I lay here letting the emotions fill my mind
I’m tired of battling them through out the day
I lay here with my eyes closed letting them consume me

Sadness eats at my heart
like a vulcher picking at a carcass of a lost traveler
attacking it, till its useless beating stop

anger pierces my brain
bleeding out all logistics
causing nothing but hatred for the pain

loneliness, takes over my lungs
suffocating them in isolation
as if I’m drowning in low tide

I feel defeated once again
For letting these emotions drag me down
Bringing me to that place

The dark cold place of fear
The empty space in your mind
Where only hysteria exists

I’m sad without you
Without your hand to take me through life
Without you seeing me progress through life
Unable to see that I am making you proud

I’m angry you left me
No father at graduation
A silhouette of my lonely figure down the wedding isle

I’m lonely
Lost without your love and kind heart
Lost with out your arms and care

The emotions beating me up
Causing only fear for its permanence
I wonder if you feel them too

This pain is eating me day after day,
Like minuscule maggots chewing at decay.

The lonely vulcher pecking at the dead rodent
While I'm still lost in the moment.

The moment where your lips touched mine,
Tasting like nothing more than aged wine.

Your lips gave me a hint of serenity,
Then thinking 'what has gotten in to me?'

The moment where I was laughing in the shed
Where your lust filled eyes were being fed.

Your eyes sparked a fire in my heart,
Making my world feel like a piece of art.

The moment we were in the cemetery
Talking about how absurd it is to bury

But now look at me,
Trying to bury what used to be.

"Kiss me" is where it all began that day,
But now it's nothing but minuscule maggots chewing at decay.

WISH I COULD HOLD THE DIMENSIONS OF MY OWN THOUGHTS TOGETHER

I WISH I COULDNT SEE THE FUTURE
KNOW THINGS THAT WOULD SOON TORTURE
DRIVE OTHER PEOPLE INTO DISSARY LIKE A VULCHER

MY MIND HAS A TIME BOMB
MY WORDS FLY OUT WRONG

EVEN THE RULES
THE TEMPTATION DRIVE MY WRECKAGE
ALL OF THEM WITH THERE HATRED
TURNED FROM LOVE WASTLESS POUR
SWIM ALLIGATOR RUIN LORE

WITH EMOTION
I GASP, OIL DOWN THE THROAT
AS IF THEY CHOKED ON HIM LAST
THE FUMES OF HIS BLOOD
5D RUG

PULLING MY HEART LIKE STRINGS OF ART
THROUGH VINTAGE MUD

WHERE IS SAFE
WHERE IS HOME
WHERE IS MAGIC WITH NO SATISFACTION IN TONE

WITH THUGS THEY BLACK SNAKE MOAN

THE NIGHT WHEN THE WAITING GAME HAS COME
NOBODY HAS THERE ARM
AROUND THERE FEARS OF SUMS WITH  "YOU"
NOBODY AROUND ME
WITHOUT YOU

JUST A SUSPENSION
ENERGETIC SOULS
HANGING MAN OFF MY EAR LIKE EARRINGS OF WIRE

THE SHELF'S CLEANED, AND THE HALLOW BELLE FREED

WHERE U WERE
WAS WITH ME

IS WHERE WE USED TO BE
WHEN WE MADE 5D HISTORY