Mommy said if he's mean it's because he likes you.
She said boys are backwards and upside down.
She said boys are young dumb and fullofcum.
She said close your eyes when you fall so you don't see how much it's going to hurt.

I still have bruises, she said.

these chasing admirers
they don't love me,
they just want to own me
I could teach them what fire is
but I'd rather burn, alone
I am a girl best left unknown

They never realize
A single shoulder brush
Can send a girl's heart
Racing.

They don't know
A few words
Can make a girl's
Whole day

They never see
A girl's eyes light up
As the glance at her
From across the room

They never can tell
That what's to them just normal
Makes a girl's smile
Reappear

Whatever you do,
Don't fall in love
With loveless boys.

The boys who stay awake
Until 4 am taking long drags
On cigarettes and blowing
The smoke into the wind.

The boys who down bottles
Of whiskey at a time and
Wipe their mouths with their
Sleeves, eyeing you from
Across the room as they do.

The boys who frequent
Alleyways and rooftops
And libraries because
They are anything but
Ordinary.

The boys who watch you
Fall in love with them and
Don't feel a **** thing
For you as you do.

To the boys that I have poured my heart and soul out to over a text
You were both incredible people
Both, as in only two of you
I had liked, or loved, you both in way that I couldn't care for anyone else
That's one of the only similarities you share

To the boys that I have poured my heart and soul out to over a text
I hope you know it killed me when you didn't reply
I still believe I am the problem here
Why else would you cast me aside?
I am used to sending heartfelt text messages
Or even risky ones at that
But usually people reply
Whether it be with something beautiful
Or a basic "okay"

To the boys that I have poured my heart and soul out to over a text
I apologized to the both of you
That's the third thing you share
I apologized to one of you for messing everything up
And I apologized to the other because I knew I would destroy everything one day
Well, I didn't know, but I had a hunch
Because I ruin everything
But that would have only applied if you had let me in
But just like Heaven's gates,
You closed me off and put me in Hell.

Hell is similar to jail except you're fed in jail
Whereas Hell takes your appetite
Jail also gives you the bail option
Hell, unfortunately, does not.

To the boys that I have poured my heart and soul out to over a text
I've heard that babies often **** the energy out of their parents
and use it for their own personal gain
I hope you destroying my happiness was like that
I hope you grew a sense of happiness by destroying mine
         By not replying
         By not showing emotion
         By not giving ten seconds of your time to type out a sloppy response so I could get closure

To the boys that I have poured my heart and soul out to over a text
I'm sorry. It wasn't me. A friend stole my phone and sent that.
Wow, gee. Isn't autocorrect silly?
I didn't send that message! Here, check my phone!
You're accusing me of deleting that text? What kind of monster do you believe me to be?

To the boys that I have poured my heart and soul out to over a text**
I regret it and I'm sorry.

These multiple perspectives never expanded my view,
but only made me lose sight of myself.

What I stood for disappeared when I lost myself in you
and no,
it's not your fault,
completely.

I gave myself away when you only wanted small pieces hand fed,
and only if you said please.

So I'm sorry that I stuffed my love in a person who became unprepared.

My eyes were bigger than the weight on your shoulders.