Cuts leave scars
Cuts bleed
Cuts hurt
Cuts heal
Cuts don't ever go away
Cuts will be there forever
Cuts will be there when you have kids
Cuts will be there when you die
Cut might be the reason your dead
Cuts will **** you
Cuts are not worth it
Cuts ruin your body
Cuts ruin your skin
Cuts ruin you

you deserve the whole universe
and I’m just one star
the dullest star
the coldest
the one that’s about to die
because stars shine brightest before they burst
I guess I am a starburst
because with these thoughts,
I just might explode soon

Keep on saying
that you've burned all the bridges

you jumped down
hit your head

Please help me
like I did

You've left me alone again
Drive into the city

Please don't forget about my heart
My head doesn't sleep
I dream about you some days

You're breaking down
I'm always there when you're at your lowest

So please understand
that I'll need you
when I'm drowning

This thunder
reminds me of the old times
when I would climb into your bed in fear.

I sleep alone now,
for the same thunder  
is now the lullaby
you sing for me
from heaven.

i feel like i cant breathe
most of the time

maybe its the tight binder
on my ribs
maybe its the suffocating thoughts
that tell me im not good enough
maybe its all the stares
that i know are questioning my gender

i wish i could tell you it gets easier
every time someone calls me a girl
when im wearing all mens clothes, a binder, and short hair
but it doesnt
it gets worse

so much worse

no matter the effort i put in
how hard i try
to present as masculine as possible
at the point where i cant even
see anything feminine about myself anymore

im always seen as the thing
that will always break me down

sometimes i think
it would be easier to take it all back
say im a girl and dress like one
at least then
ill be seen as how im trying to

ill hide behind a mask
say im something that im not

because arent i doing that already?
saying im okay and that it doesnt matter
when someone calls me a girl?
putting on  fake smile
and act like it doesnt feel
like someone took my spirit
and covered it
with the wrong color paint

i feel like i shouldnt be myself
most of the time