today i went
to
IHOP
with my grandparents.
i hadn't seen them in a  
year,
and that was probably a bad thing.
they both ordered crepes
with lingonberry.
i had coffee,
and just that.
they said,
eat as much as you want,
its on us.
i said no,  its okay,
i had a big breakfast.
20 minutes into the
conversation,
i reached over and gave in.
i took a bite of crepe.
chewed and swallowed.
i then said i had to use the restroom,
and spent the next 20 minutes
trying to get that crepe out of my
system.  
this is fun,
i was thinking.
look how much fun i am  
having,
hating myself.