at
                               all

yet
                              so
                                    many
loving
people
are                               around
                   me
Is it possible to feel this way?

Isn't it
fascinating
to think
that we aren't that far away
44 minutes
and 1 day
till I'll say
I've been waiting to see
you
my
friend

Normally right ?
To be calm
When you're sad
And cry
When you're very
Happy