I grieve
For myself
The love I lost
When I let
My shadow go

I run until I can't breathe
Why won't you chase me?

Sick of being beautiful
Sick of all the lies
Except for when I hear you
Tell me with your eyes

For an hour I waited
And for an hour I died
Cursing the screen
That you chose to hide
Your face and emotions
Made me perplexed
And all of these words
Just served to vex
Don't be a child
But you don't have to grow up
Just speak to me tiger
So things can look up

My mind is filled with the hum of the universe
In the 2am hour
When the souls forget their troubles they carry through the day

You did not have you own
heart
And so you
took
A little piece from

All the people
that you
loved

So while they had
enough

To Survive

You would have a
Little

Bit to keep you warm

:)

...but...

as they went through life
just a little bit
broken

you found you were
torn
in every direction

For you could not
follow

Your heart.

Because it went to so many
different places at once

And you had no
home

But neither were you alone

For you were sown in
love

Wreathed in
flame

Touched by
fire

And all of your best parts remain :)

long days and longer nights
never empty but always hollow
short tempers and shorter strides
where to walk just to hide

I've written you so many
words in my mind
Some of them harsh
and some more kind

I've printed on my heart
all the things I would say
But ripped them to shreds
the very next day

It would seem I compared
all the wrong things
The contrast of sounds
the way the bird sings

I left out the best parts
and how it made me feel
Locked it all up
and made it unreal

Because emotions are void
in a world so molded
Like every sheet in the house
must be perfectly folded

But I cannot conform
and neither will my words
They open your mind
so they must be heard

They will never be loud enough
not on their own
But them I endorse
and them I condone

These actions you speak of
louder than words
Funny your steps
are never even heard

As you walk to and fro
inside of my house
Creating the chaos
like elephant and mouse

I refuse to play
these games any longer
You say I am losing
but I feel so much stronger

So letters it is.
all strung together
Let's make some words
and then make them better

Think in our minds
how to change the world
Like a flag sewn
like a flag unfurled

when you cry yourself to sleep
because you don't know what else to do
when you cry yourself to sleep
just to make it through

when tears are your rocks
and cheeks your cliff
and you run over the edge
into the abyss

when you cry yourself to sleep
in the dark of night
when you cry yourself to sleep
with not a soul in sight

when dreams are your ship
and your body an anchor
lost in the water
drowning in danger

It was my first chosen emotion
That I could not control

So I let into the light
And it got out of control

It saw the sun and so it hid
Inside my heart, within a rib

It was my only peace in life
And I would not let it go

I could never do it again
So I held to close, so it could not go

I held it down and bound it inside
So it could stay, and I could hid

for though you my dearest friend
speak in riddles of ages long past
and talk in the tongues of angels
I do understand your ways

you my closest companion
have lived with me in my heart
through all these years and journeys
so many uncounted days

ever we dance under the sun
like branches we humbly bow
before the thrones of the stars
to please the moon, in her waking

a hushed whisper of wind
breathes into our very souls
a fire lighting a candle
a beautiful spirit in it's making

we don't need wings to fly
just feet to dance the earth
where it ever to shrivel up
become a husk and fade away

we would still dance
it's memory into the cosmos
set it in stone forever
never to crack or chip like clay

I could never be better
and always be worse
I just want to dance with you
with you until I die

to be your waltz
and the beat in your heart
the melody you play
when you start to cry

when you long for amnesia
because you can't stand
can't stand to remember
I will be the love in your eyes

the dead, the sweetest stars
inside of your broken mind
don't worry my friend
I will sing you back alive

streets aren't made for everybody
that's why they built sidewalks
you don't have to like it
just move to the right

this isn't world is for everybody
but don't you dare leave
if you don't like it
just cry through the night

what inspired me in the beginning
what were you words?
I didn't have to hear them
they just had to be felt

it's not how you talk
or what you chose to wear
it's what you have inside
no matter how it's spelt

what matters will last
no matter what the cost
days and nights you know
but this life is to fast

we live for today
you dance in the present
it' about us, in the now
not about the past

the half of you on the inside
trying to break out
break out of the bars
without the keys

sustainable on your love
always enough, just keep me high
on your level I stay there
never on my knees

though I pray as I dance
and take every chance
to know you more
please let me in

though we fight many battles
and win many wars
don't question the past
of where I've been

I live in my casket
and I died on your lips
but I would dance the world
for just one kiss

If it is one or the other,
I chose you <3

what will be left but memories
that, like rocks on the shore
are slowly worn to sand
crumbling into the past
laying a foundation for the future
less and less and less they become
until like ashes thrown into the ocean
they are so separated
no one has even remembered
that they were ever once, one
a core slowly eroded
a past slowly erased
an essence faded
into tomorrow
and no one remembered to forget
and they walk upon the ashes
in the sand
they will never know
and so that my friend
is how life goes

the flowers crushed under foot
smell just as sweet

Secrets** should be kept
By those who hath forged them

the best pain
is the worst pain
the kind that drives me insane
the kind you can let out
only to return
and for the blood in my veins
it will ever year

sometimes its the littlest things in life
that can cause you to break
the opening of a lid
the creaking of a door
the sound of a loved one
you can't be there for
maybe being left by yourself
and you have to put
those feelings on a shelf

my dreams are the safest place to love you

You are what you write

I am a poem full of misery