in a  dark place  but  
ones light that I can not reach
no matter how hard I try
so  I went and sat  down
thinking for what I have done wrong
but what I did not do right

the darkness you shrowded me with
leaving me with my thoughts
you left with the light that you took
and now you leave me
what me wandering what I should do
but it's okay i'm used to it
the darkness you left me in
is better than I was with you

plain like a white board in class
a quiet class while everybody is taking a test
fidgeting with you're pencil
as you wait for everybody to get done
why is this taking so long

everyone is gone left me to be
the light faded as others took over
the blanket that covered me is now taken
not i am alone trying to be strong
but it never works but i get in trouble
and now i am were i was last time

to find light after searches
to see dim light for the first time
squinting because it seemed bright
brighter than any sun if there was one
when the light goes after darkness consumes it
it becomes dark the same darkness
but it makes an ache that can't go away
searching again to find the same light

there once was a kid who thought that out of every badness comes a great goodness onetime he met creepy guy who told warned him not to trust everyone as you don't trust a wild snake the kid said out of every good deed there was a bad one the guy had nothing else to say then one day there was a group of kids and they went to him about a week later he was arrested and hanged because he believed that they had good in them but they blamed them for there mistakes he died as the old man attended his funeral he said trust many but not all

to grow strong one is growing weaker
as one dies one is reborn
as one is lost another is gained
to gain suffering also gains peace

to dream what is wanted but to lose want is gained
to find what is lost to only be lost
to get what you want to only lose what you got
to feel something to lose another light
to be correct to only do wrong
to find the truth but not get what you want
to find the meaning but to lose meaning

going against pain
going by with adrenaline
trying to hide whats been there
but nothing can't stop the feeling of the past
feeling great but that's for a moment
thinking i'm smart but then WHY AM I LIKE THIS
trying to convince myself i'm okay
all i did was hide in a mask from my emotion
but it was just a mask nothing else

To run from the fruits that others want you to eat
To find peace in solitude but only to be followed
A follower people are following to a deeper hole
Only for the follower being brought deeper by others
To see statues staring at you deep within the hole
Only to look past you not even seeing you
Being constricted by others who want power
Causing you to be thrown after it's done