It was an insignificant date to her.
At least that's what she always said,
even though she'd never tell,
deep inside her heart
it was a little special.
It made her believe there's still hope,
even in the darkest and loneliest place.
She never wished for much,
just for a few gold friends
and a little of the happiness she was pretending to feel.
But tonight,
as she lays awake trying to fall deeply asleep,
and failing like every other night,
she felt a sudden need, and a new wish.
A blurry vision of an untouchable body
and a loving caress.
It was the strongest longing for the warmth
that would unfreeze her ice cold soul.
A longing for a ghost hug
that would light her existence.
Tonight, she closes her eyes,
I close my eyes,
and wish for you to break into my dreams.
You, the blue eyes and the tall figure,
the boy who was hidden,
the boy who remain ageless.
Like a God in the sky,
a sparkling star placed in the distant void,
a pair of wings that make the sun shine.
Please come inside my broken mind
and make the fear go away,
help me feel safe,
in this insignificant special date
which means nothing to me,
or at least that's what I always say.

i followed tracks, traces, and visions, down the path i was told without revisions, but when i finally found the end, it didn’t complete me, it only deceived me

i thought that i’d just live a normal life and settle down with a house or a wife, so they say, so it goes, but it didn’t complete me, it only deceived me

i thought the only point was to make points, settle them out and remove all doubt, but when it comes to the point, they didn’t complete me, they only deceived me

if you think you’ll find some puzzle pieces, you’re selling yourself short, because you’ve got all the pieces, because you’ll never be 'complete,' but you don’t have to be deceived

a spur, a trace a mark, an outline in the sand, a rhyme is arbitrary words, and form is emptiness

form is emptiness and emptiness is form

so they say, so it goes, they didn’t complete me, they only deceived me, i still can’t find my better half

my own better half is not a separate thing, it’s an unfulfillable desire. i’ll never be 'complete.'

Forever is the meaning of eternity,
the symbol of an everlasting path.
But it has ceased to be so-
forever ends today.

In its farewell, it leaves a void,
an unfulfillable vastness.
And though there seems to be
no reason for this confusion,
its nothingness can tell all.

Don't fear the ledge of emptiness,
there's nowhere it can lead,
because the end of forever,
cannot go further.

Through peering deep,
answers that were never sought
show clear-
This end of forever,
simply the madness of your mind.

But if you could hold tight to your forever
astray you may never fall,
naive and inconceivably secure.

In my dream you are mine.

But in my life you are a beautiful dream,

You are my soul
My very Existence
My beautiful soul

that could give me an eternal life.
Maybe worst

I am scared of you, My weakness : endless breathing
But the things I think I can not say.
I wanna tell you!

Yes, I am a good writer
at least that helps me sleep

I've made the most important discovery of my life,
Only if I'm right

It's only in the mysterious equation of love,
and some incredible feelings I can't for myself understand

that inspired the multiple universes around me and changed my being,

You are my virtual world, I swear I only think of you
Days and Nights
hours and minutes
most of my lost seconds
I found them with you

In as much as I know my worth,
My worth, Even when I'm worth Nothing to you

I get scared when it comes to this.
one of my latest heart unfulfillable discovery

It was hard to find it, and now harder to solve,
what's worst?

It was like a dream to me as well as a great strive,
it still is that dream

But I said it earlier, You are mine only in my dreams

and that is the great power and the magic of love,
I keep saying love like I think it is real.
(What do I know)

Yes one thing i know is to write out what I feel

And What I feel I truly know

And I know that...

I love you although I've never met you,
with you I can stand up for anything,
even things I do not believe in
And if anything rings the bell.
Then I'll say it again;
with you I will stand up for everything
I love you though I've never met you,

Like two ends of a line
the difference is, this can not be defined
you changed my life and so my sky to blue.
i guess it was dark before
Or maybe it has always been blue but I now I see it Brighter
I love you though I never met you,
Why do I keep repeating: I love you like it's weighing on my brains
but in my dreams I really meet you.
Those dreams that i cannot stop smiling from when I wake
Every night : Everyday
Every time my eyes close be it day or night
I...(Don't want to repeat the line ) but I hardly know you

the few I know has mesmerized me
I... I can't help it
But I don't wanna get hurt.
That's right, I Love You But I'm Scared