Some times its moments like these
that actually convince me that I should stay
listening to a new album
way passed when I should have shut my eyes

listening to you on call with her
and laughing so hard because of me and the other's shared looks
that I feel sore when I wake up

walking to a spot that I considered forgotten
that I considered my own
and sharing it with you

you see,
taking flight has always appealed to me
especially when the only one who knew my pain
just rubbed salt in the wound
cut off my arm
and took it as a souvenir

Now I can't bear taking flight
because that would mean leaving you behind
one of the only ones who understood me

Yes, you were one of the only ones who understood me
You, the luck up my sleeve
and if I ever decide to leave
you are the one whom gave me pause
I will feel the greatest sorrow when I leave you behind

It is moments like these,
laying on a rug listening to what I will be listening to
for months and mounths
and thinking about you

and not just that
for my mind is a monster
and when you saw
you accepted it

Sitting on a cold couch
talking of others doomed romance
was one of the best things you could give me
for I could finally be the true me

The shared looks that we give each other
when it makes people mad
Oh, those looks
those looks that I will never want to miss
never want to forget

And oh how I wish to hold your hand
oh how I wish to cradle you in my arms
but all I have is your eyes to cradle
and your words are all I can hold

you mean more to me than you could ever know
and those little stolen moments that we make ours

Yes, you were the one I could at last love
the one who finally accepted my mind
Yes, you are my love
and You, the luck up my sleeve
and if I ever decide to leave
you are the one whom gave me pause
I will feel the greatest sorrow when I leave you behind

Its moment like these
when the music fills my mind
when it flows through my head to my feet
and all I can feel is that place
when I want to stay the most

It is moments like these
when I listen to the analytical words of another
and sit by my friends side

Its moments like this
when I am tightly warped in an embrace
on the top of a mountain with a cross
feeling the true love of God for the first time

Its moments like these
when I miss you all so badly
that I can hardly breath
but I know I will see you again tomorrow

Its all of these moments
When I finally see my friends who have become family after a period of absence
When I can lay in a bed and rest when I truly feel weary
When I cry and I cry
because in the end, I know I will have to leave it all
My friends who are now my family
The tree that has now become familiar
The radio with its iconic voices
The lemonade with its iconic tastes
The music with its wonderful sounds
The park with its heart wrenching sunsets
The house with my friends as family rooms

Those things all give me pause
because in the end
leaving will happen
whether I want to go
or not

but I hope that you know
out of all of those things
out of all of those beautiful, tragic, wonderful, aw striking things
you are truly the ones who I will miss

I love you all,
I love you all more deeply than you could ever know