the wish granters must be confused
because i wish for love
when it sits in my lap
i wish for pain
when i've just gotten my heart back
it's like wishing for sun
when it's only rained once this year
it's like pinning up problems
that only take minutes to disappear
and yet i still wish for music
but only hear a certain tune
i wish for someone
but won't accept anyone that's not you

dancing on lily pads
swimming in raindrops
learning from plants how to dance
teaching ants hopscotch

using cracks as trails
potholes are basins
leaves that fall never fail
to leave behind a sprout to replace it

i’m singing with spring
in my own springish world
hoping that all this light means
eternal spring for this springy girl

my favorite dreams
are the ones you appear in
am i in yours too?

a memorial
is still being held in my mind
why can't i say bye

it's a game now

picking out our memories like poppy seeds -
that didn't sprout on time.

pulling feelings straight from my chest
onto the table under white light
with a shaking knife not willing to dissect

it's a movie that i can't look up the ending to

i feel the jostle of every plot twist
it's cinderella but no shoe fit

it's guessing and waiting and being wrong every time.

it's writing our names in hearts...
calling you mine
when you have no heart to name,
just two faces and lies

it's thinking this is forever
when never is looking more like the right time

has a wound ever
made you grin like this one has
can i smile and bleed?

you live in the people i know
the books i read
the lips that touch mine
you live in my favorite songs
my poetry
between the words and lines
i close my eyes and you stare back at me
i open them and see you in the blue of the sky
no matter what i do you overpower any view,
song,
book,
person,
feeling,
memory -
each and every time