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xmxrgxncy Dec 2016

wither

how many times do i have to tell you
to leave me
be

it really hurts to see myself continually
hurting you when you
could leave

i ask you all the time to just let me go
and let me wither
in peace

why

looks like plant imagery is just becoming a thing now. my birds have flown.

#sadness #plants #herbology #aloneplease

Dec 2016

Sam

Empowering Yourself

Already knowing what someone is going to say,
is worse than hearing it for the first time.

I face dissatisfaction,
I face disappointment,
I face shame.

My intentions are contrary to what some may predict.

I am strong,
I am able,
I am independent.

To be given trust is all I ask,
and I shall never ask anything in return.

#trust #strength #apology #terrified

xmxrgxncy Nov 2016

Breaking News

a plane crashed
killed a soccer team

a serial killer
was caught

two family members
were murdered

a hurricane
formed down south

my depression
has come back

breaking news. yay.

Nov 2016

Sam

Sharin' doesn't always mean Givin'

Mama always said to share.
Share food, share toys
Share kind words.

I did what Mama says.
I shared everything.
I shared my words, my love.

Mama told me to keep sharin'.
I shared my belongings, my life.
I shared my all.

Mama never said anythin' 'bout bein' careful.
Being careful of sharing too much.
That's a thing?

Mama always said to share.
If I give away all of me,
I see smiles on the faces of others.

I did what Mama says.
If I give away all of me,
What parts are left to prosperous?

Mama told me to keep sharin'
All of my puzzle pieces,
Until everyone was happy.

Mama never said anythin' 'bout bein' careful of myself
*Mama never warned me 'bout this

Yes it was intentional

#realizations

xmxrgxncy Nov 2016

Pushing

Pushing, pushing,
I don't know why I'm pushing,
Driving, driving,
to find an unknown place.

Climbing, climbing,
don't know why I'm just climbing,
striving, striving,
I'm starting to feel peace.

hit this really weird motivational thing and i'm super happy right now. It's so weird, I can't remember ever feeling like this.

Nov 2016

Amethyst Fyre

I Lied

I just wanted to give you a normal conversation
and myself too
So when you asked if I was okay
I gave you a
More or less, yes
But that was a lie.

I haven't been okay in a long, long time.

#depression #okay #sorry