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Oculi May 2022
There was a dead horse on my way to work today
The horse had been there a while
I do not know why or how it was left there
But I certainly felt a kinship towards it
I'm a doer, not a waiter, I swear
I only ever wait for impossible things
Sort of like I'm waiting for Godot, in a way
Or like waiting for the dead horse to come alive
Why did it die, anyway? Who left it there?
I heard it beckon to me, softly, quietly
It told me about its pain and it felt mine
It related itself to me, singing sweetly
I could not relate mine to it
But I felt slowly but surely my drifting
We switched places, the dead horse and I
I was the horse, on the side of the road
Down by the railway, dead
And the horse was the one that went to work today
I spent my day, baking in the sun
My odor becoming more and more pungent
And the horse worked tirelessly at the workshop

I'm waiting for the dead horse to come alive
Why was it left out in the sun to die?
Why did nobody care for it in its time of need?
Now it's growing more and more rancid
**** all around its feet and face
And the other horses are all gone
No funeral was held, no ceremony
Just the sweet, inviting smell of death
Quite a squalid state of affairs
How I long to understand how he feels right now

I'm waiting for my dead friend to come alive
Why was he left in the hospital to die?
Why could I not care for him in his time of need?
Now he's growing further and further
Water all around his feet and face
And the other friends are all gone
How I wish I could hear him just once more
Or see the phone ring and know it's him
How I wish he'd ask me how the music is going
Or lecture me about the futility again

I'm waiting for my broken heart to heal
This one really needs no explanation, does it?
All those with broken hearts deserve it
Or at least that's what they keep telling me

I'm waiting for the dead horse to speak to me
A lonely, rotting bovine on the side of the road
Maggots live as kings tonight
"Horses aren't bovines"
I yell at myself in reprimand
"I know, but I forgot the categorization"
I respond in a slightly altered intonation

I'm waiting for Godot today
I like waiting for impossible things
It fills me with purpose, and prolongs the inevitable
As long as I wait and do there is no death
I have long since ceased the doing, but waiting is fine
This bus stop sure is lonely, save for the old man
The old man keeps asking for cigarettes
I reach into my pockets to see
There is a decade-old pack of cigarettes
He takes one and thanks me with a slur
"Did you know I used to smoke, too?"
I ask with a childish naiveté
"Of course, I was there."
He answers as though it's second nature to him

I'm waiting to grow young again
I'm sick of being the old man in the bus stop
I'm sick of the decade old cigarettes from the young man
He is always late and he never buys me a fresh pack

I'm waiting to **** myself
"I'm thinking of ending things" as some might say
In some ways I'm quite like Charlie Kaufman
I also have trouble finishing my work
And my work also makes very little sense to others
But where he is original, I'm ripping him off
And so I'm waiting to **** myself
In a sense though, I'm already dead, baking in the sun
Because remember, I am the dead horse
Quite fond of beating the dead horse in this poem, too
I wonder what my family would say about that analogy
"That's very funny" they might say "you should be a philosopher"
I wonder what my psychologist would say about that analogy
"That's completely normal" she might say
"Everybody relates to dead horses and fantasizes"
"You're just like all the others"
I wonder if she's correct again

I'm waiting to become the John Fahey of the clarinet
In a sense I already am that
Because like Fahey, nobody listens to what I do
But where he is original, I'm ripping him off
And so I'm waiting to become the John Fahey
Of the clarinet
I already said that before, didn't I?

I'm waiting for this season of Better Call Saul to end
While it's airing I cannot **** myself
I am far too invested in it to **** myself
And surely enough these weeks get longer and longer
So I'm alive more and more each week

On my way home from work, I pass the same road again
The horse is alive, and seems happy to see me again
I wonder what caused the anomalous behavior
Perhaps it was sick? But how did it get better so fast?
The ideal time to end it has passed
Because remember, I am the dead horse
And if the horse is alive, I am alive also
And so, I think you've already guessed what I'm going to say
I'm waiting to **** myself again
Abomunist poetry
in order to be
completely understood
should be eaten…
-except on fast days,
slow days, and
mornings of executions.

Abomunist Goldilocks
eats the 3 bears.
But the porridge gets her
in the end. It is just right.

Abomunists read pictures
Downside
         skewed
to their children.

Abomunists sing
south by southeast,
but fly Southwest
through time.

Abomunists adore a vacuum
so they fill it
with Abomunable gifts
  like chicken seeds
and rose guts,
and the vacuum fills.
Abomunists abhor a vacuum.

That vacuum said rude things about your mother.
Abomunists have no mothers
and hang around streetcorners
shaking the lights until they go out.

Abomunists are obliged
to change the bulbs once
they die and continue shaking.

Abomunists encourage
police brutality
and are cheeky
motherless *******.

Abomunists go
hand in mouth.

Abomunists go
go go go go.
Always go.

Abomunists vote to
abolish
red lights.

Abomunists ride hydrogen
bombs to work.

Abomunists go to
bullet heaven.

Abomunists slay the dragon
only on Tuesday,
but chase him
through the ***** den.

Abomunists lick cold poles.
And pull their tongue
out sometimes.

Abomunists
cry to Billboard
revelations in Coca-Cola
and lingerie.

Abomunists listen
to the bottom 40 hits.
And drink the middle classics.

Abomunists drain
their cups
and never ask for more.

They just take it.

Abomunists scream hoarse
and horse
and pony
and the rattlesnake
guttural hissing
serpentine buzzing
bees. You wouldn’t understand.

Abomunists elect
their drones and
the queen eats all
the honey.

Abomunists run
from office
and hold sway from
cardboard towers.

Abomunists are bad
architects and they
fall from grace
- so to speak.
Iraira Cedillo Mar 2014
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Robert Hedin (b. 1949)

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Andrew T May 2016
Every morning I went
to the coffee shop across the street
from my house,
because I didn’t work.

For every resume I typed out,
I wrote a poem,
in order to keep me from
sending you a text marked with a white flag.

A skull was concealed in the flag,
as a watermark. The sun made
love to a cluster of clouds,
while I rolled a cigarette using strands of your brown hair.

I opened my wallet
and took out a photograph
of me and you from the booth
that one night when you made a fire out of caskets.

Your face had been glowing with warmth,
as if you had drained all the light out of the sun,
and had taken a shower in its yellow glow.
Your eyes were bright with a hopeful future.

Then you grew your hair longer,
and pulled it over your eyes,
like twin pirate eye-patches.
But you’d said you weren’t blind, just indifferent.

Today I wrote another poem on a countertop,
in the coffee shop,
and bandaged the wounds you gave me
when you told me you never cared about me.

One of the baristas wearing a brown apron
and a blue baseball cap, gave me poems
from James Tate. And as I read
“The Lost Pilot” it started to drizzle from the ceiling.

I wasn’t sure if it was rain pouring on my head,
and on my poems, or if it were melted ice-cream,
rich and thick in its texture,
Our first date we stole vanilla ice-cream from a Giant.

You stuffed it in your golden purse,
and ran through the doors, as a fat security guard
chased after you. Then, you hopped
into my blue Volkswagen and we sped off.

I was perfectly fine with being the getaway driver,
you dipped a bent spoon
into the plastic container and scooped out
the ice-cream. You ate it hungrily.

And after I took a bite,
we went to the park and swung on the swings,
coasting up and down in the air,
vanilla stained on the front of our black shirts.

Back at the coffee shop, I played the keyboard
in the bathroom because I was shy,
shy of you finding out,
because you love piano melodies.

And I guessed I wanted to play
for myself for a change. I played
“My Cherri Amour,” and drank gin
from a flask, until every key looked like a playing card.

After I played the song,
I left the coffee shop
,went home, and painted our last conversation,
using words from a newspaper.

“It’s over.”
“You were never right for me.”
“You’re not mature enough for a relationship.”
“I never want to see your face at Peets.”

Peets was the coffee shop we would always go to,
every morning, rain or shine,
rested or exhausted, and
I remember you would read my poems.

You read my poems as if they were
Daphne Loves Derby song-lyrics. Last night
you texted me that my poems
sounded like rushed and convoluted emails.

After that I blocked you on everything,
from social media to your number.
I hoped we would grow weak with joy,
and grey with age.

Words, whether from your lips,
or a text shattered the trust
I gave you, as if it were
my social security code.

In front of the bathroom mirror,
I took a pink eraser and rubbed it
against my foreheard,
to remove the wrinkles.

Each wrinkle represented a time
when you had failed me, or
when I had failed you. Our failures
were weights that I had balanced in my memory.

Kaufman would be pleased
of my progress. I wrote a sculpture
with glass and tears
at my desk, alone in my clean, well-lighted room.  

And then I took the sculpture,
and buried it
in my backyard, right next to the grave
of my old and weak self.

I smoked a cigarette using
sad memories as rolling papers.
As the paper burned slowly, I
let the smoke fill my heart.

Because my lungs were tired,
tired from breathing, tired from
living for you. Because you
are not the only thing that matters anymore.
Read too much prose today
Kerouac, Micheline and Miller
And that old Bob Kaufman too
Tried to sell me their rhymeless lines
Child, Eyed, D.A Levy capitalizes all
Splashing bloods and vessels on the wacky paper
Airs of San Francisco, Paris and even…PAUSE!

Read too much prose for hours
On end, Kerouac, Micheline and Miller’s
And that old Bob Kaufman as well
Tried to sell me their rhymeless swell
Child, Eyed, D.A Levy capitalizes, he does
Splashing bloods and vessels on the wacky paper
Airs of San Francisco, Paris, and even… PAUSE!

Renegades and outlaws, Bible of the Outraged
To me rhymless poetry is like a hammer’s sledge
Ramming its fake fluid down people’s throat
And all is left on here is some ink one should blot.

January 19, 2016, 7:45 pm
Guillotière
aviisevil Nov 2021
somedays i'm more scared
than       the  others

more susceptible to the
diseases of the mind

that lay their bare hands
on my chest and
                     weave it down

hammer on the uncertainty
of the coming morning

meld the steel that dangles
from the ceiling

waiting to pounce at any
suffocating moment of
                          failure and dread

in the dead of the night
when the sun awakens

and ever so suddenly
the moon burst into flames

have all the stars fall in a
fiery ball of madness

circling the streets sniffing
at the despair of the
                            crying children

perching on the threads of
looming crisis of faith and
                            all things miserable

the melancholy of which is
lost on the swaying trees and
                           the singing birds

that is all over the news in
small fine print

while an angry man on the TV screams at people for not paying attention

over and over
again and again; until
it is time for the magic
of make belief:

only if magic was a real thing
so many things would have been
possible

the kind that lives in your
head and prospers in your mind

the kind Charlie Kaufman
knows about.
Brycical Oct 2011
There is hope
hope of finding the right one
in a storybook nirvana the ancients
who built the world
wished they thought of....

There is hope
that a story written
a phrase turned
or word uttered
would influence a
change so great--
like Kaufman, Ginsburg, Burroughs, Kerouac & Smith...

Hope still exists
that light will never go out
the stars will still shine and
life will still be around
thousands of millions of years

There is hope
still left
my friends,
beating
beating in my heart--
ready to carry with me--
--solo until the day I'm the last
one standing--
ready to be executed
for my views.
Andrew T Apr 2016
Love is the weirdest emotion, a person can feel for another person. It's something you have to experience, and something you shouldn't experience. Being in a relationship forces you to think about someone else other than yourself, which is good, but in the process it's easy to lose a piece of yourself.

Before you even enter a relationship, you're alone and doing your own thing. But when you meet someone for the first time and get to know that person on a deep level, it affects you greatly.

Sometimes these moments are brief, sometimes they are extended and you end up becoming attached and connected to them for a long time. It's crazy, months go by, even years, and you don't know where the time went. You can either have regrets for past, or have fond memories of the experiences you've shared with that person.

When a relationship is a sinking boat and you're looking for a life vest, as the waves crash around your feet, it's easy to forget how you got there in the first place.

Maybe you met her at a bar on a Friday Night and you had too much to drink, causing you to talk to the only person sitting at the bar. You strike up a conversation and talk about movies, say you saw Michelle Williams in Synecdoche, New York and how it really made you see her in a different light, because she showed acting range that was different from Dawson's Creek.

She perks up, smiling, and touches her brown hair, tousling it. She says she didn't really like Dawson's Creek, but that she's always been fascinated with Andy Kaufman movies. Her eyes sparkle with a vibrant green like seeing peas washed under a faucet.

And that's the moment, you buy her a jack and coke, and you have one yourself and in the back ground music plays from an iPod. Something like Billy Holiday, but you can't place the sound. So, you just listen to the music while listening to her speak about how her dad passed away the last weekend. You want to ask her how he died, but you don't want to ask her something personal, even though she brought up something personal.

It's last call, you try to figure out your plans for the rest of the night.
She says, "Wanna get out of here?"

You know that means she wants to hang out with you, but you don't know what you two will do. You've seen characters in movies say things like, "Wanna get out of here?" and you know what happens next. But life isn't like the movies.

"Where do you wanna go?" you ask.

"I don't know, but somewhere exciting. It's still early and I'm not tired yet."

The Billy Holiday sounding song switches into this Mac DeMarcoish type of tune. An upbeat, energetic beat howls from the speakers and you get into the groove, take her hand, and walk out the bar.

The stars are starting to shine and the streets are filled with people, just like you and her. But for some reason, you feel unique in your situation, though this story is bound to happen again and again, even after you've departed from the living.
clmathew Feb 2021
~I look at the buds still wrapped
on the ripening kernels. I want
to be in there, unhatched and unpolished.

—Shirley Kaufman, "Poem in November", Gift of Tongues

Death's wings
written January 10th, 2021

The Angel Death
wraps his wings around me
I feel him there
when I stop suddenly
Death's wings
jostling around me
settling into place.

He holds his breath
so I won't have that proof
of his presence
or any other
reassurance in this life.

Are his wings protection?
or curse?
Their silence wrapped around
is my well known company
these many years
Death's wings my comfort in life.
I wrote this while reading a bunch of gritty urban fantasy. It is fun to try on different things. The poetry that I post as inspiration, is part of my poem also. I love that I am writing again! Thank you for reading me!
Alison Elliott Sep 2015
“Everything is more complicated than you think. You only see a tenth of what is true. There are a million little strings attached to every choice you make; you can destroy your life every time you choose. But maybe you won't know for twenty years. And you'll never ever trace it to its source. And you only get one chance to play it out. Just try and figure out your own divorce. And they say there is no fate, but there is: it's what you create. Even though the world goes on for eons and eons, you are here for a fraction of a fraction of a second. Most of your time is spent being dead or not yet born. But while alive, you wait in vain, wasting years, for a phone call or a letter or a look from someone or something to make it all right. And it never comes or it seems to but doesn't really. And so you spend your time in vague regret or vaguer hope for something good to come along. Something to make you feel connected, to make you feel whole, to make you feel loved. And the truth is I feel so angry, and the truth is I feel so ******* sad, and the truth is I've felt so ******* hurt for so ******* long and for just as long I've been pretending I'm OK, just to get along, just for, I don't know why, maybe because no one wants to hear about my misery, because they have their own. Well, **** everybody. Amen.”
-Charlie Kaufman
For Andy Kaufman*

Ha ha, ha ha ha, ha, ha ha ha ha ha, ha ha ha
Ha ha ha ha ha ha, ha ha ha, ha, ha ha ha ha, ha
Ha, ha ha ha, ha ha ha ha ha, ha ha ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha, ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha, ha
Ha ha, ha ha ha, ha ha, ha ha ha ha ha, ha.
Guadalupe S P Sep 2019
Mi corazón tiene aliento a vida y sol
en los días cuando se repira calor
El céfiro por dentro refresca mi existir

Por fuera la luna, luna
está en resplandor

Hoy vuelve a morir Lorca
y el manto cubre a mas que una cara
en más de un país bajo esta misma luna
Vivimos

Hoy frente al monitor el deseo de dejar los barcos de Kaufman zarpar
existe profundamente en el mar de nuestra colectiva conciencia

En tu corazón existe aliento y una vida con una sol.  
El céfiro mueve barcos.
No importa si salle la luna, luna
Elijo a Lorca pues su muerte es sinónimo para mi del miedo,  de la división, del sentimiento de nacionalismo que brindó terror y muerte acceptable, de eso que nos hace pensar que la diferencia es cosa que naturalmente separa

Elijo eludir el poema de Kaufman “All those ships that never sailed” por ser una poeta de mi país natal que en este poema expresa el sentimiento de nostalgia de un tiempo/ de algo que ya se encuentra en el pasado. Mi objetivo fue escribir un poema que aborda y acepta lo que ocurre en el mundo mais ofrece un recordatorio de que cada uno de nos tenemos un clima interno cual podemos controlar dentro de esta “ noche” metafórica donde ha salido la luna y parece que la oscuridad nos  rodea. No hay que tener nostalgia  del pasado pues el futuro es nuestro para crear.
Johnny Noiπ Aug 2018
except Andy could keep a straight face
Guadalupe S P Sep 2019
My heart’s breath smells of  life and of sun
in the days when heat is inhaled
The zephyr inside refreshes my existence

Outside the moon, moon
is in glare

Today Lorca dies again
and the mantle covers more than one face
in more than one country
under this same moon
We live

Today in front of the monitor, the desire to have Kaufman's ships set sail
exists deeply in the sea of ​​our collective consciousness

In your heart exists a breath and a life with a sun.
The zephyr moves ships.  
It doesn't matter if the moon, moon rises
I chose Lorca because to me his death is synonymous to that which created the circumstances of his death. The fear that permeated the times, the sentiments of nationalism which made terror and death seem acceptable and the highlighting of our differences and making us think that these could separate and make it possible to otherize one another.
Tom Shields Jul 2020
I'm no comedian
I have never told a joke
when I die I want you looking for me
no impostors, no mirrors, no smoke
nobody happy to see me
no joy; you better jump at ghosts
you better be sure, I better be ash
I'm no foreign man, I feel just as important
when I am laying with dogs, as I would be with trash
there's no song and dance, I am a portent
a wormhole in the warm earth, wet dirt deterrent
merely a spec, with what grandeur in mind
indeed, to conceive the things I would design
I feel closest to dying when I'm laughing
my lungs, the lines in my face, restrict me even expressions
I feel farthest from the stage when I hear whooping and clapping
my past is all one melted blur of disgrace and transgressions
I feel decades beyond my own life away from home
and I would feel worlds away from you, even if I could feel your breath in the morning.
write
please read and enjoy
Delton Peele Jan 2021
You make me.....
Stop my life a..n..d....I
Forget  me
for a while
Which i guess is all right ......
But then again
Not really.
I pretend to be tough
And on the outside I play amused...
You dont make me............
Stay .
I choose .
In secret I dont
And I do
You dont....
I will
You wont
Care.
Unless i leave
Then you do
But I dont
You do
I cry.
Cause you dont
I D K W T F to do
Im so consumed
Life contusion
Stuck on stupid
Cupid changed up ta sticky rat trap paper
emotion in motion
Still........
Not movin
Confused
Burnt
Thought you were the one.....
You wernt
Currently caught up under your icy gaze
Your love is
A donny Darko maze
like an under water
House of mirrors
And each chamber .....
If you get there has a little pocket of poisonous perfumed air
This is the reason behind my glazed over stair
Dazed in a field of thirteen leaved clover
Grazed by the bullets
Residue proves
Came  from your revolver
You always wanna roleplay
I used to
Untill you introduced me to my permanent role
Its Termial
whips and chains Cold water and
shock collar
Big baller shot caller
You make me be Andy.........
Kaufman and
Your Jerry Lawler
Matter of fact
I take that back
Ther was a short stint when i played the part of one of Jerry's kids
Remember?
You played Jerry
.........
..Springer and left me there
Like lumpy from leave it to ******
Walking on eggshells covered by landmines
Sometimes im allowed to be
Tony....
Clifton
Then again you and I are never on the set at the same time
Fine
You play
I stay ...i..........
Hurt in so many ways
My souls bruised you never say "we"
Miss independent
You  say I.
Unless of course something offensive has been done
DuN dUn DuN
From
spring to spring
Dumb dumb
Lucky me
Im your Fall Guy
Jimmy silker Mar 29
I see Andy Kaufman has finally admitted he's not dead.
James Meany Apr 29
You can keep your Shelley's, Frost's and Eliot's
Your Tennysons and Chaucer’s too
You can even hold on to ole Willie
I'm sure you're certain I must be a fool
Sorry, but none of their beautiful poesy
Ever left its mark on me
I mean no disrespect
I just  don't connect
But do leave the wild ones, please!
Those whose every word screams
Turbulent wild and free
Free from shackles of confinement
Those who  shun government, god & sage
Who write whatever their fiery heart renders
Who really know how to make the pen rage
I have no time  for meticulously well written
And mathematically perfected rhyme
I crave to feast on fire & madness
As i ply my poor soul with wine
Lorca makes my blood boil
Pinero always leads  me to think
Micheline blows my mind
After Bukowski, I just need  a drink
Poe leaves me begging for more
Kerouac floods with me with wonder
Di Prima crushes me to bits
Plath breaks my heart, makes me cry
Carelessly tosses me  into the dark
Abandoned and screaming out why???
Kaufman sizzles my synapses
Corso torches my brain
Ginsberg provokes me to howl
Hirschman drives me insane
These, some of the poets & brave warriors
Who left only scorched earth in their wake
All the while wasting, nary a line
Outlaw Zen Master Poets
Out of whom shined
THE BEAUTY OF MIND!
Lola Sparks Jun 9


Book I – The Solitary Peak

In twilight’s hush, where moonlight weeps,
And silence climbs the cragged steeps,
A man once fled from world below—
Johnny Kaufman, gaunt and slow.
He sought a height where winds forget,
To shed his name, his deep regret.
The world had burned him, left him bare;
He sought no court, nor kin, nor prayer.

But each night brought a song so clear,
Not wind, nor bird, nor mortal ear.
A hymn in tongues long turned to dust—
Too old for memory, too pure for trust.
For three long nights, it graced the hill,
A siren’s call so soft, so still.
And Johnny, though his blood ran cold,
Felt drawn to what the dark thing told.

Yet courage failed his trembling hand;
His past was carved in shadowed sand.
So cowardice became his shield,
Yet still the song refused to yield.
Till one cursed night, deep in his dream,
The melody began to scream.
Not from the hills nor whispering trees—
It echoed through his walls with ease.

He woke—a gasp, a haunted breath,
The room alive with scent of death.
On creaking floor he crept once more,
Drawn to the closed and moaning door.
The song resumed, now rich and low,
A voice from neither friend nor foe.
And through the crack, with pounding chest,
He saw the form that broke his rest.

A man—or not—too tall, too bare,
With pallid flesh and silver hair.
It bowed its head as if in grace,
And sang into the night’s embrace.
But when John whispered, “Who goes there?”
It arched its back with soulless flair.
It bent and cracked with fluid dread—
A thing that should have stayed long dead.

Its neck, a rope of twisted bone,
Turned toward the crack with eyes full-grown.
And in that gaze, no mercy stood—
Just hunger masked in something good.

The song resumed, a velvet tide,
That seeped through marrow, deep inside.
And Johnny drifted, lost and wide,
In hues no waking mind could bide.

But peace gave way to piercing cries—
A scream to crack the blackened skies.
He fought the dream, he slammed the door,
He wept, he writhed upon the floor.
And as he fell to blackened sleep,
The song still clawed, relentless, deep.



Book II – Echoes in the Flesh

At dawn he woke—no pride, no thread,
His limbs like stone, his courage bled.
He lay among the ashes gray,
Unsure if night had gone away.
And ghosts returned in harrowed tide—
The priest, the rope, his brother’s cry.
The silence fed him memory’s flame,
Of justice lost, of swallowed shame.

Skyler—lost to noose and night,
Had begged for wrong to birth the right.
But money changed the course of sin,
And Johnny bore it all within.
A wound like his, too raw to hide,
Was branded deep and never dried.

So here he lived on mountain’s edge,
A soul impaled on silence’s wedge.
He smoked, he scribbled, fed the fire,
And tried to **** his own desire.
But dusk would draw the song again—
A lullaby for broken men.

He watched the stars, he watched the trees,
He prayed to gods that held no keys.
For answers—not to soothe the ache,
But just to know what one can take.
Each time the song returned to him,
It swelled with sorrow, dark and grim.



Book III– The Song Returns

He watched the dusk like fevered child.
He laid his traps, he fed his flame,
And gave his torch a secret name.
But when the thing returned at last,
It set the coop and chickens fast.

The sky turned red, the night grew deep,
The song began to boil and weep.
It dragged him to the spring below,
Where waters hissed and moonlight glowed.
And there it stood, all bone and grace,
Its song now slow—a ghost’s embrace.

They danced, they struck, they fell, they bled—
The living fought the walking dead.
He ran through brush and thorn and tree,
But still it hummed its litany.

A hymn for scars that would not fade,
For crimes the soul could not evade.
The beast, the priest, the flame, the name—
Were not apart, but all the same.

He screamed beneath the hollow sky,
And begged to know the reason why.



Book IV – The Dream Below

The moon had waned to sickled grin,
Its light grown thin as ghostly skin.
And Johnny, broken, bled, and bare,
Collapsed beneath the mountain’s stare.
He dreamed not sleep, but something deep—
A fall beyond the reach of sleep.

The soil gave way, the earth unspoke,
And from below, the granite broke.
He tumbled through a breathless chasm,
Where time collapsed in molten spasms.
A thousand faces, lost and gone,
Whispered truths the dead pass on.

He landed soft in waters black,
With stars above and sunless lack.
No shore, no sky, no sound of breeze—
Just pulsing light from rootless trees.
And in the depths, a voice began—
Not beast, nor priest, but hollow man.

“You seek the source?” the question came,
“A song that bears your father’s name?
You chase the hymn but flee the fire—
And bury truth beneath desire.”

Then Johnny stood, though none had bid—
In dream, the broken soul undid.
He walked on waves that did not part,
With ash and hymns inside his heart.
The realm below, both dread and grace,
Reflected him in every face.

He passed through doors of bone and vine,
Where gods of ruin drank black wine.
He saw his brother, pale and proud,
Behind a veil, beyond a shroud.
And Skyler said, “The song you fear
Was always yours, and always near.”

“The beast was forged from your regret.
The flame burns on, but not to forget.
You are the echo, not the prey—
You must descend to find your way.”

Then all went still. A single tone
Rose up from where the dream had grown.
And Johnny wept—not out of pain,
But from the gift within the strain.

He opened eyes to mountain night,
But nothing looked or felt quite right.
The torch was gone. The woods were vast.
And time had slipped into the past.
The song was gone—no voice, no sting.
Yet still his ears began to ring.



Epilogue – What Remains

So if you seek the mountain’s peak,
And find the stone where silence speaks,
Beware the voice inside your mind—
For not all echoes stay confined.

The man who walked beyond the veil,
Still lingers in the dreamlike pale.
He is the myth the lost still seek—
The song, the fire, the solitary peak.

— The End —