remember me not by name
but in memory

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Loneliness is like an ocean
it looks as if it could go on and on
you feel… frozen
like if you moved your skin would crack
Like if you shouted to the emptiness
It would yell back

Loneliness is like tinted glass
It looks as if everyone else sits in sunshine
While you’re in the pouring rain
Drenched in confusion and frustration
Like a broken umbrella useless
Against pouring pain

Loneliness is like... everything
Everything that exist



-- thanks for helping Jemimah --

A  day has 24hrs but I think about you more than 24times,
And what ever this attachment is,
It has locked me that I can never get out,
The only way to get out is in,
Look what you got me into,
Who are you to make me feel like just a minute with you is like the only oxygen molecule left in a gas camber to save a life,
So important,
I die a little more with each passing day,
Until again, get lost in your eyes,
Loving you breaks me, it over takes me, I fall so hard,
But am not willing to quit yet,


You are the secret I still can't reveal,
I waste my days enslaving myself to your ways,
You are just Hopelessly hooked on me like a drug,
Am a fool for your punishment,
I beg for more even if all am worth of is just ****,
Crazy me, huh!!
But I just can't stop the feeling,
I no longer have the control over my own breathe because I feel like it is wrapped in just your palm,
You only let me breathe only when you want to,
Lost in you, and I don't need anyone to look for me,


I twine with you, and its like playing with fire,
I let the flames burn me alive,
Leaving me marred, hurting  but I still take the pain as
Sacred, that makes me rise again,
Look how you made me feel for you,
this is not just ordinary love,
But,
What if you will never love me!
What if it is just a mind game to you,
Some trick,
Guess The grave will be happiest to receive you!
As I continue to stay living this life of lies,
Wake up in pain,
But will still be my own healer!!!


©Jemimah.

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