To answer your question,
Yes.
It never left me.
It sits patiently at the sidelines on sunny days.
It doesn't fight formy attention.
It doesn't book off days in my calender.
It smiles when I smile.
It laughs when I laugh.
It knows that all It has to do
Is wait for the overcast.
A ceiling of clouds closing in on me.
Day after day, the raindrops won't come.
Each grey morning looks a little darker than the last.
Until, atlast:
The first tear hits the ground.
And It is there, immediately.
Offering escape.
At first, I'll refuse.
"Never again."
I meant what I said.
I will not break my promise.
But as the hours go by,
It becomes more obvious.
The rain does not want to let up.
And there It is,
Reminding me of Its offer of solution.
It promises that Its affections are just as strong as always.
I want to pull away,
But I can't deny the safeness that calls to me,
Awaiting beneath the umbrella.
The calmness I feel spreading from the burn where It grips my skin.
The storm passes,
Leaving nothing but a colourful mess to clean up.
I don't expect you to understand.
But then again,
I don't expect you to find out.
"Never again."
I'd meant what I said.
But it's so easy to think that It will never hurt you.
Not the way It hurts me when all I have is loneliness for company.
So, to answer your question,
Yes.
And if you ever bothered to check, you'd see.
It forever waits on my company.
It laughs when I laugh.
It cries when I cry.
But maybe It would give up and leave,
If you too never left my side.
