i love you
your beautiful smile shines brighter then the sun
your laugh is amazing
your hands fit in mine like they are made to be
your smile lightens up my world
your the best thing that happened to be
but now that i lost you
i cant take it
it hurts
i read through our old messages
and remembering that reason why i love you
i cry and cry
but i tried so hard
you were never mine
the way you looked into my eyes,
i wanted to die,
i tried so hard not to fall for you
but when i held you in my arms
i cried all i could do way cry, because i always wanted to make you mine
you didnt push me away when i held you why?

I find it hard to write about one single thing when there are so many thoughts in your head.
I find it hard to sleep when all you can think about is your future and what you'll do for the rest of your life.
I find it hard to do homework when all you can hear are the screams coming from your parents bedroom door.
I find it hard to let things go when you've never gotten an apology.
I find it hard to think when anxiety is the only thing keeping you company.
I find it hard to be happy when everything around you is just so sad.

I still remember the day you walked into my life. It was lightly raining and the sun was just starting to come out, but it was still dark and gloomy. It's funny how the moment I see that geeky-looking kind of guy, I never thought I'd be so in love with him till today. It's frustrating that I can't re-live that moment, but I'm happy that I've met you.*

But, all of this jealousy seeing you with her, daydreaming and running away from life, it's not healthy for me. I am very sure that I love you as I keep on giving excuses for all the pain you've caused me. I still think of your feelings after all the pain. I was ready to be there for you even after ending things. This isn't healthy for me, I know, but I can't help it when it comes to you.

It's been a month we're together now ,
You ask me every day what do i tell you the 17
and the answer it always be the same
be with me and the next month i'll tell you
but I already say it before
and you don't hear it like you want
i swear my dear , I whisper it
every morning with a kiss
every evening with a caress
every night with a hug
in your ear  : *i'll be always with you , and i love you, forever and ever no matter what it takes no maters what it cause , i'll love you