This is a poem for my little sister,
Sunday
Who carries emotional battle wounds
From a mother who left her for heroine.
Who hoards food because she's
Afraid
Bullied for being overweight
Light hearted and Jolly
Just to be judged by me
Rejected
By the time I understood I was
Too late
"You're really going to wea- let's go out!"
You needed love
But even I hadnt fully accepted you
Your baby blue eyes pooling became MY
Priority
I can't fix your mom abandoning you
Nor can I make up for the years you didn't know our father
I'll never be able to take back the cruel things I said
That weakened your knees and killed your temporary happiness
I should've been a good role model
But I hated that you became dad's little girl too
I was selfish and blind
Time is not reversible
But each day forward is an opportunity to make your life happier
I love you-
Words you should hear everyday
A twelve year old who never fails to inspire me
My Sunshine

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ya chao culiaa
para la wea
que no había naa
dejate de ser la desesperaa
que mimos mañas mañanas
pasan,
deja las vueltas las volaas
las mentiras la wea que te da
de atrapaa
lo típico.
asi que ahora borraa
quiero estar drogaa
abrasada ja
en brazos brasas
no te quiero naa
pero igual me teni pegaa
ya basta ah
perra sumisa confundida
no sé que decir más
solo se que ya no da
pa repetir la forma en la que va
voy vengo y no me fuí
mas encima de te crei
tan gigante en tu entrega
pero eri un orgasmo barato
un mal rato
un rico recuerdo
de cabra chica la navida
se acabaron las que no soy
lo que vendí
me gaste así
de nuevo ni me corrí
(en lugar, de, en)
te creiste mas de lo que conocí
no me wevi
salte de ahí
ya no estai invitado
no me digai que me queri
sabemos que es así
pero en error me repetí
te herí
me pasé
pero pendejo
eri.

Weather in the family
Changes with each deed of its members

haven't been, much.
it's been more of an avoidance of,
part of the
never ending
search of the visceral.
a pause
within another,
as if time slowed down
as it passed you by.

un paniquito?
mejor me bajo,
embotello
esta turbulencia
me veo las mil imágenes
hasta cansar los ojos.
quizás me quedo sola
con tal de sin fecto
suafecto
me lo fumo todo
hasta quemarnos sin porros
ya no queda compartir
colorear quizás
más pegada no puedo estar
pero ahora,
he manifestado un hoyo *****.
me recompensó
con más tiempo desechable.
si se nos acaba todo,
entre los dientes
me rechinara un saber que sabe a frustración

hey void did you know i'm falling down your pit
so full of itties.
this day is longer than your ****,
this music stickier than that laying on your chest. louder
than your moan anything.
you ever get turned on by turning it all the way up?
cause i used to think louder was louder but now i
know it isn't if i look deep into your abyss and you don't drag me willingly into you. the correct way to use this power i hold,
would be

Sitting in corner of a crowded room,
       My eyes searching
Feeling so alone,living with anxiety
Is it a fear to know or to be known??

My eyes begin to water
My heart-it aches
Its been 8weeks and 3days yet still
    I feel like a stranger
Here in a crowd wea I sit daily,
I feel colder and so alone.

Am losing my mind
Am so stressed, I can't even fake a smile
I have built my wall so high
And now it gets thicker
Not that am a loner
Am just so alone
Here in a crowd of familiar faces
I feel so alone

Ring Ring
“The phone is screaming at me.”
Stop!
“Don’t pick up the phone.”
Ignore it.
The call isn’t for you.
You don’t deserve it.
They call you to rip you apart.”
Wea
They think you're weak.
Prove them wrong be strong
“Stay strong.”
“You have so many people cheering for you.”
Important.
“You are important.”
I promise.
“Don’t let them in your head.“
“I know it’s too late.”
“They have already made a home in your mind.”
They rip you to shreds.
Let me in.
Ring Ring.
“Its me calling I'm here for you”
have always been here.
“Don’t leave.”
“They aren’t worth your pain and sorrow.”
You mean so much
“Stay strong.
Keep moving.
You are worth it.“
Ring Ring
“It’s you.”                
At three in the morning.    
“I am here”
I still am.
“Don’t leave me..ever.
Promise.”
“Yeah...promise.”
Silence.
My phone doesn’t ring anymore.
You don’t call me.
I am still trying to be strong.
I am important.
I will still be here
For both of us.
I still smile for us.
I don’t let them get to me.
They were evicted from my head.
The demons still visit but they no longer stay.
I understand now
I Know why you left.
You were the strongest.
YOU WERE THERE FOR ME NOT I FOR YOU!
I still miss you.
I want to call you again
I want to be the one at 3 in the morning
I WANT YOU BACK!
I’m sorry i wasn’t there as much as i should of been.
Why can’t I call you?
I stay strong for you,
You know that right?
You were my best friend.
I was there..
Ring Ring
“The number you have dialed has been changed, disconnected, or is no longer in service. please try again later…”